Storytime

Storytime

>be my father
>his father is 50
>fuck
>parents divorced when 7
>changehome.exe
>changehome.exe
>changehome.exe
>no friends
>study a lot
>perfect scores all around
>emptywallet.png
>decide to go to college
>fucking genius
>get a job. have highest grades in the faculty. help mother pay.
>also virgin
>start own business at 22
>help pay more bills
>dad has cancer
>dad.exe has crashed
>30 years later. be self made millionaire

>cue me
>depressed faggot
>bullied because smart
>dad still smarter
>he pays for everything
>good life. always depressed
>happy that I go to college. no job because "full-time student hard"
>top 25%
>no accomplishments
>obviously virgin
>dad has aspergers and OCD
>I have bipolarity. faggot disease

When someone tell you they hate their life even though they have everything, you need the full story. I hate my life. Have money. Have family. Have support. Still virgin. Not ugly. Not stupid. Nice college. I still hate my life.


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Wait what? And post more of the chick.

You are such a bitch.
Please spend more time complaining.

I'm not complaining.

nice trips

You probably need some sense of accomplishment.

Even when people tell me I have done a lot, I get the feel that they're just being condescending.

get a dog
dogs are good for you my friend.
i recommend something like a cute little french bulldog, but don't settle unless you find what's perfect for you.

I have a dog, but I'm far from home at the time. He is also nearing 15. That adds to feeling miserable. Thinking my best friendo will die relatively soon kills me.

You allways have friends in Sup Forums , op.

give away your money op
start from square one

OP is just depressed that he isn't as awesome as his dad, he recongized he will never reach his dad's level of awesome.

I don't know if it's sarcastic, but seeing your father outdo everything you do feels fucking bad.

Be happy that it happened rather than sad that it had to end.
Get another dog afterwards, not to replace the old one though.
My dog is currently 10 years old, so I'm making sure to spend much time with her before it's time.
It's not about how much time you have, it's how you spend it.

I feel your pain. I am by no means a poor individual, I attend college, am graduating in two weeks and starting graduate school next semester, average grade because life issues and slacker, and I still hate myself most of the time

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I'm sad, not stupid.

Why? And post more of the chick pls.

That feels really hard. Time has gone way too quickly. I suck at letting go the few things that have made me somewhat happy.

Because there's people who have done much better than me. They're just trying to make me feel good.
Don't get me wrong. I show gratefulness and thank them for their compliments. I just don't buy them.

Also, no more pics. That's the only one OP posted. I got you replacement.

Does getting called nigger newfag every other thread count as friendship?

They don't feel genuine?

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Start working out faggot
Change what you're studying if you have to
Pic related

>Start working out
Don't see how that's related. I'd feel even worse by working out.

>faggot
ok

>Change what you're studying if you have to
Engineering pays well. I'm staying. The degree isn't a problem.

>Harden the fuck up
ezpz. Done! Thanks for the advice!

Also, at least one person in my family has committed suicide. It's not as simple as just "being stronger". Genetics can fuck things up.

how is it going to make you feel worse? You'll feel better about your body image, you'll have more energy, be more alert more often, I'm a depression/anxietyfag too, same boat, upper middle class, intelligent; changing my diet and my habits has helped me immensely, ie Little to no soda, veggies n shit. It may take some time to get to that FeelsGoodMan moment about working out, but it comes I assure you.

Engineering pays well, but does it make you happy? Obviously you're not going to get your dream job of playing video games and banging models but you can at least do something that you at least like. I was in computer science as I have always been an avid PC enthusiast, it is neat to know but as a job? hell no. I switched to carpentry and am aiming to become a contractor and have never even looked back twice at my decision to switch.

You have the time, you have the means, as you can tell money already isn't everything you need to achieve happiness.


Faggot was obligatory Sup Forums comment.

Yeah man I believe you. It's not necessarily your life that's shitty - it's that shitty disease.

Do you have a good psychiatrist? Honestly I believe before you need to "man up"/"pull yourself together"/whatever some people might say you need to get that sorted out first in the best possible way.

If you have shit on your eyes, the whole world looks brown.

also holy shit dat pic
got a name with that?

It would make me feel worse because that is not my identity. I'm not a weakfag. Building muscle sounds ridiculous. Never drank soda, by the way. I'm borderline vegetarian as well.

I like engineering because I want to create something meaningful to help humans. I'm on the "AI will destroy humanity" boat, so I feel some kind of duty to apply my knowledge and aptitude for the humanitarian cause.

Next semester I will probably have more time to increase the intensity of my training, but I doubt it will make a huge difference.

>video games and banging models
Not my type. My main objective is to do something meaningful. I'm working on that. Too bad I hate my past.

The bipolarity is controlled, but I need to take the usual precautions, including not drinking coffee. (Coffee free since 2012.)
I wouldn't say I have shit in my eyes. My childhood and teenagers kind of destroyed my sense of worth. It's more like living zombie-like. No filter. Just illusion-less.

No name.

Sorry, had to mention we got dubs thrice in a row in this thread.

I'm not saying you have to go full body building, but staying active is pretty important to mental and physical health. Being thin and eating healthy isn't enough.

I feel you. Do you have a psychiatrist to talk to? If you have the money it can help a lot to have someone who isn't family or friend to have some real talk with.

video games and banging models was just an example, I was just saying stay realistic in what you switch to in pursuit of happiness. Keep working hard and you'll find your passion. People always say 'find your passion' which I think is complete bullshit. Work hard at something, get good at it, then the passion comes. What do you do with your down time?

do you have friends now? is that what you mean by support?

also I don't know how old you are but I lost my virginity at 23 when I thought it might never happen.
afterwards I knew it was no big deal and sex is just sex but I know being a virgin can really be a burden...

