I have been here for over 7 years, and today I bid you farewell Sup Forumsrother...

I have been here for over 7 years, and today I bid you farewell Sup Forumsrother. For years I have been struggling through the same/similar mental/social issues the common Sup Forums user experiences, and yesterday I finally took the path of change, the path of self exploration and acceptance. Sup Forums is not the place to be with you wish to have a positive life, which is the only important thing to every single human being alive. We all have a spirit and we must no suppress it or let it be suppressed by the negative energies emitted by others.

I took part in an ayahuasca ceremony deep inside a virgin jungle in the Ecuadorean rain forest (I will greentext), there I suffered through the most intense and traumatic experience I have ever had and I had many visions and reflections about myself, those who surround me, and the world in general. I was planning on killing myself if this didn't work, but now I see that would be a foolish thing to do and In the end that's what the evil powers that have taken control of the earths consciousness want you to do. They want you to submit or to end yourself.

You must change yourself first, be someone who has a positive impact on this planet before you wish to see change in anything else.

I will be responding to anyone that is curious

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en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Ayahuasca
biblegateway.com/passage/?search=John 1&version=NIV
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I am very interested to hear your story, OP

I've smoked DMT before, I think it's supposed to be similar.

Yeah post your experience.
This is so interesting. Its a lost resort if your life sucks, and youre very brave for going through with it.

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>show up at a cabin after a long day of touring around Ecuador
>I'm with my dad and we meet the shamans son
>He takes us into the back side of the cabin
>it is 5:30pm, there is still light
>we are both tired and have not eaten anything all day (part of the ceremony)
>the walk is intense
>terrible, scary, weird noises and animals I've never seen in my life
>it is now 6pm, we cant see shit the sun does not get to us
the shamans son is a strange person
>but probably the most positive person I have ever encountered
>we are scared, tired and 40 minutes into a forest
>we begin to think we are being lurred in by people who want to kid nap us
>we start shitting ourselves in fear, every second that passes by is dreadful, I begin to fear for my life

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Lightworkers of the world rise up to bring energy to the healing process

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Fag

As you were saying OP?

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>My dad starts crying and starts yelling at the shamas son
>the shamans son is far ahead of us, and is laughing to himself
>he just looks back at us and keeps walking about 100 yards ahead
>we have no other choice,we continue to walk because we are lost anyway
>he promised to take us to a waterfall, but it's been an hour and we don't even hear water
>FUCK.jpg
>finally he stops and waits for us to catch up completely
>we look at him with fear/hate/confusion
>he says that we are close and to not lose hope
>finally we get to a small river, and faith is resord
>the walk is shit, I have rubber boots on, no socks and I'm wearing jorts
>i slip and fall all over the place, exhausted and hungry and afraid
>we make it to a waterfall, all faith is restored
>there we see a small cabin, a fire place and 2 men
>we walk down a 20 degree slope about 200ft tall
>we are bruised and in pain, entering the cabin
>the two men stare at us, one is the shaman
>the other man is a murder with the 1000 yard stare, he emits the most negative energies I have ever felt in my life

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You didn't pre-type did you op

Gonna 404 before your done

>the shaman greets us with the most peaceful voice I have ever heard in my life
>he tells us to get naked and to walk down over to the waterfall
>we get down there and undress ourselves, he starts rubbing leafs and chanting in his native language
>he starts hitting us with a sacred branch and spits at us what i believe was moon shine
>he spits us with moonshine and blows natural tobacco smoke at us
>I being to feel strange, I feel lost
>I feel neutral, no longer fearful
>no longer hateful
>no longer resentful
>I feel peaceful
>I then walk over to the waterfall, by now it is about 8:30pm
>it is freezing cold, but I must do it
>I bathe in it and and let the water slap down on me as I pray to pacha mama (mother nature) like the shaman told me to
>I stop feeling cold
>I stop feeling anxious
>I being to feel warm and relaxed
>my mind is clear and I feel like I've just ran a triathlon and I am now laying on a bed of clouds
>purebliss.webm

