Hey Sup Forums

hey Sup Forums

I've been thinking a lot about life lately and I've reached the conclusion that shit we do here don't matter at all.

I could be a really good guy or girl and do lots of good shit to get some good karma or I could also be a fucking prick to everyone and don't give a shit about anything and get away with it as well.

I don't believe in fate or in a destiny, even though I've been lead to think that somehow we all have one of the above.

Lately I've been really depressed, maybe because I just realized it doesn't matter that I'm a good husband to my wife, a good brother to my siblings or a good friend.

Everybody surrounding me, my friends and my family may still be naive and think that there is something to life and that we are here for a reason, I don't.

You guys probably think that I've been through a lot, well I haven't. Some casualties, uncle, auntie, niece and cousin, not more than the average joe. I've dealt with sadness, anger, frustration and all the other bullshit feelings you can make up.

I've got a good paying job, my own home that I bought, a nice car and look pretty decent.

So why the fuck am I contemplating that I should take my own life?

TLDR; Fucking tired of life.

I could try to say the smartest things I know but it's probably better if you look into therapy ASAP, so you don't hurt the people around you who love you dearly.
They matter, amigo

Been to therapy a few times, I even got "happy pills" but they just made me feel shittier than I did before.

They do matter, but what if it's my destiny to take my own life? What if my meaning in life is to impact the ones around me so they finally come to a conclusion what to do with their lives? The sorrow that comes from my death, maybe will help them in the longer run.

I'm pretty sure everyone who has ever lived has gone through the same thought process as you. Basically, life is literally a big game. You're right that nothing matters, but humans are designed to enjoy certain things and not enjoy others. Play the game, find out what makes you happy and do that until you die because what else do you have to do?

It's probably hard to believe but a few years ago I was saying exactly this type of shit and feeling either empty or a deep sorrow all the time.
You can change the way you think.
Right now you are Thinking in terms of "Determinism" which is a huge mistake in my opinion.
Me and a lot if other people believe in Free Will which means everything is voluntary and you can do whatever you like.
When you do things you love and sincerely want to do you are absolutely able to feel happy in the future.
Now you have the knowledge, you have the choice so you can either CHOOSE to stay miserable or you can work toward sincere happiness.
For me dancing and good social interaction did the trick.

Also the best thing you can do to help them in the long run is to be a positive role model and influence.

I have enjoyed lots of things during my life, I've been practically around the world, tried a lot of stuff. Never let anything come between me and a good/bad experience. Born and raised within a christian family, didn't let that ruin my view of the world, made friends with a lot of people with different views of life. Found things that make me happy, also found things that made me miserable.

What makes you happy enough to play the game?

I don't think I've found it yet. I'm just floating around at the moment. I'm in college now, trying not to overthink everything and just be ya know? I don't have stress, I don't worry about much, and I'm just chilling. Shits pretty great. I think if I get bored of what I'm doing I'll just sell all my shit drop out and just travel. Might fuck up my future but at the end of my life the amount of money I make won't matter, what will matter are the experiences I had, so basically everything works out no matter what, you decide if you're happy or not

I understand your point completely. I also believe in free will, do whatever makes you happy, that's pretty much the life rules I've been living after.

I'm 100% different from my family, I'm not like the common man either, I tend always to see a point from all perspectives and then come to a conclusion. I don't judge, I listen and I see.

Maybe my mindset is set in between determinism and free will? I want to fuck 100 different women but at the same time I love my wife to much to do that kind of shit to her. I restrain myself, such as I'm restraining myself from taking my life.

Thats why I've understood, you can be a perfect human, be a role model, be an influence for the ones around you but what's the endgame of playing this game?

Like all of you, when we've beaten a game we look for a new one that's more challenging. I honestly don't know what to do anymore.

I'm very glad for you user. We are all humans but we can differ so much, race, language, mindset but in the end we all have one international language what we can communicate through and thats feelings.

Right now my feelings are making me feel empty and tired of everything. I wish you the best of luck.

Thanks man, good luck to you too. Don't kill yourself though that shit is wack, just keep going through life, think happy thoughts, be kind. Also watch trainspotting if you haven't yet, doesn't really have to do with what we're talking about but kind of does. See ya

Nice talking to you but I'm starting work now.
I'm sure you'll figure out a positive solution :)

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is OP still here or did they leave?

