I think it's time for a feels thread

I think it's time for a feels thread

Next stop, feel-city. Post pics, stories, whatever.. we are here to see how bad someone has it or even better, to see if someone else feels the way you feel.

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Can I tell a story?

sure

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Here's my story.

>Be me
>29 male
>Living in Nor Cal
>Originally from North Carolina
>Moved here for summer work
>I live with a family I met on craigslist, i rent a room from them
>Didn't have any friends when I moved up here 4 months ago.
>tinder.exe
>Go an a couple dates, turns out only larger girls seem to like me
>I'm not great looking, but I'm in pretty good shape, tall, white, etc
>Meet this girl
>Go to her house
>She's aight looking, tall, could stand to lose 15-20lbs
>She makes me dinner
>We fuck for hours
>She is a great
>We start hanging out
>I love her dog
>dog loves me
>goes fucking crazy when i come over
>girl gets drunk, tells me she loves me
>like a lot
>ohshit.gif
>I'm moving back across the country in 3 weeks for the winter/spring
>she doesn't want me to go
>says I can live with her and get a job whenever i can
>Don't want to
>None of my friends home know what she looks like
>because honestly I'm not very physically attracted to her
>but she is "very physically attracted to me"
>She always compliments me, and I hate it, hate it.
>But she genuinely likes everything about me
>I can't accept that for once in my life someone really, actually wants me
>I'm a selfish fuck, and don't want it
>but I keep going to see her because we're friends

I fucking hate it, i fucking hate myself because someone who genuinely cares about me, enjoys the way I look (despite hating myself) and I can't accept it because I'm a shallow fucking pathetic human.
Berate me or whatever.

Hngggggggggggggggggg. Hit me.

i met her on /fit/
i actually met her in real life and i had something going with her for about 6 months

we had something going on for half a year
yet decided at the beginning of that year she needs to go back to her ex

why?
because she, and that we both established
>fears to be alone
>knows what she's getting out of him
>thinks he is immature (she is his first), childish at times and inexperienced
>she sees me as her mature, experienced guy
>she's clinging on to that teenage relationship because every other failed around them and she wants to show everyone that it can exist

over a month ago
>can we get some more distance between us? aka not write with each other?
>need to make myself clear what i want
>writing with you is making me sorta just look into one way

texted her on her birthday, a week ago
she thanked me and told me she appreciated that
wanted to start some smalltalk
but got shut off with "i don't wanna ignore you, that's why i'm answering you. you know i don't want any contact at the moment"

>talked to her two days ago
>asked her how long we shall remain on each others contact list, not texting while we both want that
>she tells me she just doesn't want contact with me for an indefinitely amount of time
>actually declares me her "ex-bf", although we never established a real relationship
uhm what?


TL;DR
i put dick in crazy, now crazy haunts me

Man. you just can't force yourself to be attracted to someone you're not. I wouldn't berate you because you're not attracted to her. I would berate you for basically forming a relationship with her that you already knew you had no intent of continuing. Just because you wanted some fat pussy.

well if you don't like her physically isn't it better to stay friends. but you have to watch that you don't make her false hope and stuff, ya know

maybe youre too hard on yourself for not letting someone compliment you.

I don't see it coming at first because it was Tinder. Hookups and whatnot.

I didn't expect it to happen. And i'm leaving (no matter what) and letting someone down.

I know I'm a pile, but fuck I wish I could just take it all back.

She also gave me the clap too, so there's that.

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if she cant let go of an old relationship maybe its for the best. and maybe its better, if she is that crazy you probably end up in a couple of years with a restriction order for her

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>if she cant let go of an old relationship maybe its for the bes
the best for her to stay in that relationship, clearly missing something?

