I keep getting this extreme panic when I think about my existence, the more I look at my hands and pay attention to my consciousness, the more it feels like this is all just a big fucking lie and I can't stop the anxiety. It hits me like a truck, what the fuck is all of this? Nothing feels real at all, I don't feel real.
Meditation worsen it, I can't believe I've lived all my life hearing about death, life and philosofical questions about existence and just now I am becoming aware of what it fucking truly means. It's like I've just been awoken, but I simply can't continue living on this new level of reality knowledge as the ''entity'' I was, whatever that means. And I am too scared to do anything but distract myself until I am so tired I won't be able to think anymore.
What the fuck do I do? Is it just the anxiety talking? It is all so surreal.
You're fine. Eventually you'll grow up and realize everyone has to die at some point, then you'll actually do something productive with your time besides shitpost on Sup Forums
Logan Watson
I don't do much shitposting these days, I've been productive, mostly to avoid having to think about existing at all.
Angel Campbell
Well be even more productive and stop being a faggot, no one cares about your shitty adolescent opinions on life.
Mason Cox
I am 21.
Camden Sullivan
we've all been through existential crisis before user, your'e not special and your'e not the only one going through that state of mind. eventually you'll accept it and come to terms with it
Liam Williams
>21 >thinks hes all grown up
Ha
Justin Reed
Sorry that's just the realization some people get.
Ever since I was 6 or 7 I would get scared of what happens after I die, at first I sought for an afterlife to comfort me, but found that even an eternal existence is frightening to try to envision. There's no way eternity could be that great no matter how it's spent, and similarly, dying and losing all sensation and consiousness entirely is spooky as a bitch
Just keep distracting yourself
Connor Watson
Yeah that happens. Just ask yourself this question : I follow the true God or do I follow the devil? It will help you instead of being in the middle, it will also give you a purpose.
Jace Butler
But that doesn't even matter
Any afterlife would get boring
Zachary Carter
I never implied that, I was merely stating I am not an adolescent.
What's with you guys thinking I believe myself to be a special snowflake? I am just stating this shit is freaking me out, nothing else.
Seriously, bunch of fags.
Michael Lopez
Not when that afterlife is Valhalla
Jose Bailey
Holy shit
Cameron Turner
Dont listen to him op, this is an example of someones viel who hasnt been lifted
Grayson Barnes
double dubs! youre definitely not real
Gavin Miller
If you go to deep you will have to create a delusion in order to remain a functional member of what you were doing with society in the past, or continue to do... I like to think of myself and everyone as a vessel, things come in and things go out.
Alexander Green
Productivity is a want of human reproduction, not a need.
Robert Bell
Truly, I've seen now that identity is an illusion. It's like realizing you're a robot, albeit an organic one. I can't fucking deal with the anxiety this shit is causing me.
Nicholas Bell
Is the anxiety about death it's self, or responsibility?
Grayson Morgan
Sounds like derealisation.
Common in bi-polars, people who suffer from ptsd, or borderline personality disorder. A lot of people sometimes confuse it for the kind of... disassociation (for lack of a better word) reached by meditation.
People who have recently experienced something traumatic or disturbing to them in some way can experience it awhile after the experience as well. Like a car crash or something. If it's been part of your life for more than a couple months, you might want to consider treatment. Meds might take the edge off.
I've accepted death as just another part of life so it's nothing for me to worry about or fear. My time will come when it comes, same as everyone else.
Luke Rodriguez
Don't do meds, trust me it's easier to figure out these things for yourself.
Colton Foster
Neither, is anxiety about observing myself and the world around me, recognizing I ''exist''. It feels like this all is too fucking crazy to be really happening. A fear of life, I guess.
I understand it doesn't make sense, I know it must be the panic attack making me feel this way, but fuck, just looking at the screen while I type this is making the feeling of unrealness take over me and it feeds more anxiety into it.
