Merry Christmas Sup Forums

Merry Christmas Sup Forums.
>The following TL;DR material so feel free to skip over this thread.

I'm a 26 year old cripple living with his grandmother and his 5 year old blind-in-one-eye Beagle mix that we got from a pound/pretend-shelter. I have Gillain-Barre Syndrome (and am willing to answer any questions about it, and it's experiences). I was diagnosed on September 3rd 2014 and because of it I lost my pregnant ex who (with me) decided to give our boy up for adoption once I was hospitalized. Lost the car I was about 1/3 the way of paying off, lost my job as a landscaper, lost the credits I had at a shifty community college and lost all my friends (all like 12 of them).

>be me
>alone on christmas
>well, might as well be
>no tree, no lights, no need
>bought some booze
>bought some muffins
>listened to some music
>opened Sup Forums
>avoiding captchas with my pass

>...
>realize I'm alone.

Hey man, sorry to hear that, I don't celebrate Christmas but happy holidays nonetheless. What is Gillain-Barre Syndrome exactly? I could just Google it but I've never heard of it and it seems like you want company :)

so what's the Syndrome?

It's basically a sometimes-rapid random neuropathy. I lost use of my limbs and neck at first. I'm still in physical and occupational therapy to this day. Can walk about 4 or 5 steps now. Hands are at about 80% dexterity. Auto-correct is a lifesaver

That sounds really fucked up man, at least you can play games all day right? With a controller

sounds like it sucks man
how do you spend your time?
actually what I'm really curious about is how do you manage jacking off (no homo)

During the day I usually do PT & OT and then listen to podcasts. At night I browse a few boards on my phone and read shifty sci-if books

but what about the jacking off?

Neuropathy made my duck useless. I still get morning wood and shot but I can't feel my dick

Dick*

damn dude, I was scared it was going to be a downer answer like that

I could still jerk off if I wanted to, I just wouldnt feel much of it lol. I still like porn and shit

Sorry to hear :(

When was then last time you went out and hung out with people? Also are you ever in pain?

oh that's good
do you feel like you've become more enlightened?

Neuropathy pain was bad before I had Gabapentin, now it's manageable. If I get lonewly I go on Sup Forums or another board or I roll my chair out back and watch my dog walk around the yard :)

Honestly, no. The only thing I've gained from all of this is the ability to smile when you're sad, ignore pain in the morning and a sense of paranoia. I always feel like because I'm a cripple I won't be able to defend my grandma, dog and home from a burglar.

that must feel pretty bad, user
I came here for the lolis, not the feels

Go to the catalog and search "ylyl" or something. I am sorry Sup Forumsrother

those threads are more depressing

Because of the bananas? Lol

I lost my grandpa to Gillain-Barre and I know how shitty that disease is. Just stay strong user, and if you can't do it for you, do it for me plz.

I am beating the slightly bad odds. I'm am very sorry about you're grandfather and I've never met anyone else with GBS. Thank you for the kind words.

Damn man.
I don't know what to say, probably nothing could make you feel better.
Just have this virtual hug, it's all I can do.

Honestly it does mean a lot because since I helped my grandma to bed at 4pm, I haven't spoken to anyone besides yall. It's 12:28AM or 00:28. Thank you.

really the least you could do is post something good for OP, don't you think?

What's with the picture?

No need, just interaction is enough for me now days. I'm just glad to be part of a conversation for part of the day.

Fuck, I'm feeling bad user.
But even if it's not much I'll stay here talking with you.

It's my toolbox. I've been using it everyday for finger dexterity. I open it, remove all the junk, mess with the tools, and put it all away. Daily.

I forgot the pic
No need, I was expecting the thread to die after the first post. Everything since has been a lot more social activity than I'm used to. Thank you, but feel free to go on about your day/night

Why did your ex dump you while all this was happening?
Why have your friends all stopped talking to you?

What a bunch of fucking terrible people...

I got nothing to do, user. Just woke up, will get coffee and a cig soon, but nothing important. So I'll stay here.
Can you believe I'm crying rn?

My ex dumped me because I was (in her words) a 5/10 guy who became a 1/10 when he became a cripple. As for my friends, I don't blame them. I had to move 75 miles to my grandma's place when I got out of the hospital and rehabilitation center after I lost my place. I never expected them to come visit or anything. But I was at least hoping for a text or something today.

Have you noticed improvement from it?

Don't cry Sup Forumsro. I don't cry anymore :)

holy fuck what a bitch

I used to not be able to change channels or dial numbers properly on the phone. A few weeks after I started messing with my dumb toolbox I was able to call folks. Not that I need to.

Freakin people sometimes. But if the "friends" are that shitty then i suppose they aren't worth the time either. We all have(have had) "friends" like that. And your toolbox gave me the feels.

She made her choice. Sure I cried in the hospital for a week but I decided that an ex shouldn't dictate my life, even if a shitty syndrome is

I do. And hearing of people being lonely is the thing that makes me the saddest. I'm not that social animal, but I have a loving family, and those three trusted friends who'll never leave me alone.
So I'll just give you another hug. Wish you could feel human contact through this.

hey being able to use the phone makes you better able to take care of your home, it's something for sure

That bitch wasnt worth the time either.

Shhh no feels, it's Christmas Sup Forumsro :)

you should read some good sci fi books

you're right, but she's still a cunt

All your previous "friends" have your number atleast? Maybe some of them would have tried to call you? I know its a shitty excuse "ohman sorry bruh didnt have ur contact on me new phone" but meh

That's why I keep the phone next to me. Believe it or not but typing on this shitty prepaid is something I am VERY proud of.
She helped me bring a beautiful boy into this world, even if I've never seen him in person
Any suggestions?

I appreciate you.

