Be me

>Be me
>21 years old
>Neet
>Only finished high school
>Depression
>ADD
>Severe Tinnitus
>Gynecomastia
>Living with parents

>Always alone playing vidya or shitposting
>I can only be momentarily happy when I take stimulants and work on my delusional goals that aren't even that good of an idea

>Just masturbated for the 5th time to my little pony porn because it is the only thing that makes me feel comfy.

>Currently doing illegal shit that'll probably get me in jail cause I need the money to save my parents from losing everything


What would you do?

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>>Currently doing illegal shit
elaborate

An hero
I'm 20 and also a neet, end my suffering fampai

This

it's not Gynecomastia, you're just fat. work out, then join the military, because otherwise your life is going nowhere, and they're the only place that will turn you into a real man who knows how to work. it'll be miserable as fuck but you don't really have a choice unless you suddenly find motivation to work.

wtf is a neet? I don't understand the slang you kids are using these days

Someone who doesn't work or study, lives off their parents.

if i had gynecomastia i'd play with my boobs

"Not in Education, Employment, or Training"

It's green, millennials love it.

before dying at least realize your final form.

Eat well, sleep in a reasonable window of time, pursue both an artistic and intellectual endeavor, and of course get an aesthetic bod. On top of this, push yourself outside more often. Force yourself to go to some sort of social event, or talk to a minimum amount of qt3.14s

After that, if you're still not happy, then you can at least die knowing you tried and revealed to the world your most apex self.

Used to be a NEET
Go get a job at UPS
They need Driver Helpers and it doesn't piss test for a seasonal job
Go make some money and do something with your life

Its weeb slang for a hobo that is squatting on their parent's property

To be honest, the best I've ever been was when I was cycling test after trying all psychiatric meds out there. But I am scared of pinning for life so I just stopped.

>Eat well, sleep in a reasonable window of time, pursue both an artistic and intellectual endeavor, and of course get an aesthetic bod. On top of this, push yourself outside more often. Force yourself to go to some sort of social event, or talk to a minimum amount of qt3.14s

I have tried, I fail because my mood keeps changing from slight interest in life to total apathy.

This. Except the government owns you for however long you remain enlisted.

Something tells me that OP's final form is something similar to Chris-Chan.

It's not fat, I am 184cm tall and weight 85kg. I've been seen by a doc, it's breast tissue.

I was planning on joining next year, but I don't think they'll accept me being diagnosed with ADD, depression and tinnitus...

You know who will accept you?
UPS as long as you don't have a criminal record

I am not a tranny, and I draw better than him.

Does it pay well? I don't have a driving license yet...

Government money hand-outs?

How's that illegal?

Turn pc off and go be a good son to your parents who are likely about to loose everything because their failure of a son likes to masturbate to cartoon horses

You don't have ADD you just want drugs.

But I am....in my own way...if I don't go to jail, I can probably pay the 200k mortgage they have on the house.

find something better to fap to.
ditch parents n travel the world
you're young, user. do it while you can

No, you know what? The people you asked for the answer are wrong. They just don't know. You were really right all along. Keep being awesome! Eventually the world will realize your bitch tits aren't your fault, and that you just needed to be loved more.

Not true, I've had boxes of Dexamphetamine untouched in my room for almost a year. I don't like taking this shit.

Was that meant for OP?

Probably.

>Tinnitus
wtf is with you faggots all complaining about having this shit

just another excuse you lazy fat fucks use not to move out of your moms basement

>Pay 200k mortgage
>21yo neet
Pick one

I was trying to avoid telling you to kill yourself, but then I realized you probably want me to be honest.

Tinnitus is fucking bad enough without all that other shit.

Well, as I said I've been to an endocrinologist. It's not fat, it's literally breast tissue from estrogen spikes during adolescence. Even the doc told me losing weight wouldn't do shit.

reported for selling weed to millennials

I wish, I was already bad enough before I developed tinnitus (some random 2m tall slav decided to sucker punch me for no reason while I was going for a walk at night).

It's fucked wanting it to stop, but the sound just won't stop, never. The more you pay attention to it, the more it fucks you up and it never goes away. Makes me wish that fucking imbecile had killed me instead.

Now I can't even lie down in my bed and listen to music to cope, or mediate, or go for a walk in the woods. Silence doesn't exist anymore to me.

We'll see.

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Stay gold Ponyboy! Stay gold.

Neither do I
My brother and mom are gonna give me rides for now until I get my license
19 years old today actually

Get your family to help, tell them you're getting a job, they'll be ecstatic since you've disappointed them so far. Any progress to them is you becoming an adult. So many people have shit jobs and adults realize it too. Listen man, you can do this. Don't let yourself crash. Make the best of life. Be realistic about life and realize there are several options for you to go down. You might fall, but you just have to pick yourself back up and keep trying.

But seriously man, apply there for Driver Helper. I got my job yesterday.

