Man in his 30's here

man in his 30's here.

i used to do gay shit with my mother's live in boyfriend for gifts and money and other stuff. thought i was gay for a long time.

ask me anything.

picture kind of relations.

what kind of stuff would you do? suck dick?

nigga u gay

Underrated coment its underrated

yeah. suck his dick. let him rub his dick in my ass. put it in. like i said. gay shit.

not really. i just did a lot of gay shit. i like women though.

bitch suck a fuck

Come on op just fucking tell us

i already did. suck his dick. he'd rub his dick along the crack of my ass. eventually let him put it in. it hurt but i used to get video games out of it. some video games actually make me remember it. like if i see it online in a youtube video or it comes up in conversation.

is boys having sex with relatives, or sort-of relatives as in your case, common? I suspect it is with all the strange behavior around people reporting on it and they way people IRL talk about it

Idk man thats weird. At what point you stopped and realized someting?

i dont know if its common. but it probably happens a lot from what i have read. its like 1 out of 4 girls and 1 out of 5 boys. but i also read boys dont say anything or report it. so it makes sense it probably happens more to males.

i stopped when i was in high school and got a girlfriend. never sucked a dick again. but some of it kind of remains. like when i see a porn movie and the girl is sucking a guys dick like i want to do it. but i dont find men attractive or boys.

how old were you little faggot?

when it started like 11. almost 12. till i was in 9th grade. 14.

Do you have any negative feelings toward the whole deal

You got fucking ripped off man, a shitty video game for getting your ass rammed or giving him a gobbie?

someone said i should but when i look back i didnt really care. like if there was something i wanted id just go up to him and ask and i knew he would buy it for me. then when he would ask me to do suck his dick or do something else id just do it and like later he'd buy me what i wanted or give me money. i was young but i kinda knew how it worked so i just kept doing it.

i got a super nintendo and many video games out of it. like if i saw commercial for a game and i wanted it i knew i could get it. i actually had a lot of video games growing up. more than all my friends combined.

I think im begening to understand
Its weird still how you decided to vent it here. That being said have you ever told anyone about it?

you said you got video games out of it. which games?

also, how loose is your anus now?

user, i recently remembered when i was 7 years old boys in my class started showing dicks to eachother beneath the tables. somehow i ended up in the bathroom with another boy.. all i remember is me not wanting to sick his.. he was already undressed i believe. on other occasions boys told me they used to kiss their friends from where they moved from. and then he would proceed to kiss me, i never wanted him to do this and i didn't know how to react back then.

>boys dont say anything or report it
how are stats like this gathered? I feel like this would offer some insight into the situation. maybe

no i never told anyone about it. i always found it embarrasing. like if my friends knew or found out i knew i would be embarrased.

that's me and i havn't told anyone since i turned 22, i recently told a friend of mine. it appears boys are worse at communicating than women

super contra. axelay. street fighter 2. starfox. clay fighter. sonic the hedgehog 2 and 3. sonic and knuckles. mario kart. actraiser. the racing game with the FX chip. I cant remember its name. etc.

also, my anus is fine.

>worse at communicating than women
women can't stop talking so it's hardly to their credit. more like an incidental happening.

Alright. But what about the ocacional desire when you where young. ? Have you eved had that?

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he used to suck my dick sometimes after or before i sucked his. if i am to be honest. i did like that. blowjobs feel good. you know what i mean?

This its why i mostly lurk. We cant have a serious conversation.

op here. i dont know how that data is gathered. its just something i read once online. i dont know how they come up with those numbers.

I think i do. My dick has never felt better in any other mounth its has ever been on his. It does feel good the whole feel.

so.. how did it even start?

did you just go up to him and say "I'll suck your dick if you buy me this game"? or how did it work?

you're gay?

he used to let me watch R rated movies and adult movies when my mother wasnt home. taught me how to masturbate once which felt weird to be honest. like when he grabbed my dick and he was doing it it felt weird. and after i came it felt even weirder. but like after it happened more times it felt less and less weird and he started buying me things or giving me money. and he'd just say not to tell my mom he gave me money but he never told me not to say anything about the sexual stuff.

What's it like being fucked in the ass faggot?

painful.

Did you grow to like it?

i wouldnt say i liked it. it just got easier to do.

How would he usually fuck you?