Michael Gray
" It doesn't even matter" . Look kid, you either understand or you don't. Kill people or help them.trust me,.I am user
Noah Martin
I've been through the same thing at the exact age. I thought I would never get out of that, I had to get some anxiety relievers for about two months then it got gradually better. At first I got mini panic attacks when thinking about it, now I just avoid the issue as there is no means to trying going any deeper, it's just a downward spiral. Sometimes I start to think about that stuff and I have to immerse myself into reality to distract myself but right now (about 4 years later) I'd say I'm kinda ok. Previously everything seemed empty and devoid of meaning and I had the same realizations you had - everything seemed so bizarre and exactly as you said: surreal. What sometimes takes me back are fucking dreams, they are fucking spooky. I'm not talking about nightmares with creepy skeletons, just bizare dreams about places far far away and absurd developments basically. It's also what got me thinking at first I believe, when I was 12-13 and I started to think seriousy about the meaning of existence. I got totally spooked by those kinds of dreams but everything felt kind of self contained. Then once you dig into the infinite layers of existence you start to get really spooked because it's not anymore a life problem which is just pertaining your own finite life but it's a universal - eternal - recursive problem you can't even consider wrapping your head around. the fact that we are here right now - means something had to exist since forever. but what is time? and one of the most chilling realizations we're here, but here where?
Jaxon Torres
>be productive >make money >buy things >have children You're as close as it gets from being empty and dull, better be mad than being like you.
Landon Thompson
I second this. Shit's intensive. I did an in depth paper on this and dissociative identity disorder. Just talk it out, find someone you trust. Sup Forums isn't the place to come, 99% of the time you'll just be called a nigger.
John White
Then how about this: >On a galactic scale your existence means fuckall. >Your existence only matters within the microcosm of your friends and family and should they die once you are dead and gone no one will know you ever lived. Like you never lived at all. Unless you do something noteworthy no one will know of you when you are dead. Get Cracking at it.
Carson Hughes
Successful? Stay mad faggot. I've earned what little I have through hard work and determination, and that makes me happy.
Luke Harris
Reasonably, ask yourself a question of what would happen if you did something? i.e. What if I were sitting on the floor? What would happen or how would it feel to sit outside? What if you were to dig a hole in the dirt next to you while you sit outside. You will hopefully know what it will be like or somewhat what it will be like to do these things, but if you actually go do them and they are different from what you expected, like you find something in the dirt that you didn't expect, then you are in a real world. If there is ever anything that is unexpected you are in reality, hopefully, unless there is something blocking that type of thinking.
Jacob King
Wait it out. Unless, you have the secret to the meaning of life. You will never be able to answer w/e questions triggered your fear.
Xavier Perez
You simply stumbled on the reason so many people embrace religion. Let it go, and move on. No, it won't be that simple, but you'll stop thinking about it at some point.
Henry Sanders
That's fine, too! As long as the person knows what's happening. That it's common for all sorts of people. And that meditation can sometimes make things worse if they don't work things out first.
Daniel Collins
I got caught in a nasty one where I believed the exact opposite to be true: That unexpected things were a part of a fake delusional reality, I don't recommend it.
Cameron Lee
I don't care about being remembered, I don't fear death. What's scares me is fucking living.
So, I suppose with time the mind does it's own job of adaptation to anything? Sooner or later, back under the leash of my own biology, I feel fucking trap in my skin, and that's just a mere illusion.
Jesus fucking christ.
Harsh times to seek help right now, and I've had it before. But it's like I forgot about all of it and now suddenly it came back.
I don't think I am hallucinating right now, but I am sure this anxiety is definitely fucking up with my capacity to think rationally to some extend, I just wish I could calm down, embrace it and move on, but it just won't stop.
Ryan Lopez
that's true, nigger
Isaac Wood
cont: make sure you get good sleep at night but don't oversleep too much or you'll get dragged down into very spoopy shit when you dream one night at the peak of it i was fucking staring at the moon at a loss of words because everything seemed so bizarre, as it should be being human and being in this world is only regular once you get the hang of it. if you strain hard enough, you can get back to the state of not being used to some concepts again. you can rethink issues like natural instincts you have, social constructs, up to deeper layers but that is not surely going to help is it? just think of this: the same thoughts you created by yourself are part of the reality you are stuck into they are as bizarre as the rest if you really consider eternal existence, you can consider you have always had the same thoughts and nothing changed in any way, be it time or space or dimensions we don't /can't know in our state. so there is no point arguing further - each time we can only enjoy one piece of reality. No point in getting freaked out - just let it settle and come to the point where you understand it doesn't change anything.
David Young
Find a repetitive task to sink into, it could be anything as long as you choose to do it, maybe it will allow you to.
Something like drawing lines on a sheet of paper, or typing out the alphabet.
Charles Price
take drugs
Gabriel Gutierrez
Watch this movie.
