Be me

>be me
>8 years old
>Find out I have chronic depression and severe anxiety
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>Few months later i try to hang myself
>Skip forward a few years
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>8 attempts later I just now tell parents
>mad af
>tf I do?
>go to mental hospital
>crazy people with even more serious daddy issues
>get a girlfriend, also depressed
>talk about 18 months
>date 11 months
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>have sex
>tells me she doesn't want to be with me anymore
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>break up
>claims i used her
>her dad dies a few days later
>ruined me
>skip forward 6 months
>been on over 100 pills
>100s of doctors
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>go cold turkey
>doing alright
>start drinking more
>stop drinking
>super lost
>been registered on suicide watch for the past nearly 7 years of my life
>very suicidal again
>too gay to kill myself
>pointless
Wat do Sup Forums? Not about the suicide thing though, just don't know wtf to do

Hows your homelife user? Parents supportive, do you get beat, are you or anyone else on drugs, verbal abuse?

You're a mess. Throw yourself off a building and don't reproduce

Tried, sorry bro. I just don't die.

Ask for advice. Doesnt reply.

Yeah, my dad is mentally and physically berating. I've been incarcerated about 4 times for "assault" towards him

Daddy Trump

Kill yourself you ugly polack. You should know by now you were born to lose. Get it over with.

It sucks. Just this Christmas my sister got everything she wanted. All I got was a ps4 and I Dont even want it because they got me an Xbox for my birthday last august.

Take off that shirt. I bet you don't even surf, faggot.

>muh depreshun
>waaaah
Make the noose tighter.

Are you fucking illiterate? I've tried like 20 times, doubt the next one will be successful

I would kill myself if I looked like that too

>can't die
No, you're just too incompetent even for that

I surf way more than you do , hang yourself.

similar situation to you op, i've recently started drinking heavily everyday, so far so good

you are a fag

take a small dose of mdma and find someone whos a good talker/listener. repeat process once a month.

Not crying about it, I really don't care in all honesty, just a viable part of what's happened

Yup, gayer than your dad. If you have one you socialistic nigger

Meh. You're going to need many many many hours of therapy. Get a job and some hobbies to occupy your time. Start seeing someone at least twice a week. If you do that you will for sure get better. If you stick to it

Very

No, you've just been coddled way too much. You've always had everything you wanted and never faced any adversity.
Any good parent would have kicked you out already.

I've done that for a few years now. I've always been active, soccer, guitar, running. Just doesn't help

This. You don't even know what hardship is.
Willing to bet your parents are middle upper class who are secretly ashamed of you.

Ok well you need to get out some how or get back on meds dude. Look, there is something wrong with your thinker and beimg im that enviro.ent is not helping. You could also be ghe main problem but just dont see it yet.

Exactly, nothing says coddled like a black eye, busted lip, and 2 fractured ribs.

And that's why I hate it so much. It's a literally a chemical imbalance, nothing i can do, but fuck I feel like a bitch.

I bet if he hung himself he'd get it right

And I'm only 14 btw
>Inb4 "you don't know shit"

I've tried hanging 4 times, 1st time branch broke, 2nd time a hook I tied to too fell out, 3rd time rope somehow fucking ripped, last time my mom got to me right after I lost consciousness

i´ve been there, but i see a difference, in my case it was not patological, just psichological shit, my advice from the hearth, life just doesn´t worth living like that... do your very best to seek for help, find out if it is patological, if it is... just kill yourself... if you´re just ¨too faggot to do it¨ you haven´t reached your bottom point...

I know what you mean, the reason I'm able to make fun of myself got me out of rock bottom, coping I guess. I'm doing decent I suppose recently though

You wired your brain to be a depressed faggot. You have to see someone who actually knows what they're doing to fix it. I had dysthmia/mdd for like 6 plus years. You can fix yourself.

Go in the Army.

They will take anyone basically. You can find a sense of purpose or when you get your own handgun you can kill yourself. It's a win win honestly.

I've been seeing doctors for years, just recently I've been feeling better than usual. I'm just making fun of myself to try and minimilize it.

Drop some acid. How much worse could it get?

When I'm 18 that's what I plan to do, but not the Army. But another military branch for sure.

What makes you live? For me it's nature and the feeling of absolute peace and zen. So i'm building a life around that.
I experienced the void twice and have learned how priceless existence is. Being able to sense is extraordinary.

Very true

I have a younger sister with down syndrome and I don't want to end up like my faggot great grandfathers that bitched out

No. It is very ordinary. Numb people are the problem. Suck a sack

I wanted to go into the Navy at first. I took the test and I was going to be an engineer. But when it came to the medical side of things, I told the recruiter I have psoriasis and he told me he will ignore what I said because it could disqualify me. And he said they could kick me out if it gets worse. So I stopped there and said I'm not going to waste my time in the Navy if I'm just going to get kicked out.

Since I didn't join, I ended up getting a girl pregnant and my little girl is due by May 4th. I'm 23 btw. This would have never happened if I went. Whatever happens in life, good things can come from change.

Congratulations. I'm worried with my history of mental illness and seizures that my chance is gone

What is ordinary, I don't understand what you're trying to say

Well OP, if you wanna suicide or die I suggest you join me, it'll be fun, we can spray paint ha has in thr most secure banks vault, we can snipe the president come on we can do this shit

To sense and feel emotion is very ordinary.

I'm heavily into politics, I will rule

Very true. For a little while I couldn't feel anything. I had brain adenoma and seizures. Probably related

I dint care what you do as long as I get a good laugh of it, maybe release a swarm of bees on steroids against everybody, so. U joining?
(Join)

Fuck yeah, we can use my roids

Awesome, I can make some crystal meth and slide it into a generals coffee and send him to make a strategy for his next fight against isis

Or the new alt right wing Chief Strategest Steve Bannon, fucking love that guy

What I want to say is the purpose of existence is to exist. Simple as that. There is no reason to live other than to live. What do? Well...do! Something is better than nothing. You are because you came to be. I know it is hard to be. It will never become easier, but I have come to learn the worth of being.

Fuc yeah, and we can add a bit of my special gas to him so he can laugh all the time, I guess we can say, hel be dying of laughter

get a job

fuck off poorfag. I hope you die alone working your shitty minimum wage job, you fucking peasent swine. I could take a piss thats worth more than you.

How do you fail suicide? Other than doing the retarded overdose thing.

Tbh OP, nobody knows what to do with life. Find a job in house remodeling like being a painter's apprentice or something.

Just have to only want attention, not death.