Depression Thread: What keeps you from just ending it, Sup Forums?

Depression Thread: What keeps you from just ending it, Sup Forums?

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Too pussy to die

lol reading these threads is being like someone who never used heroin watching junkies whine about their next fix.
get over your fucking feelings

The fact that if I died I wouldn't ever get to smoke, drink, or have promiscuous sex with strangers. Sure, life is dull and dreary mostly, but it's the small things that make it worth being alive for.

Retards like you are why people want to kill themselves

Potential.

I haven't an hero because I can't do that to my family. They're the reason I haven't done it yet

I'm a coward that has never finished anything I started.

boo hoo, get a dog. Its an endless source of feelings, poop, and stench

My self preservation and hunger for meaning. It's a cruel game of catch 22

You honestly think someone who's in a depressive mode has the ability to be responsible for an animal when they can barely be responsible for themselves? You must be retarded.

my kids are the only reason I haven't blown my head off

idk, seen some pretty stupid ass people walking around with a tied up dog, picking up its turds as they drop out of its ass. Seems to be the highlight of their life too

The sad part is you're actually right hahaha

I would hurt my family more and i am scared of not knowing whats after death.

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This song always soothes me. It makes realize that there is no meaning to anything, but that's okay.

Anger.

Sheer, raw, fucking cussedness.

I see the world, and I see the bullshit that happens in it. Every. Fucking. Day. I see the leaders that exploit the sheep, the sheep that remain ignorant deliberately, and the fucktards that can't be assed to change a bit of it because The Chew is on in five.

And that's why I can't die yet.

I can't die until I see it all burn.

I can't die until Indiana is consumed with plagues, until the two party system in the US is replaced by 30+ factions with wildly opposing goals, until the cable companies are bankrupt, the porn studios don't exist anymore (replaced by self-employed single performers), until every narcotic is legal, until Cosa Nostra and the Vory and the Yakuza are considered legitimate political parties, until the Pope raises his hands in disgust and says "fuck it, I'm done", until the government of Sealand is considered relatively stable.

BY ALL ACCOUNTS, I AM GETTING THERE.

I have psychosis, depression, social anxiety, dropping out of college, dad in prison, mom a whore, no job, no gf, no entertainment. Im soon bout to kill myself real quick too op

Ever been unconscious or in a coma, only to reawaken with no knowledge of how much time has actually past? I'd imagine it's like that, only we never reawaken... Kinda like before we were born.

nothing
im too much of a pussy to go on
i wish i did have a reason to stick around
but i have nothing to offer anyone

You believe in reincarnation?

I don't know, but if we assume it exists, we probably don't retain any knowledge of prior lives, so it doesn't really matter.

depression/suicide threads are my favorite

when you are an infant you have knowledge of previous lives. That's probably why infants will do things like drag extension cords into their crib to choke themselves

LOL wtf

What if we're all just one being and we don't it. Just billions and billions of personalities. We're God

don't know it
fml

Fitting analogy, cause reading reactions like yours is like seeing someone who never used heroin trying to talk along with junkies about what that life is like.

If you had ever been or known someone who was actually depressed, you'd know it's not about your feelings, but the constant absolute lack thereof. When all of your food tastes grey day in day out, you start to get really sick of it after a while. That's what depression is like for everything you do.

>Fucking quadriplegic people, why don't they just walk like me?! It's so easy!
-you

underrated

this word got me through years of depression

and to all you depressed people, try hypnotherapy, very surprising and has very high success rate

I tried hypnotherapy a couple of days ago but the therapist was some old dude and nothing changed should I try again? did it work for you

Absolutely

Reincarnation does exist, and yes some people remember some things about other lives when they are very little, and some habits stay with the spirit too

For example, I was a monk several times, and I still like to sit down on the floor with my legs crossed (in x)

We come to earth again because we fucked up, and karma is here to make us pay up our debt

Not even joking

Any reikian here?

>Have too many embarrassing sex toys in my closet, have to throw them away first
>Have to write down my passwords for bank accounts and social media
>Have to actually write a suicide note releasing everyone from guilt

tfw no motivation to live OR die

To add to this, don't kill yourselves, I wanted to too some years ago but then I learned that suicide only resets karma, which means you'll have to wait and reincarnate again, and go through all the pain again

No, im sane.

>misspelling ignorant this hard

So what happens when you beat the reincarnation

INSTEAD OF BEING DEPRESSED, GET THE FUCK OUT AND DO SOMETHING

WE HAVE AN ORANGE FACIST PRESIDENT WHO IS LETTING RUSSIA MAKE WAR AGAINST THE US WITHOUT RESPONSE

What if ur karma is bad? If you kill yourself u cam reset it right? Lets say you are a serial killer. If you live in next live you reincarmate as a stone, if you kill yourself, you cam start over in new live, even if you did bad things in previous karma wont work. Im that sane guy btw.

