Why should you kill yourself user?

Why should you kill yourself user?

because im a living failure

>Never had job
>Never had gf
>No friends
>On computer 24/7
>Burden to society
>Haven't been happy in 4 years

For mother Russia

I will not kill myself.

I haven't suffered enough yet to do that.

You are succeeding in being alive

I would but that's what they'd want
and I don't want to let them win

even extreme living cripple monsters are capable of that

Who are them mr schizo?

Beats another 60 years of the alternative.

Even if you're suffering don't give but instead fight. I know you have it in you.

Because my sanity is disintegrating. The things I learned last two times I came back from the abyss of completely breaking down are fading and I hate the meds. Each time coming from the abyss is harder. I'd rather die than live through it again and I don't want to be medicated into being a cucumber. Before I fall back into madness, I will end it.

Cos 2 years ago I was trying to be all sexy and licked my gfs dildo but then she told me it was her gay flat mates ass toy and he never cleans it and. Ow get weird words all around my lips. Bitch still laughs at me every time I have a breakout

You should cut everything off. Take a break, get a new career / education. Might be alright after that, who knows

xD ffs user. Didn't mummy ever tell you not to lick stray dildos

Money is an issue. I'm too proud to be a useless person on medical disability. I know I'm near the abyss when my glitches make it hard to keep my job, and even herder to get another job, and people nearly demand on a regular basis to get help. I thought the 2nd trip back to sanity was my last. I thought I won the fight against madness. Reality is bleeding. I'm enrolled in some new age therapy, hippy-dippy shit. It slowed my disintegration but I can see the edge of the abyss. I fear madness more than death.

>Attempts to be sexy by doing the gayest thing ever, literally licking an artificial penis.
>Get's smited by god instantly

Fucking kill yourself now, it's not looking any better.

>20 khv
>NEET
>Depressed
>And more shit

>Virgin detected
Once u get a girl son you will understand how sexy dildo licking is. Now go and do your homework like a good little 12 Year old.

No-one else can compete.

fuck off mods or whatever faggotry this is

I'm 20 and not a virgin. Sure she was all kinds of fucked up in the head and had literally just come from a relationship where her partner was an obese rapist, but she was skinny so it counts. We dated for 3 years.

she had never seen a flaccid penis before and thought they were always hard, lol.

Glitches?

Did u lick her dildo?

Sounds like you need some alcohol in your life

She didn't have a dildo until I bought her one. And no I didn't lick it. Who fucking knows what obese rapist diseases she might have had. She's lucky I ate her out with dental dam.

fagit

get some weed you fag and grow a pair

I didn't lick the rubber so I'm gay. Fine logic sir.

*Rubber Penis

I become kind of OCD-ish to try to make some order in my mind, to cling to reality. Sometimes I cannot tell when a sound or something I see is a hallucination or not... when someone witnesses me interacting with a hallucination. Hallucinations are weak when you can ignore them, they fade the more you ignore them, become more real when you don't. I also have nerve ticks more and more as reality bleeds more. When I am near the edge of the abyss, sometimes the not-so-real speak through me. Last time I lost it, my roomie said he thought I was in my room with a few people. He peeked in to see I was alone.

What did obese rapist to do grill to make her think she was rapped?

Most of you guys are 15 to 25. Educated and capable.

Why SHOULD you kill yourselves? You have it pretty good go outside you knuckleheads

I tried self-medicating that way. I have to smoke myself useless to calm the war inside. Every once in a while, weed makes it worse.

>go outside
Ever heard about agoraphobia?

Anyone ever fucked a goat?

>tfw breakup again

Cruel.

That is part of how I dull my mind into slowing down the disintegration. The more I think, the faster I fall apart. Unfortunately, work requires being sober.

Don't even sound that bad tbh. Easily manageable. You just need to get it into your head yourself that's its manageable. Stop dwelling on your own state of mind all the time. Distract yourself with stuff. Look forward to something. Stop being a self sympathizing faggot

Actually beat the shit out of her. He once fucked her ass while he forced her head into a lake. He tore her ass so bad it always bleeds huge amounts when she shits. She was once hospitalized for 3 days after a "visit" to him.

She was 13 at the time and had only gone to catholic school until that point. When he said he was going to shoot up with his dad's (a local deputy, whom he often used as a bargaining tool, claiming his dad would cover it up) the school if she told anyone, she believed him.

She thought it hurt men if they didn't have sex enough.

So what did he do? Actually rape her. I knew her for a year while they dated. Unless she was downright sociopathic and managed to trick hospital staff into agreeing with what she said, I've seen the evidence.

You sound like me, exactly like me, to myself the 2nd time I came back from falling apart and decided to stop taking my prescriptions. My prescriptions make me too much zombie to really live or be employable. You think I am not fighting the trip to the abyss? I'm keeping it together as long as I am now BECAUSE I am fighting. I don't even want to be labeled as ill. I refuse to accept it... until I fall apart. This time, I end it before I lose control of my mind completely. I'd rather die than be a medicated zombie shuffling out of the hospital again... after experiencing the abyss again.