Also sorry about the long reply, got a slurpee

what does it sound like?

when im stressed sometimes i swear i can hear like 15 different tones really loudly out of fucking nowhere

i usually keep a fan on in my room just because i feel anxious without any sound

Buddy, I've had gyno since I was 13 (back when I was 14% bf). You do realize gynecomastia is not always just fat, right?


Nice meme tho, chickun. Ponycrap makes me feel comfy.

>>im a non-binary pansexual demigod queer gendered trans nigger whos on the fence between Johnson and Trump

I've worked before, as a hotel supervisor back when I was in London (18 at the time). I hated it because I have no self steem due to gyno.

Anyhow, I might look into it, user. Thanks.

If only I had friends or at least knew people I could sell it too. I need money

Mine is a mix of really high pitch sharp tone with a midrange ''sshh'' sound. It changes to low ''sshh'' when I take Dexamphetamine, which I really like because the tinnitus doesn't seem so energetic and I can kinda chill for a bit...


Anxiety makes mine worse too, I can't believe it's been 2 years already since the day I got it...How did you get yours?

All good famalam

What flavor bro

Go to a headshop, befriend the owner and test the waters...they usually know what's up....

Pics or it didn't happen

OP here, why are you talking to yourself?

Niceee....

I don't think you get it, so I'll be explicit.

Everyone on here has told you to do shit. Your response to literally everyone has been "I can't cause I grew up with tits like a woman!"

Fuck you. Quit rationalizing away every bad choice you've ever made as something outside your control. Your fat faggot ass wakes up every day and decides to jerk off to cartoons. Nobody forces you.

The problem you have is nobody ever forced you to do anything. You never learned that you can do shit if you just stop being such a whiney little bitch and do it. And yet, AND YET, you still come on here and complain about your life, ask for help, and then ignore the answers. YOU are the problem in your life. Nothing else. Just you. Quit being such a faggot.

FUCKING MILLENIAL CRY BABIES NUFAGGOTS WAHHH WAHHH IM ENTITLED WAHHHH GO JOIN THE WAR YOU FFFAGGOTSSS

Mothafuckin blue raspberry
Gimme a minute for pics, in a car right now

everyone has testosterone fucked from their environment and diet and shitty products they use and probably from drinking bottled water.

If you take the precautions unlike everyone else, you'll end up being in better shape and health than most people in just a few years

I am trying to do something do, even if it is not legal it is still taking effort and it doesn't come without risks. I can't wake up tomorrow and stop suffering from Tinnitus or Gyneco, and I can't fucking help having mood swings despite having tried many times to get my shit together. Just so you know, I regularly exercise which is why I am not fat (184cm and 85kg at 18% bf). It's fucking hell but I haven't given up yet.

What the fuck do you want me to do?

What's wrong with bottled water? I've been drinking that since I was a kid...

...

dude take tongkat ali between your cycles to stop your nuts from shrinking and your tits from growing

lol

fuck

im 125 pounds why am i giving you advice on this

My total test levels were 420ng/dL when I was at my best, taking supplements, sleeping, good diet and constant exercise. That was 3 years ago, before the tinnitus shit, when I was 18.

I can't imagine what it must be like right now....

UPS is Equal opportunity even towards disabilities. As long as you can put a package on a doorstep, you're good

I told you I've had gyne since I was 13, it wasn't caused by my cycles since I took an aromatase inhibitor.

Stop arguing with them about your medical condition, it can't be helped and that's fine. Get a surgery in the future to have it removed, fuck it.

I'll look into it, or any other local delivery service companies.

Yeah, I think you're right..Hopefully in 4 months I'll have the 5k I need for the surgery

Sidenote: if you want to stick with the company after your seasonal position, you gotta stop smoking for awhile because you'll have to reapply for the package handler position in the future, but if you do good in your driver helper position, chances are they'll let you back in, and if they don't, you're building currency and a good resume for another job lineup with a different delivery company. And it's 8 am to 8 pm Monday to Friday, but that's only for one month, and you make a hell of a lot of money for it. If you get another job later, it'll be a part time gig with schedules and whatnot

Nice, nigger. You're into art?

Not my notepad, my mom's.

That's for the advice buddy, but I don't smoke. Not sure where you got that idea from. Do you know if it is easy getting in as a driver? I think it is about due time I got my license...

That's pretty cool, dude.

>That's for the advice
Thanks* for the advice

Fixed that for myself.

Drivers have to take a separate driving test with the vans, have random drug tests, and usually are expected to have job experience. If you want a driving job, go be a pizza man. Like being a waiter who doesn't make less than minimum wage.

I see, well there's not pizza places in the little village where I live, so I'll go see if there's any assistant jobs available at UPS in the area.

Don't worry about how far away your local UPS place is, you and a driver will decide on a mutual meeting place that is easily accessible to both of you.

>125 pounds

How tall? are you a qt trap?