How often would he ask you to do this stuff?

like fetal position but bent over. then id feel his cum and it was over. it was actually pretty quick. like it wouldn't go on for a long time. at least thats how i remember it. i never kept track of time.

i dont know. like once a week? like if he gave me money or bought me something i knew it was gonna happen. and then it would happen but not always the same day. like if my mom went out somewhere and we were alone an he had given me money or bought me it would happen.

Did you like the guy? Are you still on speaking terms?

yeah i liked him but i was not attracted to him. i just thought he was nice cause he'd buy me shit.

i havent talked to him since my mother broke up with him though. but i could find him if i wanted to. it would just be really fucking awkward though.

You said you'd never told anyone. Why do you feel the need to talk about it now?

you should find him and fuck him in his ass ask him if he likes it

so you were a child prostitute for Nintendo cartridges?

mostly boredom. but its also something i cant just talk about with anyone. most people would probably think im either gay or weird cause i kept doing it for so long. or say im a victim or something. i dont know. i dont have a specific reason.

that actually made me laugh.

>so you were a child prostitute for Nintendo cartridges?

SNES, not NES. also some genesis games and money sometimes. mostly 20 dollar bills to go to the arcade or buy something stupid.

did he ever cum in your mouth?

ever swallow his cum?

yes. both questions.

Could it be you're just starting to realize you might be a victim - or think you were being used then - and it sorta bothers you?

i dont think so. im not angry or anything. im just sitting here and the thought came about. figure id start a thread about it. i think its something weird that happens and people dont talk about in life face to face for obvious reasons.

is life good? I always hear that people who have been sexuality abused end up being meth heads

It never fucked you up? You have a gf and happy with life in general?

my life is normal. i dont have any addictions and never picked up drugs. maybe im the exception.

im happily married with a good life. i have no complaints.

... Me too except I didn't get anything out of it, but I also never thought much of it.

Get any good games?

donkey kong country was probably the best one i ever got. also super punch out. i loved that one too. the snes had the best sound back then.

what was swallowing semen like the first time?

did he ask you to do it or did you do it on your own?

did you get something for it?

>what was swallowing semen like the first time?

like eating a big and warm salty loogie that gets kind of stuck in your throat as you swallow.

>did he ask you to do it or did you do it on your own?

i was asked to do it.

>did you get something for it?

money. but i had gotten it before.

Do you think it was because you just didn't have that big a concept on being screwed so you don't really have negative feelings about it? The only reason I think someone would remember is simply because it is pretty weird.

Are the actually traumatized kids simply more aggressively forced?

>Are the actually traumatized kids simply more aggressively forced?

i dont know. i can only see things from my perspective. i guess if i would have been forced to do it and not gotten anything in return i would have probably been traumatized by it. that would make sense as to why other people react different.

... Got anything other then games, and cash?

dick

Any other kids involved? Friends, neighbors? Did you have sleepovers at your house?

expensive reebok pumps.

no sleep overs or anyone else. though a lot of my friends would come over to play games. but they wouldnt stay.

Aw for real!? I wish I could have gotten some sweet kicks back then, but maybe I wouldn't have had the same fashion sense that I do now.

Got any good music recommendations? (Kinda out of topic related questions)

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Michael Jackson was not a pedophile. Those accusations stemmed from him not obeying the powers that be who raped him when he was a boy.

>Got any good music recommendations?

i know nothing of modern pop music. it all sounds very computerish. i used to listen to vanilla ice back then. lol

blame it on the ninja turtles movie.

You were a victim but that's no reason to layer yourself in a victim mentality. You obviously own that shit and came out as what is seemingly a regular person.

He was into shota, pretty messed up individual. Dont think he ever penetrated those kids though

yeah i think im pretty normal. i dont even like boys or anything like that. which is kind of weird i guess considering all the shit i did.

Did he ever cum in your ass?

Oh, np though I like some stuff as old as fleetwood mac, and the chordettes although they aren't at the top of my list. I listen to a fair bit of anything.

You are not gay. You were just a whore as a kid. Used to know a bunch of guys in my neighborhood who did that.