I've tried to keep it in the back of my head with thoughts like "They probably got a new phone and doesn't have my number" or "He/She is busy with school/work"

Oh, and may I suggest the Metro 2033 series? More post-apoc than sci-fi tho. Read the first, halfway through the 2nd.

Yeah its Christmas.
And after almost a decade i got my small family to get together at my new home, even got a proper tree and all the lights. Pulled out all the stops with christmas foods and gifts. I suppose i had some moments of bliss this christmas after i dont know how long.
But now, during my early mornin poop im havin the feels. Feels weird.

what are some books you've liked?

Well what sci fi have you enjoyed?

I kind of liked the first Ringworld book. Hyperion is pretty based. Some Heinlein stuff is nice (All You Zombies, Door Into Summer), and John Varley's short stories are 10/10.

your ex is a terrible person crippleanon. Keep doin' what you're doin'. :)

I am going to check the series out, I have nothing better to and I love post apocalyptic stuff
You should be proud of yourself. You can measure your success by the people around you. I'd if anyone has said it to tou, but I'm proud of you.

I dont know what hurts more. Knowing a beautiful boy that is a big part of your essence is out there, growing up to be someone completely different.
Or growing up without the chance to even know about or meet your parent(s)

how old are you?

>typing on this shitty prepaid is something I am VERY proud of.
you should be, user, you've had to overcome shit most people will never even have to worry about

too fucking sad for me

Anything HORROR or SPACE.
Took a screens hot for future reference, I will check themail all out.
I used to think she was terrible but now I understand.

Do you have any groups or things like that for others with your symptoms? Might not be much but human contact is important from time to time

When we signed the adoption papers, we chose the part that allows him to know our names and find us, should he choose to once he's 18
26
Yeah, but at the same time, I have a roof over my head, food and clean water, and a bed with a box spring now
Don't be sad..

Well I'm the crybaby user.
If with my suggestion you can enjoy yourself for the duration of the book, I'll be happy :)

When I was in the hospital there was a cripple group who used to meet up. They were called "just believe"or some shit. I stopped going when we had to talk a b out our feelings

you're a good person and you deserve happiness

No, just because I'm a crippleasure who had it tough the last few years does not make me a good person. I hope I'm a good person, but that's not for me to decide.

cripple* damn this auto type stuff

nah you are, I can tell

inb4 you're secretly a serial molester or something

No criminal record, unless you include a speeding ticket from back before my Social Worker told the DMV to take my lisence away (gotta love the DMV)

Also how the fuck do you manage to be so gentle and positive with people after how bad you've been treated. You deserve much better than the people you knew user.

Everybody dies alone user.

It will be less painful for you. Maybe you can even skip a few trips. Maybe it will add a few.

these are all space but idk much about horror:
Ender's Game by Orson Scott Card
Red Shirts by John Scalzi
Carve the Sky by Alexander Jablokov (out of print but so great)

I feel sorry for myself everyday, then I literally Saybrook myself "man up" and I distract myself with books, Sup Forums or my toolbox

damn, I guess I misjudged you, criminal scum

Hey dude have you read Peter F Hamilton? Night's dawn is where I started with him.

It's quite good, hope you like differing factions of trans humanism.

Who knows?
Thank you user, these book suggestions and the kind words in this thread are 10X more than I was expecting this Christmas

op you seem like a chill mofo. i wish you the best of luck with everything

Do not feel sorry for yourself. You are still true to yourself i hope. You still find ways to better yourself and overcome the stupidly unfair hand you've been dealt recently.

You think you have it rough?
>be Christmas
>dad makes crown meat
>stomach upset from unleashing Christmas pudding into toilet
>want to eat but can't
>sleep and wake up hungry as fuck an hour ago (1AM)
>go downstairs to eat crown meat
>MFW it's all FUCKING gone
You don't know hardships

Also;

The man from mars.

Read it maybe, imo you'd like it a lot. If you check out piratebay it has a huge sci-fi audiobook collection. The man from mars should be in there, if you're interested.

I love you nigga.

I chuckled out loud
Is that the guy who did A Quantam Murder or something like that? If so, I will revisit him on your suggestion. I got nothing but time :)

Yep, he did Quantam Murder too.

I actually haven't read that series from him is it good? I can only speak from what I've read (Night's Dawn Trilogy) but he's great imo. I love space opera.

I very much appreciate it
It may be stupid but I don't know about unfair. There are kids getting limbs blown of in other countries (or so I hear)
No offense, but what is crown meat, user?
I'm gonna check it out. I've taken a screenshot of all the book suggestions in this thread (and I'll gladly take more)

lol

Tell your duck to join the thread, we can make him feel better. Perhaps some quack, or some other stimulant.

Your duck is not at all useless, he'll find his flock one day.

Damn autocorrect.

crown roast

You guys have made this cripple''s Christmas 100% better. I'm gonna take some Gabapentin and get under the covers. Im gonna sleep now. I appreciate you all. Here's a pic of myntoolbox, to prove or whatnot.

Goodnight, Sup Forumsros

goodnight user. it's the least i could do, be with you even briefly.
hope to meet you again.

goodnight user!

Merry Christmas to you and youe Grandma. Take care of everyone and everything you have and dont give up on bettering yourself.

are you a gril

because if you are dont have a baby (or try)

if you've never read slaughterhouse five by kurt vonnegut, do it. short read, but gives a good perspective of our short lives.

OP is a dude and has already successfully reproduced

Goodnight. See you soon.

Sounds ideal, mate. Merry Christmas!

ever tried altcare physicians,
herbs schmerbs,,herbal holitic medicine is a lot more that what surfaces through the advertisers front & back channels of healthcare, they do a lot more than that

stop trying to scam a good man