Hey int

hey int.
im a lonely college student and my minimal amount of friends are offline
can we get a social thread goin
just talk about stuff idk
im really lonely
and maybe a bit drunk as well

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where do you go to school?

What are you studying?

I like memes
Do you like memes?

So, what do you guys do when you're about to go to sleep and your brain suddenly decides to remind you of your mortality?

What do you mean? I just go to sleep, everyone dies at some point no point worrying about something you can't possibly control.

a university in NY (not NYU, not nearly that rich)
a computer science class, specifically a cyber security kinda deal

im only doing it because its what my dad does pretty much and it works out well for him. its also an easy market to fit in, as its only going to become more in demand as time goes on.

yes mmmmmmmems are good

but really who doesnt wish that they dont wake up

I start insulting

>but really who doesnt wish that they dont wake up

i don't

I used to meditate when I was teenager so I just start counting and fall asleep

pretend I'm in a different time. Sometimes I imagine I'm traveling the galaxy, other times I'm a Legionary, sometimes a knight gone oriental in the middle east. Same as when my childhood got really shitty and depressing really.

fair enough
doesnt actually happen that much
i suppose just nothing?

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Some good suggestions. What I usually do is go on on Sup Forums.

Fantasise.

Get friends in real life, go to parties, get drunk to cure your autism

Fuck man, the only real socializng i've done lately is going on Sup Forums

I live like 20 feet away from a bunch of bars but I don't have friends and am afraid of going to the bars alone....

>friends
i have a few, thats not a problem
>go to parties
[spoiler]LOL[/spoiler]
>get drunk
i just feel depressed like right now. doesnt help.
sorry man
im ur friend

same here ;-; despite the amount of autism on this site, Sup Forums has kept me sane in my 4 years of college despite making no friends.

no
we are your friends
:))))

>get friends and do things with them to cure your autism
You got it backwards. Autism is what keeps me from having any friends.
>go to uni
>every class with a completely different group of people
>put on an assertive and merry attitude
>talk to them, even crack some jokes
>everything going smoothly
>class ends,everyone goes with their friends, I'm left alone
Seriously, what am I doing wrong?

I have never been drunk. I've been thinking about trying it lately, but at this point everyone who knows me knows that I don't really drink and I dislike the taste of alcohol.

I do everything but the crying part.

well, people stick with the friends they already know
that isnt to say you cant become friends with people with friends in the class, thats just silly
but you shouldnt expect it in one period
i do my fair share

Should hit the gym for shits and giggles.
Don't have to go crazy, just do a hour work a day everyday.

I think we should just accept we're not normal

We were unlucky, that's all, let's try to do the best with what we got though

It's pretty hard to not go crazy with all the normies in social sites today but yeah

Sup Forums meetup WHEN :)

normalfags never accomplished anything, they have always been sheep who all live the same lives

I wanted to live a sheep life then

you could be much more paulo. you could become a god like sir isaac newton. do you think he was a normalfag?

After years of being reminded that i will probably get murdered while shopping my mind became numb at the thought.

don't care about this desu

same i'm just shitposting. would hate to be a disgusting normalfaggot though

The thing is, they at least get families and leave a small but significant legacy in their children.
I might be able to succeed in an academical context or something of the sort, but chances are that I won't, and then I won't even have a wife or kids or friends.

Hi guys.

I guess i'd share my story to cheer you up a bit.

>be me
>be nerdy virgin August
>seriously from junior high I had so much trouble socializing, we didn't have TV at home so I knew nothing about the latest shows and I was always left out of these conversation
>not that it would have mattered because I really really sucked at small talk. It would always end up awkward.
>getting into highschool things were pretty bad, I only enjoyed talking about obscures anime, or astronomy or about the math Olympics. My mom still picked my clothes and I wore a mullet like McGyver.
>ffs even Napoleon dynamite had.more swag than I did.
>realize nobody stand being around me, even the teachers. Decide I should be less awkward.
>start studying small talk really hard. I would aoens hours watching movies and noting down a lot of meaningless conversations etc. I would also observe silently people at the bakery or the butcher and try to replicate what they said.
>sends shrills of shame down my spine but I set to study normal human interaction like an anthropologist or some.shit, Sheldon cooper style.
>voy was it awkwars at first, felt very unnatural. But I started to get.the hang of.it through trial and error.
>also I bought a lot of joke books and watched a lot of stand up and practiced in a.mirror a few lines. People like funny persons I had determined.
>because I am weird I don't experiment shame and social.pressure the same way than the other teens so I don't.mind talking in public for example or.volunteering for some extracurricular stuff. I also am.pretty comfortable.around adults which I find way more.predictable than my peers.
>so, somewhat through senior year I started to be somewhat...popular? In a weird way. Not exactly a cool jock who gets pussy but I became.one of the rebel class.clowns looking for attention.
>getting into college made.things easier because I got to love on campus with a.lot of dorks and nerds. So easier to make friend who shared interests
>cont