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No i didn't sorry, this is my last post on Sup Forums ever

>we get dressed again and walk back to the cabin
>there the shaman explains to us what we have done
>the waterfall as a spirit that has rid us of negative energies and we are now neutral
>we sit in silence as the shaman prepares the ayahuasca brew
>he tells me that I must drink more because I have recently consumed marijuana and alcohol
>i chug down this brownish subtance
>the consistency of boiled/shredded seaweed
>a horribly bitter taste, later on I will find out it is not nearly as horrible as when youo throw it up later
>we all sit in silence and wait for the trip to begin.

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very interesting so far

did they make you walk the dinosaur?

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>20 mins in
>I being to feel drunk
>disoriented
>I have tired LSD and mushrooms but I have never felt this type of disorientation ever before
>I being to have auditory hallucinations
>I being to hear whispering and animals that are not there
>the consistent sound of the waterfall now turns into waves of distorted oceans
>the crickets now sound like a never ending orchestra playing for me, connecting my to nature
>an hour in
>every sound of the rain forest is captivated by all of my sense
>everything sounds so complex and almost robotic
>mother nature is an infinite machine that lives on forever
>existence is a never ending algorithm of vibrations
>I am a vibration, but i now understand what everyone around me once saw and I never saw
>I am a mess
>I emit gabage engergies unto other
>I am a mass of negative energy, spreading my hatred onto other even though I never realized it, it always came naturally to me
>It was me, it was my personality, it was my identity to be this mass of negativity

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I do hope you'll be able to stay away from here. I should, too.

KEEP IT UP OP

i leave Sup Forums
i will have no one to talk to anymore
there will be no place i can voice my opinion or what's on my mind without looking like a retarded fucked up individual

i dont have any online social groups (forums,etc)
i dont have any fb or social media accounts
and i dont have friends in real life

so it's hard for me to leave this place
im already in the point of no return

yes, you are basically telling us how you got to this point. Carry on...

Maybe you should stay to counter the negativity here? It would probably just contaminate your aura again slowly but surely, though.

>I begin to fall into what the shaman said was "the test"
>i counted the seconds in my mind (like 1 Mississippi 2 Mississippi etc)
>I then realized that I was having about 5 complex, extremely detailed thoughts in about 10 seconds
>time was meaning less, everything was forever
>I was in hell
>I was thinking about my family
>how I criticize them and was embarrassed by them
>how i was raised to be this way
>how everything that they were was a lie and I was part of a failed experiment
>how it was my fault my brother was practically dead to society
>I begun to think about my relationships with everyone
>I saw myself from a 3rd person perspective
>there i was, quiet as always, trying to focus in school/work
>ignoring everyone
>anxious to communicate
>thinking everyone was thinking about me the same way I thought about them
>blaming my problems on them instead of my mentality
>there I realized that everything I had
>everything material
>it never made me happy at all, it was all bought to try to fill up something that could never be filled up
>human relationships, I couldn't have them
>I couldn't express love because I was raised by my parents to be this way
>my entire family is a miserable mess
>my life is hell
>I am a horrible person and I don't deserve to exist
>all of this was because I refused to submit to the infinite power that is..... "god"
>the vibrations that one emits, the spirit
>I felt embarrassed to express happiness
>I couldn't positive because I was always being shut down by everyone
>my spirit was scarred and I was projecting that unto others

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OP this feels incredibly relevant to my current situation. Did a solo aya journey several weeks ago but didn't get anything like from my group experiences . I feel the world is fucked and totally powerless to do anything. Coming here to pass the time with banal ignorance 'till I die.

So you are about to trip on DMT in an unfirmilar place, with unfirmilar people, with no food or water in your system? Good thinking...

Dont stop now!

