Venting thread Sup Forumsros

venting thread Sup Forumsros.

let it out

Its OK.

I just miss some physical contact.
Been years since the last time I hugged someone.

Just broke up with my gf
>Excited af to be with her at first because first relationship since a girl cheated on me 30 times and was emotionally abusive as shit
>Tfw new gf has almost no common interests, nothing to do with her
>Long distance too
>All she wants to do is call and bitch about her day
>Doesn't give a shit when ive had a bad day
>Decide to try to wait til this weekend to break things off
>Asks if anything's wrong, says shed rather hear anything over the internet instead of in person
>Tell her how I feel
>Flips shit, being a huge asshole, whines about how I wasted her time (she never once had sex with me btw)
>Texts me hours later to say "I fucking hate you"
I guess I'm just bummed cause she and I had been pals for years before we tried dating. But I think she's pretty much just being childish; she does this shit with all her exes

Don't you have any family/friends you could hug?

Why not get a dog?

My mother was never intimate with me. I was raised alone without a father.

And I don't really have any friends that close. Only some people I can say "hei" and that's all.

Dogs not allowed in my apartment. Kinda sucks.

Feels very cold, you know.

I can't believe all these inbred, racist, alt right, cuckservatives are really going to ruin this country for 4 years.

FML!

;_; I would hug you, user

You made my night a bit warmer, user, thanks.

I committed the Whitechapel murders back in '88.

Hepburnfags are closet queers.

FUCK LIBERALS
WHATS YOURS IS YOURS
WHATS MINE IS MINE

fucking never got to fuck Audrey Hepburn!! Roman Holiday slayed me. could fuck her for days on end!

go fuck yourself beta bitch

>he uses the modern definition of liberal because he's a easily programmed bitch boy

FINE.,.. I..I JUST WANNA BE LIKED

I ENJOY SMOKING BUT I NEED MY LUNG FUNCTION FOR MY JOB.

FUCK, NOTHING BEATS THAT FIRST DRAG AFTER WHIPPING OUT YOUR ZIPPO AND LIGHTING IT UP WITH THE COOL WIND BLOWING ON YOUR FACE.

OR DRIVING DOWN THE STREET WITH YOUR TANNED ARM FROM THE AUSSIE SUN SITTING ON THE WINDOW AND SMOKING YOUR FAG, FUCK

SUCH A CATCH 22

america is pretty disappointing as of late

I work shitty hours at a shitty job with shitty pay, went through university and had to move back home. I think even if I got a better job and moved back out I'd still feel worthless.

What is yur job?

In my school theres literally no proper education. You all learned about ww1, 2 and the cold war and shit, i never fucking did. I only learned from my own reaserch and its kinda fucked me over. I also learned math in french while being in Canada, an english country. So im useless there.

As a result, i can day fuck the french education system, its a fucking joke

I grew up being told that it was university or death, that I was smarter than the average bear and that I would go on to do great things.

I'm not. I've come to accept it but my parents haven't, my dad thinks you can do anything if you set your mind to it. But I cant. I just can't.

I'm doing chemistry right now in college, and I jut can't fucking do it. I try, I've tried my hardest then I've ever done before, but I can't pull myself togeather.

I can't do a job in trades, I can't do business.i can't do anything.
The only thing I've ever liked is history and biology. Can't do biology and history has no jobs and is way more academic than I am.

I just....can't. To no it on a more positive note I suppose, Sup Forums has helped me get through the pats 6 months, so that's a plus. You guys aren't as bad as people make you out to be.

C'mere my dude

You sound like what I would have been like if I went into engineering.

What did you do instead?

I am studying concept art, and it gets very hard sometimes, too, to work.

What I do is I take 10 pushups, put on some old school hipop, and get my shit together and work.

This place is more often enough a second familly isnt it user? I always feel at home with the kind souls who roam about this website.

I killed a man once.

I went into comedy and writing. I do stand up sometimes too.
I like making people laugh and I chose it last minute over going into engineering because I knew I'd never be happy doing that. It's working out so far. I'll probably still become homeless though.