>I like some stuff as old as fleetwood mac, and the chordettes
how old are you?

yes. i have a very vivid memory of one time getting in the shower after and feeling cum running down the inside of my leg.

i grew up with my mother's music. which was mostly 80s. like michael jackson and the cure and technotronic. pretty much anything that was popular in the 80s and early 90s. but i do like some fleetwood mac.

>Used to know a bunch of guys in my neighborhood who did that.

thats interesting. i never thought my situation was that common. thanks for letting me know that.

Mystery

Yeah my mom got me into it, when I discovered bands like Tiny Town, and Craft spells she was reminded of FM.

Did you never liked girls?

Why did you think you were gay?

Yeah, man. Jokes aside of being a kid whore (which you were) It's part of the natural exploration of your sexuality. Curiosity is a weird bitch indeed.

You never played naked with other kids? like, when you were 4-5, 'you show me your wee wee and I'll show you mine' well, it's the same thing, you just channeled that curiosity in a way to have a profit of somekind.

Quick question, are you gay now? had any relationship with men or women?

Excuse me for my grammar mistakes Im not a native english speaker.

Do you think your mother suspected anything?

Did it take a lot of effort from him to convince you to do it? How did he convince you the first time he fucked you?

>Did you never liked girls?

yeah i liked girls and had crushes on them. but they never seemed to like me back.

>Why did you think you were gay?

i thought i was gay cause i didnt mind doing what i was doing and i kept doing it. like i used to think that if i wasnt gay i wouldnt do it at all. but i was doing it anyways. it was confusing.

>You never played naked with other kids?

no. never did that.

> are you gay now? had any relationship with men or women?

im married. to a woman. which is weird that i even have to be specific about that. 25 years ago that would have never even been gay people's hope or anything. it weird how time changes society.

all my relationships after that were with girls. i never engaged in gay sex again.

>Do you think your mother suspected anything?

she never asked me anything or said anything to me till this day. i really dont think she knows.

>Did it take a lot of effort from him to convince you to do it?

no cause i was at that age where anything arouses you. if anyone touches your penis, its probably gonna get hard. it only felt weird in the beginning.

>How did he convince you the first time he fucked you?

he didnt convince me to do it. he just told me to turn around one day and started poking around. after many tries on different days it went in.

>i liked girls and had crushes on them. but they never seemed to like me back.
Were you too shy or unattractive?

>Were you too shy or unattractive?

probably just shy. i definitely wasnt ugly back then but i think it was just hard for me to talk to girls if i liked them. probably cause they were really pretty. i remember even other guys liked them too. i wasnt the only one with crushes on them.

thanks. another quick question, do you miss a dick in your ass? or any sexual craving for a male?
chances are you don't. its a natural thing to have some kind of sex-ploration, for lack of a better word, and you know what they say 'what was fun at 5, it's fun again'

how long have you been married? are you attracked to her?

You say it ended when you were 14. How did it happen?

>do you miss a dick in your ass?

i dont. i cant say i ever liked it. i just got used to it to where it didnt bother me.

>or any sexual craving for a male?

i dont find males attractive. but some transsexuals i do. i find that weird and maybe connected to my past.

>how long have you been married?

several years. less than 5.

>are you attracked to her?

yes. i find femininity very attractive. and she is very feminine.

Why are you on Sup Forums?

Why are you on Sup Forums?

Do you visit Sup Forums often?

Which board/s do you visit most?

What do you think he's doing now?
or
Do you know where he live or if he's married or anything.

So I guess for you telling someone about it might be laughed off or maybe you just don't give enough of a shit to carry through

i met a girl in my first year of high school and she became my gf. i never really asked him for anything again cause i was having sex with her and he wouldn't really ask. like he asked a few times but i didnt want to do it anything anymore so i would just tell him later or another time. then he moved out when my mother broke up with him and i never saw him again. but i know his name obviously, so if i wanted to find him i could.

>Why are you on Sup Forums?
wasting time.

>Why are you on Sup Forums?
wasting time.

>Do you visit Sup Forums often?
sometimes.

>Which board/s do you visit most?

i just come here.

>What do you think he's doing now?

I dont know. he's in his 60s now. probably retired or dead or something.

>Do you know where he live or if he's married or anything.

i dont know anything. i never looked.

ever thought of telling your mom what happened?

no. it wouldnt change anything or do any good. plus i dont want to be asked why i kept going along with it and didnt say anything. its kind of embarrassing.