Ayahuasca is totally different from DMT. They really can't be compared. DMT is not really a tool for self realisation, healing nd understanding. Aya is.

if i starve you and take you hiking, i demand that you pay for it.

very interesting! continue please

it is important to know what the world is going through, but it is futile to let the negativity over power you, you must work on yourself and become positive if you wish to impact other positivly

it is part of the ceremony, you have to have nothing in your stomach, i'll explain later

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>when you are filled with negativity, everything you do is negative even if you don't try to be negative
>when you criticize someone, you are implying you are superior to them
>if you wish to change someone positively, you must not show them negativity, instead let them be and allow them to observe your positive behavior

>everything you do, every action you take has a reaction
>the domino effect
>you must do what you feel
>if you do not do what you feel and you obey what your ego tells you to do, you will be forever miserable

>Sup Forums
>it is full of people constantly criticizing others
>consistent with hate and negativity
>everyone tries to bring someone down
>everyone want to feel superior here
>everyone here is suffering, everyone here is projecting unto others their suffering
>their insecurities
>their sadness

cont.

>7 years

Good riddance newfag

Way to indicate you are in dire need of mother aya's medicine.

>i finally realize what i should do
>i should set things straight
>keep trying to be a better version of me every single day
>just as i was finally seeing the truth
>the trip went bad for me
>it wasnt over
>it was not enough that i improve myself
>this was something different, something's wrong
>i can feel that it wasnt supposed to go this way
>i feel cold sweats running down my body
>im sitting and i can feel everything around me like they want to kill me
>the other guy said this was the real test
>i can only hear his voice like a whisper in the dark
>this is definitely bad
>i can't do this!
>just as before my mind went blank
>the chief comes out from the cabin
>we get on the floor
>everybody walk the dinosaur

lol come on not-op

Do you feel better about yourself now?

>there were only a couple of the billion ideas/reflections I had
lets take a brake from my mind for a minute
>I am shaking, taking turns from sitting down and laying down
>feeling of guilt and anxiety over powers me
>"fuck user, you asked for this, this is what you wanted"
>I finally relax, and I lay down and let the powers of the medicinal plant overpower me
>I feel like an insane person in an insane asylum
>at times smiling at and laughing at myself
>at times crying and beating myself up internally

this part is funny

>the guy with the murderer face gets up and throws up
>i think to myself something like "haha im younger than this guy and this is my first time
>and I dont feel like throwing up, it was just too much for him I guess"
>i was thinking that, and i unwillingly projected that unto everyone on an invisible spiritual plane
>suddenly, i feel my ass is holding in the waterfall next to me
>wtf thats impossible i haven't eaten all day

cont.

fucking newfag
the third from the last sentence should end with "door" so it rhymes with rest

new...fag? how about.... new... friend?

(DMT)-containing plant species -> en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Ayahuasca

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but this is getting a bit boring

I can finally look at myself in the mirror and give myself a sincere smile, I no longer feel like a failure, I can love myself again

>i hold in the shit that is within me
>horrible idea
>it comes back up to my stomach, i suddenly have an intense pain
>its gonna come out my mouth
>I get up abruptly
horrible idea
>my body was not connected to my mind, i was shaking and completely off blance
>the shaman comes to my rescue and takes me to the designated throw up area
>I stand there for what seamed forever
>my body is over filled with the worst throwup anxiety I have ever felt
>I begin to hurl
>every single time i hurl, i shit myself
>I am now shitting, pissing and throwing up
>I feel like an animal, I feel disgusting
>I mumble to the shaman that i need to shit
>he brings me to designated shitting area
>I pull off my jorts and underwear and begin to shit piss and throw up all over
>I am naked, full of mud and shit and throw up in an virgin forest
>I feel one with nature, like an animal, it was an amazing feeling

damn i want to try this ayahuasca thing
is it legal?

I love you, OP. Stay positive.

i feel bad reading this because i have tabs for trap thread and Sup Forums threads open

>I am naked, full of mud and shit and throw up in an virgin forest
>I feel one with nature, like an animal, it was an amazing feeling

bwahahahahaa

you take it in countries where it is legal under spritual guidance like OP for maximum effect

I think that's kind of the point of this thread.