Why can't I get the little loops? I told her not tonight, I've been drinking. But no, she insisted I keep going. Fuck her and fuck the little loops.

Thanks op. I feel a bit better now.

Pic not related

It is in a way. No one has any expectations of eachother, no one cares about who you are or what you do, it's oddly nice. The thing I like the most is through all the shit, all the name calling, all the assholishness, someone will tell you what you think is cool, or someone would care, an it just seems to make it feel more real. Idk, it's just nice.
Can't really say that about my real family

I'd rather enjoy doing something I like for a few moments than to cry decades over something I have no passion for.

inb4
>it pays the bills tho

/b is ur mate brah were all here for u i dont have many close friends either i just have people i occasionaly go out with it deffinetly feels cold

Ive been with my gf for almost a year and we literally havent fucked at all. Not once, while i had plenty of oppurtinities to fuck someone else and lose my virginity. But no, i have to stay loyal and stick with her even though im pretty sure im beginning to hate her.

Woah, 1 year? I been only like 2-3 months with my first and only gf (now ex). She fucked a bunch of guys before on the first day she met them, she told me.

We never had sex in those 2-3 month.

I asked a girl I really like out to lunch yesterday and she said she said "oh sorry im going to lunch with Lucy". Now I see today that Lucy didn't have lunch with her and she just lied because she didn't want to have lunch with me :(

Same, this is the beauty of Sup Forums as a whole. People care, especially in these threads, its very comforting to me.

Like last time i got stabbed, Sup Forums would listen to me, help me and give me advice, but none of my friends would.

Have you tried to get closer to your mom?

Too bad you can't have a dog, most apartments don't allow them though. If you can get a cat I would say you should look into that. I adopted a cat 2 years ago and she's the best friend I have probably ever had.

Do you know where your father is?

I've watched cats burn alive and dogs hit my car

Lie and cheat, all for nothing sweet

End of the line and with just one thing in my mind, rape and maim young maidens

< Uber driver >

Shit man, that sucks a lot, i hope you didnt fall into depression or anything right?

Almost 4 months smoke free here. I smoked for 19 years and I loved it. I used the patches and it was the easiest thing I have ever done. You can do it bro, you have to want it.

I miss it every day, bit I just know that if I have one puff, I'm going to be right back where I started.

Good luck, user.

I can't get closer to my mom, because we absolutely nothing in common. She has been working most of her life, and payed little attention to me. Am not saying she hasn't supported me or not feed me, it's just that she never emotionally connected with me.

I do know where my father is, it is just that he doesn't care about me. He has never given me or talked to m except once when I was 11. That was the first and last time after 8 years I saw him.

On every birthday, he sends an SMS to my mother to tell me happy birthday. That's all.

my My best friend was raped.

happened almost a year ago, she's fallen so hard for me that we are in an open-closed relationship. (open on my end) she will understand that I will go out into the world & have my heart broken and fuck girls from all over.

and in no way is she ugly or ordinary, this girl is absolutely stunning; a solid 9/10 with people constantly coming onto her & her turning them down (even people much more attractive than me)

I love this girl to death, but I constantly berate her for what happened because I refuse to accept that somone took advantage of her. I want to marry her, but I know I am no good for her.

I don't know. what would you do?

TL:DR

>9/10 fuckbuddy gets raped last year
>she told me when it happened
>feel sorry but don't do anything bc fuckbuddy
>fast forward a year
>this girl loves me so much she will allow me to fuck brainless women while she remains loyal
>start falling for her

I know I have something most men would kill for

I talked to some psychiatrists, but they ended up telling me there is nothing wrong with me. I also went to my family doctor for prescription anti depressants, but he told me to get into group sessions first. Thing is, I got rejected from those group sessions because they didn't think I was depressed.

Been 3 years since then, but more than 7 since I got the blues. I am quite sure I am depressed, but I keep my cool and don't act it out.

Nihilism helps a lot. Makes you think that it's not a big deal, you know.

but I feel like if I truly love her, I should leave her.

