Deepest darkest secrets thread. Let me hear 'em

Deepest darkest secrets thread. Let me hear 'em

I had sex with my cousin and this is the first time Im telling this shit

I wanna make me a coat made 100% with human foreskin.

i accidentally my 8yo sister

I am a fag who jerks off to torture. dream about fucking and my uncle and my grandfather and i might be a sociopath

One time the pen I was using at the bank wasn't chained to the table do I took it home with me.

you such a monster I fucking can't believe what kind of society we just became

I'm a fag who jerks off to torture videos,i dream about fucking my uncle and i might be a sociopath..

It's not a dream.
Find Jesus.

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I ducked her right in the pussy

Went down on both of my older sisters when we were younger after we saw it in one of my fathers "magazines". Took my best friends little sisters virgin-gin. That was a wild one. I made out with an older woman recently in a taco bell parking lot. College towns, man. They're a hell of a drug.

Sweet, any follow up to that?

I want to beat the fuck out of my roommate because he's a big fat fucking slothful sociopath who currently coerces and extorts me while knowing I have nowhere else to go but to the streets as a homeless person. This guy seldom cleans anything around our place, never cooks, never does anything productive, has the better room with better air conditioning, borrows money from myself and others mostly without ever paying any of it back. He always texts me about buying and/or cooking food for this fat fuck. I just wish I knew someone friendly enough where I live who would take me in and help me escape this bullshit, but alas most of the people that surround me are apathetic sociopaths. I currently have zero hopes of being free. Housing's just waaay too expensive for me to find a place. Most places even want 2-3 month's rent in advance, and I can't ever even save because I make minimum wage and live pay check to pay check. My life sucks, and I dream of beating the shit out of him and driving his new car he currently pays for [even though it has full coverage] into a lake or something... along with all of his precious possessions... and even him! I know not to do any of this though because it simply won't end well for me. It'll take me down a very chaotic dark rabbit hole in life that I'll never be able to escape from [i.e.: Prison]. I'll bet prison's actually worse than my current experience too, because even the guards there are likely psycho/sociopaths. That's likely why no convicts ever reform. They get trapped in a vicious loop of abuse in there with no way out while the free apathetic sociopaths we call "the people" can give a fuck less and simply assume "they deserve it"... If they ever even think about prisoners [0.0000000000000000000000000000000000000000000001% chance of that ever being the case, I'm sure].

I'm in my late 30s, son to a convicted felon, and sexually abused from the time I was 6 until about 9.
All my life, I've repressed the notion that I could do intense harm to someone and not be bothered by it. I've still done some awful things, it comes out sexually. Torture and humiliation, blackmail, forced sex, drugging. I've considered all of that with my wife. I don't have any remorse about it either. I think the only way I could be happy with her is if I were to take her down a dark road and break her mentally until she becomes nothing but a hole for anything I want to put in her. My dick, others dicks, womens tongues, objects of varying size. I just want her to be my sex toy.
The sad thing is, like many men with these desires, once I masturbate and cum, I don't have these desires anymore. I feel no shame about it, but I just don't want it anymore. I have no qualms with incest either, a fact that I've put in to practice more than once.

she must be one crazy bitch to marry a fucking psycho like you

ITT you realize that you're a normalfag

cousin incest is the most common form of incest, and a LOT!!! of people do it all over the globe. just don't have kids and make sure it's consensual.

When I was 8 I had two sisters as neigbours one 6 one 9, When we started hanging out the older one always got a bit frisky, After while she used to get her dad's porno mags and get the younger sister to do shit to me,

Think the Dad used to abuse them not 100% sure.

About 15 years later I'm at the local pub near me and the eldest sister spots me and starts chatting to me her dog (We apopted there dog as her dad used to abuse it) even though her fella was next to her she was really coming on to me, Was very fucking weird it was clear she remember everything from when we where young as she kept dropping hints.

She doesn't know the depths of my depravity. Like I said, I keep it repressed. I'm thinking of divorcing her, simply because some part of me wants to get away before I act upon it.

Maybe he knew and was into it?

I miss her.

Possibly I knew him tbh and was surprised she was his partner.

It was very fucked up because her Dad used to be downstairs drunk. Infact thinking about it I'm surprised I'm not a complete and utter fucking mess or that it's not had a massive effect on me.

I masturbate while thinking of my aunt.

You said you were abused, how? Like sexually how? Was it like very violent and hurt a lot or was it just creepy and weird?

Abused by my female baby sitter. She would wait until my mother left on a date with my step dad, which was several times a week, get undressed and undress me. She would have me suck her nipples, lick her pussy. After a while, she'd bring her boyfriend over to watch me do it. She'd then make me watch them have sex. Later on, I just thought that was what I was supposed to do whenever I had a babysitter. I had two different babysitters after that. One was teenaged boy, he pulled his pants down and made me go down on him. I didn't argue because I thought that was just what you do. My next female baby sitter, when she put me down for the night and laid next to me, I crawled down to her crotch, unbuttoned her jeans and started licking. She didn't stop me.

