Feels thread?

Feels thread?

What are you doing for Christmas and the New Year Eve?
Me? Nothing

Same.
No friends anymore.

Why?

Going to sleepover at my first cousins house with family.
I have to babysit 6 children because parents are going to work and anniversary.
I'll just do some work for college.

Will be on Sup Forums with you m8

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>tfw alone in your feels thread

Mostly hanging with my brother. Drinking. Smoking. Banging my lady when her husband isn't around. Playing with my pupper who just got diagnosed with hyperthyroidism.

hahaha you think i could even feel anymore?

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r-right?

Trying to get a Girl who didn't Show up to Coffee because she was "too anxious"... I waited an hour in the midst of people....

trying to get talking to this girl from my college
i talked to her yesterday on messenger
>said "hey"
"merry christmas" and just started talking more
but i dunno how to get another conversation started

I have a story I've been typing for some time, this is my life story essentially. Gotta get it off my chest.
>be me
>13
>7th grade
>haven't hit puberty yet
>constantly picked on/ beaten up for it
>chads at my school make fun of me for not having hair on my balls yet
>humiliate me publicly by beating me to the floor in the boys locker room, drag me outside and pull my pants down
>basically constantly humiliated in front of girls
>hate myself, want to an hero
>one day after being beaten to shit on the way home from school, I felt a presence help me back up
>heard the sweetest voice i've ever heard ask "are you ok? do you want me to get you some bandages or something?"
>open my one good eye (one was kinda swollen shut I remember)
>just kinda smiled and said yes
>prettiest thing I'd ever seen
>forrest seeing jenny for the first time is a good analogy
>she held my hand and walked with me to her house
>first time someone who wasn't in my family showed me affection or compassion
>I fell for her right then and there
>she took me inside to her living room couch and sat me down
>brought me some ice, band aids and a glass of lemonade
>just kinda laid back while she iced my face
>that was some warm ice
>end up just watching TV together while she tried to get me to open up and talk to her
>eventually broke down
>close to tears, just tell her everything
>tell her I hate myself, I don't know why people are like that to me, never did anything but be nice to them
>she just hugs me
>after a minute she whispered "well I like you, you're nice and I think you're cute"

>adrenaline.gif
>what the fuck
>I was cute
>a girl liked me
>watched TV until 8 or 9
>she fell asleep on my shoulder
>didn't want it to end
>eventually her dad came home from some dinner thing he went to
>wasn’t mad or anything that I was there
>I think he pitied me
>got home at 9:15 or something
>parents were pissed at first, but they saw that I got beat to hell again and let it go
>start going over to her house everyday after school
>become closer as the year goes on
>her family eventually gets to know me and adores me
>almost like part of her family, over there so much
>gets to the point where we are inseparable
>chads begin picking on her too because she's seen with me a lot
>she doesn't seem to care but I feel terrible because of it
>slowly cut off contact because I hate seeing her get picked on
>She catches on and tells me she doesn't care and to stop
>cave in immediately
>sometimes when I had a really bad day I would sneak over to her house at night and cuddle with her
>thought her dad caught me sneaking over one night, turns out his family knew a lot more about what was going on at school than I thought
>her dad kinda knew already, totally fine with it
>tells me I'm always welcome there
>says just ask if I need something
>cuddle her to bed a lot more