Sometimes I wish my ex hadn't gotten pregnant so I wouldn't have spent another 3 years with her. I was going to do shit, nothing important or worthwhile and I would've ended up doing probably, but it probably would have been an adventure. Instead I raised my daughter for the past 10 years and tried to do my best by myself. I guess I feel like I missed out on being a reckless young adult.

I'm not sure what your problem is.
If you berate her because you don't believe her, stop. You don't need to believe her, just don't be an utter cunt about it.

If you can't leave. Your a monster who can't control himself, so do something good in your life and leave her.

Or option three, help her get over it.

You didn't miss much. What you have is far better.

In my opinion, as shitty as it may be, i think you should stay away from her from a relationship point of view. No more fuck buddies, just homies. Also try to help her through whatever issues she may be having.
This might help her become more stable (idk if she is) and may help your goal of marrying her, if thats what you want btw, make sure youve waited long enough to make sure you wont get fucked over.

why have i never met anyone who i actually gave a shit about? family excluded.

Well shit dude, thats rough, you may as wellctry to forget it and find a hobby.
I recently started making weapons out of whatever i can find, i also took up game dev. Shit really keeps my mind off of most issues i got.

Tbh it might help your case

I have plenty of things to do, to be honest. Visual arts and guitar playing (paying through tableture).

You got fucking stabbed? Holy shit m8. What's up

Because you perhaps haven't spent long time enough with them.

Yeah my gf stabbed my hand, suprisingly enough, shit doesent hurt at all and according to her i bled a fuck ton, even though it didnt seem like much.

Logically I know that you're right but I could've ridden trains and lived in squats and travelled the world and shit. I mean, I probably would've died when my first pacemaker did because I would've been somewhere and not have been able to get to a hospital took get a new one.

I dunno, just bothers me sometimes.

Thats good bud, but yeah usually forgetting something is a pretty good option. Just dont acheive that with drugs or alcohol.

Story m8

Have never done drugs, and never been drunk.

A proud sad man here ;)

Everyday I try and forget yesterday with drugs and alcohol. Fuck tomorrow.

>fucking around with gf a while ago
>joke about cutting out her nipples to put it on a necklace
>pull out knife
>she takes it to look at it
>its actually a really nice knife
>somehow my hand ends up on the pointy end
>it goes about an inch through the bottom of my hand
>blood everwhere
>pull out old shirt from bag and rip it so i can bandage this shit
>all this happens in public on a bus
>go home, parents dont notice
I legit hid this from everyone i knew bc i didnt want any heat whatsoever
>pic related, whats left of the scar
But yeah its not a big deal.

Thats good, youll be happier without drugs

>inb4 mods
I'm 16, have no friends, girls won't even look at me even though I have an ok body, and not crippling acne (fitfag here)
The only thing I'm good at is fighting (also Martial Arts fag), and my parents don't want me to do boxing, because we can't afford to pay medical bills when I get a detached retina.

I know that feel. If you're a decent guy and socialize it should get better by college. Also tip I wish I could have given myself, don't start any relationship in senior year unless she's going to the same college.

sauce?

I destroyed flavortown.

That's a beautiful poem Mr uber driver.

My vent is that my family hate me, my mum cares more about my 26 year old drop out brother who has been neet for 7 years than she does about me. I'm 18 and I feel like I've been fucked over by life. I wish I had a family that gave a shit or even sone good friends. I don't want to be a ducking loser but it's hard to stay disciplined when you're surrounded by failures and people who seem to have just given up.

I wish I could leave and become something but I funked up in school and now I'll pay the price for the next 50 years.

Thinking of joining the military because trading 4 years of my life for 18 grand per year is actually not that bad considering my realistic prospects.

Fuck my shit life. Does God actually answer prayers? Or does he just watch us suffer?

how?

I want to become a youtuber. I have it all planned out. But I still live with my parent and they would shut that shit down.

I dunno, I have grown up with youtubers, and most of them have started from shit quality/nothing but grew over the years. I mean ffs I could live in a small apartment and I would be happy as long as I'm doing it.