For realsies?

i recomend a white/ pink noise machine in your room or too have it playing in one ear at the lowest possible volume, even lower than you can hear without focusing. this will overload your hearing which has been known to help distract tinnitus

You got XBOne?
This is UPS Sup Forumsro asking

shit sucks man
>be me
>get blessed with every sickness in the history of everything ever
>still not sick enough if you ask gov
>cant do heavy shit cuz bad heart and severe asthma
>actually LIKE doing heavy shit
>socials are running me into the ground eveyday for years bugging me about jobs and shit
>doctors tell me one day my blood sugar is shot
>was fine just a few months ago
>tell them about great deal of stress in life at the moment
>they explain that beetus can be triggered by stress
>have to restrict my foods even more
>like having allergies wasnt enough
tl;dr
>to sick to do shit i can be happy doing
>not sick enough to get some kind of sick comp

I got no consoles, just a Pc. Do you play on XBone only?

Aromatase inhibitors are used to treat gyno, i have no doubt they work well, ive taken them and seen all of the effects, all of them, acne, insomnia, anger, reduced gyno, etc, but i have no idea if they'd do anything coupled along with steroids, my guess would be they wouldnt help much, if at all, but you would put on a ton of muscle to make it seem less significant i guess

I play on Steam occasionally, not often. I'm on Instagram though. imnotarapper420

I did that when I first got my tinnitus and I was losing my mind, helped me a bunch to sleep at night. I just wish there was a fucking cure for it. This crap is a never ending torture, and on top of that I also have visual snow so I can't listen to music in peace nor can I gaze at the night sky like I used to. About the only things I enjoy in this gay life and now it is gone forever.


Fuck.

if this guy did meth for 5 years he would look like me

>and on top of that I also have visual snow so I can't listen to music in peace nor can I gaze at the night sky like I used to.

oh my fucking god my sides this guy is for real

come on dude ive had that shit since i was tweaking my brains out on ADHD drugs as a 9 year old

its cool you can see crazy shapes sometimes

Visual snow? Is it from drugs or from eye problems? If it's eye problems, there's plenty of surgeries to cure a fuzzy vision problem, even in the optic nerve. Although they probably wouldn't do that for just fuzzy vision. As for drugs, hope you didn't give yourself HPPD. Usually that fades after the drug flushes your body, but it does affect some people heavily in rare cases

Get a job. Why are you doing illegal shit if you're unemployed?

The reason I cycled wasn't to get muscled up, I did it because I lost all hope after trying almost all available psych meds with no good results. It worked phenomenally well, got rid of my depression and I was feeling focused, driven and confident despite still having gyno. I am consdering going back, but I fucking hate the idea of injecting for the rest of my life.


PIc related are is my test levels with just 125mg of Test E (I am sensitive to Testosterone)

>i was tweaking my brains out on ADHD drugs as a 9 year old

Yeah, I guess you can't miss what you never had. I miss the old days where I could go for a walk at night, listening to music, looking at the stars. We all have different ways to cope, but that was mine.


I am not sure, probably a mix of all the shit psych meds I tried, plus the depression and anxiety. My optician says my eyes are fine.

Legally speaking, I am not unemployed since I am the boss a newly opened company that is currently looking for contracts. But yeah, in practical terms I am just a fucking NEET.

So, pretty cute but shitty skin and teeth coupled with weird ass ticks?

why are you so worried about drugs and testosterone, is it not likely it was caused by some kind of pollution of plastics or fertilizer getting into your body?

you could still be eating or using things that contribute to high estrogen levels maybe, and could reduce it a lot if you just eat anti aromatase herbs and foods and avoided xenoestrogens

did you not get estrogen levels tested?

eaither do LSD or let trips decide how you should suicide

No, I am currently waiting an appointment with my doc to get estrogen levels tested while not on test. My diet is pretty clean, and eat Broccoli everyday. I live in a rural area, so getting fast food is pretty hard. I mostly stick to whole foods, beef, chicken breast, some vegs and little else. That, coupled with exercise helps me a bit, but it ain't a life changer. I am worried about drugs because so far it has been the greatest allies helping me cope.

I've been on months where I was doing exercise regularly, eating healthy and meditating. It didn't help me nowhere near as much as merely injecting 125mg of test on my butt for 3 months...


The only thing that comes to mind is the bottled water thing you were talking about, which I have no solution for since the water in my house is not meant for human consumption.

Holy fuck can you stop talking about tinnitus like it was a debilitating disease
Fuck me overall you're just a massive pussy
Stop scapegoating your problems on your (not even that bad) conditions
God forbid something actually hard happens to you, you'll just break

I am not falling for that meme again. I already tried Salvia Divinorum thinking it would help me figure some shit ou that'd change me forever and the only thing I got was a scary as fuck trip.

No way I am risking a 12h long hell walk with my current anxiety.

Kill yourself loser.

I am not sure what ''Tinnitus'' means to you. I sincerely hope you're not one of those guys that can only notice tinnitus when he goes to sleep and everything is silent, then comes here to tell me how much of a non-issue it is.

I want to punch you so hard you absolute troglodyte
I've had tinnitus since I was 5, and yes I can notice it most of the time - do I let it bother me? No
At the end of the day in life a fucking high pitched whining noise is nowhere near the worst of your problems
Stop crying about it, and hope that something worse doesn't ever happen