When did you realize that it wasnt normal?

>be 14 years old me
>in the boarding shools
>woke up in the middle of the night around 3am
>stomach hurt real bad
>toilet is very far
>afraid to go alone
>insist not to wake roomate
>don't wanna show my pussy side to them
>shit on the drain next to room instead

I was abused all my childhood, and now because of it I want nothing more than to hurt someone, but I enjoy hurting myself the most, or being hurt by someone. It's an irony really that I'd end up like this, and it's not something I'm proud of... but it is what it is.

did you ever tell your parents? if so, did they believe you? I know I called you a psycho earlier but now I kinda feel sorry for you not gonna lie. I just hope you won't hurt others.

Not sure if I ever had an epiphany or a great realization. When I got into my tween age, I had a female friend who must have been similar because at 12 she loved it when we played spin the bottle, which led to me eventually going down on her quite often. It wasn't until my late teens, early 20's that I looked back and realized that things shouldn't have been that way. But it was also about the time my sexual creativity started kicking in, and my desires started growing ever more perverted.

Stay strong user.

I didn't tell my mother until just a few years ago, when she told me there was a registered sex offender living a few doors down from her, and I told her I didn't want my son playing in her area so long as he's there. She tried to argue that he'd be safe and I told her I was abused, and that I won't let my son ever be at risk for that. She didn't believe me.
I guess I never told them, because at the time, I didn't think there was anything wrong with it. During my young adult years, I tried to tell myself I had coped with it and it hadn't effected me.
It's too late to save me, but my children will not suffer the same fate.

you may have perverted fantasies or desires, but you really sound like a good parent, and kudos for that.

That's the part that messes you up the most. No one believes you and you're raised to think it's normal. You're not wrong to be overprotective of your child. There's not nearly enough being done to stop predators and abusers and they know this, they take advantage of this.

Yeah, actually. The "incest" continued for about another year. My little child pecker was about the size of a baby carrot so there wasn't any fucking. Just hands and kissing. I have a great relationship with them still and I'm 22 now. My friends sister kept that bit going for about 2 months until she found an actual boyfriend. I brought the taco bell woman back to my apartment. Nice lady. Great body for having had kids. Has 2 kids and is married. Funny story: I broke my wrist playing rugby a little while after that and had to be taken to the hospital. She was the nurse that took me back for surgery.

More secrets: I am into beasteality (I prefer horses). I find the look of an erect dick to be absolutely mezmerizing. Not gay though. Strange. I thoroughly enjoy sounding. I have thoughts of killing. I steal. Alot. I am able to control all these urges pretty well though. I'm 80% sure it all stems from finding my fathers hanging dead body in his bedroom one morning when I was in 5th grade. Another fun fact: This is the first time I have been on Sup Forums in about 4 years.

i pee sitting down niggers

lol

They say child sexual abuse continues from one generation to the next. I'm determined to break the cycle. There is some good in me I think, at least by that nature.
I think I need to divorce my wife and find a woman that wants the same things I do.

I was once caught masturbating in a bathroom on a Polish military base by a couple of their soldiers because I forgot to lock the stall door.

Trap here. About a year into my transition my dad started having feelings of attraction for me, one thing led to another, and now we're fucking around on the reg. My mom and two brothers don't know about us, and I know if they find out it will destroy this family, but I can't stop because I'm in love with my dad and he's very good to me. I never feel more loved or more like a cis girl than when he's spending personal time with me, and penetrating me. I don't know what to do and I'm thinking about an hero, but I don't want to die. I'm so tired of crying about this every single night...

You need to get help

Ive been really wanting to fuck my sister in-law for the past few years now. I know that she will not allow me so Ill need to drug her or something. Other than that, Ive settled for fucking her clean panties and cumming on her other stuff.

aaaaaand the cherry on top (I keep remembering fucked up shit lol). Still slightly attracted to my sisters. The oldest definitely still thinks about it. I think my middle sister has forgotten completely but that's the best part. She is a model. An actual high fashion model. You know what that means? Topless shots every now and then. Can literally find topless pics of my sister on google. I jerk it to that shit like once a month. Takes a special kind of mood to do it.

Trust me man it's better to just try and keep those carnal desires to yourself because the chances of finding another person like you are slim to none.

Although I've not had the same experiences you have had the older you get the harder it is to find someone who is completely compatible with you.

Like some wise fucker once said "marriage is about finding someone that you can just about tolerate."