I bet the sex is hot

no

She just laid there mostly.

Don't believe the crazy girl hype.

>
>>Never had job
>>Never had gf
>>No friends
>>On computer 24/7
>>Burden to society
>>Haven't been happy since 2014
>>+poor and ugly from the third world

Same here

Because I'm a grown ass man (26) who's doing fuck all with his life
The last time I even had a job was about five years ago at a gas station and I only lasted the one day
Halfassedly thinking about going back to school and I'll probably end up just continuing to put it off

Eh... you got the bad crazy girl lay. Last two crazy girls I had (one was a cousin) were awesome lays. I didn't think the crazy was so bad until after it got sexual. Then, the crazy went to stalker crazy. If you think that is not so bad, come back to me when someone is stalker-crazy with you. Because of my cousin, most of my family shuns me. Because of my other nutty ex, I lost every female friend because they feared being around me... and one of my female friends lost her dog as a "warning" to not be around me.

Just have no friends. That's why most of us are in this thread in the first place.

Guess that's another reason not to commit incest dickwad

You sound a little like me also. My family and friends have been telling me to go get medical help for a while, but I don't wanna be put on medication and labelled as ill. So I've been putting it off for months. And I honestly think the less you think about it, the more you distract yourself, the better you become.

EXACTLY! The Jenga tower starts falling apart when you start slipping up, interacting with things you mistake for shared reality that are only your reality... when reality bleeds. The 2nd time back to this reality, sanity again, our shared reality, I thought I won. It turns out, the battle never ends and the demons are tricky... metaphorically speaking.

Fine, Judgy McJudgerson who Judges. Incest was not my idea, but when my hot and crazy cousing keeps opening the opportunity... you would have done the same thing unless you are made of stone.

I'm rape GF guy, that guy is not me.

I would have done my cousin in a heart beat.

When I was 14 or there abouts, I saw my cousin (female, about 12?) molest my neighbor (also female, about 5?). I went kind of nuts on her and she didn't come around after that.

Bat shit crazy, but damn if she didn't come on to me a few times before then. I shoulda jumped when I had the chance.

Your loss... (con) of hot sex, and (pro) of crazy cousin experience. Good thing for you, crazy incest sex is REALLY expensive, metaphorically speaking. At least there is a silver lining, the memory is great fap material. Every day price is greater though. It's kind of getting Herpes from the best fuck you ever had.

Or the shitty dildo of your gf's gay roommate, as the case may be in this thread.

I have been having hallucinations for the past 2 years. Left college because of them, I couldn't focus.
I have weird ones, good ones and scary ones.
Weird ones:
Everything is wet and walls start blending in with doors ,cant understand myself or anyone
Good ones:
Giant butterflies flying around
with giant trees
Scary ones:(i have injured a person because of this)I get a sinking feeling and start hearing a high pitch sound after that everything around me starts melting
Because of this I cant leave my house and I don't want to go to the doctor to get this diagnosed.
If my hallucinations start becoming worse I will end my life

>can't tell if attention whore, or actual bullshit is legit to be on /b.

get help and come back to /b. share your rehab stories.

Unique ones. Sounds like it would make good art.

I have a friend who see's and hears things. She see's a "Dark man" (when I told her about slenderman back in the day she lost her shit because she thought it was real) and she also see's dead dogs and cat's everywhere.

I'm not going to a doctor don't want to be diagnosed

I don't think of it as art because my life got destroyed

Sometimes they can fix it just fyi

I'm not saying it is art.

I'm saying putting it down on paper helps a lot of people, and gives the outside world an expression of what you're going through. Many schizophrenics have sold art of what they see or feel, and they have sold very well.

It gives you sense of control and power over what you see as well, because you have the power to put on the paper, or not.

Might as well make some art out it. Why not? All the best artists are mad

test

Cute kid

Schizophrenia and clinical depression

Right now I'm in the mindset that if i stick through and do something with my life It'll be the biggest "fuck you" the world has ever seen
Fuck you i did it
Fuck you i made it
Fuck you, you couldnt drag me down

But deep down i know im gonna fall into a depressive episode and end it at latest before the end of 2017

I've seen what happens to people like me on medication, it turns you into a zombie and worst case is being locked up in a mental hospital

I agree when you guys say its difficult
I often have visual allucinations of shadows following me and sounds of laughts when nobody is in my house
My life (until like 1 year ago) was cold and devoided of any color, and it didn't help that some guys loved to bully me.
Then a feeling started to grow. A single feeling. Hate, absolute hate
It started growing and growing until, eventually, it slip out of my control.
I was getting bullied by those guys, then my visiĆ³n went dark, almost black.
When i knew what i was doing, i had beaten 3 of them, and the last one was being choked by me. They ran and never bothered me again.
Now i try to keep composture in front of my family and friends, but i know that someday i will not be able to control myself and i will end the life of the one who i like and love, but i have to move foward for them, until i find a reason to live
I hope that you can find the reason to keep going, but you have to endure until that moment
Good luck

I'm not that good at drawing I'm a musician i play the piano and I'm a pretty good poetry writer

Thanks Damian

You think the world owes you something. You are in control of your own life. Live on your own terms

He is in control of his own life insofar as someone can be in control of the individual neurons of the brain. Insofar as someone can be in control of the proteins that make up their body.

something are outside of our control. We are predestined to our end based on the physics of an uncaring world. The only thing we are owed is the return to the void from whence we came.