I just know it's a pipe dream till I get out of here though.

FUCK IKEA HOLY FUCK I bought a bed from ikea and I have had to go back 3 times to get the parts. I still don't have all the fucking parts. Next time I go I'll be sure to bring a bottle of lube so I am ready when I get fucked in the ass by ikea.

>Crippling depression. Binge eat, drink weed, drink alcohol almost every day.
>Parents have invalidated my depression for my entirely life, as a result i learned to just pretend it doesn't exist and never speak about it.
>Being constantly drunk is more socially acceptable in my family than going to therapy or being on antidepressants.
>Had extremely traumatic childhood which left me afraid that everybody wants to hurt me.
>Have been thinking about buying a shotgun, but is worried about another failed suicide attempt.
>Dreams of travel and adventure, have been making acquaintances through meetup but nobody knows how much pain I'm in every day. Most isolating and lonely feeling in the world.
It wouldn't exactly be fun if I get left crippled for life.

dude math is the same in every language

sell all your shit.

buy a good rucksack

a good machete

survival gear including tarp, rope, & a good sleeping bag

return flight to country of choice

$1500 cash

live as a drifter/hiker

(i recommend norway/sweden)

Join the navy. Go personell or supply thats where the sensitive types go. CS (cullinary specialist is a good rate all you doo is cook and clean) but whatever job you take will be secondary to the connections you will make the brotherhood you will join will always be a part of your life. even if you dont stay any longer than four years it can put you in a good place in the job market when you get out.

read aboutunderwater archeology, it may be a thing for you

Wanna talk about it?

i hate you. my whole life, you just shaped me into the person you wanted me to be instead of letting me be myself. you used me to validate your own existence, trying to live vicariously through me so you'd always have a friend and i fucking hate you for it. it feels like i just got out of a fucking cult, moving out of state just to get away from that toxic co-dependent relationship you wanted me to stay in. and now, you're falling to pieces without me there to pick you up and pat you on the back. you, a grown 53 year old woman, relying on your 26 year old offspring to make you feel like you've accomplished something in life. i can't hold your hand through this part in your life. i don't even know where to start. you're 53, and im in my 20s. and I've spent my entire life pretending to be someone else, just for you. I'm not going back to that, im not shoving down who i am just so you wont be lonely in life. you constantly bitch about bullshit that happened 2 decades ago refusing to live in the here and now so you can cuddle up with your injustices at night like some kind of security blanket. you constantly bitch about how alone you feel, meanwhile you were homeless for 2 years BY CHOICE yet never actually slept on the street once the entire time. You HAD people to couch surf with, you had friends to help you move your shit to and fro, you had tons of help and you shat all over everyone giving it to you because they kept telling you to get a fucking job and you refused. you came to live with me finally when no one else could tolerate you, you shat all over me and criticized my entire way of life like you always fucking do, and fought with me the entire time. but the most important part? YOU REFUSED JOBS LEFT AND RIGHT. All while I was making $12/hr and somehow managing to support the both of us, you were turning down jobs for $21/hr because you thought "it was beneath someone with as much experience as you". if you're going to kill yourself without me, just do it.

All I want to do is make a stunning wedding ring from scratch and propose with it... all I have to do is find a girl. The problem is that because I am "such a good friend" I have never dated anyone. I am so lonely it hurts. That feeling you get when your love someone who loves you back in have never felt. I can't even remember what it feels like to be in love

I really want to have sex, but I'm too "scared" try actually try and go for it.
What if my dick's not big enough, what if I don't last long, etc. My mind keeps filling with non-stop questions.

Hell, I'd even pay for it, but even then I'd be a nervous wreck. Fuck me man I just don't want to be a virgin anymore.

My bestfriend and I fucked, and I have no idea what is going on right now.

In the beginning of this year I was in a relationship with a girl. One night, out of the blue, my bestfriend kisses me and tells me she has feelings for me. I try to talk to her, and she basically ghosts me. A month later we get together on a party, end up kissing each other again, and I decide to break things up with my girlfriend (the first time I tried to pretend it hadn´t happened, but the second time I realized if I didn´t break it off I would just be a huge asshole to this girl). Then we had a big argument, and didn´t talk to each other for months.

