Sup Forums I think I have a problem

Sup Forums I think I have a problem.
At 6 I fell in love for a girl that was 12 for about 6-7 years
At 14 I fell in love for a girl that was 21
At 15-16 I fell for a girl my age
At 16-17 I fell for a girl one year younger than me
At the end of 17 I fell for a girl that was 15
Now at 18 I'm in love with a 13 year old...
I just don't see the appeal in older women anymore. I'm starting to think older women or women of my age are evil and twisted and that the only way to find a good one is to look at younger ones. It doesn't help that I keep being rejected either.

Did you ever actually have a relationship? If not, get one with someone your age. Go through a few. You'll get over your stupid innocence obsessions quickly enough afterwards. If you're an ugly fuck with zero social skills though, well you're only going to get worse. If you've already had relations and decent ones at that and this is the way you're going, you've probs not had much proper luck with partners and you gotta get out more.

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Just remember those younger ones will become evil and twisted just like all the others in a few years.

probs because they got molested at an early age by an 18yo.

Then do you think nice ones exist?

Young girls are toxic in many ways but so sweet and tasty. A true delicacy.

Most unlikely

I've never really had a relationship. As you said zero social skills and pretty ugly because my body is scarred all over. Getting through a few would be pretty impossible for me considering I can't even get one. Besides, I'm hoping I can just find the right one straight away if there is one.

are you aiming too high? if so, go on a filthy root spree. after the first 10 you'll stop caring. when you stop caring, people will start mistaking your carelessness for confidence and it'll attract more chicks. also, as a tip, get in fucking shape. muscles make scars nothing. and a fucked face will be overlooked if your bod is distracting enough to make them moist either way.

>be me.
>21.
>late 1990's.
>work in burger joint.
>middle school like two streets away.
>three girls used to come in sometimes and order.
>sit at tables.
>one time one of them tells me "my friend likes you".
>think its cute but disregard.
>be told to go outside and clean tables. sweep.
>they start talking to me.
>get names. not really paying attention though.
>they get mine.
>get my age.
>they make fun of girl who likes me.
>girls didnt dress like sluts back then...
>so nothing that catches my eye. not interested.
>this repeats several times.
>eventually girl that likes me shows up alone.
>like 3 or 4 people sitting outside.
>she sits inside at one table.
>dont know why, cause i wasnt really interested, but figure "fuck it" and go talk to her while pretend to sweep.

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>say hi to her.
>i ask about her friends.
>says one is home and cant come out. other she hasnt talked to.
>im paranoid someone might come outside from kitchen so i try to keep voice low. keep "sweeping".
>ask her name cause forgot from last time.
>she tells me.
>i ask what school she goes to, but had idea.
>tells me school down street.
>ask her grade.
>7
>i ask her age.
>12.
>she asks me how old i am.
>i tell her my age.
>she doesnt say anything. just says "oh".
>coversation getting awkward and some people walk in so i walk away and go to register and take order.
>as im taking order i see her filling up her soda cup again.
>feeling weird inside. cause i wasnt interested, but now i was.
>take people's order and try to go back outside but see people sit inside.
>not comfortable talking to her with people around. so i walk past her and go "clean" bathroom.
>as i go back outside from bathroom she's leaving.
>says "bye" to me and walks out.

13? What the fuck man?! Too old!

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>feel wierd after that time.
>didnt think id be interested. but now i am.
>started looking forward to her showing up.
>and she would.
>with friends sometimes.
>and most times they would sit outside building.
>but sometimes inside.
>then this one time they showed up.
>pretty interested by then.
>they sit outside and i grab broom and go.
>talk to them.
>say hi.
>they say hi.
>pretty friendly by now. they know me by name.
>try to make conversation.
>ask stupid questions like if they like their food.
>dont stop to talk. keep moving with broom all the time.
>paranoid but interested.
>co-worker comes outside and calls me in.
>they need me to take out trash.
>go inside and stupid faggot mexican boss i had tells me to empty all trash cans.
>even bathroom.
>start doing it.
>hoping they wouldnt leave whole time.
>go into bathrooms and start grabbing trash.
>bathrooms were like Y shaped. with a hallway and door betwen them.
>im getting out of mens bathroom and one of girls is standing there.

>im kinda weirded out she was just standing there and ask her "whats up"?
>she tells me: "my friend likes you".
>i ask who?
>she tells me girls name.
>she hands me folder paper.
>says she told me to give you this.
>and she walks away.
>ok....
>i got bags of trash in hands.
>put them down and unfold paper.
>its notebook page with phone number.
>no name. just phone number.
>i walk outside to dining room from bathrooms and they're still there outside.
>walk past them to throw away trash.
>there's some giggling.
>no time to stop when i go back inside.
>people start coming in so no time to talk to girls again.
>they leave.
>but i had phone number.
>shit was in my head whole day.

It's normal human biology. Humans aren't supposed to live beyond the age of about 30 in nature, we would die a lot sooner than 30. This life is unnatural. We aren't supposed to find 30 year old women and 40 year old women attractive, this is a social opinion that we are forced to follow. Fresh sexually mature females are attractive and desirable for a reason.

>i go home and think about calling.
>but kinda scared to be honest.
>i dont call.
>then like 2 days later i was bored out of mind and decide to call from public phone.
>lady answers.
>i hang up.
>decide not to call again. too scared.
>like week go by.
>girl that liked me comes into burger place.
>orders and sits inside.
>im like excited inside but paranoid too many people.
>get lucky and people start leaving.
>fuck fuck hoping no one would come in.
>no one does.
>go outside with my trusty broom and start sweeping clean floor.
>finally some old man that had been there for while leaves.3
>say hi to her.
>try to chit chat.
>she asks me if i called.
>i tell her i did.
>tell her lady answered phone.
>asks me when i called.
>tell her when.
>says her mom works but not that day.
>says to call her any day but not that day.
>says she is never home.
>i ask "are you sure".
>says yes.
>im gonna fast forward to get to point......