Ok Sup Forums my gf of 4 years killed herself last month...

Ok Sup Forums my gf of 4 years killed herself last month, I lost my job and getting kicked out of my apartment next month, i'm broke, starving, I have no family around and can't even sleep
Never been suicidal but this shits haunting me right now, i'd actually have better living conditions in prison, what the fuck am i supposed to do Sup Forums ?

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>better living conditions in prison
the answer is right in front of you, OP

Use your last bit of money for a gym membership to a 24 hr gym, take showers, place to go at night.
Get a new job, make a comeback, make some money, doesn't matter where, just don't be stagnant or suck dick.
Keep your chin up user, you can do this.

To be honest the hardest part for me here is not to be stagnant, i feel like i'm paralyzed

Oh, you had a girlfriend? Did she put out? I bet she put out.

Tell me again why you deserve the sympathy of an autistic, 40 year old who's never even been kissed? Go on. I'm waiting.

Oh. You can't think of anything? That's all right. Slip that noose around your neck. Thaaaat's it. Nice and tight. Now JUMP!!!

go to prison?

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NO. This is MY Sup Forums, cunt.

go get laid, fag.

Thats some powerful shit man... Sorry to hear that.

Is there anything around you to keep your mind off things? Maybe a bar you can go to for a few nights to be semi-around people and drink it away?

That's what I do. Forces you to have small talk and hold yourself together, occasionally getting your mind off your situation. In due time things will get better man, trust me.

Yea maybe i should sell some drugs until i get caught

I would if my autism wasn't blocking me from doing so

You should listen to lil b

get a hooker

Thank you man, actually I'm trying not to drink it away mostly because of how broke I am , keeping those 10 bucks to buy those shitty life saving noodles

What's the difference between a hooker and an onion.

You cry when chopping up an onion.

wow, you have that awesomely sexy necklace and are a virgin? how come ladies don't throw themselves at you after seeing that manly piece of bling?

In all fairness you were probably here first so it's youuuuuurrrrr b it's yooouuurrr beeee

Im 30 and live with my parents

Just remember that you are privileged by the patriarchy. If you sleep on the subway at least keep your legs crossed so you don't manspread you fucking cis male scum.

Trump is going to btfo you sad fags and make depression illegal

Once you're all in jail America will be great again

Walk to New York and punch Shia LaBouef in the face

I went through something similar, except was with gf for 3 years. It's been 1 1/2 years since then and I'm much better.

you NEED something for work. whether you quit your job, got fired/laid off, it doesn't matter. you can find a new one.

try to find one that you can sustain yourself on. I don't know what your credentials are, where you live, etc, but as long as you make double the lowest rent around, you can survive.

you HAVE to work. it helps so much more. you accomplish tasks, keep your mind focused, build your resume, and make money doing it. It doesn't matter if it's fast food or something with qualifications, any form of legitimate work should always be cherished.

if you are able to move to a new city or even state, by moving in with a friend/relative, then that's what you need to do. fresh start

get a companion, an animal. either a dog, cat, bird, whichever one you're most interested in.

I liked cats but I never considered having one until a few years ago. I adopted a kitten and there's nothing more I like when I open the door to my apartment and the little dude has his paws on the door/door knob, meowing and leading me to my bed as per ritual. doesn't give a shit how bad my day was, what I did, how I look, if I'm broke or just got paid, etc.

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Will keep that in mind thank you
would that get me in prison ?

Humm... Well what about just ordering water? Just to have a place to go with people around. I assume you're like us, and that you have no friends in real life to turn to.

That shits pretty rough man. Normally I'm a lot better with advice, but its 4am and im half asleep. But here, laugh at this pic

Yes! Yes, it will. Also, it will give you something to think about during the journey.

Hang in there, man. I've held a loaded gun to my head two years ago after my dad OD'ed and my high school girlfriend broke up with me and became an escort. Let me tell you I'm glad I didn't pull that mf trigger - C

cont on Don't go to prison dude. Trust me, I'm a copfag. Its really not that great in there. You won't get raped and beatup and all that other Hollywood shit, but its just not fun. CO's are dicks to people suffering depression, and will just make it worse. I can't tell you how many times I've had people just break down in the back of my car, telling me how just thinking about going back in there for a day makes them depressed as fuck.

Jail rots your soul. Don't set out with the task of ending up in there. Just don't. Maybe once you lose your apartment, go down to your local PD or hospital and check yourself into some help. You'll be an "at will" patient, so you can literally sign yourself out at any given time when you feel you're mentally more healthy.

It'll give you a place to go and talk about what just happened. It'll give you the right resources to handle the sudden drastic change. It'll give you people to be around to distract you a bit. And it'll help you cope. The biggest part of loss, especially suicide, is the shock that sets in. As the shock wears off, you'll get more and more depressed and irrational. Please don't do anything stupid like getting arrested when there are so many resources at your disposal to use.

So why'd she kill herself?

I'm really sorry for you loss
I'm actually working on my resume, not searching for any particular job, just one that feeds me
I'd really like to get a dog, but I think I should focus on myself first and i'm struggling with it now
Anyway thank you user I really appreciate

Google a commune in your area. Do some honest manual labour in a collectivist setting. I bet you'll feel better. Good luck user, I'm rooting for you.

this, so much this.
it's fascinating how much support and resources are available.

where to do you live op?

Punch Michael Bay in the face for giving him work.

Op why'd she off herself?

I'm not really considering getting arrested but it keeps coming back in my mind
You're right I should focus on the support I can get in my area, I just feel like i'm too down to earth to end up in hospital or something, I can't accept it I feel it would be worse for me

Well.. the worse part of it is that she didn't leave any note or anything.. she was acting pretty normal before it happened, she wasn't suicidal or anything
It drives me crazy
There was a police investigation and they found nothing

where you at dude?