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faggot

Okay, I'll bite. Here's a greentext.
>16 at the time
>madly in love with a girl in my class
>way, way out of my league
>amazing rack, big eyes and a really cute smile
>I usually sit right behind her
>her and her other hot friend like to tease me from time to time, because I get nervous as fuck
>months of this go by
>me sort of ignoring them, them probing for a reaction
>I had funny hair, a lock in the back was always sort of pointing up, could never get it to go down, like an awkward head boner
>girl asks me if she can put a hair clip in there to pin the thing down
>I say "h..hokay"
>she turns around, sits on her chair on her knees, puts one hand on my desk, the other is going through my hair
>"it's so thick, I wish I had hair like that"
>all the while I'm staring straight into her cleavage, which she practically pushes in my face
>she leans on my shoulder and puts the clip in
>then sits back down and gives me a super cheeky smile
>the next day I complement her on her shirt
>she actually blushes a bit and says thanks
>do this a couple more times over the next few weeks
>one day her friend is sick, so she's alone
>math class
>she asks if she can sit next to me so we can do the exercises together
>she's having trouble, so I explain how to do some stuff to her
>she says, "you're so smart!" and pinches my knee
>stare at my books the rest of the class
>a week later, her friend is back
>her friend turns around, and says to me "you know, she thinks you're really cute..."
>in total shock at this point, super happy inside
>what comes out of my mouth is "yeah, okay"
>it sounded super sarcastic
>her friend and her look at each other, both kind have kind of a disappointed look on their face
>she asks if she can go to the bathroom and when she's walking out I notice a tear on her face
>literally never spoke to her again after that

You should've explained yourself. You're an idiot for letting her believe that you didn't care. Your loss, your fault.

well, she wants to stick with her ex to take care of his "behavior" like some sort of mother, right?

had it coming if you didnt straighten it out

Guys, you're stating the painfully obvious.

i guess mine isnt too drastic.

spend childhood isolated from other kids. see other kids having fun, being worry free. i really didnt care about having friends but i REALLY wanted a gf. high school comes, decide i will become a normie.

start being social and be funny, outgoing, adventurous etc. get the gf i always wanted. things are great: flirt, fun with each other, do normie things like go to parties, movies, attractions, etc. get along very well. but the whole time, i had to put a lot of effort into being a normie since it didnt come natural.

6 years later, she dumps me. wasnt her fault, i just started moving away from normie into disenfranchised autist. i care more about intellectual things and she just wanted to keep being a normie.

that was 2 years ago. find b a year ago (also use other boards). at first still have some normie in me, think this place is weird. occasional witty response and interesting thread but either too nerdy or too edgy for me. start missing my gf and getting depressed. slowly start adapting to Sup Forumstard culture.

a year later, here i am. now i laugh at more stuff here. ive kind of adapted. normie tv shows and humor rarely appeals to me. social life has dwindled into non existance. even started a few folders for pics from here. im watching my good normie life finally die and now im trapped here.

she fears that he won't find someone else, kinda egoistic
she's just afraid that i might turn out to be like him, not treat her like he is now and afraid of that what she does not know
and yes i've told her that a couple of times, she agreed everytime but ended he discussion with "i'm a coward"

jeez, you fucked up good. atleast have the guts and like said, explain it to her. that it kinda sounded false, you think she's cute too and that you want to go out with her. then shits solved, but otherwise youre done.

Emphasis of the obvious to reiterate how much of an idiot one is

Solution: Get the fuck off here

This all happened about 13 years ago. I turned out fine, I'm married now.
Fair enough.

hmm, alright now i get it. if she has that fear and doesn't let herself convince otherwise it's a lost cause anyways. if you really like her, maybe confront her with her fears and tell her that she can call you anytime if she thought everything over and stops acting like you could become like him and accept you as the person YOU are.

You are someone else, you are not him.

and maybe stop trying to text her. maybe she gets it then... otherwise i'd advice you to look around for other girls. after all, you can't force her to see it the way i said.

no u

>You are someone else, you are not him.
exactly, told her that i want a chance to show her that i'm, well, me.

but yeah
gonna tell her that she can text me if she sorts out her inner mess
>after all, you can't force her to see it the way i said
nope i can't and i don't want to quite frankly. trying not to get too dependent from her, so yeah

Alright. Since it's Halloween, I'm gonna share.