I've come to realize that when I try, I can be a master manipulator. I've done some acting, both on stage and screen, but I honestly think I'm wasting that talent. I have zero qualms with hurting or even taking someones life, I can blend in with any group of people and make friends and earn trust fast, and I can manipulate conversations and people to do what I want. So far I've used those skills mostly to get what I want sexually (it probably won't surprise you to know I've cheated many many times), but I have to wonder if I could use those skills in some way as a job.

...and then what?

>i find the sight of an erect dick to be absolutely mesmerising
>no homo tho

When I was like 14, late at night (multiple times) I stole all the money from this shitty place I worked at.

I had to have made like $10k this way.

Are you by any means black?

Not at all.

I know that. Tried. Didn't work for shit. I am doing much better coping with it myself. I promise. It's a really weird feeling knowing that you're fucked in the head. Current GF is fucked too. Makes it easier. I'm just a slightly crazy engineering student. It's whatever. If ya'll got any questions, fire away.

i think im in love with u !

M8 we both got the same dubs. We shall now be eternal bros riding each other into battle

There are websites now that seem to cater to people who have sexual desires such as mine. I'm just a broken person, and I think I need to find someone who is as broken, as much or in the same way that I am.

The thought of giving it to a man or taking it from a man turns me off completely but there's just something about a dick. Not sure.

Black/Latino mixed? Latino? Etc.?

I was sexually molested by my mother.
When I was about 6-7 years old, she would dry hump me. Me being at the bottom with my uncut penis and her squatting over with her panty-covered pussy. I dont remember ejaculating but I remember that my penis was hard. She did this several times and the last few times, she would shove her panties side-ways and let our genitals touch. No fucking at all, its just my penis and her hairy pussy sliding. This is why, I now have a MILF, Shota, panties, dry-hump fetish.
mom died when I was 8

Nope. White dude.

There are user but the best thing to do is try to keep the best of both worlds, if you have the ability to completely disregard your conscience you should be able to keep this up and even if you get caught, it's not biggie cause all that will happen is that your wife will up sticks and leave.

I have my own issues that have made me who I am but because I'm responsible for a life other than my own I have to tread carefully.

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My response is pretty late so I apologize, but yes it's true that abuse is like a chain. It often does carry on through generations... and often the abusers were the ones abused. It's very tempting to use other people in order to vent your frustrations.

...and then i wipe myself n went back to sleep. The next morning everyone going crazy after they discover human shit in the drain. And i was standing there like "hmmm whos shit might this be"

Run away, start fresh and go to therapy for your daddy issues

how did she die? did you ever tell anyone what you did together? did you feel like it impacted you in a negative way/ruined you?

Oh god OP I'm sorry about that, that's horrible. Just know that it's not your fault and that she wasn't much of a mother for doing that to you anyways. I just hope you were able to get help or some form of justice somehow... society isn't exactly kind to male rape victims...

I fuck random ugly fat chicks until they get pregnant and i dissapear from their lives...
i always tell them fake names and i show them my "houses" but never take them inside

6 months ago. Still miss her.

that's hilarious

I post on Sup Forums once a year about this, as a kind of therapy or something I guess...

I'm a real life male sex slave. I was picked up and groomed when I was 14, and I have been ever since... No one I know, or have ever known, really knows about this.

No I can not just "run away" and that is just silly... It obviously doesn't work like that.

I live with my owner who is also here, and can answer questions should there be any.

This will be my post for the year.

*blush* Not sure why, I'm awful.

I have quite a few friends, who are these really great amazing people. People I wish I could be. They think I'm a good person, and I've never manipulated them or tried to pervert our friendship. But I feel I don't deserve them, and I definitely am thankful for them. They honestly think I'm a good guy, if not somewhat grumpy. They don't know deep inside the terrible things I want to do. The things I know I'm capable of. I sometimes fear I'll turn them away by slipping in to the real me.

I get what you're saying. You really nailed it, I can totally disregard my conscience when I choose to. The problem is the sex between my wife and I doesn't fulfill me, and I've caught myself trying to get what I want from her.

so you prolly have a bunch of aborted kids, good for ya

I don't think boobs are sexy.

I fap into the sink

tell her you want to have a daughter so you can fuck that daughter

if she really loves you she'll understand

ive done it to 7 fat bitches, 5 of them kept them because they are very religious...and desperate for dick

Living the dream

I completely understand you, I've had the wife in tears once or twice when I've tried to raise it to a level where I'm sexually satisfied, part of me feels shit for making her feel like that, the other half just feels empty because I'm not getting what I want.

What's worse is now I struggle to sustain an erection when I'm with her, I have to think about someone/thing else to maintain it and then kind of work within the parameters that I have.