>feelsgoodman
>life went on like this for a while
>summer came and things got better
>did everything together that summer
>got invited on a road trip with her family to the grand canyon
>a lot of the trip was her sleeping on my chest or me sleeping with my head in her lap in the back of a suburban
>when we got to grand canyon national park we spent 5 hours feeding peanut butter crackers to chipmunks with her brother
>walked around some trail with some BS special significance to see the sunset
>it was special to me for a different reason
>held her hand
>basically just walked around smiling like a tard
>trying to go somewhere with no people
>got to this half ledge thing and sat down
>kinda stared off for a while, very scenic to be honest
>then she leaned over on me and whispered
>"you know user, I love you, really"
>kinda froze for a sec
>I don't know why, looking back on it, but I wasn't sure what to say
>she seemed to get kinda nervous
>"do you love me back, user?"
>looked at her and told her that I loved her since the day she put ice on me when I got beat up
>stared awkwardly at her for a good 60 seconds before I finally worked up the balls to go in for a kiss
>I wasn't very good, but she was
>fucking perfect
>we sat there for a long time after the sun set
>I just held her in my skinny arms
>kissed her a few more times
>we forgot to go back 5 minutes after sunset like we said
>her dad came looking for us but was relieved to see we were just sitting there, not dead or stuck
>kids had their own tents that trip so I got to cuddle her to bed too
>rest of the trip was a haze, don't remember the trip much, but I remember her on the trip
>the rest of the summer was magic to me
>I loved her as much as a 13 (and 14 later) year old could love someone else
>people picked on me less during 8th grade year
>didn't pick on her at all, just tried to steal her away from me
>so many guys liked her, didn't understand why she would want me

forgot pic

>to be fair, I didn't either
>Towards the end of 8th grade year, we figured out that we probably wouldn't be going to the same highschool
>didn't care too much, saw her every day for 5 hours afterschool anyway
>but we promised each other we would be each others homecoming dates and prom dates and everything
>but as highschool went on we naturally drifted apart without realizing
>still close, but couldn't always see each other, busy with school stuff
>she played volleyball and was a cheerleader, which took up lots of time
>eventually, some guy was always around when I came over
>she always insisted it was just a friend, at the time, i'm sure it was
>summer after sophomore year she asks if I'd be ok with her going on a date with some guy
>says it doesn't change anything between us
>IGuessSo.jpg
>obviously, it gets more serious, she eventually becomes his girlfriend
>at this point my balls have dropped, I'm rapidly gaining weight and height
>agressive as fuck, nobody in their right mind dares touch me
>yet I can't say no or even be assertive with her
>just kinda watch as that guy starts to control her more
>he eventually gets her to block normal contact with me
>I came over to her house when he wasn't around to ask her a few things
>she seemed almost surprised that I was there, like I wasn't supposed to show up
>she tells me it's no big deal and she just wants to date around, that it wont change anything between us
>point out we hardly see each other anymore
>she says it's "because she's busy with school and sports"
>I know it can't be volleyball she's going to on sundays
>tell her the guy she's dating is a bad person controlling
>just makes her mad, she yells at me
>start to break down
>tell her I love her and I don't know what I did wrong but I just want things to go back to the way they were

>716176725
She was cuking a Chad

>she says she'll always love me
>hugs me
>says she's gotta go but we will talk again soon
>I wish that had been true
>we never talked again for a year
>I start becoming very angry, start blasting steroids, constantly eating and working out
>I've become the freak I always wished I was so I wouldn't get picked on, but I don't care just want her back
>Everyone at school is afraid of me now
>I have no friends now because I'm 6'4, 215 lbs at low body fat and rage at almost nothing. total dick for little/no reason
>complete asshole to everyone except little guys that get picked on by chad
>got suspended for fighting 4 or 5 times before I start to calm down a little
>life is still generally the same though
>angry about that fuck who stole her away
>towards the end of the year I start hearing about some girl who got in huge trouble because a bunch of nudes and shit of her were leaked and circulating
>Eventually it was cleared because she didn't consent and was apparently sexually assaulted by the guy who took the nudes or videos or whatever
>that's what got my attention, hoping it wasn't her, but deep down it sounded like the exact thing her asshole "boyfriend" would do
>of course, it was her
>I was actually pretty calm the whole day at school I heard the news
>but I was gonna fuck that guy up beyond recognition
>I knew he was a huge stoner and druggie in general so I consulted the kid who I bought my roids from
>he was also a stoner and knew all the other stoners
>he knows his friend and him pretty well
>get the kid to get his address from his friend
>it's fucking going on now
>showed up the friday night of that week at his house
>pretty big party going on