You start evolving, without the need for a body

Apparently there are a few "levels" after we leave the body, about 7 or so

we didn't start as human right off the bat, maybe not even in this planet

How is taking a vow of silence and meditating all day any different from suicide though? You're just idly anticipating some "natural" death.

same here

that's not how depression works educate yourself faggot

Life hack over here

Do you care about America? You are probably Putin's shill trying to make people feel hopeless while he does the work bin laden could never finish and destroys democracy once and for all

reincarnate as a stone? so how do you continue the cycle stones dont die or live lel

Thats what serial killers get lol. They are fucked.

Where do you get the sources for your information link them pls

It resets your karma to the last point before you last encarnated, but I don't think you can run away from bad shit you do, at least, if you do it consciously

But it isn't natural, you have to go through your shit, pay back your mistakes and then you can proceed

I couldn't be more serious: Suffer now, let your shit end naturaly, so that you can never come back to this shitty planet again

At its worst it was how it would affect my family.

Once I got older and had a job and a little more freedom, I realized I could literally travel down to Mexico and do hookers and blow like they talk about. Not that I would, just that I didn't have anyone but myself to blame for my unhappiness.

Plus, strip clubs are awesome. You can pay girls to give you attention and it really does help. I walked out several times feeling like a million fucking dollars.

I really don't know, but I'm glad someone else is into reincarnation. I would end it, but if I really got to that point where life didn't matter, then why not do what you want to do? Then you think of the things preventing you to do them. Like time, money, and stupid robots taking our jobs now... butt I think there is a soul and it has a purpose, and I live to enjoy that as I did before thinking about stupid things we get caught up in...

confirmed for Russian shill

I'm fat, feel ugly, slowly failing college since I don't even attend anymore, shitty teeth because I didn't listen to my parents as a kid and also too scared to go to a dentist. Although I'm pretty smart, I don't think I could ever (not that I should) feel superior to anyone. I have a gf (dunno why) she genuinely loves me and I don't think I love her anymore but I'm too scared to break up with her. I lie to all my friends about living stuff that didn't really happen to make myself look ùpre interesting. I also take the role of the goofy/dark humor guy that my friends love but everyday I feel more and more fake. I hate myself beyond repair. I'd like to kill myself but the bit of empathy I have left is towards my family and I don't want to put them in the trouble of seeing me dead and having to deal with everything that'd come from my death.

blogging feels good desu

Lets try it, i will kill, myself rn and tell you in next life if it worked.

my mom, I couldn't go leave her alone

Actually apparently we start as minerals and the alike.. weird but I guess I believe it now

Then you begin to live simples lifes and you grow up to human - if everything goes right you can leave the body and continue evolving, if not karma makes you "pay for it" (it's actually us who decide to come back)

You do realize that most depressed are too sad to have any interest in the prank of democracy, right?

If you remember sure, just don't haunt me while I'm here faggot

Taking off my retarded Sup Forums mask for a serious answer for a second here.

Knowing that I'd hurt people. I'd rather not do that.

atleast youre honest

Siblings dealing with the shit I had to, that and the fact I haven't got laid in a while.

No I mean what makes waiting for a random unpredictable death any more admirable than one done by your own hand? Why does one get you "good karma" and not the other?

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Family, mostly. I try but it's hard. I've set on getting myself killed somehow, like in the wilderness. Or maybe shooting myself out there, somewhere where the body would be a long way decayed before anyone found it.

I just can't keep going. I'm a genetic dead end, and that's fine but no reason to go on either.

it's not the death itself

Killing yourself is considered being arrogant I guess, because we're just ignorant cunts who think they know it all and that we're the ones deciding everything, so it resets your shit

But the thing is, when you die naturally (or if you're murdered, which also cleans your karma for some reason) you let your life "run free" and solve its business

if you end it now you wouldn't even need to get reseted, you would've been interrupting the karma solving life you chose on this shitty planet, and by doing so, when you go back into pure spirit mode (where you remember all your lives etc) you'll say "not this again" and you'll decide to come back to get yourself cleaned up

I feel the same way, user. I'm gonna stick around at least until my parents die, so they don't have to deal with their kid's suicide as they enter their last 10-20 years. After that who knows though.

I can see how it might come off as arrogant I guess. So what we should really do is just passively what for this shitstorm to sort itself. No fear, no desire, just blank patience.

passively wait***

Problem with mine is that they had me young, and I've reached this state of mind too young. Barely 20, and they're just getting to their 40s. At least they both remarried and had a second wave of kids to make up for me (and my younger brother probably too).

Pretty much man.. just go through the pain blindfolded and get rewarded in the end

It would help if at least we were born knowing all this shit, that this has a purpose, and that people are actually meant to suffer at least to some extent

Hold on man, this will be over soon and real life starts after this, it's kinda scary I know but trust a stranger, just this once

Hope you can cope with the rest of your life just right

Jerking my dick off. That's what keep me going for so long.

im gonna do it! im gonna fucking end it! take all the fucking pain away!
aw shit im back to square 1

This

Thanks for your input man. Sometimes being exposed to a new perspective is all it takes to step back and get out of the tunnel vision, for now at least. It's easy to get complacent in one's despair and ignorance.

My teeth are perfectly healthy, they look terrible because there is a gap between most of them. Can't afford braces because they're £3500

Ever find yourself slightly covering your mouth when you talk to people or smiling with your mouth shut in photos?