> Be me.
> Be 24, about 5 years ago.
> Be engaged
> Be moderately happy
> My fiance at the time was pretty cool, but couldn't quite hold my attention. I was really only engaged because of "normal" and "good for me"
> Be at a Halloween party with some coworkers.
> Have a huge crush on one of my coworkers, fantasize about her multiple times when me and fiance fuck.
> Moderate sized tits, Ass that would bring a tear to your eyes, great personality.
> We're all drunk. Party was hosted by sexy coworker.
> My fiance is off talking to some other people by the campfire when I was in the kitchen getting another whiskey & coke.
> Coworker approaches
> She stands there in a sexy costume (she was supposed to be a bat, but it was pretty skimpy), doesn't speak, just stares at me with her big beautiful eyes.
> She embraces me and just kisses
> Resistance.exe runs for approximately 0.05 seconds and then force-stops.
> We get handsy
> We go to her bedroom and start fucking
> Oh my god. Oh my god. I mean I haven't had sex that good since.
> During fuck session, she is on top riding cowgirl position. & She starts begging me to leave my fiance for her.
> Oh shit wat
> Noooo I... I cant.
> Please user you and me could be so happy together, She's not right for you.
> Jesus wat
> I can't even finish. I redress and leave her crying.
> I go back and try to act normal for about 30 minutes.
> Obviously not normal
> Tell fiance we have to leave
> We leave
> That was a Friday so I take the weekend to think things over, pretty much avoiding fiance emotionally. Which she notices.
> Argue, confess, etc., etc. The usual ending with breaking up. I left with my most important possessions. It was hard. Emotionally devastating, but kind of relieving because I knew in the back of my mind that me and coworker had a real connection.
> Spend a could nights sleeping in my car, don't go into work.

yeah, i think it's a decision for the better. maybe time changes and she changes too and it works out, but you know.. you can't predict the future. good luck anyways mate

wow, what a shitty situation. how did it continue?

how do i say this

Am i the only person that gets hurt about things that are not said rather than things that are said?

for example?

>I'm convinced I loved girl who I barley spoke to
>I could never truly explain why
>I still cant
>I never told her how I felt
>She's gone now
>I hope she's happy
>I'm not.

yeah well, sucks big time but hey
thanks for listening user!

you're welcome man. that's why i opened this thread

Lets put it this way. No one ever says you arent cool. So you instead you think you are cool right?
But then you realize no one says you are cool either so you are stuck

> Wednesday evening, I go to coworkers place. Pull into her driveway.
> Knock on door and she answers. Seems less than eager to see me, but i ignore it, chock it up to it being a surprise visit.
> Beat around the bush, drinking a glass of water.
> I bring up the Halloween Party
> user, please...
> But I have to tell you I feel the same
> No user, you don't understand
> But.... But you said.
> I know. I know. But I think what happened the other night would be too much to try and get past.
> Wat. Wat the fuck. Wat do you mean.
> Please please but you said the other night.
> user, listen, you cheated on your fiance and left her for me
> We I didn't exactly leave her for you, more left her because of you.
> Well I just fear you would do the same to me for the next girl.
> Wat. WAT.
>WAT
>WAT
>WAT
> Leave her house. Unsure of what to do.
> Try to contact ex, but she won't have it.
> Muster up courage to go to work the following Thursday.
> Everyone seems quite aware of my situation.
> Seems sexy coworker has told everyone, making sure to put her own spin on it.
> I quit my job that day.
> Life sucks.
> I live in my car for a couple weeks before getting a new place.
> Emotional devastation has only gotten worse.
> I eventually got another job. But never got a new woman.
> Since then, I've had a few one night stands, but I always cry after them.
> I gave up marriage
> Got nothing in return
> Life isn't great.
> Haven't felt as good as I did before that Halloween party since.
> Still haven't talked to ex. Despite attempts.
> Have also attempted to talk to sexy excoworker.
> Nothing
> No one.
> Lonely.

well, i thought you meant something else.

for that example i would say if no one ever said i wasn't cool, i'd directly.... ask the ones that matter to me. i'm pretty good at reading people's mimic, so if i see them lying to me that i am.. i would promptly know.

i thought you meant like no one bothering to ask especially you. like you are in a group of 4 people and someone asks 3 of the 4 people. where it seems your opinion doesn't matter much.
that's the stuff which kills me

or friends playing online and you see everyone of your friends playing but no one asks you if you want to come along. silent things. hurts me.

well i also have to cope with that stuff.

I'm usually fun for the first hour maybe 1.5 and then i just get blatantly ignored

>me a few years ago, be a dumb teenager
>gf is also a dumb teenager
>she goes on a party
> be lazy, stay at home, let her go
>she has first contact with synthetical THC.
>smokes chemo-herbs like regular weed.
>brain.exe stops working, internal server error
>became mentally unstable and very stressed, never recovered.
>Spends half of her future life in a mental asylum.
>needs heavy medicamentation, side effects degrade her physical health.
>tfw she will never be a healthy adult, life ruined.
>by me.

man, fuck. your situation is fucked up dude. i know how hard loneliness can be. that's a burden i carry too.