>perfect, nobody will call the cops and I can walk in without raising any eyebrows
>he's in his backyard with some other girl
>I'm sure they were about to fuck or something
>swing at him before he even sees me
>KO'd on the second punch
>sit on him and beat his face in
>That night I felt better, but the next day I knew I may have ruined things with her
>I guess she was relieved I gave him a free facelift because of what she told me next time we talked
>3 weeks later she showed up at my house at night bawling her eyes out
>mad at her but of course I can't say no to the only thing i've ever loved
>let her in
>we sit on the couch and she dumps all her feels
>says she's sorry she left me for him
>said that I was right, he was terrible to her
>apparently he hit her a lot and raped her
>constantly cheated
>made the school think she was a complete whore
>she told me she still loved me and just wanted to go back to the old days
>fell asleep on my couch
>I slept upstairs, I was pretty upset to think she fucked me over like that and now wants me back
>I came down the next morning and she was still there
>I figured I should at least communicate with her exactly how I felt, regardless of how things were gonna end up
>sat down and told her we needed to talk
>was honest about everything and told her she really fucked me up when she left me for that guy
>of course she was apologizing profusely the whole time
>She gave me that look, like at the grand canyon
>"user, do you still love me?"
>fucking melted right then and there
>since then I've been talking to her again regularly, she always wants to see me
>i'm kinda torn though
>I still love her

like peas and carrots
>da best film

>more than anything
>but she gave her virginity to the other guy
>something about it just doesn't seem right
>something that was flowing freely before is dried up now
>the next night she came through my bedroom window at 1am or something
>Freaked me the fuck out
>Was about to lunge for my shotgun
>but then I heard a sniffle
>knew it was her immediately
>"sorry user, I just needed to come see you"
>she kept telling me she was sorry and she loved me
>crying hysterically the whole time of course
>eventually just told her to calm down, grabbed her and pulled her over to me
>cuddled to sleep
>felt so nice
>she pressed her face into my chest like she used to
>wake up at about 7
>have to wake her up and walk her home so my parents don't come in and freak out for obvious reasons
>She knows how to fucking melt my heart
>Obviously, I still over her. A lot
>I'd gladly sweep her off of her feet and steal her away, but I have just one reservation
>Could she do this again? I know it's not likely but I don't even wanna take a chance
>I won't be able to do this again unless I know she's 100% committed
>decide to drive with her to a mountain ridge that overlooks the city
>just told her I wanted to see her again (even though I had seen her the day before)
>figure I’ll just tell her exactly how I feel and why I’m hesitant to get back with her
>quietly left my house, drove over to pick her up
>got to her house, snuck around back to go to her room
>familiar hand on my shoulder
>her dad stopped me again

>tell me he knows about all of it, appreciates me beating the shit out of that guy
>tells me she’s up all night crying about me most nights
>she’s still a complete wreck from that guy
>he really beat her bad twice towards the end of their relationship
>her dad was trying to track him down but apparently I beat him to it
>tells me she needs me more than anything, and he’s glad i’m still trying after what happened
>ask him why she left me
>he says he has no clue
>go inside, to her room
>just kinda brushed her hair off of her face to wake her up
>she just smiled and got up
>hold her hand and walk out to the car
>I kinda keep the subject on unrelated things on the drive up
>want to save it for when we’re sitting up there
>only thing I really remember about the drive up was almost hitting a massive bull elk
>sit down on a rock wrapped up in a big blanket together
>Feels really good
>you have no idea
>feeling her warmth, cuddled up against me, looking down at the city
>”why do you still love me user?”
>tell her because every little thing she does makes me happy
>ever since that day in middle school I just feel like she’s the greatest part of my life
>ask why she left me for that other guy, and tell her it’s the only thing holding me back
>can’t understand why she would do that
>she says (holding back tears and sniffling, gets really emotional now) that she doesn’t have a real answer
>she was just acting on physical attraction and his chad personality took easy advantage of her dumb teenage self
>not some magic fix-all answer I was hoping for
>but she also told me I did nothing wrong and she was sorry for everything
>made me feel better