>be me
>work at warehouse
>get college offer in other state
>yay going to college
>tfw nobody parties
>is engineering sch
>weed legal now in home state
>fuck college
>go back
>smoke w33d everydayyyy
>now making ~30k
>perfect for my lifestyle
>now i just need bitches

Increasing the intensity is high on the priority list. I just don't want to overdo it. I hate burly bodies.

I had a shrink, but I stopped feeling the need for it. Once I was 4 years into shrink visits it got pointless.

>say trouble
>yeah. i recommend this
>ok. ty
>pay.exe

At this point I don't know if talking is the solution. But reaching out massively as with a Sup Forums thread helps me get completely different perspectives.
Random sampling!

I'm working hard on it. I spend a lot of time researching or studying topics that aren't taught in college. (I would list math.stackexchange.com as a hobby.) Working towards academic/scientific goals takes a toll on several aspects of life.

I have friends, but I don't want to spill problems on other people if they don't want. At least in Sup Forums people can just ignore my thread until it's pruned.

I know virginity is not a big deal, but since the label exists, it can lead to awkward conversation topics with other guys.

I'd love to be able to make a decision like that, but it doesn't fit my longterm goals. If I want to keep up with my current financial status I need to go for ~700k, which is my father's income.

He good like that.

Well good luck, u aiming for like engineering or medical?
Or are you intending to be a leech on society and go for legal?

Never legal. I'm a senior engineering student.
>Lawyers: solving the problems they create, while charging you in the meantime.
genius.jpg

I hope that you lose it all so you can see what real life is like you waste of oxygen

>Bump
>Checking those fucking trips

Become a philanthropist but instead of just donating money, actually get involved. Don't not have a job just because you don't need one either. Humans don't yet know what to do when we aren't struggling, so create an artificial struggle for yourself. And if you can help others out on the way, that's good too.

You evidently didn't read the thread. Get back to your beer, envious snake.

checked, checked, checked, checked, checked, checked and checked.

I responded to something here as such: Even if humans don't like me, I want to do a greater good. Bionics is looking good.

This thread is crazy with the dubs. I got 3 of those. And trips.

YOU ARE A 52 YEAR OLD VIRGIN????

That image, tho.

Could this be a sign?

You need to redpill yourself bro.

Stop being such a pussy and go make something of yourself. Life is a do-it-yourself job.

I am doing things. People in my everyday life perceive me as cheerful and supportive. I consider myself a learner and a bit of a tryhard. That doesn't remove the deep sadness I keep carrying around. If people in real life saw my posts, they wouldn't even recognize me.

Do you ever travel?

When was the last time you took in a book, tv show, or movie?

Life aint shit without the arts

You're going to feel empty if you don't have an artistic outlet or a hobby that isn't systematic.

Women, partying, drugs... those don't sound like your thing. You need to do something else. Pick up an instrument, draw, do some metal working.

Me personally I shoot guns, fly airplanes, and travel.

You also might try actually building something instead of studying to build something. I find accomplishment to be very fulfilling.

what does you everyday life consist of?

>Do you ever travel?
Twice a year.

>When was the last time you took in a book, tv show, or movie?
>sht what do
>i'll tell him
I like anime, but I read stuff that isn't novels.

>Life aint shit without the arts
I play guitar, sketch, do some oil painting at time, and have some short stories.

I know it's something from my inside. My perspective is fucked up because I can't see anything I do as good enough. I lived under a shadow, and under a shadow I always feel.

I'm bipolar too and went through something fairly similar. First off, get medicated. It sucks, but the right concoction will make all the difference. Haven't been suicidal in a year for the first time since I was 12 (22 now). Totally worth it, but it took 4 years of trial and error to get to what I'm on now.
Second, be physically active. School fucking sucks a lot of the time. Working a desk job is worse. Choose something that gives you a mix of field work and desk work. You can still sit down, but also get to get out into the sunshine and fresh air. I could do well in school if the winters didn't suck my motivation dry. I chose to become an electrician instead. Doing physical work that takes actual thought and problem solving is the perfect mix for what I need. Find the mix you need (b)to

Tl;dr drugs from a specialist doctor, physical activity, spend time outside. You're not alone

It is honestly a little but slow. I avoid routine as much as possible, but in general it goes like waking up at either 7 or 9. Then the typical stuff. When I'm free by 4 or 6, I go either to fetch the groceries when needed or take a walk. Then sleep between 9-12.

I'm on fluoxetine and lamotrigin. As I answered to another Sup Forumsro above, I might increase physical activity, even though I'll be sacrificing those juicy science hours. My issue with physical work is that it is not "nerd" enough, so to speak. When I'm thinking I even "forget" to see.
I've opted out of driving because I'm pretty certain I will end up causing an accident. I stick with moving on foot or public transportation.

Have you ever told your dad that you feel like you're in his shadow?

...

I did many years ago. I won't do it again because he has the right to be who he wants to be. He does enough for already, and I don't want to burden him with this. I don't want him to change for me.

You need to talk to your dad.

He is the one person who can help you wrap your mind around your emotions. Tell him everything you told me in that post you just typed up. Say it plainly. Tell him you're worried he'll change himself to suit your feelings and that you don't want him to.

All of these feelings of depression are tied to the way you think your father perceives you.

If you don't talk about to your dad then you're just Jesus asking Sup Forums to help hammer you into the cross. This teenage angst "I'm not good enough" crap is a cry for attention as is posting about it on Sup Forums so a bunch of strangers can tell you you're great.

Go talk to your dad

DO IT