Why i'm going to kill myself >Be me, 14 >Fucking asshole of a kid, treat dad like shit >Dad is out of town a lot, never call him >One night I get a call from him before I'm about to go to bed >Don't pick up >Next morning I wake up to my mom screaming and crying from the other room. >My dad had died in the hospital from a widow maker heart attack. >Fucking hit rock bottom >Wish I had treated him better >Wish I wouldn't have stayed fucking home when he came home and wanted to do things with me >Wish I had told him how much I really loved him >Shit haunts me for years >Get fucked with manic depression
Im 18 now and I can't do this anymore, I love you dad.
Henry Mitchell
It's in the past and it can't be changed. Move forward.
Ayden Butler
Damn bro. Nothing matters though so don't worry.
Jayden Adams
My fucking dad mattered.He called while he was in the hospital because he knew he was going to die.
Anthony Hughes
he rang to tell you your a disappointing faggot child kys so he can tell you in person
Levi Stewart
ill be ur new daddy
Jaxon Anderson
Aren't you faggots fucking funny. So long fuckers, so long.
Owen Howard
Make him glad that you were his son.
Jeremiah Davis
Guess you should be the best fag you can be instead of killing yourself. Two negatives don't make a positive, do you want to be the kid that was shitty to his dad AND killed himself?
I'd switch the energy you're investing into regret towards honoring your love or whatever gay thing and being a good kid.
Might as well try now.
Colton Perry
Yes
Aaron Ross
Oh please, cunt. If you were going to kill yourself, you'd kill yourself. This is just as shitty attention-seeking post. Probably didn't even happen.
Op is, as always, a fucking faggot.
John Ortiz
Stop beong a faggot, be the man he wanted you to be, amd not the faggot he was ashamed of, once you have a kid, name him fter your dad
Jayden Martin
Thank you all. I will reconsider my choice.
Thomas Collins
yea some people just have a hero complex let them have their fun and if this is the 1 in a 1000 maybe some faggot edge lord will live to post another thread
Justin Thomas
this
Adam Cooper
Sup Forums saves local man's life
Alexander Williams
Take it from a Dad of two boys, your Dad forgives you. If he can see you now it breaks his heart that you're not happy. Go talk to someone, get some counselling and forgive yourself.
Dylan Evans
if i were you i would think of my mom idk if she is a bitch or what your relationship is with her but if you even care a little bit about her you will not make her lose her son and husband. She has probably thought about killing herself too and the only reason she hasn't is for you
Ethan Collins
Hope things get better for you OP.
Bentley Martinez
goddamn.
Michael Reyes
Grow the fuck up and man the fuck up. It's because of people like you we will never defeat ISIS. Bunch of whiney crybaby pussys
Gavin Robinson
He's resting in peace now
Blake Morgan
Nigga what does isis have to do with any of this
Charles Jones
I'll be ur dad OP
Brayden Roberts
>all your retirement are belongs to us
Charles Sullivan
Hello OP, I am a father to a complete cuck of a son like you. When I first read your post I was like, "fucking kill yourself you P.O.S". Then I was like how would I feel as the Dad?? Well I can tell you what to do OP. Make your Dad proud by living a good life, making a shit ton of cash and loving your own family, when you have one, well. Oh, and take good care of your mother for him.
Mason Flores
seek peace kiddo, everyone's an asshole. You, me, and everyone else. It's just something you need to let go of.
Nathan Sullivan
Seriously... ...this
Brandon King
Yah this little bitch will make his dad real proud. He is probably living in his mother basement eating tendies every day
Daniel Wood
I'm sorry for your loss, OP.
Carson Clark
Fuck... this hits very close to home...
>be me 9 years ago, fall of sophomore year >wake up and see dad lying on the floor >he isn't moving, some blood by his lip, eyes closed >shake him and yell for him to get up >run upstairs and tell mom something is wrong with dad >ended up having a massive heart attack >cell phone just out of reach
To this day I regret every bad thing I did to him. He loved me so dearly.. :'( the depression crippled me and eventually I developed crohns disease from the guilt and anxiety. Never developed discipline due to no male role model and a very abusive mother. fml..
Parker Smith
wtf stop being a little pussy bitch yeah you were a dick to your dad, and his last moments consisted of disappointments and sadness, but all father want to see their children make it i have 3 kids, one of them is an edgelord like you are, but even if he his a little shit sometimes, i love him to death and would want him to go far in life, just as your father wants for you. tldr; dont be a fucking pussy and disappoint your dad twice
Ryder Gomez
And like that other user said, make him proud you were his son. Find peace.
Hunter Roberts
No one can hide from my sight
Owen Torres
kek
Go kill yourself you self righteous faglord.
Grayson Howard
Guilt and anxiety can do that to you?
Andrew Lewis
damn that hit me
but don't kill yourself
Matthew Watson
mental stress causes many chronic illnesses
Liam Peterson
I almost lost my dad, I couldn't imagine losing him now. I can't imagine what you're going through. Truly I am sorry. Suicide is not the answer, the best you can do is move on. Get well.