I don't have to. It'll happen on its own.

Until then, I'm going to enjoy food and the company of my irl friends.

Probably off myself after my parents die. I never see them, but it'd break their hearts.

I'd rather be depressed and live instead of spreading that depression around just because I'm not man enough to tough it out.

ur mom

i still haven't got my dingus wet yet

I have hope that the next day will be better. I take gratitude for any small accomplishments/joyous news

I like you, you're pretty open minded

and no problem, hope you start seeing that there's more than this

I know you'll probably forget this stuff in some time, so try analyzing details

stupid things like the precise perfect balance on earth's rotations and etc, there must be some force, some mother nature or something doing all this (which in reiki we call holy spirit)

The people that are just a match for your tastes, sense of humour, people you loved etc, they came across you not just by chance, what would actually be the chance? People diverge so much, and there are so many, even if they got similiar education and etc because you're in the same country, it's still a low probability that your matches would get to know you randomly

Keep an eye on the details, because I know you probably will forget you're actually a spirit (if you truly believed what I said), stay sharp and you wont lose hope that easily, I hope I actually gave you some hope

All good to you

I've kind of changed my view, it's not what's left, what else will life throw at me. I now view life as a brave Frontier. It's a war in your mind, one worth fighting.

I think my life is slightly turning it self around, started talking to a nice girl who likes me and encouraging me to stream video games during my down time, i also might a job lined up soon so i can start earning some money to actually do stuff and not just wallow in sadness and boredom

I project my loneliness, depression & hatred towards ethnic groups.

The possibility that someone out of 7 billion people will want something to do with me.

>caring about America
heh good one government

>i can start earning some money to actually do stuff and not just wallow in sadness and boredom
Careful. I found that when I got a job, my life became work, chores and sleep. Month after month would fly by. I'd rather be a poor, sad sap than a mindless robot tbqh.

it was like that at my old job its why i left, ive barely left the house in a year only really left to pick up a few things then come back and sleep or watch seinfeld

my money. i got a settlement from an accident and it sits there in the bank, keeping me alive.

as long as i dont spend it, it will keep me alive, something to have and look at.

I am an angry spirit wrapped permanently around a coil, I literally cannot end it

and in more literal terms I value myself too highly, regardless of any evidence or empirical systems of value, because it's all subjective, and all would subject me to less value than I would myself, therefore everyone else is biased but me, there for I am the most important, and therefore worth not killing

there is no "great beyond"

there is nothing after death


and if there were, it would be worse than life
so avoid it if you can


you chose this

> Finds the perfect thread since depression season starts for me today (always after fucking Valentines day)

>I am an angry spirit wrapped permanently around a coil, I literally cannot end it

What do you mean?

I feel exactly the same way, except im in second semester of my senior year in high school. I feel so bad all of the time and I have no motivation anymore. I hate my girlfriend but I can't seem to break it off, have no friends and my family fucking hates me. I've had a drinking problem for quite some time because my parents leave their beer, wine, and hard liquor around. I don't know what to do and it makes it harder and harder to get out of bed everyday

It aint our life to take jackass. Killing yourself doesn't affect you, you'll be dead and and won't be capable of being upset about it. Although everyone who knows or loves you suffers directly because of you stealing your life from them. I'm not going to tell you to grow up but I will tell you to get help and to learn how to effectively fight it.

>Plus, strip clubs are awesome. You can pay girls to give you attention and it really does help. I walked out several times feeling like a million fucking dollars.

This is why you can't have nice things

I never really got strip clubs. Why would you wanna go and blow lots of cash just to have someone dance for you and maybe rub their titties in your face and shit and not even FUCK for all you give

What a beta ass scene

I wouldn't be so rough on people that already don't want to live but, this

Balls too big. I was fighting depression for roughly 4 years a few seconds back. Towards the end of it I had strongoing suicidal fantasies. It was at that point that I thoughtam be in should just put an end to those that hurt me before I go... but then I didn't want to be viewed as monster (mostly by my son who was taken from me, never had a full relationship with the mom) so I just decided to be the best person I could. Now I have a family with a step son and 2 of my own (1 and 2) a very attractive wife and a great career. Completely turned life around all because I didn't want anyone to get the best of me.

It might be a beta-social thing

They didn't get the pussy when they wanted so now they pay to get teased and never get it still, but now everyone does it and it's fun, so somehow I feel better about my insecurities!

just a theory though

Same

I don't know. My family I guess. But even then I think that they would be happier without me. I get to the point to where I'm extremely suicidal, start drinking and smoking and becoming disillusioned and nihilistic and right before I grab a gun or careen off of the highway I think "well.. my position is pretty shit, but I am still alive... I am at rock bottom, there is nowhere else to go but up, right?" So then I delay it and start from square one. I slowly start to pick up the pieces and rebuild my life. Then suddenly I realize I am living and functioning as an adult human should and I become overwhelmed by responsibility and obligation. Then I get depressed and anxious again and the cycle repeats itself. Go through this whole scenario about 4-6 times a year for the past 5 years and you have my life after high school.


TL:DR: I'm a huge faggot