Logan Price
And you'll end up as a ragged whore lying in bem after a bukkakke marathon and in when you're gazing into the abyss of death you'll be making the exact fucking questions being debated in this thread right now, but I'll answer what will happen after you die: your existence will be erased, all your achievments and sucess too, your family, if you have one, after looting and dividing what used to be yourself will remember you on your birthday, sometimes, all your existence and life's work will be sum up as you working 80 years so your kin can buy a new television and some toilet paper.
Joshua Nelson
After I'm dead my children will benefit from what I built for them. Be mad faggot, you're just selfish.
Luke Sullivan
Either that or be a historical figure, how often is Hitler mentioned on a daily basis, of course no one probably knew who he actually was as a person to that deep level, or someone else from history like Socrates.
Ethan Powell
>So, I suppose with time the mind does it's own job of adaptation to anything? Sooner or later, back under the leash of my own biology, I feel fucking trap in my skin, and that's just a mere illusion. yeah adaptation gets you through like nature got you through existence. It is normal to feel trapped when you are in that condition and keep thinking about how trapped you are - but thinking you are trapped or not does not change anything, there is no liberation, i believe. what would getting free even mean? you could think of death but that just shuts down your consciusness, and it's not a solution to the existence problem. Just embrace this new feeling you are feeling as a new experience in your existence, no point in fighting anything at all. After all, everything is so bizarre, everything seems like a dream. Keep repeating yourself this thing: the issues you are thinking about right now have been produced by your mind through the experience of this bizarre existence. as a result, they can only be as surreal as the rest - like when you wake up from a dream and you go like "where was the logic in what i was thinking in that stupid dream?" your/our concept of logic as we know it only applies in this instance of existence, not to the whole of it. So your issues and thoughts are shut down with it - everything you thought is experience you get from outside and only such experience will give you new thoughts. So remember: 1 there is no point in arguing, 2 you cannot argue in a completely abstract way about things you cannot give any thought to
Now to help you coping with your anxiety, once you start having thoughts just dismiss them as intrusive/uninvited thoughts. Immerse yourself into something you really like - what actually helped me was going back to stuff i liked as a boy such as miniature painting and stuck to it a bit. Try to be around people as much as possible and avoid being alone too much. Don't listen to depressing music such as sigur ros
Ethan Cruz
It's going to take a lot of effort for me to just embrace this and move on, sitting down and breathing while observing myself feel like I am going insane is fucking bizarre.
I wish I could go to sleep, but lying down on the bed is the worst part. I know that even when I fall asleep, I'll be having one nightmare after another.
I've been learning how to draw and play the piano to take my mind off it, works wonders but today I just couldn't control it.
I believe Salvia Divinorum is what partly caused me to start feeling like this, 4 years ago. I got over it, and now it's coming back.
I've done it, back when I first began having this feelings. I also watched Numb.
Juan Baker
I remember watching this veteran who had been to Afghanistan talk about how the first bullet shot by the enemy in the beginning of a 4 hour firefight. The bullet apparently just missed his head by like a few inches. And he kept talking about how, afterward, his mind would force him to obsess over those few inches, about the angle of deviation from his head. How his life was determined by random chance. And how everybody on his team had stories like that, and his war buddies, all having experienced the same thing, helped him come to grips with the kind of thoughts he had.
He had even talked about how some of his buddies who left the military had a way harder time adjusting. It was because they didn't have the 'brotherhood' or whatever. They didn't have those people in their lives with common experiences. If they're alone they have no one to bounce off of-- to help anchor them to a purpose, despite the pointlessness.
Bentley King
>I've been learning how to draw and play the piano to take my mind off it, works wonders but today I just couldn't control it. >Salvia Divinorum
How did you get over it before? Or why did you need to get over it?
Aiden Stewart
Go look some funny anime such as the new dragon ball series. Cheering up helps a lot. The point is: you are at the point where nothing is catching your attention enough to distract you. So start finding distraction, once something gives you a feeling of distraction start focusing on that feeling more and start asking yourself what else could give you the same feeling. I found that immersing myself in stuff i used to love like games and animes helped a lot. I see what you mean, falling to sleep was the worst part for me also - i was afraid of dreams and sleeping and mostly the worse thought came right before sleeping. But let me tell you i understand exactly what you mean and i mean word by word. I was really scared because what i kept thinking about was: i could convince anyone in the world we should worry about our existence and nothing would literally change in our existence - there is noone that could help me etc. Only you can help yourself. I found my bad feelings were also connected to how i felt burdened from society and becoming adult - you just need to stop caring about it and all the constructs we uselessly build in our mind and get back with your mind to when you was a child and everything got your attention and you wanted to experience whatever you wanted. this is why "going back to the old pleasures" helped me so much. Also please do not worry about going insane, it's just anxiety. Going insane is hearing voices.. think about how lucky we are when we consider we are living a stable existence!
