I'm schizophrenic

I'm schizophrenic
AMA

How can you explain ball lightning?

how did you first find out/notice?

does it feel bad

Circumstances of diagnosis?

What meds?

Some scientific groups, including the Max Planck Institute, have reportedly produced a ball lightning-type effect by discharging a high-voltage capacitor in a tank of water.

when i nearly killed myself because i heard my mind scream die

sometimes

How to make a pbj?

i was forced by my parents to go to a psychiatrist because of severe sleep deprivation
no meds, dont trust em

you take 2 pieces of bread and smear peanut butter on 1 and jelly on the other, then you put the two smeared sides on top of each other

why don't you trust them? have you tried them?

Age
How long you've suffered from it
Do the meds really work
What kind of schizophrenia
How are you relationships with people
How are you feeling right now
Name some "crazy" stuff you've seen/heard/done
Whats it like off your meds? How long do they take to take/ lose effect
Whats some insights you have for us?

i have, it was better but i didnt feel natural

>Don't trust them.

Whelp, you should probably get your friend to buy you a gun - just to be safe.

Elaborate please

how do you experience your schizophrenia? any other mental illnesses?

18
5 years
yes
residual type
good
numb
i once saw a dancing bottle of coke on top of a roof
im off my meds right now, i feel emotionless and i see stuff fly by sometimes
without the law we would be no better than animals

kek

well i was on the bike cycling to school when suddenly i felt this enormous pressure on me, everything turned blueish and i kept thinking "die, die, die" and i snapped out of it when i was nearly under a car

i feel emotionally numb 24/7, i see stuff fly by sometimes, when i look at the sky i see white balls flying around (hundreds of them). and i sometimes hear my mind urging me to kill myself/others. I also feel like everyones out to get me and dont trust anyone

i like you op

thanks

you sound like an edge lord

everyone's out to get you but your relationships with people are good?

ive learned to act normal

In retrospect were there signs that you ignored ir was it a sudden change like a switch was flipped?

does it ever feel good, or are you ever happy about being schizophrenic

kek
i know

do you feel constantly anxious, or sad, or is it a happy, normal feeling?

i ignored everything at first
but looking back i think it started at 13

Do you have a libidinous aspect to your life?

im never really bored since i can just look at the sky and trip balls

I'm willing to bet 100$ that op is same fagging ironically

how are you both today?

i dont really feel anything except when i get extremely angry/sad (which is like once a month)

ye mang i love me some dank pusi

...

kek, look at posters at the bottom of the page

thats DID

any interesting stories?

not really, sorry
read above for the story about when i nearly killed myself

What are the side effects of meds
Do you think you could function without it if you got your life in order
what types of things are different on and off meds
What types of things do you think only a schizo would understand
What was some of the earliest things you noticed later was schizophrenia in hindsight, but you thought it was perfectly normal

what are your aspirations for the future?

feeling worse when they stop working
im not on meds for about a year now
well on meds i dont hallucinate, i feel and i dont speak to myself
the feeling of not feeling
talking to myself in my head/seeing white balls flying around

i want to study physics and computer sciences and get a good job at like google or something

>well on meds i dont hallucinate, i feel and i dont speak to myself
that sounds much more natural than without meds. why do you prefer not taking meds?

man i dont know, im fucking schizo, i have delusions

I go to McD.
Do you guys want something?
I don't want to share my fries

who is writing this?

can i have a dubble cheeseburger please

i am

Plain?

with ketchup and pickles please

do you consider taking them again?

yeah, but i think i wont untill i get worse again

are you schizophrenic?

can you still work?
or do you get disability schizo bux?

are you able to work a job, do you have a job?

Who should we address questions to? Will the voices respond to external stimuli?

Do you think the movie "A beautiful mind" is accurate?