I wish i could go back to my heart
to that place where it fell apart
that summer you brought me back to life
but sometimes i wish you let me die
Life without you is not the same
I wish you had never let me came
I cant go back to penguin island
but if I close my eyes I still see you smiling

we listened to hilltop hoods all day long
were both insane, maybe thats where we went wrong
first person to care, first person I loved
every single day i thank god from above
but the way it is we cant fix it ever
you said in some world we are still together
maybe that helps you, but i just cry
and I will say im fine but its a lie

I wish I never got on that plane
believe me i wish it every day
I wish my visa hadnt ran out
I wish you came back with me to my house
we both had a hard time saying goodbye
but you stayed loyal, and im a bad guy
maybe youre right in some world its different
but at least now I know love has no limits
-anonymous 12/22/16

>since Sup Forums put it into perspective and I gave it some thought, I realize how childish the whole virginity thing is on my part
>I love her and that's all that matters really
>figure I should just 'make sweet, sweet love to her with my chad body'
-quote from some user in another thread
>not gonna be like that guy, obviously
>wait until she's comfortable again
>started to get windy so I took her home for the night
>fell asleep on the ride back, so I carried her to bed
>she woke up halfway once we got inside
>laid her down on her bed, kissed her on the forehead
>start to walk away, and hear "please stay with me"
>can't resist for a single second
>nothing happened that night, we were both tired, out right away
>wake up next morning
>about 10
>make pancakes in the kitchen, which we used to do a lot after school
>screw around and play fight with all of the ingredients, make a huge mess
>eat and then clean it up
>"you should probably shower, I definitely beat you"
>make some joke about how she cheap shotted me, tell her I have no clean clothes
>"I'm sure I can figure it out, let me show you how to work it and where the shampoo is"
>I was actually too retarded to catch onto that cue
>"I can wash your clothes"
>give her my shirt and shorts
>she tossed them outside and just stared at my SuperChad physique for a sec
>not gonna lie that made me feel satisfied in a cocky way
>looked up at me and smiled
>I kissed her
continue?

>was raped at 13 by four men
>dated 9 girls
>cheated on by 7
>one used me for my money
>had the pole vaulting record in my state at 17
>got hit by a car and messed up my right knee so ill never truly vault again
>havent had sex in 4 years
>family all but disowned me when they discovered I use marijuana to treat my depression
>now working a 9-5 job till I finally put the gun in my mouth
>keep talking about how your lives are shit.

Have you ever thought that you are

Going to a friend's house on Xmas eve with my parents. Plan on gorging myself with food and alcohol. Should be fun.

On NYE I'm going to a party at this rich grill's house. Plan on doing a bunch of cocaine and making regretful decisions.

Overall I'm pretty pumped for the coming weeks. Glad I have friends. Not sure how I would have fun on the holidays without them. Sorry OP :(

Story's kinda gay. And you're a fucking child for not moving on. Even more so for taking roids like a fag instead of working out to move on. I'd rather have pencil arms than a pencil dick like yourself.

Congrats, though, stories in life never end like that.

Just don't go fucking it up with her because of your roid rage, roid balls, and overall over-emotional ass.

I work out twice a day every day. roids allow you to work out more, they aren't a sub for working out, moron.