Yes, aya contains dmt, but the effects of smoking dmt and oral ingestion with enzime inhibitors are totally different experiences. That's what I meant.

then what countries can i try this?
do i have to find shaman living in the forest first or do they have specific places where you can sign up to partake in this "ritual"?

I also took psychedelics, the difference is I didn't became an elitist who thinks he's better than everyone. I still enjoy coming on this website, and my life is pretty positive.

People here are very nice if you look under the surface, and you should know that if you've spent 7 years here.

I don't know whether to be satisfied or disappointed with my trips after reading this shit. I had some very healing insights into my own perception of the world, but I never did go through such a primal experience of barfing and shitting myself.

I wouldn't recommend it. Especially in a forest away from hospitals. You shouldn't need a 'drug' to become awakened or to find yourself. I'm sure you could have had a life changing experience a thousand other ways.

dude set up a forum account and get out to your local debate club and start building a life for yourself faggot

>I am now empty inside, everyone is laying down quietly
>the shaman tried to speak to me but I don't understand anything
>he sounds like a complex robot that is emitting joy unto me
>i try to communicate with him, and subconsciously i emit to him positivity
>he doesn't understand me but he smiles to me and nods and goes to sit down
>there i realize that for the first time in I don't know how long i finally expressed something positive
>the shaman felt it, he understood that the negativity inside me was leaving me
>i just shat, pissed and threw up on myself and I now feel better than I ever have
>I felt like i just got what I prayed for
>I am receiving healing
>I am turning into what I want to become
>the pacha mama is my mother and she loves me, I am a part of her and I have been for so long distanced from her and almost ashamed of her
>I have felt hate for my brothers, for her children
>I begin to understand that we are all hurt children of a greater being
>all religions are correct in some way, but instead of hating I must love what they are trying to do with us

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Nobody who has experienced aya ceremonies would ever say something like that. It has to be experienced to be understood. You will never get anything close to the experience other than using plant medicine.

For starters check out the bible:
biblegateway.com/passage/?search=John 1&version=NIV

implying that there are such things as "local debate clubs"

I mean if you're in high school that would work

Ok, now you can just fuck off. Religion is the anthisisis of self realisation.

cocaine is plant based

South America. OP said he did it in Ecuador.

What's with all the gore and rape threads though?

meetup.com

no matter how positive you try to be in real life
i can guarantee you there will always one,two or more assholes out there who will ruin your mood and break your postivity
but good luck out there

>thinks taking psychedelics for fun trips is in any way comparable to ayahuasca.

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thats the trick...if you let them get to your core, and what they tell you gets you emotionally. They win

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>plant based
>based

Yeah, it's not the plant itself. Ayuhuasca is literally ground up plants stewed in water. There is no laboratory involved.

a few are really fucked up people, but most are just in their edgy teen years and want attention and recognition from a community, and this is their way to look cool on Sup Forums. I see them as normal people who just need help.

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haha i knew you were gonna say that, predictable ass nigga

but it's not a plant medicine. plant medicines are ayahuasca, mescaline, mushrooms, etc. Things which allow self realisation and exploration. Cocaine just makes you feel good. Not a medicine.

lol this made me chuckle, but are lightworkers real?

Truth, I used to make threads with pictures of aborted fetuses as a way of dealing with my rage towards my parents and their religion (Catholicism) when I first came to Sup Forums as a child. I was 13 at the time. They will blossom eventually.

We are all lightworkers. Some of us just don't realize it.

Maybe I've never had anything as deep as ayuhasca, but my trips definitely aren't for fun, I'm doing introspecting everytime. Still, I don't think anyone who takes any Psychs should feel better than others.

What kind of pussy faggot has the money to go fuck off in ecuador but wants to kill themselves? Grow some real problems bitch or kill yourself and cut your bleeding vagina out of the gene pool

holy shit your right. I've stopped making rekt threads when I realize I was only doing it to look edgy to my friends.