Then we started talking to each other again, and we talked about how we were afraid that we might start getting feelings for each other again. But I was with somebody at this point, and she, well, she was seeing some guys too. But one night we went out and when we got o my house we had sex. She asked me if I loved her, and I told her "When I´m with you I think I do, but when we´re apart I don´t know" and she said she felt the same. Then we didn´t talk for about a month, which didn´t bother me because I was seeing that other girl and I was on tour, it was easy to get my mind off.

Recently, on my birthday, she came to my house and we kissed a bit, and then when we were saying goodbye I kissed her on her forehead, and she looked disappointed and said "I was going to kiss you in the mouth...". In the meantime, she wrote a song about me.

I got some some advice here once, where some user said "don´t ever tell a girl you love her. Instead, show her that you love her". The problem is she always flinches whenever I show her that I too like her. I am lost right now. I don´t know how to approach this.

Pics is of girlfriend
So doingnpretty well finally grew up pretty rough but I think I have an above average work ethics. In 4 national honor societies at University and doing great academically and physically. I am more worried that i have been blessed with a decent mind and work ethic. I want to help the world and fucking get rid of all the evil in the world. Like Boondock Saints style. I am worried I will go through my whole life being average and then just die... I am mot even afraid of death itself but more just dying without any purpose or honor. I am afraid that I am waisting time trying to be apart of society. Itbdoes nothing for me anymore. They dont have a help us rid the world of bad people job app. Military is just a waiste of time for that too. Tons of friends joined for that and said they waisted their time and lost good buddies for nothing. Cop is too held back by red tape to really fix things

If Trump wins my hopes and dreams will be shattered and I will no longer see the world as a positive place

I don't know what to do.
I'm in a relationship with a girl but I don't think I love her. It's just more like I love to see her happy. But, I'm not happy. And I can't decide if it's better to leave things and maybe time will separate us or maybe I'll start loving her more. I know I'll have to move away from here soon, and our relationship, while she thinks it's it's fine I know of the sins that lie underneath. When we first started dating I may have "gotten together" with my ex a few times, and throughout our relationship ide had too keep doing it. I fear if I don't my ex will tell her and I don't want to break her heart. I've just made this illusion for her that everything's ok and it looks like the only way out is the most painful for her. I don't know what to do.

If you love her tell her. Then talk to her, ask her why she flinches. Communication will solve your problems

by the way, the reason why she hates you is because shes in therapy, being treated for the psychoses you ingrained into all of us. i have a fucking identity disorder and PTSD, and shes been hearing you tell her that you should've fucking aborted her for her entire life. its called "narcissistic personality disorder" and the reason why you're fighting is because shes getting help to move PAST this shit while you sit there attacking everything that could possibly criticize your approach to life.
>which is to fucking pout
>constantly
You command pity while giving nothing in return, and then accuse us of being ungrateful brats when we cut you off and say "ive helped you enough for now". you'd see your kids run themselves into the ground taking care of you before you'd dare let them succeed in life. the reason i dont go back and fix it is because enough is enough, and its time for me to live my own fucking life away from this toxic bullshit you call a personality. im growing past this shit, im moving on with life. im not sitting here chewing the cud over some bullshit that happened ten years ago just because i want to feel sorry for myself. im not going back, im never going back, and im never going to be that fucking person again. i dont even know who the fuck i am anymore or what i want in life. ive formed all of my desires around what you want me to want rather than knowing for sure what it is i want from myself. shes right, you did abuse us. you abused all of us, emotionally and psychologically. and there were times when i was BEGGING other childrens parents to get me out of that house, because of how fucking toxic you are. and how fucking stupid you were to date a CRACKHEAD for 10 years. thanks for "sacrificing" so much for your kids, i mean it really must've been so brave of you to sacrifice your childrens safety and wellbeing JUST TO GET LAID. GROW THE FUCK UP ALREADY.