Keep it comin user

>took her shirt off
>primal instincts and excessive testosterone/DHT levels take over
>carried her to her bedroom and tore the rest of her clothes off like an animal
>I did stop for a moment to just look at her bare body
>I was extremely horny and wanted to absolutely go to town on her, but it was balanced by me being afraid of hurting her or being too rough
>ended up making love to her for almost 2 hours
>totally exhausted afterwards, fell asleep with her on top of me in my arms
>woke up a little while later and went out to lunch
>Took her back home and made love to her on the couch in her living room
>watched TV on the couch together until her dad came home
>he was really happy to see us
>I had to go home for a while, but he asked me to come back for dinner
>Ate pot roast with the stupidest grins on out faces, a few other people came by for dinner
>her dad says pretty much out of nowhere "I really appreciate you and like you, user, I hope you become part of my family"
>I felt at home for the first time in a while
>that night she asked me to sleep with her again
>I was totally depleted after that day, so we pretty much just cuddled
>talked about what we want to do in life
>Talked about our dream house, dream job and what the perfect wedding would be like
>tells me every secret she’s ever kept
>says she doesn’t want anything between us
>asks if I have any secrets or stuff I wanna get off my chest but haven’t told anyone
>tell her I used steroids, but make clear it was light cycles at minimum doses
>tell her how badly I wanted to tear into her like a fucking animal, but was afraid I’d hurt her
>tell her I was afraid I wasn’t doing a good job
>she laughed and said I was more than plenty and was glad I was gentle
>says she doesn’t care about the roads, just wants me to stay healthy
>fell asleep on me like usual
>I was so blissfully happy that night

Yeah, that's what i'm thinking too :(

>fast forward ~two weeks
>she'd been acting increasingly remorseful for leaving me
>if I ever brought up that I was worried about trusting her or I was scared she would get anxious and nervous for the rest of the day
>constantly trying to prove she was 100% loyal
>one night she literally broke down crying on my chest and told me how sorry she was and that she loves me
>told me that if I want to have another girl then she understands and is fine with that
>I calmed her down, obviously, and told her she's all I need, I just am afraid of losing her because I did once and it hurt
>tell her I'll never leave her and I don't want any other
>seemed to make her feel a lot better
>about two weeks after that incident
>my cousin and her aunt were coming to stay at my house
>cousin flew in night before aunt
>I had to pick her up at the airport
>hadn't seen her in a while, she looked like a woman now
>nothing like her but she was attractive
>got her bags and went to my house
>all I did was help her carry bags in and get settled in
>but I didn't tell her my cousin was staying
>she thought I was mad and wanted a second girl
>ran home before I noticed she was there
>call her because I was expecting her to come over about this time
>no answer
>wtf
>head over to her house
>get to her house, walk in
>her dad isn't home
>call out for her
>no response
>walk into her room
>the light is on in her bathroom, door closed

>I can hear muffled sobbing
>knock on the door frantically
>yell her name
>after a few seconds I hear her faintly say "I'm so sorry user. You deserve her, not me."
>ask her what she's talking about
>just more sobbing
>pretty freaked out
>kick in the door
>she's in the bathtub
>the water is bright red
>flipped the fuck out because I thought she had/was trying to kill herself
>grabbed her out of the tub and ran into the kitchen
>set her on the table, trying to find where all the bleeding was from
>she just had a few shallow cuts on her wrist and thigh
>wrap it in some gauze I found under the sink
>calm down a little and realize she's probably not dying or even close
>ask her why she did this
>ask if her old boyfriend did something to her
>she says she couldn't bear to see me with another girl
>ask her what she's talking about
>don't remember exactly what she said, but at this moment I realized she thought my cousin was a girl I was seeing
>explain that she's my cousin
>explain the situation with the airport
>she believes me after I explain
>carry her to her bedroom
>set her down on the bed
>drain the bathtub
>help her get dressed
>broke down because I was so scared just then
>yelled at her
>told her she can't do this to me, I already lost her once and I can't bare to not have her
>the yell eventually reduces to almost soft enough to be a whisper