Find yourself through God. Not religion. Think about it this way. You are created by something or someone. They have a purpose for you. You were designed specifically for something. What is it? You have to find out more about that creator before you can find what your true reason for being is. What the true meaning of life is. That creator gave you a specific skill set with specific intentions. I'm a Christian and I'm 100% sure I know myself and I'm 100% sure I know and understand the meaning of life. Find and understand who Jesus is. Find Jesus and then find who you are meant to be.

Yes, dose and intention are what separates fun from healing. That's not to say fun trips can't be beneficial, but it's chalk and cheese. I've done 10g dried cubensis and, literally, lost myself. Amazing experience.

i think youve found your life calling, start the first adult debate club in your town, and based on your passion i have a feeling you will open up chapters far and wide untill the Global Debate club has more locations than startbucks and mcdonalds

C'mon OP, keep going

I don't think OP feels better than us, if he did he wouldn't have bothered to type it all out and share it with us. He did that because he loves us. Consider for a moment how the internet itself is like a drug, we use it every day to distract ourselves to the point of dissociation. In this numbed state, it is easier for the negative energies of others to affect us to our cores. Some of us are addicts. OP just wants to break the cycle, I don't blame him and perhaps you should examine why you feel the way you do about someone deciding not to come here anymore.

then how do you deal with those kind meanies ;_;

I could never achieve inner peace with this, so my spirituality went the other way: We are the universe, the universe is us, we are gods, we are all one.

Jesus was a dude, search for god

this
this is true, but the other ways (like buddhism and meditation) take too long and our egos do not allow us to have the patience for it, so these medicinal plants that have been given to us by our mother nature are a tool to get connected with her again and rid ourselves of our egos that emit negativity

you can't allow them and you must understand that they are putting you down because they are being put down by another force

those troubled teenagers are like that because their parents are project that unto them, so they project it unto us and those around them, their parents are like this because of the culture that they live in. 1st world countries are spiritually absent from mother nature and the love she give us.

I live here and only had to pay $20 for all of this, the shaman showed me that he does not live for money but he lives to help others, i will be going back to help him fix the path towards this virgin waterfall later
also, stop projecting your insecurites i understand that you secretly want to kill yourself but please don't bring it to the table

>i being to realize positive things
>I see what I must do now
>my ego is dead, I am no longer "me" I am and "us"
>normal people are always on an "us" mentality
>at least positive people anyway
>Its easier said than done, but you must love and avoid negative thinking
>avoid negative people, its natural instinct to do so, its also why people avoided people like me
>do no judge others, you are not better than them
>do not love people for what they give you, love them for what they project onto you
>you can be dirt poor, but if you project love and positivity and instead of insecurites and hate unto others, they will love you
>life will give you what you need as long as you give back the love that it gives you
>hate will only bring more negativity to your life

being a smart-ass

Perhaps I was needlessly harsh, you're right. A little change can't hurt.

Turn the other cheek. Kill them with kindness. Love thy neighbor as thy self, and love thy enemy even more.

I do not feel better than anyone, in fact i used to come here to feel better than everyone because no one else accepted me, but now i accept myself and I wish to help others not by criticizing them, but by communicating a positive message to the instead of having them feel inferior

I truly wish for all of you to better yourselves, find the love in yourselves and to finally heal the dirt that taints your spirits

fukken saved

here, have one of mine.

you do realize you're a christian preaching jesus in Sup Forums one of the most vile places in the internet where the users are cancer + 7 deadly sins incarnate?

Prison killed my ego, meditation got me closer to me. Its a pleasure reading soemone else's experience, which was better then mine in a non shitty sense.

I commend you Op

An aya experience would blow your mind, and leave you feeling much more like this guy

you o realize jesus only hung out with the worst people right, and hated the establishment

Saving this aswell, i like this