Jacob Cooper
Oh man don't worry bro I know exactly how this feels. Even worse this all happened while I was on LSD my god, that was the worst trip I ever had. At first I could feel myself become anxious then it started growing and growing till I was tripping badly. Simply questioning who I was, what it mean to be conscious, looking at myself in the mirror, it was surreal. I could not wrap my head around it and that's what scared me the most. Not knowing how things came to be, how much different we are compared to other animals. How much we have evolved, everything that has went down in history and now here I am becoming history every second I am alive. It really scared me and I was really changed after that. Much more aware that I was actually alive and it definitely felt like it was not real at all. After a while though after my last trip I kind of came to see that it didn't matter, it didn't freak me out anymore, I simply saw it as an amazing gift from the universe, or god. I say if we're alive then just simply enjoy it, in the future you'll start to really enjoy the feeling of being conscious with or without drugs. I'm 16 dude, haven't lived long at all but I am constantly learning and just enjoying life. It gets better man
Austin Smith
existential crisis
everyone with a brain faces this
its like basically: >the universe: hey how you doin'? >you: well i uh wa- >screen goes black
we are a shot in the dark and thats it bro
Luke Brooks
I have the same shit op. Went to therapy for it, and started doing Mindfulness Meditation. It's helped me so much, definitely recommend looking into it. Also try going to therapy, it might not help the immediate problem, but it'll help your outlook on your own life.
Caleb Cruz
I like this perspective, I've experienced very similar things, it is better to embrace feelings / thoughts, things were ok before, now and most likely will be in the future.
Caleb Allen
I've been asking myself this question a lot, and I can't remember all the details. I vaguely remember the first months being hell on Earth, and me constantly seeking anything that would cure me.
I found this guy on youtube called ''BigNoKnow'' that had the same issues as me, and found a cure by using testosterone injections. In my desperation I decided to give it a try without the doc's advice and it made me feel very good about life, had energy, confidence, build some muscle and I had a constant sense of well being. I decided to stop the testosterone, and although I felt a bit empty inside, I never experienced depersonalization again. Until now.
I don't know how much of all of that was placebo, but it certainly was part of getting over it. but it's all so fucking fuzzy... I mostly remember the darkness of the night, and the feeling of desperation and dispair, and the contrast of good feelings testosterone caused.
I am fucking lost.
Zachary Miller
It was meant as a cont to my previous ramblings. One of my biggest issues was having noone with the same exact kind of anxiety i had - my parents and friends kept telling me yeah i understand i often think about existence and in eed to stop thinking about it but i felt even more scared because it was like they were trying to swat me out of it and i didn't feel understood. talking to you helps me out also because i often get on Sup Forums existential threads and noone thinks about the same experience you are having, which is the same i had. i just kept thinking about the layers and layers of existence and how i am in a fucking random layer in a fucking random position on the fuking layer. what the fuck? then my brain kind of got used to it, i believe it's a different way of seeing things, to put it simply. Some people may not go like the same process as you and me did - some people may have issues more focused with religion, some may experience their crisis once in a while, etc.
Because I felt terrified 24/7. I felt I was going insane and I was trapped forever. My memory was so bad, I would forget where I was and why. I remember lying in my bed, trying to sleep and literally feeling like I was not in my room anymore, but living on the top of a dark tower in another world. It was all very abstract and bizarre, I suppose it was the anxiety.
Jackson Sanchez
As another cont: i never took any drug so the sullen realizations came all at a time just randomly by thinking about a number of things in a particularly boring moment of my life. I don't believe it's linked to drugs but maybe you are getting some effect since you STOPPED using drugs
Adam Morgan
The light but heavy answer is that there must be something else to find that will be as good as whatever you are using (testosterone) but be your own. It doesn't even have to be a chemical, it could be anything, as long as it is yours and you find it rewarding or stimulating, the reward of an action. Here is some rambling, but when you were younger weren't the acts of doing things rewarding? Like: I bet I can jump off that merry go round and live to tell the tale? Find something that is as fun as that.