>tell her I trust her now and I know she would never leave me again
>don't want another girl
>I'm just terrified she'll love someone else someday
>she reassures me that will never happen
>tell her to forget about that guy and leaving me, it's in the past
>I need her now
>eventually reduces to just some sappy "I love you more, babe" shit that would make most of you cringe
>I realized then that the guy she had been with probably fucked her up mentally too, to a good degree
>our relationship has been a lot more stable since
>no more than a few nights after that, she asks if I'll ever marry her
>hadn't thought about that until then, but the thought of it made me pretty happy
>"Sorry, that's probably really pressuring. I didn't mean it like that"
>tell her to shush, and say of course I'm gonna marry her
>her face lit up
>didn't even make love to her that night
>just kinda laid there and felt each others warmth
>slept really, really well that night for some reason
>next morning she asked where I wanted to get married
>brought up the grand canyon
>told her I didn't want to decide yet, but I wanted to go to the grand canyon with her again
>a road trip, just her and I. Soon, asked if she wanted to start planning the trip now
>she said yes right away, got all excited
>spent that afternoon planning a trip out on google maps
>thinking about what it would be like to marry her one day the whole time
>a little while after that we had the trip planned for the day after my birthday
>going grocery/supply shopping few days later
>kinda early but I just love doing stuff with her
>going to costco is fun when i'm with her
>since the trip is still three weeks away, we decided to go on an adventure in a pickup truck to the mountains that night
>put blankets in the back and pillows
>drove up a secluded and scenic mountain road

>laid there and stared at the stars and moon reflecting on a mountain reservoir
>made love beautifully to her there
>eventually fell asleep
>woke up just before sunrise which was cool
>watched it come up over the mountains with her
>told her I'm so glad she came back for me
>promise her I'll marry her one day
>forgot that stuff like that makes her really emotional
>she burst out crying of course
>at least it was a good crying
>held her and told her sorry for upsetting her
>told me she feels loved and is just overcome with emotion
>says she can't wait till we can be married one day
>play with her hair there for a while
>eventually head down the mountain, but wander around woods for a while in the truck
>super cliche, but we carve out names in a heart into a tree
>fast forward 2 weeks
a little backstory first, though
>my parents were fine, obviously they were a little distant and inattentive but they raised me right for the most part.
>we weren't too much of a family though
>my mom was kind of a unpredictable stereotypical liberal
>had these periods of going into a fuck you mode, where she decided she was a "strong independent feminist" and decided to be absent and hang out with these ugly lesbians
>didn't think much of it as a kid, just thought she was a moron for that
>my dad, however, was and is a mormon who has strong religious beliefs and is every bit as stubborn and unwilling to accept other ideas as my mom
>drove them apart over the years
>I can't prove it, but I have a lot of reasons to believe my dad was seeing other women "through the righteous authority of the church" basically a BS loophole that allows you to leave your spouse if they weren't married to you in a mormon church
>long story short, they drifted apart over the years
>eventually just kinda existed together

>didn't divorce for a mutual understanding of how that would fuck everything up for them and me and my little brother
>at this point, my parents obviously know about me and her
>my mom could not give less of a fuck
>my dad disapproved quite openly
>constantly lectures me about how "the holy spirit won't follow me if I do things the church forbids with her"
>tell him to mind his own business and to fuck off, obviously
>at this point he's pretty much sure I'm fucking her
>gets mad when I come back in the mornings now because he knows she's not just my friend anymore
>eventually escalates like this until he has missionaries and the bishop of his church come over to lecture me
>they were waiting for me on the couch after I came home from getting ice cream with her
>asked me to sit down
>began preaching
>about 30 seconds in, I'm too pissed to sit still
>turn red, veins dilate
>shaking slightly
>"user, are you alr-"
>"stand up so fast I knocked my chair back
>blow up, start yelling at them why I think their entire religion is bullshit and why they need to fuck off
>tell them everything I think is wrong with their "church", including the whole 'you can cheat if your wife isn't mormon and your mistress is'
>tell them they are anything but christians
>tell my dad I found someone I love more than anything and if he can't leave me be, we're gonna have a problem
>stop and look around and think for a second
>they are visibly scared, don't respond
>walk upstairs without another word
>called her
>told her everything that happened
>I decided I'm gonna leave home, maybe for just a little while, but I'm an adult now, may as well just leave for good
>told her that too
>I have a job with good income for a kid who's barely college age

