Tfw starved for affection

>tfw starved for affection
>28 yr old virgin, can't make friends
>work all day then sleep and cuddle with blanket
>no friends since 9 years old
>just want to be up against someone's naked body

user, the only thing you want to do in this situation is buy one of those sex robots, or translate your life to VR porn. You can't escape the failure that's been embedded into you. No matter how much you try you will always fail. And that's the sad truth. We've all tried. There's no point.

>want friendship
>want naked body

well.... those two things aren't mutually exclusive but where they overlap there is a vast and dynamic space in between where you need to learn to navigate and experience.

>19 years 5everalone

welp. Become a cereal killer or something. At least you'll be killing people.

>5everalone

Newfag get out

well it's a little too late now, but you should have literally starved for affection to be a qt3.14

Put on tights and short skirt, shave your butt hole and post on CL. Good luck.

Too late? Suicide time now?

if your face is young-looking you chould still do it.

Shave your body, lose weight, just look better in general.

You ain't even gotta go through all that. I have never failed to get dicked down by posting on CL and I'm a 6'4", 320 lbs. 35 year old masculine black man with facial and body hair.

There's definitely men on CL ready to fuck the shit out of you and cum down your throat, all you have to do is ask nicely, and either have a car or be able to host (because most of them are either losers who still live with their parents or they're married men with stay-at-home wives.

im pale, 5'6", 105 lbs, really young face, 18 years old (and i shave, ofc)
too bad i don't have a car

You got it made, then. More guys come out for the twink/swimmer build. You're young, slim, sounds like mostly hairless or completely hairless. If I post and get 10 replies, you should be able to post and get 50 replies. If 90% of replies are flakes (they usually are), that gives you potentially 5 real guys who want to let you enjoy their cock every time you post.

Because of your natural gifts, many more of those will be willing to either host, drive/use their car, or even pay for a room (I've only had a guy pay for a room to get with me two times, every other time either I hosted or they did... I'm too big for car play beyond blow jobs sadface.jpg)

If you're more interested in being the top, have no fear, just look for posts by hosting bottoms who are looking for twinks. If you were in Tucson, I'd probably fuck you myself :p

This is going to sound cliche and worn out advice, but here is what you really should do, from one Sup Forumsro to another;

Drink tons more water than anything else, go for brisk walks/jog 2-4 times a week.

Drinking the water will give you better skin and sleep and make your body feel better, going for the walk/jog/run will make you healthier, energized, and boost your confidence that youre actually making progress with something.

those two improvements combined are guaranteed to attract other people, in one way or another.

Also, get a neat haircut and shave your beard/scruff. It makes you look more approachable.

sniff, in florida.
I'd hate being a top, i want to be punished for anything, every aspect of my life controlled, but super shy lol

MC Ride is that you?

Dead serious here: create a fetlife account, put a real pic up there, best bet is a face pic but it's okay if you don't feel comfortable with showing your face at first. As soon as you have a real pic or two and at least a couple of paragraphs in your bio, and of course have ticked off the check boxes for who you are and what you're looking for, go to groups and search your city/metropolitan area. Join groups relevant to your interests, be mindful of each group's rules, start posting and getting to know people.

It sounds like you could benefit very well from the sort of communities you find on fetlife. It's like FB for people who are uncomfortable seeking compatible partners elsewhere for any number of reasons. And don't be intimidated by the site, it's not all about whips and chains and shit.

Good luck, user!

>MC Ride

I don't even know what that is :3

thanks man, I will check it out !

I just googled it. Nah, I don't look anything like that. More like a lighter skinned Rick Ross with a bit less beard lol

Rick Ross is sexy.

When you do, shoot a friend request to ClosetSissy215 (I used to live in Philly, only been in tucson since September).

Getting that first confirmed friend connection on your profile has a subtle way of making people treat you more genuinely, like it validates that you're a real person and not JUST trolling for sex.

As a 28 year old virgin starved for affection I can relate.

As a top in the BBC era, sure. But try getting a white top to fuck you when you're a big scary black guy into raceplay who prefers white tops. Still, CL has (almost) never let me down - and by 'let me down' I mean the times when I couldn't get a white top and had to settle for black or hispanic. Sad thing is, when I'm in a rare top mood, my seven inch dick isn't big enough for the BBC fetish size queens, they all want 9 or more =/

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I like big black guys and don't care if the dick is huge. I'm more into the big body. I want to be dominated. I'm more into black guys because I grew up with many of them and all my sports coaches were black. They were the strongest male influences for me

if you're 5'6" or taller, and weigh more than 105 you're daddy asf anyway

That pic is pretty close to my body type if I suck my gut in.