Nathaniel Barnes
what u feel op is the reason religions exist and scam people since forever
Matthew Ward
i dont really believe anything he is saying. just another person who claims to know what happens when we die.
sad but true.
Connor Rivera
exactly what i was suggesting, go back to simple stuff which makes you satisfied.
Henry Sullivan
I've felt that before, but I still sort of do at times, my short term is not as good as it used to be, but my long term is amazing as long as I get enough sleep. I couldn't sleep for 3 or 4 days, at that point I got desperate. This is the right idea, it takes courage to get there, but it's worth it.
Easton Ward
Op here, I am sorry if I don't respond to some of you, I feel disoriented and confused right now. I will be saving this thread and reading throughout the responses.
Thank you for keeping me distracted and offering advice.
I've been through this before, watching this video. I never thought I could feel like awaking up twice.
This truly feels like some kind of terrible joke.
Hopefully soon I'll have to money to try out new things, maybe that will help me out with this, and be a good excuse to get out of my room. I am alone most of the time, so that definitely can't help.
I understand why someone would wish to take refuge in all knowing, loving being. I guess.
Jeremiah Garcia
Philosophical*
Jeremiah Rodriguez
The important part is "you are all others". i don't see how this can be objected as we are effectively part of everything. The part that scared me the most was how people kept telling me "yeah user everyone is afraid about what happens before life and after we die" the point is as op here i was afraid of literally any concept which is part of existence and how everything is possible and the notion of time is just a construct of our minds while we are stuck in some of the dimensions which exist. so the point is not what happens before and after but how can we relate to all this mess around and inside us? the guy in the video just uses the simpler metaphore of life before and after death just to appeal to a vast audience and to be positive and not cause too much disconcert in the listener. essentially what he thinks is: well you are part of everything, just remember it, and remember how everything exists and is totally complex and unbelievable. and how we are seeing just an insignificant part of everyhing which is basically infinite in every possible way, yet we are miraculously "here" at "this moment" experiencing all of this and this seems like a bubble to us where we are shut in forcibly and that is what makes us scared - the fact that we have no links to the outside of our current experience. But the point is, we think our connection must be in terms of memory or physical contact - but it's not, we are connected to everything in every possible way for the simplest reason of all, since we simply exist. So one should just really come to terms with the fact that this is just an experience and we should consider any experience as unique. After all, to put it in "time" terms, we survived infinity since forever and will continue to live into infinity forever. It may seem scary but as there are scary moments there are also beautiful moments, and all scary moments have passed and many beautiful moments are coming
Brandon Brooks
you haven't taken drugs take some they will calm you down
Daniel Perry
I'm stuck in the same situation sort of being in my room all the time, but that was necessary for fixing past blunders of psychiatry, medications, and drugs. This is different for everyone but you don't need money to do things, all it takes is motivation. Personally I could sit here and cut a log in half with a pocketknife if I was motivated to, and it would probably be fun, but my arm would be sore for a while.
Jayden Carter
learn to use paragraph breaks, nigga
that shit is tough to read. motherfucker.
Austin Nelson
That's because none of it is real. You're a biomachine in a psychosis that's memetically transferred. The entire breadth of human consciousness is a virtual process. All of it, your self, your society, everything is made up and only exists because people believe it exists and act accordingly.
But being able to recognize that and separate yourself from it shouldn't be cause for alarm. Nihilism is liberating. It doesn't mean everything is purposeless. It means we are the creators of purpose.
So far in your life you have followed prepared instructions like most others and just now you are beginning to realize you can create your own (and others', btw)
It's all a dream in the end, but it's the only one we got. It's the closest thing we have to "reality." And being able to recognize it as a construct should be empowering. It means you can alter it, influence it.
You can simply superimpose your own. You can change your relationships with "people" by changing your dynamic with them to fit what you want them to be, and they will subconsciously adapt to follow your will. You can focus your time and energy on any goal to influence the material world, and as long as you maintain that focus for however long it takes, you are almost unlimited in your ability to change it.
You're now beginning to realize that truly, physically, there is no such thing as gods, or even personalities. But this doesn't mean there are no gods. It means we are our own.
