hey I need a Baww thread. Start dumping
Hey I need a Baww thread. Start dumping
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Really? No one else?
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Today At 1322 (2012) i should have died whilst serving in Afghanistan i was taskedto lead a convoy. I was pulled off at the last minute due to an Intel threat. Long story short the job had to be done the guys that took over made it less then 50m before being hit by an vbied 8 people died that day. Everyday i think about this and wonder why???
tears were shed
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OP here. Today I realized my family doesn't really know who I am anymore, I havent seen my parents or brother in over a year and when I talked to them today it was like they didn't know me at all. I'm losing my job in a few weeks (show business, my show is closing) and all the friends I have are the people I work with. I feel so completely lost.
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My parents asked what I might like for Christmas. I said "oh new workout gear would be awesome! I'll send you a few ideas for help. I want you guys to pick the colors I might like the most." Instead of buying me the gear they just transfered the money into my bank account account so I could get the gear that was right and not have to worry about the "wrong" color. IT WAS NEVER ABOUT A WRONG FUCKING COLOR I JUST WANTED TO KNOW THEY STILL KNEW ME ENOUGH TO TRY. I got the equivalent of a fucking gift card from my parents. I wanted them to really think about what I would like. I never cared about the gift. If they got me pink booty shorts I wouldnt be mad because they actually tried. It hurts soooo fucking much.
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Anyone lurking?
my baww folder is empty now. Another user is going to have to keep them coming. Sorry guys.
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God, I hate Christmas.
me too
Being surrounded by family for one day makes the other 364 so much lonelier.
I skyped with mine. they are 2000 miles away.
Worst part is, my family isn't. Some are just a five minute drive away. They don't invite me over, and I don't want to impose, so I don't ask.
I'm sorry to hear that user.
I found one more in my b folder and it fits.
This fucked me up, pretty similar story to yours about 8months ago
My mother tries to be supportive, they all did when I tried to an hero in 2015. Once I was released from the hospital, the support lasted for a little while, and then started drying up, and then was gone. I don't see myself doing anything like that again, but that doesn't mean I don't need the support.
>mfw a girl I used to orbit sent me a message saying 'I fucking miss you' 4 months ago and I still havent replied.
Can't really go to my friends about these issues. Most can't relate.
I havent cried in 18 months. Do your worst.
Support is nice when you can have it. I have one close friend on my show. My stage manager. She is quite good with the support. but thats about it. my parents are proud that I'm "living the dream" but it feels like lip service now.
>on my show
Can you give any details?
I live in Las Vegas and the show I work on is closing. 3 shows left. I load out the show in the new year. then its all over and gone.
My Christmas was actually alright, one of the last ones I'll get before the old ladies all die. But this happened, and I'm pretty upset about it
>fly in on Thursday
>visiting family for Christmas
>southern, so tons of cousins
>one cousin that I grew up with recently got out of rehab for hydro addiction
>first day after I flew down
>hydro addiction cousin comes to me
>says that she's been really stressed, wants to split a 1/8th of weed
Keep in mind I grew up with this chick. We were really close.
>say sure, whatever
>says she doesn't have any money but she can pay me back later
>says the 1/8th is for 60 bucks
>expensive af, but okay. not my dealer
>give her 60, plus a 20 to put 10 dollars of gas in her car
>she goes to get it
>calls me like 30 minutes later
>"user I'm so mad, the dealer gave me fake weed"
>"okay?"
>"it was like white and shit"
>"... okay. You should bring it back so I can look at it"
>"I can't I threw it out the window, I was so mad"
>sigh.jpg
She comes back empty handed, not even any gas in the car. Gave me 10 bucks back, haven't seen a cent of the 70 she owes me. Another cousin told me she always bought her pills 6 at a time, 10 dollars each.
I was completely blindsided, thought she was clean. Now I feel like a fucking idiot, and I'm probably gonna have to get in a screaming match with her. Not exactly the family vacation I had planned.
What are you going to do?
Wow that's fucked. I'm sorry man.
That's rough, man. Worst I've dealt with in that area is my brother becoming an alcoholic, and my dad being one. My brother drinks because our dad does. I don't drink because our dad does (and the medication I'm on, but if I didn't give a fuck, I would drink in spite of it)
>have a friend
>green beret, outstanding operator, numerous medals and tours of duty under his belt by the age of just 27
>gets a serious knee injury on deployment
>has several reconstruction surgeries but it's no use, his knee is fucked
>gets medically discharged
>spirals into serious depression, takes every drug under the sun
>gets a job as a strategy consultant at a consulting firm
>hates his colleagues, hates civilian life
>try to help him, encourage him to get help and ease up on the drugs
>kills himself with an overdose 6 months after his discharge
Many manly tears were shed.
Find a new show. I'm a performer (fire spinner) and a technician (Lighting) so there is plenty of work for me. I'm not worried about the work. I'm upset that I'm losing my friends. I'll make more but this show was special to me. First time I made so many new friends.
It's fine. I'm less upset about the money and more that she was able to manipulate me so well, plus I'd really rather not be feeding her pill habit.
My dad too. Sorry to hear about your brother, but good for you for keeping away from that shit
I take it you expect the to leave town? You could try to keep in touch, though I admit it wouldn't be the same.
Thanks, man. Shit's not worth it.
Most of them are from LA. They have no reason to stay here unless they find a new show. Yeah it wouldn't be the same Vegas is its own beast definitely if your a local and in show business. I've had free table service and free bottle service in some of the most expensive clubs in the world. But I never cared about that. I only cared about the people who were there, my friends.
looks like the thread is dying. thanks guys I needed this.
Well, I'm going to try to get a couple hours of sleep before heading back home and then to work. Much love and Merry Christmas everyone.
i cried at this i still do
Yesterday, Christmas eve I found out that my brother has wanted to kill himself for 10 years but has never done it because he's so lazy
I have never felt more terror
and now I'm just scared
I don't want to lose my brother
Tell him that you are scared.
since this is a feels-esque thread anyone got the picture of some skeleton guy talking about a girl who forgot she loved him? need that
I don't. Sorry. but if anyone does please post away.
I was ready for feels but not these feels
OP here. Good night and thank you. I truly needed this. you all are wonderful people.
what a touching story