I'm still here

Thanks man, will watch it.

Thanks dude, it was nice talking to you too.

I made dis 4 u OP

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hold up I got more

You made me laugh pretty good, keep em coming user

dis 4 u OP

I want to fuck a role model was my favourite

Took you long enough
I realised that when I was twelve

karma does exist, it's like water finding it's own level. i've watched it happen for years. it all levels eventually

what do you think OP?

And what did you do after you realised it?

he killed himself, dur

Please elaborate more.

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Do you guys eat ass?

Ill help you OP

Instead of trying to please others I did everything for my own personal gain (usually just finding better ways to be lazy) and it's worked out pretty well so far.

In the end it doesn't matter because we're all going to die

F U C K I N G C A N C E R

Exactly my point. So why not end it now?

Of course I eat ass, it's one of the few things I pleasure the most.

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Because while I'm still alive I can keep finding ways to enjoy myself.

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ok, here it is.

i used to be a fucking real prick. i cheated, i stole from people, i fucked my friends wives and mothers. i broke into houses of people i knew, and people i didn't know. i was about the lousiest SOB you can imagine. then i turned 20 years old and i got a little better. and things started to get better for me. but i was still an asshole. i got married, but constantly fucked around on my wife. i got so many DUIs that they don't even let me drive anymore. i spent time in jail. i hit rock fucking bottom. but then i met a woman that turned me around. since then, i've been a good person and things have gotten good for me. bottom line, bad things happen to bad people. clean your act up and shit will get better for you.

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wyd OP, besides killing yourself?

is this not the truth??

You've been on a nice trip. I'm happy for you that you are on the right path for you.

However, I haven't done anything to deserve "bad karma". I always try to be there for all of my friends and family. So using your logic shit should already be better for me, so why the fuck do I feel like I do?

not OP, but i'm that SOB, and that's kinda funny. given that, i could rip your fucking throat out and drink your goddamn blood. i told you i'm not a nice person. i'm probably not someone you should shit with. but that was kinda funny

well what has happened to you that you consider bad karma? good karma doesn't necessarily mean that you get rich and marry a model. sometimes it just means that things go even for you. did you have something really shitty happen?

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No you are absolutely right. I always tend to help people, I sacrifice a lot of myself for my family and friends.

yeah my uncle passed in an accident a few months ago and was pretty much the same.

keep in mind that you aren't dead yet. you have a life to live and the evening out may not come right now. it will be over the course of years. but it will occur. some folks get it in a splash, some as a trickle. just like water

OMG he's a genius with ms paint

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Pretty nice comparison. Everything in my life feels like a fucking "splash", how do I endure the "splash" or get past it?

the good karma doesn't always come in a certain form.

for instance, i've found a lot of happiness being able to pass on what i've accumulated. i give to many charities, i have rescued many homeless dogs, i've found a lot of them abandoned on the side of the road. my housekeeper has a daughter that is on a music scholarship but it doesn't pay for the basics, and definitely doesn't pay for the instruments. so i gave her a full boat guitar/amp/everything setup for christmas, about a grand worth. hell, i gotta pass it on to someone, nobody else in my family plays. all this makes me happy and i consider this as karma coming back. i had good things happen to me, i pass it on and it makes me happy

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lol good idea user

oh man, no rebutle. I guess dis faggotron is scared of me lol

everyone has to deal with bad splashes in their own way. the good splashes are no problem, anyone can have a good thing happen since that's just fun. it's the death especially that hits me hard. and when you start to get up in years and you start to lose the people you love, it gets harder and harder. there is no easy way to deal with it. you just have to hunker down, grit your teeth and be a man. that's how i got through my dad and my two best friends dropping dead in front of me. sucks but ....no, it just sucks. you gotta got hard then

WHY CAN'T I EVER TALK TO A REAL MAN?

Of course, even the smaller things matter as well. As long as you can be there for someone or help people, it will be cherished.

I feel like after my uncle passing, I've become very cynical towards a lot of shit. I feel like I can't trust people anymore, it always feels like people have a hidden agenda, which is very fucked up from my side.