I never comment on here but I genuinely empathise with your situation. That shit literally haunts you. Similar stuff happened to me (3,7, 14, and when I was 18 cab driver raped me when I was drunk) and its immensely difficult to carry that shit and feel normal. I don't have a violent bone in my body, I think and hope - but normal everyday thoughts and relationships are difficult as its almost like there's a dark filter between me and the world. Probably talking to someone professional would help but idk.

does it turn you on that you have kids that you give zero shits about? is that a fetish of some kind?

I refrain from relationships because I'm a single father raising my daughter by myself. That being said, I like watching girls fuck and blow animals. I also like watching girls get gangbanged. I've always wanted a relationship with someone that would do obscene sexual activities with me. I like pissing on girls, I like to tie them up and abuse them a bit. I also fantasize about killing paedophiles for fun. I don't abuse my daughter and I'm generally regarded as a good parent. I've only exposed my dark fantasies to one girl once, and she wound up being into the same stuff, never got together though because she's married. I'm forever alone with my sick fantasies. Fml.

cuz thats what ive been fascinated with ..... i know how u feel cuz im the same way ..... ive looked but never found and the ones closest to me dont know how manipulated they have been untill its too late !

It makes my dick go beyond the hardness of diamonds...Pure bliss

This is a completely irrelevant line of code in every Sup Forums thread - ""Sup Forums - Random" is the birthplace of Anonymous, and where people go to discuss random topics and create memes on Sup Forums."" like even the devs are faggots here

What's the relationship/dynamic between you both?

U what m8

not really dead but she has been missing since then. have not told anyone. maybe if she had been there until highschool I might have chosen a better path? other than that, I have the fetish. IE: milf, dryhump, lingerie

>I refrain from relationships because I'm a single father raising my daughter by myself.
Why should that be an issue

I have a daughter. I'm somewhat afraid I'll subconsciously mold her in to having some sexual desire for me when she gets older. When I masturbate, I've pondered if she'll be beautiful and if I'll be attracted to her. But I'm determined not to let that happen to her.

Same here. I think about her sisters, or I have to envision some incredibly kinky thing I want to do to her.

Yes. The filter skews everything. I've had many female friends over the years, and it seems I've almost always have tested the water by bringing up sex in some way. I know some of them have distanced themselves because of it, others outright cut me loose.

I can't stop taking opiates and benzos. I have no emotion or desire to do anything unless I'm high. I've withdrawn and tapered off dozens of times and then immediately push the few people in my life out, then have to go back to getting high to save relationships, jobs etc. The reason this is a secret is that everyone thinks I'm sober now but I'm just railing opana and somehow they can't tell the difference

Is that even possible? I find it hard to believe if you're able to access 4 chan. I don't even think that's legal...but I do hope you can find a way to leave that situation... don't give up hope.

Why resist, user? You could be fucking her even now. Do you really want to look back on this day and regret that you weren't going balls deep in your daughter? I don't think you do. I truly... do not think... that you do, user.

Incest with younger brother a few years ago

Thankfully my wife's sisters are disgusting so I don't go there. However because I'm relatively well off and halfway decent looking, my weakness is teen girls, legal obviously.

Just being able to know that I am more experienced than them and can mould them to suit my desires and then cast them aside when I'm bored is what gets me off the most. It's just so easy.

i need csgo, can someone gift it?

My sexual translation of the abuse or way of dealing with it or whatever is almost like welcoming or seeking more of it. Punishment? Idk but in that way I'm not like you. Very self-sacrificial and submissive. And I do believe I'm genuinely a good person - philosophy has been a huge help to me.

He is my owner.

He prefers I call him Daddy.

He takes care of all of my expenses and financial needs, I do whatever he says however he says whenever he says.

If I'm insubordinate, there are consequences for my actions. My behavior dictates how I am treated. This may be being left in the basement for a few weeks, or gangbanged until I know my place... However long that may take. Either way, if I'm good I am treated well. If I am not, then I am not treated well. He is just in his actions.

I don't really know if this is a dark secret or anything but it's something I've never told anybody because I don't think I could seriously tell anyone because of how ridiculous it sounds.

Anyways... When I was a kid (7 or 8) I kind of had a school yard girlfriend you know how it is. Anyways my cousin told my family and they did the whole grilling thing. Anyways, since then I've always been an awkward fuck about finding a girlfriend or getting laid etc. I accept the fact that I'm not in shape and not the best looking but I'm quite a confidant guy in other areas. I can talk, hold down conversations tp guys and nice looking girls etc but the idea of telling my parents I'm in a relationship or actively looking for one makes me so anxious it's terrible.

I'm also too much of a pussy to put my face on any kind of dating website.


>21 y/o kissless virgin

Because girls don't like that I have this much responsibility. Every time I would date someone they would dump me as soon as they found out I was a single father. So I just don't do it anymore. It's an abnormally shitty feeling getting dumped because you have kids. Literally no one wants to deal with it.

I fap to scat porn every god damned day..