Well, my name is actually Bastian :)
Also, i would recommend you guys to find something to full the empty spaces in your day. It can be anything: sports, games, even porn if you like xD
But dont give the shadows the meaning they want to have in your life, and you can overcome it

Fuck off your high horse you havent a clue what you're talking about.

What's the saddest youve ever been? Your g/bf broke up with you? Your dog? Maybe parent died?
When did you last get that pit in your stomach that told you life wasnt going to be okay. When was the last time you were so sad that when you walked everything felt slow, and your body was heavy, like you were walking through honey. When was the last time you'd the impulse to just jump out a window, end it all in a blink.

I felt that the day before yesterday.

For no reason.

Thats why I want to die.
Not cos the world owes me something.

Hey man, all you gotta do is live on your own terms. Just get some dub dub and all your problems will go away. Your mom does have a multi million dollar do nothing job lined up for you, right?

Sarcasm if you couldn't tell.

What the fuck does that even mean.
>Live on your own terms
Anons always say this thinking theyre fucking brilliant, theyve cracked the code of life and are living it. But it means literally nothing.

I'm never sad because of anything in particular.

I wake up
Im fine
I wake up
Im fine
I wake up
The window looks appealing

I'm schizophrenic.
Im attacked at night by horrible visions of ghosts.
Ive cut my legs up during these attacks and i dont even remember it.

"Live on my own terms"
I already fuckin do i do what i want but theres very little a depressed 27 year old schizophenic wants to do.

Men, everybody important to you will eventually die
But you know who will not die before you for sure? You
Thats why i will live the way that makes me better. I will improve myself. I will do the best i can to protect my family and friends, and thats why i will crush my enemies.
I know its a hard mentality, but is the best to start to get out of the pit

What if nothing makes you feel better?
What if the only thing that makes you feel better actually hurts you long term?
What if you have no friends or family to protect?
What if you scared them all away because "protecting them" meant finding out who was behind the vast conspiracy controlling their lives?
What if you're brain is your worst enemy, because it's constantly trying to kill you?
Everything you do to it, hurts you too? When you try and get better, well, see point 1.

If trips suicide next week.

I was like you some time ago (like 2 years)
What if nothing makes you feel better?
Man, if you say that, you havent tried all the thing to do or you dont have the mentality to see them. Dont you ever liked a song? Or the beauty of the city at night? Or that girl that you casually look out of interest? Its all about them
What if the only thing that makes you feel better actually hurts you long term?
There is some way that it will not hurt you. Damn, even if you want to see corpses you can be a medic (forgot the specific term)
What if you have no friends or family to protect?
Then you go out and find some new friends, that you can call family (even i have 2 or 3 or them)
What if you scared them all away because "protecting them" meant finding out who was behind the vast conspiracy controlling their lives?
The thing is, they arent ready to know. You dont have to say it, because they will know eventually
What if you're brain is your worst enemy, because it's constantly trying to kill you?
Thats when controlling yourself is the importante part, you see, the human brain can only proccess a certain ammount of emotions. You will have to re-do your life, because you cant do the same and expect better results.
I know its easy to say it, but is because i overcame it that i can pass that to you
I think youre ready for a change

You don't know a thing about me. Yeah i said something a bit irrational and stupid, but I'm just trying to give a bit of advice and comfort. As a matter of fact, yes I am clinically depressed, have serious anxiety disorders and have a number of mental disorders. Most borderline, but collectively they are a fucking strain. My life is a fucking mess and i do constantly debate ending it all. Don't assume.

Like you don't assume he can just cowboy up and be fine?

I was trying to give a bit of support. It might help someone to just hear a few supportive words.

...

Road to hell is paved with good intentions.

Because my baby girl is not even 1 month old, and I'm already dreaming of when she turns into a loli

Because I found a good opportunity for myself, and I want to just try this one last thing. If I fuck this up as well then I will.

We're already dying. One less day is a blessing to all of us.

Suicide should be legal and taken as an opportunity to make capital.

Existing is not a life.

Which answer do you want?
>Society as we know it is decline and could lead to the apocalypse
or
>Life is pointless and you'll be forgotten in 100 years unless you make a huge mark on society

>emotionally leech off of everyone around me
>dump grills I actually manage to pull as soon as things have been serious for a while
>still complain about being lonely
>purposely make other people feel dumb even though they're usually more intelligent than I am
>being a manipulative cunt is all I'm good at
>spend all day playing overwatch and doing drugs to forget who I am
>recognize flaws but don't have any drive to actually change for the better
>tfw I contribute nothing to anyone or anything and don't make an attempt to
>tfw I'm killing myself with substances anyway so it doesn't really matter

no, if you keep on being a cog in the machine the jews actually win!