I've manned up so many times last year, I just set aside the feelings and came to an understanding that it was just his time. But now and then the feelings come up and I can't do anything else than to feel sorrow.

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i know what you mean. i've never trusted anyone for the most part, so i didn't have far to go to get there. my pop was about the only person i trusted. then i had a friend that was like a 2nd father to me that i worked with for like 25 years, and they both went within months of one another. it's tough, it's bad tough. you have my sympathies. i do understand

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Is there an objective point to life? No. You have to decide what the point of life is yourself. That's part of maturity. What's important to YOU?

my condolences. I think the trust part has to do with a defense mechanism by your subconscious, meaning that you don't want to let anyone more in, because it was already hard losing that person. so you passively don't let anyone into your personal space. I just don't know how to get past that stage.

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i don't know that there is anyway to get past it. seriously. it's been 10 years now and i still don't even act the same toward my wife. we're still all cool, but really, that fucked me up kinda bad. i just have to set my mind to not acting like an ass and force myself to be a good person even when i don't want to. i have to think of all the good that i have and i can do, that helps me keep an even keel. i have people that love me for some silly reason. not sure why but they do. so there's the karma again

Well unfortunately for those people it's not fair to put their feelings above the person who wants to take their own life

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A L T E R N A T E

There is no objective point to life. However we all realise, sooner or later, what the actual fuck we're supposed to do with life. The majority of people already know, the rest are still out there questioning everything.

you're alive, you're dead. end of. dogs do it. monkeys do it. roaches do it.

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>i have to think of all the good that i have and i can do

There is a pretty good life motto friend. Thank you. I'll try to think more like that, maybe it will replace the sorrow more than what I've found what does.

give em hell harry. we can do great things if we put our minds and backs into it.

Dear OP:
I experienced something quite similar to what you are describing about a decade ago.
I basically decided that because human beings are a teeny tiny microscopic speck in the universe and we live and die in the blink of an eye, nothing we do matters at all. I became oddly depressed and felt empty for a while.

But eventually I came to the realization that no matter what existential crisis takes place in my mind, I am still here, and my emotions, well-being, and daily life are real. More real than outer space and the rest of the universe, because I have never been there, and likely never will. We have this life and this time here to do whatever we choose; if you are bored, depressed, or just want something more:

>quit your job.

>travel to fucking japan, or australia, or zimbabwe, who gives a shit.

>try skydiving, bungee jumping, wingsuit diving.

>fly to somewhere in the middle east, pick up a rifle and go fight isis.

if you are contemplating suicide, you may as well get out there and experience something new and crazy before you do. nothing is more real than THIS moment right now. so get off your butt and go do something worth doing.

or join isis

go see a medical professional about it
some of us are pretty worthless and it really wouldn't effect anyone with us being lost aside maybe funeral costs and hurt feelings for the most part
you're a normie med pros are pretty much specifically trying to make a science out of establishing what is normal and how to put stuff into a state of normality

Thank you.

The similarity around your thoughts and mine is scary, because those are exactly the thoughts I have been having these days.

learn brazilian jiu jitsu, op.

>this will improve your physical fitness, mental well-being, and give you a network of positive people to interact and bond with.

it changed my life.

Thank you all who took their time and replied to this thread. May it not have only changed my mind about taking my own life but also the rest out there that are still in conflict with themselves.

I appreciate what you all have written to me/this thread, no fucking shrink or fucking medical professional could have made me realize what to do with my feelings.

I've been so fucking busy seeing shit through other peoples perspective, that I need to focus on my own. Now that my uncle passed it set the wheels in motion for my psychical instability towards life. All depressing shit I felt just got magnified. I didn't let anyone in, didn't feel like doing anything. At the time it felt like the right option, just to cope with the feelings. But what I realized now is that I surrounded myself in a fucking bubble with negativity that filled my perception of life with just that.

Now. I finally have some solace. Also I might try Brazilian Jiu Jitsu.

Thank you Sup Forums

judo is also not bad, i have a green belt but i just quit when i started music instead. i'm glad Sup Forums helped, it is worth a damn sometimes. this is the karma i was talking about. i gained from this