>pack all of my meaningful/useful possessions
>put my shit in my jeep and drive off
>made me proud to have worked for pretty much everything I had right at that moment
>I was self made
>I was free
>drove to her house
>she was kinda freaked out, waiting out front for me
>took me inside
>I sat down with her, her dad and sister
>they wanted to know what was going on
>told them the story as bluntly as I could
>they ask what I'm gonna do now
>"well, I've got plenty of money, I'll look for a place to have for a few months here until I go off to college or the military"
>her dad told me he was in a similar situation when he was my age
>said an apartment or condo just isn't the same as having "home" to go back to
>goes on to explain why it's good to go home, not just the place you sleep
>"well, you make a good point, I'm gonna find home then"
>no, user, you don't understand what I'm getting at
>"well, what are you trying to say then?"
>you love my daughter, don't you?
>"well of course, more than anything"
>this is home, user.
>at least until next fall, I want you to stay with us
normally, I would be very hesitant to accept because I'm super uncomfortable accepting things from other people, or having others do stuff for me
>but she was there
>these guys felt like my family
>my little brother was family too, but he was old enough and big enough to fend for himself now
>still had regular contact with him afterwards too
>I never felt so full of joy, so warm inside all the time
>I used to only feel it when I was with her, but now I loved coming home at the end of the day instead of dreading it

>did things like a family, ate, went out, watched TV and had conversations about anything and everything
>got a lot closer even in that first 8 days before our road trip
>her dad seemed to feel some kind of connection to me
>about two days before the road trip, she was having horrible pains from her period
>take her to the doctor
>sit in the waiting room browsing /k/ for about 2 hours
>nurse comes out
>tells me she is being taken to have screening done
>takes me outside big as room with sign that says “ionizing radiation danger”
>kinda freaked out at this point
>nobody has told me what the fuck is going on
>after another hour she comes out holding back tears
>run up to her
>”baby, what’s wrong? what happened?”
>she’s silent for a moment and then says
>”I need about tree fiddy”
>It was about that time that I realized I had become soul mates with an 8-story-tall crustacean from the paleozoic era
>that god damned loch ness monster had tricked me again

the only feelings i have are astonishment

astonished if anyone reads this wall of shit

just finish the story. the ending is sooo much better

Flying out tomorrow morning to spend the Christmas weekend with parents, my wife, sister, brother and their kids.

Lookimg forward to it. We do that every year and it's amazing. Jus rl eax, eat lots of food and catch with everyone.

I'm usually still happy when I get back home because my familiy is very noisy and I like it quiet. But for a few days, it's th best thing in the world.

I love my family.

fuck you got me good

so is this the thread where all the socially awkward virgins gather and circlejerk over how shit they are at life?

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Christmas is SEVERELY overhyped for me. The days leading up to Christmas are more exciting and anxious than Christmas itself.

I'm gonna wake up, open my handful of gifts from mom and pop, use them for the first time for about an hour or so, then it's a regular day after that.

Is Christmas supposed to be an all day thing? Because once all the gifts are open it kind of just becomes a regular day...

>it kind of just becomes a regular day...

well i will do if you just fuck off and play games in your room all day like usual

Need to talk Sup Forumsro?

Fuck you cunt, you got me gud

Wow...

I don't get it. Did she have cancer or something.

nah bruh, she needed tree fiddy

this story had me in fucking tears and then I read this shit...