>cont

>also, on average I was now part of the most extrovert people on campus.
>still had no idea how to properly bond with another human being and all.the interaction I had were scripted and automatic in my head, but from outside it looked relatively genuine I guess.
>I also noted that it was much easier to be the exentric kid everybody knows, because then people know and recognize you and come.talk to you. And you have things to talk about, like about that crazy stunt you pulled up.
>so I became a Halloween costume master, the king of elaborate pranks and crazy adventures.
>hired a contractor with fake.purchase order.from the uni to build a chimney in the main dorm for Christmas for Santa. Sneaked a 18" tall pine tree in main hall at night and decorated it the next year. "Hacked" the repartition system and got all first year paired by boys and girls in rooms (actually got in trouble for that.one) collected money and threw a giant "wall street" party with giant screens displaying the cocktails stock price which went up and down live as demand changed. Happy hour was black Thursday etc.
>even got elected at the student council and got to talk at graduation.
> but then things got bad. I graduated in 2008 and for my degree it was peak crash.
>no jobs to be seen anywhere and previous generations were suffering and even switching careers and studying other shit.
>so I got.to.move back to my parents place.
>cont

>cont

>at first my parents were happy to have.me home, it had been a while for them.
>family dinner, family movie nights, family repairing the broken garage door, family holidays etc.
>but after 6 months they started to worry
>I did do my share of the chores but I mostly lived at.night, shitposting here and masturbating all night long, before crawiling to bed when they woke up.to.go to work.
>this and the social pressure from their colleagues showing off their own kids success or asking about me and my sister(who had trouble.of her own, I'll tell that story another day) It was hard for.my parents. But they always kept supporting us despite everything
>I look at jobs but the crisis is still strong, so I try to expand my reach and look for unqualified or barely related jobs.
>nearly never get a reply. Go to like 5 interviews in a year, all catastrophic.
>start to get real depressed, start to get fat as I eat all the time in my room and then cook big dinners for my family at night.
>finally it's summer, I call the farm I used to pick fruits for when I was a teen and they are happy to have me again.
>its very tiring and I got to work with ex convicts and migrants but they are actually decent simple.people, and the pain and repetitiveness of the work numbs my self loathing and dark thoughts.
>I now have a bit of money. Pay some.stuff around the house for my parents and take the weekend off to go to the big city to see old.uni friends.
>one of them tells me people at his work are so useless and incompetent. They keep having retarded IT problems that could be solved easily but they need someone half competent at theirncore business on top of basic IT skills which apparently doesn't exist.
>wow the problem is very simple, even I could solve it with a basic patch.
>you know, he says, "itcorp incorporated" wants to charge us a ridiculous amount for this fix. If you can really do it I could actually put you in touch.
>yeah sure

Swallow a handful of sleeping pills and hope it kills me. It never does.

i accept the fact that I will die and probably not die having done everything I wanted to do

I now understand that ultimately, what matters is that you are satisfied with the direction your life is going and not the end result. if I die, I will die knowing that I lived my life how I wanted it. I die standing with my eyes looking forwards

recommendation: start planning to meet up with your friends this weekend

set up long term strategies to make your friends bring other friends and make your circle of acquaintances bigger

this.
or i imagine walking down a spiral staircase into clouds..

>cont

>a week later got a mail from him with the details of the project. Its actually bullshit easy, I can pull it off in a few hours.
>fuck it I take the dive. Register my own consulting corporation in order to be able to bill and give my buddy a ridiculously inflated quote for the job.
>he pass it on and they give me the gig.
>deliver promptly, get paid several thousand dollars for a few hours of work in SQL.
>now I'm.officially a consultant.
>everything changes
>I'm still a good for nothing who lives with my parents and pay no rent or doesn't have stable income. But I can answer the dreaded question with a pretty decent reply. Being a consultant is pretty cool and people find it rad. I can look all detached and cool, like I'm no wageslave etc. And my parents can show off again even if I still don't pay rent.
>this goes on like 18 months.
>I get a job like every two month from the first.company, or.maybe through another friend or contact, make a few bucks. Enough to get drunk for the next couple of month until next gig kicks in.
>meanwhike I have heaps of free time so I take a few MOOCs to get some certificate and justify my skills in CS and the languages I use. Also start to learn Spanish.
>I also read a shitload of books and articles
>one day a guy I.met at some party email.me. They need a full time specialist at what I do in Mexico. Would I be interested.
>you know what, I'll give it a shot.
>miraculously the job is pretty much exactly what I did as a "consultant" they also love the fact that I have a entrepreneur mindset and know the struggle of small business. And as I happen to speak Spanish I am the best candidate.
>get the job
>fancy title, expat benefits and huge salary.
>Mexico is actually a very nice country to.live in
>I'm a rich, decent looking white folk with a cute accent
>girls flock to me and I get to wet my dick and stop being awkward around chicks
>meet an incredible girl, marry her. Have 3 kids.
>I am now successful. Wtf happened

Conclusion is

I was the awkwardest motherfucker, and then turned into a fat depressed loser who couldn't get a job and lived at his parents.

I was fortunate enough that I could study something half useful and make some.connection at college. I was also extremely lucky that my parents always supported me and cared for me.

In the end, I only had to push a few times outside of my comfort zone but life pretty much dealt me all the cards to make radical.changes.
Now I work at a high managing level in...PR.
Guess that being a sociopath with scripted conversations is actually more efficient than trying to have an actual talk.
Who knew

You should go to /cum/

masturbation

Holy shit, that image is literally me.

everyone on this fucking website is in a similar situation to this methinks. Because of bad luck, incompetence or simply circumstance we are all social and economical failures here. Feels bad man

Cum suck, it always about politics and anime

God, I'm so lonely and miserable. I just want to have some friends ;_;

At one point I was really depressed and suicidal. Mortality doesn't bother me that much anymore because I actually wanted to die. If anything it's a little comforting.

>decides to remind you of your mortality
Thanks good this hell not for eternity.

I thank my brain for being so thoughtful and making me feel a little bit better.

i can be your whore.

Where are you from, originally?