So when did you give up trying

so when did you give up trying

between 8 and 10.
Oddly i even remember the exact moment.
i was sitting there at the table and was just like:
Ok thats it, im done trying. Im done talking. I even ralized at that time that i was giving my life and myself up. And since then it has gotten worse. Its been almost 20 years now. Recenty i made an effort to start trying again. fingers crossed lol

so, 9?

>between 8 and 10
>remember the exact moment
well...

lmfao

I don't think I ever did, honestly. Don't recall ever seeing the point.

now that i really think about it it was even earlier, maybe 7. im bad with my memory in that way. but with capturing certain moments or feelings im all too good.

so it was between 6 and 8

15 - 16
now 48

what happened? rejection?

what happened? a horny uncle?

you know your numbers, jimmy

I will never give up im just too twisted in the head haha xD :3

Tried to be a normie, or at least a semi-normie up until I hit 30. No use even trying after that.

>mfw every post in this thread starts from 71

dont try to be a normie. i reject that as well.
try to be true to yourself. in touch with yourself. its not about your history or what other humans think about you. disconnect from that shit. Stop being trapped in the neverending thinking process, which only keeps blaming you, pittying you. its about you right know in this moment and enjying what you are doing even if its scrubbing the toilet.
you can use your pain that has accumulated to radiate warmth, to impact others in a giving way.

when I couldnt get a job, lost my fiance, got sober and am going to become a hated minority in my own country. only 20.

hallo

you have all your life before you

When it was only acceptable to try to be "normal", and "normal" got too sick.

nope, done too much living already; i've seen what rock bottom looks like in myself and others. my future and the futures of the generations after me are doomed.

>to impact others in a giving way.
Or I could just smoke pot and drink vodka.

Yeah, that seems a more doable plan.

pain doesn't manifest into kindness to others.

20 years old. Realized everyone was a piece of shit, dropped out of college, started drinking. I'm a virgin, no friends or family. Life is shit and I'm basically waiting to die.

normal is a lie and a trap.
respect yourself.

>life is shit
you're too young to know what life is.
you're opinion is irrelevant

>Realized everyone was a piece of shit
>no friends or family
I feel you Sup Forumsro we were not given much of a world to appreciate.

Can't remember the exact moment, but was after i passed 20, realized the "real world" was shit, got depressed, got into drugs, fucked up almost every aspect of my life. Got clean about 7 months ago and recently started trying again. Shit's harder than STAYING clean. Gonna get some weed this friday cause fuck it.

try growing up in the late 90's and early 2000's. try being our age and seeing everything you all left for us. try being external and look at how everyone older then us ruined everything and continues to drag us even as we reach adulthood.

it can. with a great body of pain also comes a great potential in everything you decide to put your weight in. the pain can also equip you with empathy like nothing else can.

yep seem that way. it will leve you empty tho and at some point the search for yourself will continue

i have to say i even can relate. i also have to say: stop being a bitch and stop crying. QUIT self loathing and thinking the same negative thoughts over and over again. also be careful what you wish for. a real rock bottom might come sooner than you think

dont. you will regret it
im quitting the weed as well.

join a sport instead

I get the empathy part but there's nothing about pain, true pain, that lets you reach a potential you couldn't without it.

i think that he means he know the moment but forgot how old he was at that time

Hey bro, been clean 4 and a half years. Shit rules now. Its work and there are some rough patches. But thats life. dont quit

havent given up yet. But everything you were told that doesnt matter actually matters.

for instance. social skills are very important. i cannot pass an interview because my speech skills are stunted and i dont look white.

a friend i knew for a long time on the other hand never passed high school, smoked weed and scrapped by his way through a restaurant job while getting attention from girls, being included in parties, complained about being depressed, then met some other people like himself and finally got a job movie editing for some agency. He gets out a lot and has a life. Sometimes i see smirks coming from him when i mention sending out resumes and other shit.

actually you really can get great power from pain. As someone who is very sensitive to everything since i was born just let me tell you this. but i never said you were unable to reach whatever you have in mind without it.

Are there actual forums that deal in this kind of depressed cunt crap?

focus on yourself.
try making peace with yourself and calming yourself. stop comparing with whomever. exercise is a much needed first step.

as soon as you are on the road to self acceptance an interview will be no problem anymore. just start working on yourself while loving yourself.

Too young? I'm not 20 now, I was 20 then. Reading comprehension, my dude. Try it sometime.

I appreciate the sentiment but I've been at rock bottom many times. And I can't just change how I think. That's not how thoughts work.

the trick is not thinking. thinking is your ego talking. and this ego will never be satisfied even if you are sucessfull and rich. but you have to learn to stop thinking all the time first.
check out eckhart tolle

when the bank seized my money and went after me for fraud

mind telling your story for us?

Just because you're old doesn't mean you know anything.

funny, this event actually occurred this morning.

>3k in the bank saved from military pay
>have been transferring funds between accounts
>deposit large sum of money
>go to lunch
>card declined
>call USAA
>investigation ongoing for fraud
>money seized
>idk what to do

so you didnt commit fraud right?

thats what the investigtion will conclude then. enjoy civilian life my friend

i have no faith in the system. All my money for bills is gone. I had to open a new bank account with a cash advance from credit card.

idk how it works in the us but id suggest cooperating aggressly to demonstrate your innocence.
cant you ask a friend or family or a fellow soldier?

im asking around

alright keep calm bro im positive it will sort out.

i need to go sleep now
i hope i could at least help one of you out

>16
stopped caring about everything. before that I went outside quite often and socialised like a semi-normal human. now I go out to buy weed/psychedelics/alcohol.
I kinda feel schizophrenic tbh

I feel schizo also and I can tell you the psychedelics are not going to help with those feelings and thoughts you are having sure they are fun and eye opening experiences but I feel my experiences have caused me more harm than good, 21/yo. Also in response to op I guess I probably gave up when I was around 12. mental illnesses are probably what gets the best of me but I have not went to be diagnosed with anything and it was at 17 when I realized that I am a pos and always will be, it is just something you have to accept and grasp on to and try to better yourself