Landon Foster
I've taken some Diazepan I found lying around, I feel calmer now although the vague sense of uneasiness remains. Tomorrow, I will continue to focus on drawing/learning music which is something I've always wanted to learn and it definitely keeps my mind off this at the same time it helps me feel better that I am not being entirely unproductive.
I want to try to meditate again, but it scares me that even when I attempt to embrace the way I feel, it merely continues on and on. I'd hope for some comfort, but it doesn't seem to occur.
What bothers me about this most of all is the fact that I've been eating healthy, exercising and sleeping well. So I feel there's truly little I can do right now to improve my mental health besides patience.
Hunter Nelson
Sup Forums is full of wannabe kids, don't give a fuck about them
It's normal what you're going through, it will eventually pass
You could seek a professional opinion though
Jackson Reed
I feel detached from the rest of the world, i fall asleep to the though of killing myself, i feel almost as if i'm a budding psychopath as i think about terrible things that no one else thinks about, i want to get help, but i don't as i fear others will judge me, i have recurring dreams about killing myself.
John Williams
It's pretty easy to understand if you look at it from a religious point of view. "You" is your soul. You're just inside of a body that you don't really have a lotta control over if you think about it. Your body is a vehicle that runs well for a while then gets old and beat up and dies just like a car. That's not you though, that's just the vehicle you're stuck going through life with. The real question is why are you here, and everyone has a different answer to that. My answer is you are here for a short time (because what's 80 years compared to the rest of eternity) as an initiation period to the afterlife. Your life is gonna suck for the most part to see how you deal with it. If you continue to follow the rules and don't lose faith, then you get rewarded with an eternity in Heaven. If you choose not to participate, then you don't get to join the club.
Cooper Perry
Patience is one of the most important things in life. Hold on. It will be rewarding.
Justin Russell
>when you have a tumor in your head that's fucking with you
Hunter Jones
What?
Ryder Anderson
if you're still around, these guys are right. stop telling yourself that meditation doesn't help because the purpose of it is to negate association with suffering. you literally just need to be yourself because it's all you can be hehe :^)
Luke Wilson
I almost like the idea of doing this now, but is the reason so I can look at all the dust and wood chips and try to focus on my thought pattern of where I was thinking when I cut into the log, or is the reason to have 2 smaller pieces of wood out of a bigger piece of wood. I could just save the extra chips and look at them and sprinkle them like confetti, and at this point the amount of energy putting into it isn't worth it to me, because I think I may have done something similar to this in the past. Personally I don't like repeating myself, so maybe you can find something that you as a person have as a piece of yourself ?
Jose Brown
>I understand why someone would wish to take refuge in all knowing, loving being. I guess. Cont for op. another suggestion about things you can do is: start learning something, download a book about something you enjoy and just read whatever you want. it's the same as going back to your childish guilty pleasures; when one is a child he is really existing to learn stuff continuously. For example my peak in the crisis was when i finished my bachelor's degree and i was waiting to start the master's. For whatever reason my brain started working on its own on recognizing abstract patterns related to existence problems instead of the mathematical problems i was used to study, as abstract as they may be. So i belive learning gives a big payoff in terms of mind satisfaction - it helps tiring your mind and after getting through a tough problem or similar you won't have mental strength to go through all that existential stuff again. just be careful about the drugs you are taking. i am no psychiatrist but side effects come when NOT taking pills after you used them - so you should GRADUALLY stop taking them with the suggested dosage. I personally was doing ok in terms of eating and exercising, the only bad habit was sleeping very late because as i said i did not have to wake up to go to university or study. i still actually have issues in sleeping always at the same time but i believe it's not a focal issue.
But yes keep practicing patience and keep studying new stuff like music. Do mindful things which allow you to concentrate also on your physical feelings like playing an instrument. But also do simple stuff which gives immediate satisfaction without tiring your mind like watching anime and tv series. You can and will find solace once you become mindful about what really feel like doing!
Wyatt Foster
YOU HEARD ME
Ethan Gray
It's a partial understanding. Keep reaching for truth and you will understand your life. Look where answers are found, believe nothing. You are not alone.
Connor Ramirez
Underrated post
Christopher Ortiz
Dude I have a trick here. So yesterday I was cleaning out the carburetor on my motorcycle, and some carburetor cleaner shot up and got behind my safety glasses. As I actually went temporarily blind I stumbled around trying to find my way out of the garage to the water spicket. I'll tell you what man if you wanna make sure you're alive and you wanna feel something spray some carburetor cleaner in your eye. Works every time.