thread derailed AF

>you will never be this autistic

you kike

get rekt niggers

>Meet soulmate
>Let's call her M
>Geeky, cute af, funny, more intelligent than most people, easily a 9/10, we share our love for literature, films... we like mostly the same music and she wants to get into vidya (but has little time for it)
>Everyday when I wake up I have a text from her saying Good Morning
>We talk about things I had never talked about before and we talk in ways that I had never talked like before
>I'm absolutely convinced that I'll spend the rest of my life with her
>Just so you understand, it's like meeting the one girl you've been daydreaming about since you were 12yo
>Then one day she stops saying good morning
>She doesn't answer to my every message with interesting answers that are clearly meant to continue the conversations
>She doesn't even starts any conversations with me anymore
>I'm devastated, not only because I had a crush on her but because she was the only interesting friend I had, the only one who understood the way I thought and thought the same way
>After a month not being able to move on because I can't figure out what I did wrong I ask her best friend who's a friend of mine
>She says she doesn't know why M has suddenly become cold with me
>We talk about it and she explains that M did like me and shit when we met but not anymore
>but she doesn't know why
>We talk frequently as she tries to help me hit on M or at least recover our friendship
>flash-forward a couple of months
>her best friend ahs become my first true friend and we love eachother (As friends tho, not attracted to her) while M keeps barely talking to me

>mfw I became best friends with my soulmate's best friend

...

Here's something for you anons.
>Be me
>Looking back at my years as a child and as a teenager
>Dad is a usseless pervert fuck,only spoke to me when he wanted new porn pages.
>Mom is a whore who didn't abort me to keep my dad, for her current husband was an alcoholic and needed my dad's money.
>23yo Sister is this virgin SJW's "artist" cunt who acts as if she was 16.
>30yo brother, he was cool and my only role model.
Here's some stories from my half wired family.
>6 at the time.
>Bro turns 20 and is still unemployed.
>Mom raised him like a SJW's wants to be threated, in a safe space
>He's still too shy to do anything.
>Dad wants him out of the house
>Mom gets on an argument with dad
>Dad says "Well fuck you then, I'm out of this house"
>Mom tells me he went to live with someone else.
>I want to see my dad again
>Mom won't let me, write down his number and go the my next door neighbors wihout her noticing.
>Have phonecall with him
>Hear women calling him "Honey" trough the phone
>He did get someone else
>He recognized my voice, I fucking know it.
>He says "Sorry, wrong number"
>Break down
>2 years later, he comes back, he was kicked out for his manners.
>Can't blame those laides either, he's a usseless prick who's too lazy to flush the toilet or say please.
>He needed someone who could stand his existance.
>"As long as you don't bitch about user's brother" said mom
>He agreed
>Started calling him old man since then, never again, reffered to him as "dad"
More?

Every sodding year, Christmas is spent frantically clearing out the back room so that we can have christmas dinner in there. Its always last minute.

So Christmas will be a standard Family Dinner doing that. I of course have no gf to buy nice things for or snuggle up with.

New Years is going to be even worse. All my friends have moved away to London or similar, and I'll probably hang out at home and do nothing.

...

*Lonely pathetic crying*

My favorite feels post.

My baw story, first greentext in a long time
>Am 22
>Had long childhood of abuse in deadend town
>Was in foster care to family that picked me for farmwork
>Break neck in car wreck 2 days before Xmas
>As soon as I am healed enough to walk I am thrown out
>walk 50 miles to closest homeless shelter
>Girl I liked in school asks me to move to Morgantown WV
>When I finally get there I learn she is about to get evicted
>Get job and work hard to pay rent but still evicted
>Bartlett house swag
>Lose job
>Wallet stolen no ID can't get new job
>Introduced to meth
>Start shooting it
>Girl leaves me for dealer
>She fucks black drug dealers and now has her own apartment
>Refuses contact
>I'm cold all the time
>Hungry a lot
>I have everything now except proof of residency to get new ID
>Month clean of meth
>Everything was stolen last week
>Want to use again, feel like nothing will get better, luckily no money to use
>I sleep under a bridge
>I actually want a chance at life, unlike the drunk bums
>I want her back
>I want to have a house
>I want to be warm
>I want to not be looked at like scum

I refuse to beg, I accept help but normally I'm spit on, I am defeated Everytime I try, I just want to die but I'm unwilling to do it

I know it doesn't matter but I wanted someone to see my story and feel my feels.