I definitely feel you on why you're into big black guys. My predilection for white tops is similar. My single mother used to work 2 and 3 jobs to keep me in a decent neighborhood so I grew up around white people and went to white-staffed public schools. All of my male influences were white men and all my childhood crushes were white girls. Now I'm married to a white woman, have one child with her, and all of my bisexual faggot urges are still centered around fantasies involving white male superiority which is in turn centered around fantasies involving white cock (especially the rare uncut gem I find on CL once every blue moon).

so you are either a tiny feminine twiglet or a daddy?

My home life was pretty undisciplined and when I joined baseball and football teams at age 10, they were the same coaches for both sports and all black. They made us address them as sir, made us do pushups, yelled at us, made us run, it was like a bootcamp. I hated it at first and the coaches called me soft and I was. I was hardened through all of that and respected them.
All that time I never had gay thought, not even in high school.
Wasn't until college that I had an encounter in a locker room with a black guy and we talked for a while as he stood there completely naked, stroking his enormous dick. About a half hour of that and then i couldn't hold back anymore and had to touch it and put it on my face and in my mouth. Ended up with a fuck buddy. Shorter than me but bulky

Pic is not actually him or even that similar.

More like this guy

tiny feminine twiglet

That's pretty a pretty hot first encounter.

My first gay activity happened before I ever touched a girl. My mom worked at an adult bookstore/theater, Red Barn Books in Berlin, NJ. The theater/booths ran on VHS tapes and when the manager would rotate out the old tapes, she saw he threw the whole box in the dumpster. She had a bunch of freak ass friends, so she asked if she could take it instead to sell to her peeps, and he let her. So I come home one day and there's this huge box on the dining room table. She tells me to mind my business, don't worry about the box. As soon as she went to her 2nd job, I open the box and find dozens of porn vids. I'm 13 at the time, hormonal, puberty, etc. I watched everything. Straight, lesbian, gay, trannies, fetish shit with people pissing on each other, the only thing that disgusted me was scat porn. I watched and fapped to EVERYTHING else. Throughout the week, the box would dwindle as she sold tapes off, but every Friday after school there was a new box. Eventually, I told my buddies about it and 3 of them came over to watch porn for the first time, Ronnie, Dave and John. We'd do this 2 or 3 times a week after school. Few weeks goes by, Dave ends up being the brave one and suggests we stop being pussies and just jerk off while we're watching instead of them running home to beat off after 20 minutes. So we do. I've already seen more than enough on screen dick so the whole time I'm sneaking peeks at them, mosty at Ronnie who is uncut and I've not seen that yet.

Afterwards, we've all shot our loads into some paper towels and it's all awkward. The next time, Dave and John don't want to come over because the whole jerking off together was 'kinda gay'. Ronnie is still down, asks can he invite one of his buddies, this dude Carlos. Carlos is white, but his parents are white immigrants from Spain, hence the name. I say sure.

TBC

Couple days later, Ronnie shows up with his buddy. We watch some porn, jerk off, go catch up with Dave and John to play football, business as usual. Fast forward a few months, Ronnie's dad gets a job in another state, him and his family move. Now it's just Carlos coming by to watch porn. Once, I'm pretty sure he catches me watching him jerk off while I'm stroking myself, but he doesn't say anything. I get nervous, but emboldened. Next time he comes over, I 'accidentally' have some tranny porn playing. He freaks out, I play it off and put on some straight shit. Not to be deterred, a couple times later and I broach the topic: has he ever had sex before? "No." Has he ever thought about doing stuff with another dude, like not gay, but just to get off? (lol @ not gay, right?) He says no, but he doesn't freak out real crazy, so I kept pressing. Eventually, he agrees we'll blow each other - but I have to go first. I'm okay with that, but he has to warn me before he cums. He agrees.

We put on straight porn, sit on the couch next to each other and start jerking off. I'm mostly watching him, his eyes are locked on the screen. I get down on the floor and suck him off. He does not warn me, he just nuts right in my mouth. It's my first time, so I don't know how to recognize that he's about to cum. I'm pissed, spitting cum out all over the place, cussing him out. He apologizes, says he forgot. "Okay, your turn," dick is diamonds, ready to receive my first blow job. "I don't know man... This is kinda weird." I'm pissed, he leaves, I sit down and jerk off.