Also, who is your favorite actor?

nah i can still work

What meds are you on schizobro? 4mg of latuda, 75mg of zoloft, 100mg of lamictal, and 3mg of xanax daily here.

im a NEET atm, but i can work

the voices are me

haven't seen it, definitely will tho
my favorite actor is RJD because of his diversity in roles, he can act like anyone

do you consider working? if so what would you like to do?

im on no meds right now, dont trust them
but damn thats a lot of meds

i would like a job programming or in RND in a big company, need to finish my studies first tho
(in hindsight im not a NEET because i am educated)

Could you describe more acurately those white balls?

Good for you man, I'm getting there. I've been on bouts of no meds. Processing the voices is the hardest part for me. Everyday when I would wake up it felt like I was in a high school auditorium full of people scream all at once. The occasional visual was easier to dismiss.

are you sure? Because I am pretty sure I am writing this

ITT:
>faggot who pretends he is a psychopathic edgelord who could snap at any moment
>newfags who believe him

kill yourself, cunt

what kind of delusions did you have? do you still believe in some of them?

they are stark white (literally no color) and leave a trail of rainbow colors (like an oil puddle) they move randomly and fast as fuck

im lucky i dont hear any voices 70% of the time

ITT:
>someone with schizophrenia asks people to AMA
>newfag edgelord thinks he knows everyone on the internet
>doesnt realise that everything OP is saying correlates with schizophrenia symptoms

kill yourself, cunt

i used to think something was going to kill me if i turned off the light next to my bed
i dont trust anyone
thats the ones i know about

I think I might be schizophrenic. How / when did you discover that you were schizophrenic?

Why are you shizos always such fucking psychopathic assholes?
You act like you own the world, although you are fucking pathetic.

My roommate is a shizo and he is annoying as fuck. Hopefully he kills himself soon. You should do it too.

what do you mean exactly with you don't trust anybody? how does this influence your social interactions?

well i discovered it gradually
you should see a psychiatrist

No, you aren't.

nice stereotyping there friend

that doesn't sound like fun.

I'm not religious, but when I get off my meds and psychotic, I at least get to be God or the Messiah or something like that, and think angels or spirits talk to me in my head, and I go on fun adventures to save humankind as the chosen one and shit like that, shit always gets out of hand and police gets involved though, still, at least no ones out there to hurt me

>Why are you shizos always such fucking psychopathic assholes?
>Hopefully he kills himself soon
idk about schizos but why are you such a fucking psychopathic asshole?

It's not a stereo type. Schizos are aggressive.

ITT:
>faggot who thinks that all liars are just incompetent morons who can't possibly know anything about what they're lying about

kill yourself, nigger

well i dont tell anyone anything personal, i only stick to the group of people i know and (not entirely) trust

I'm friendly as fuck, but schizos are annyoing as hell.

It's the nature of the beast man, I'm sorry. Not OP, other heavily medicated schizo. Some days you KNOW you're lower than pond scum. Other days you KNOW you are the fucking shit and nothing can touch you. Manic/depressive cycles are not uncommon.

im not

guys, im off
ill maybe make a thread tonight

>I'm friendly as fuck
doubt it.
oh, i can relate to that. i'm not even schizo, just didn't learn how to do emotional closeness and stuff.

You know whats really annoying? Having a brain that works like a half broken radio that only play depressing shit and talks that roast you all day at best, at worst try to convince you that the guy in the dressing room next to you is with the FBI or the state police or the CIA or or or... fuck it doesn't matter what matters is that you can hear him talking and getting ready to kick down that door to shoot you in the fucking face; while your girlfriend is outside asking where you want to get dinner and you're not really sure if dinner is a trap or not.

>doubt it.
Why? Because of some shit I wrote on a taiwanese stamp collector forum? LOL

Man, every sane person knows that schizophrenia doesn't exist. Get over it, the western world is a dictuature which works with help of conditioning. Say the truth, get called mentally ill. Of course there are people like the bohemian grove which are really schizophrenic because they praying to an owl or jews but it'S everything very unimpressing. Unimpressing.

nvm im back

topkek
haven't seen that one in ages

man, i dont trust people on a whole new level, i always think people are going to report everything i say to the fbi or some shit