being cheated on at a bachelorette party scares me all the time, I've been with this girl for 2 years, I love her dearly, but she left me when we first started dating for a month, planned to have sex (a really overweight ugly guy) with him, and ended up doing it, the night of my birthday party(I had with some of my friends, she was originally invited, but she broke up with me) the next day was my actual birthday, and I she asked if she could come over, I said yes, and she ended up telling me she loved me (I fell in love with her fast, maybe 3 weeks) a couple hours later she told me she had sex with him, at the time, I was so struck by her admitted love, that I didn't think much of it, I took her back, I loved her! But then the mother fucker who used to be my friend decided to keep trying to get her to cheat on me, for months, she only told me after a few weeks and she remained friends with him for months, It eventually led to a fight which I won to get him to stop. But he never apologized, and she pretends it wasn't a big deal, she's let people touch her in inappropriate ways, and I've told her not to let them do that,but she gets mad at me for suggesting she did anything wrong, I'm deathly afraid she'll cheat on me before the wedding, I've been faithful this entire time, I wouldn't dare mess this up. but she hasn't... less than 24 hours after she fucked someone on my birthday, she told me she loved me... this has really fucked my mind. (I feel like I've been emotionally cheated on)
Oh and she keeps looking up ex's on fb and saying they starstruck her when she was with them, and when I complain she gets mad at me
>am I fucked?
Heroin because I feel like dying