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Few days later, he comes by after school again. We're watching porn, jerking off... I still want my blow job. He reluctantly agrees, but I have to go first, again. Promises to warn me. Again he cums in my mouth. Again he refuses to blow me. Pissed, he leaves, I jerk off. I am ashamed to admit this exact same scene played out 3 more times because I was gullible, naive, and really wanted my blowjob. In the end, I didn't even ask anymore. We had developed a silent understanding that 2 or three times a week after school, plus every Saturday, Carlos was coming over to get his dick sucked and I eventually just surrendered to swallowing his load. Saturdays usually began with him showing up around 11am, getting his dick sucked, us going out to play baseball/basketball/football or ride bikes with Dave and John, and him coming back to my place for another blowjob before going home at night. Summers were even crazier. This went on for three years until my mother and I moved. By that time, I had already gotten pussy but was still sucking his dick on a regular basis. When we moved to Philly, I discovered Craigslist and lied about my age to continue sucking cock. Strangely, I did not give up my ass until I was in my late 20's.

Wow that's better than the Sears catalogs I had. I didn't even have internet in high school.
I guess I actually did have some budding gay thoughts during high school. There was one 6'5 black kid with a long dick I saw in the shower, on my football team.
I just marvelled at it but never did anything or fantasized much. If I had had porn, I bet I would have started much earlier. I don't know if there were any gay masculine guys in school because I wasn't looking. I knew the flamboyant cheerleader types but no one else.
Most of my classmates were black and I could have been getting some all those years possibly.
Wouldn't have cared if he was the same age. It would have been hot to get fucked by the high school guys when I was in middle school. There were some beasts, guys benching close to 400 lbs, real muscle men and big linemen.

Also never had any desire to fuck a guy or get dick sucked by a guy, just women. I self insert as the woman.

>cereal killer

How can OP kill a box of cereal? It's inanimate you fuck tard!

lol before the porn boxes, my outlets were Sears, JC Penny and another catalog I can't recall right now, maybe Wanamakers? Anything with an underwear section had my attention!

I think if it wasn't for the porn, I definitely wouldn't have started so early. Probably would've lost my virginity to a female, might never have done anything gay at all if I'd had a woman before I had dick. It's definitely created a weird sort of dynamic for me.

Between the videos and the way Carlos took advantage of me (not that I'm at all angry about it now, I feel grateful to him and if I ever ran into him I'd offer him a bj for old time's sake), but between those two factors, I am perfectly normal/masculine in my straight relationship with my wife, but when I play with men I desire to be treated like the sluts in the videos. Like, when I'm hooking up with a random CL guy and he asks me what I'm into, I tell him some variation of "fuck me like a porno slut" or "fuck me like you paid for it", etc. I want to feel like a woman when I'm with a man, even though I don't crossdress and I know that I would make a god awful ugly 'sissy'.

>I self insert as the woman.

Same thing! To this day, any time I watch any kind of porn, I'm relating to the woman and fantasizing about being treated the way she's being treated. Even the blue room scene. No point fantasizing about fucking a woman, my wife is sexy (no I won't post pictures) and she hasn't ever turned me down for sex except the one time she had food poisoning.

Is this how faggots are MADE?

I never met any cosmopolitan, trendy, attractive to the female eye fags.

Just weird, timid and unattractive males seeking some sort of human contact.

Leave the fly over states, go to places where LGBTQ people don't have to worry so much about hiding their sexuality, and you'll see some of the most attractive men on the planet at gay bars/clubs/events.

Faggot.

It can't be the case always. That happens though

Do you get spit roasted?

*Serial Killer

Only ever happened once. Philly has lots of theaters; at one called Adonis it's basically a bunch of open rooms with 40 inch flatscreens playing gay porn. I was bent over a bench getting railed by this Puerto Rican guy with a crowd of guys watching and jerking off and one got brave enough to come put his cock in my mouth. I hoped it would set a precedent for the other guys but when the first guy finished, nobody took his place. The second guy finished on my face though, which was nice since I didn't ask for it

I was like that when I was like 21-22. I ended up going to CL and being a huge slut. After a little bit I found out that old guys would pay for my body and ended up selling myself a bunch of times. While I stopped advertising myself, I still have 1 client that I see. I also was with an older m/f couple for a long time . She ended up being the first woman I ever was with.
I still go on CL to have sex. I love it.

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What body type?

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What do you look like, post a pic

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I would say short average.
Basically older guys just like being with younger guys or girls.

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