Robert Long
Thanks for the help guys, I appreciate it. It all feels like a nightmare, but you and the diazepan are helping taking the edge off it.
I hope I can plummet soon, I really don't want to think anymore.
Nathan Bell
I don't believe he should go any further at the moment - he should let his current state sink in for some time then his mind will slowly process and come to terms with it then he will be able to warp the understanding into whatever is fitting. once i went through my crisis i personally started seeing life and all its chores in a lighter way and i fell less anxious about any real life problem - i'm only really concerned about the safety and well being of me and my loved ones - the rest is not important. So that may be "my own" meaning.
Ok but make sure you tire your mind on something else!
Oliver Fisher
>all these long ass replies for babby's first Sartre
Evan Cox
It's possible for someone's to never end.
Christopher Sanders
And who are you to call him a baby? First what? Ah, thought so
Mothercunt.
Dominic Cooper
I agree with the other guy on this board. I think you've got Depersonalization/derealization.
Now that's nothing to be too scared of. There are grounding techniques you can try (just touch something and describe the texture in your head) and counseling, either from friends or professionals. But on a more personal level, I want to tell you about my experiences with this.
Basically I had an incredibly strong wede candy and tripped out in a really shitty way. After that I began to wonder how I really knew that I, or the world around me, was even real.
Of course, like you, I thought I was going insane or schizophrenic. I could barely focus on anything in the real world, and my memories of the past as well as the people around me seemed fake somehow.
What I'm getting at is is that you're not alone. You aren't insane. And this won't last forever. You just have some hard questions to ask yourself.
I suggest formal counseling or a church. I wouldn't say anyone can have the exact answers you personally need, but making an effort to actively engage in others and improve your life will help immensely. This time of your life is about bettering yourself, and slowly living up to this new standard you've discovered, however you decide to do it.
I knew you have a lot on your mind and it can be intimidating, but I hope I helped.
Luke Stewart
You have three choices Be grateful for the life you have be a fake or real , show your gratitude by doing something with your life
an hero
Accept the ennui, dread and bitterness of living out an existence in which you find no merit or meaning , simply to assuage your curiosity of knowing what the prize in the crackerjack box is
Nathan Williams
WHEN U DIE IT ALL JUST RESTARTS OVER AND OVER AND OVER AND OVER AND OVER LAYRERS SIMULATION AHHHHH FUUUUUCK ITS HPNING AGAIN AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
Carson Cruz
>What I'm getting at is is that you're not alone. You aren't insane. What I'm getting at is is that you're not alone. You aren't insane.
or you're just both insanitary
Caleb King
please keep in mind at all times that every relation, be it external, internal, whatever, is a mere construction of your mind. it may sound trivial but what you think is really just thoughts. thinking about consciousness does not reveal what it really is. identifying your perceptions to be a lie is not correct. they are what they are: perceptions and if you want to find what is there without the subjective modification you won't succeed because you will always want to imagine what it "looks like" or "smells, tastes, feels... like" - thus in order to get a glimpse of "reality" you want that which modifies "objective reality"... that's not possible mate. dont focus so much on impressions and dont mix up feelings and thoughts too much. if you want to think, find structures because they are to a certain extent conserved throughout the perceptive process. but thinking isn't even that important, just make sure you feel good in the first place and then start discovering structures.
Jackson Gray
What?
Charles Rivera
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Hudson Lewis
You helped a lot motherfucker, you were just high all along
Hunter Wood
That's just existential dread. I think everyone will have existential crises once in their lives, unless they're tards. It's natural to obsess over the weight of life. Just try not to think about it too much. Put your mind on other things. Also nice dub dubs.
Nicholas Myers
>This time of your life is about bettering yourself, and slowly living up to this new standard you've discovered, however you decide to do it. Alright this is an important point op. Don't think you are ever going to get that new ideas you found out of your mind, you are just going to adapt to those new "foundings" like when you was a kid you discovered people die and you just came to terms with it. It's only natural like we adapt to everything else. I also suggest a visit to a psychiatrist to give you the correct prescription to help you get through this phase. Believe me it's more common than you believe and light anxiolytics really help relieving the issue. Once you go through this, in a few years you will get ashamed of how you let yourself get fooled so much by your own self and how you was so weak to get scared by such obvious things!
Camden Bell
Depending on someone's choices it's possible for a conclusion to never happen.