That's it. I've tried, i swear i did. I'm just not meant to be happy, last 5 years of my life have been a downward spiral of pure sadness, resentment and humiliation. I'm 21 years-old, college drop-out, poor, etc. Nothing gives me pleasure, i'm a diagnosed bipolar- schizo and meds make me even more suicidal. I'm fully aware of the implications of this decision and i embrace it. My last shot was travelling through Europe (i'm based in Italy), working as a waiter, trying to open myself to new cultures and new languages but that's just not gonna happen.
Now, any pills easy to get in a regular drug store that'll put me to sleep?
Thanks /bros/
That's it. I've tried, i swear i did. I'm just not meant to be happy...
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Don't kill yourself. Your life could get better, and you would've never experienced it because you ended it too early. Good things come to people that wait, man.
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Don't kill yourself.
I love you user.
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Dear op
Before you go. I'd like to say that I was in the same boat. Now, i got my degree in software. And have a nice house and motorcycle. And tattoos. I am also addicted to Opium.
Hang in there Sup Forumsro
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Hey man quit waiting for happyness. Go out there and see how many women you can prego up. Life is ment to be lived.
i love this. keeps me alive. thanks user.
OP live life and things will get better.
Other schizo here, I can say it only gets worse... and offing yourself is probably the best solution to avoiding dementia, but think about this.... you're going to get so deranged that you'll forget ANYTHING that ever bothered you. You'll have a completely clean slate and view the world through a childs eyes again.
What do you mean "good things"? I'm a degreeless, ugly white male. Even if i could get a min wage job and sustain myself in a 1st world ciuntry (which i think is a good life) then what is left? A life of loneliness, no love, no friends, just void.
You're only 21. I've had a pretty shit life, at 21 it was less shit than when I was in my teens. I'm 29 now and my life is still not how I want it, but it's better than when I was 21. Giving up before you've barely started sorting out your life is just silly.
ask for a change of meds man, psychiatry has evolved and now pills are better, change psychiatrist if your current one doesn't understand this
i also feel more suicidal from pills lately, things need changing
your illness is only bio-chemical
If you have a job, you could afford joining a social hobby. Social hobbies entails the possibility of friends, love and avoidance of loneliness.
You're 21. You haven't even given life a chance. Just because your Eurotrip didn't go as planned doesn't mean you should an hero.
You're 21, your life has seriously just started.
Dear OP look at all this dubs on a thread wirh like ten replies. Dont do it. I know it feels bad and lonely but things change. When I was 20 I was a college drop out, in jail for drug dealing and the love of my live (I felt she was at the time) left me. Now I have a life, wife, kids and feel happy. Give it a try. Move on. Move out.
Good read, but i'm just too far gone. Maybe if i had read this 2 years ago i would've hopped on a fishing vessel in the middle of the baltic sea for 1$/hr and perhaps the cold fresh air filling my lungs would get me out of this mental state.
Noone has suggested pills so far, would appreciate any input on it.
Come back in 10 years, if nothing has changed for you, I'll recommend any and all of the pills you'd need to die.
Couple bottles of regular over the counter pain medication should do it.. take them all with a big bottle of liquor and just lie down.
Go back to the port and hop in another vessel. Stay in this plane of existence with us. Learn to cook.
If you make excuses you won't get anywhere. It's better than killing yourself.
Don't be stupid OP. You are not too far gone. Go hop on a vessel. Fill your lungs will cold fresh air. If it would have got you out of your mental state 2 years ago, it will now.
also, bump
Don't do it op, just go out and volunteer to help others. That's the best way to bring yourself happiness
What's the meaning of life?
As a fellow bipolar fag, you need to find a routine and stick to it, a routine that is successfu and accomplishes much. Stick to the routine and keep going until it becomes natural, no matter how fucked up you feel. Your emotions and how you feel is not reality bro, and given enough time the way you feel will change. I have tried all kinds of things and was stuck in the same boat as you for a long time. The feeling of hopelessness comes from the perception of your life being out of control due to the fact that you don'tcomplete many tasks, plus doing uncomfortable things makes you over think. There is a way to peace and prosperity, and i know its hard to see or understand when you'reall fucked up in the head, but life is worth it man. Write down your thoughts and analyze them, try to understand the bigger picture in life, start with setting ssmall goals and completing them, then work your way up to larger goals over larger periods of time. You can do it bro, keep yourself occupied and stick to it, meditate only when you'renot fucked up. This has proven better a solution than any medication or advice than anyone else has ggiven me. It may not be perfect for you but you can fine tune it bro, trust me I'vebeen in your shoes and found a way out. It can be controlled with the time of the year and different adventures of life to be joyful.
The real question is, why do you need to know? Set aside the natural human quest for "more" and start thinking about if it would change anything, whether you knew the meaning To life or not. You'dstill be just another human being trying to make his way in the world
DO IT! Need i say more? If you are stupid enough to let doctors to put you on psychotropics, you don't deserve to live.