Chase Cooper
sucks to be you bitch ass OP stop being a fucking dick maybe your dad being dead will make you remember to be decent person next time fucking fggt
Lincoln Sullivan
what a great guy
Samuel Perez
Do a flip
Ethan Carter
I'm 22 now I have a fairly similar story I was 14 We were arguing when it happened I still blame myself. I think the rest of my family does too. I try not to think about it.
Don't kill yourself. We're making the best with what we have. I know how you feel on an unimaginably personal level. I've been there. I am there. But don't do it. Your family has suffered enough. Keep moving.
Juan Murphy
I'm this guy
Just move on and make your father proud. It took me until the age of 22 to get my shit together. Right now getting my bs in chem e with a 4.0. maybe it isn't too late for me to have a good life, he would have wanted that.
Jordan Gray
Holy shit are you me
Levi Cruz
This. Also Check em
Ayden Peterson
Keep going my niggas keep going
Gavin Lopez
Allahu Kekbar
Jacob Moore
Maybe I'm you from 4 years in the future.
There's far more horrible detail I could get into. For my own sake, I'd rather not type much more out. It was very bad. I was there when it happened. We were fighting.
It's very hard. I know. But you have a brother out here somewhere. It's never easy. We all have our cross to bear. Keep moving. Keep moving.
Logan Brooks
The moral of the story is: always watch for your health, or you may die as early as 40-50 yo, leaving your whore-wife without a husband, and your bastard-kids without a daddy.
Leo Kelly
This
Brandon Foster
I'm sorry op. I cannot comprehend how you must feel. Though your brain was and currently is developing, so irrational thoughts and actions happen. You need to forgive yourself somehow and use this as guidance for when you have a child of your own; along with treating everyone with respect and benign manner.
Idk if this is relavent, but I know a guy who is a junkie. I saw him today, he asked if I had any smokes and i did. I gave him 3, and walked and chatted with him a bit. He was picking up cigarette butts while we walked. I gave him 5 more to make him stop picking butts up around me. The dude was odd, he talked about how short girls skirts are and that you can look up them and made racist remarks near foreign people of my country in front of their kids. He asked for money too. Anyway, I'm not fond of this guy, though when he asked if I wanted to go for a beer sometime I agreed. Basically to make him feel good because statistically speaking, he will die very soon. You don't know how long you'll be on this earth.
All the best op. I hope you and I can benefit humans and this world in some way before we pass.
Levi Young
No, I'm 22, was almsot 14 when my dad died. the night before my mom manipulated me into shitting on him about being a lazy deadbeat but all she did was gold dig off him my entire life.
Henry Sanders
wtf r u doin fagot, I know you were hard on your dad, so instead of being a massive faggot and killing yourself, you need to make sure you honor his memory, turn your life around and sort your shit out for him. Make sure you live the kind of life and be the kind of man that would make him proud.
Isaac Sullivan
>crohns disease lmao you have permanent bloody diarhoea you win at life
Justin Jones
>The stories and information posted here are artistic works of fiction and falsehood. >Only a fool would take anything posted here as fact. ITT: Newfags
Adam Scott
lol wut it fucking sucks brah food feels like glass in my intestines.
Robert Powell
>be me 8 >time to get burned with a hot coat hanger again >burned on bottom of feet so wouldn't be seen at school >always sit through recess >get shunned shit got better eventually
Lucas White
i thought that was passed geneticallyy
Alexander Wood
why? how bout you google it
Nolan Bennett
why don't you google it for me nigger. how fuckin dumb you gota be to not know ur own disease. no wonder ur dad is dead
Joshua Davis
i don't want disease fags get on my search history
thats why i dont look up aids and shit bro
Ayden Rivera
you're fucking retarded. I was asking why the fuck you would think something so retarded and unfounded. And then asking why wouldnt you just fucking google that shit you fuck. God damn fucking retards.
Jacob Cruz
hope trump sends you back to your shithole country you fucking nigger shit
Andrew Perez
Continue his legacy and don't be a dick to your kid
Caleb Reed
look kid, young people by nature are empty skulls of mush often getting juvenile senility, that often powered by hormonal cocaine,,not the drug cocaine,hormones that the bod cranks out for about ten years at around 14 years old, for years,,a good bet papo, years ago was the same way,and did even worse, pop is around alive in a far larger sense that is off your radar screen as the world outside moms builtin nursery for the nine months,then your get tossed into the deep end, best way to work on sorrow regrets,is to direct them toward doing something worthwhile & honest dad will know,he'll be around,god called him home to bring GREATER GOOD from those who dad left behind,,awright atheists,if there is no life after this,there is no god all we do is worthless,we all die trees die and become posts who gives a shit about grief? I wonder how many drug users are left hopeless in choices of good or evil because of the atheist education system