How can I be happy? I swear I've tried. I've tried so damn hard but nothing works

How can I be happy? I swear I've tried. I've tried so damn hard but nothing works.

I started working out over a year ago hoping that it would make me feel better and cure my depression.
I started forcing myself to go out and do stuff even to I didn't really want to, hoping that it would eventually make me feel better.
I also started eating healthy, fixed my sleep schedule, made new friends whom I hang out almost daily etc.

It works for a moment but still, every evening when I get home and spend any time by myself, it all crashes down. I feel like shit again, I'm just distracting myself and running away from my own thoughts.

How can I truly be happy? I've been on and off depressed for over two years now and honestly don't think it'll ever be cured.
I'm just so fucking tired of feeling sad all the time.
Let's have a /feels/ thread

loook man im not saying you SHOULD kill yourself but if i found myself in your position i probably would

if that doesn't help try this image

That's because you're a quitter and fucking weak.

dont force yourself to do shit? happiness isn't a project you work on, happiness isn't something you reach, but you have, everyone does
Just be the lazy ass you want to be, do what your brain tells you to do next, watch some tv...
don't live "the live", live yourself

You could suffer from chronical depression. Try talking to a therapist.

Filthy normie

Reeeeeeeeeeee

I would try seeing a psychiatrist and after (assuming you need any) you get the right meds in the right dose, try seeing a therapist as well.

Good luck OP!

Is life worth living though if I'm only happy because a handful of pills?

yeah

I can dump some feels, anyone interested?

no?
op is already about to kill himself, feel thread will only make him a hero

Depression is a illness. The only thing you might force yourself to do is seek specialist help in order to sort your brain chemistry.

I lost my mom during a deep depression episode. I gave absolutely no shit. It is at this moment I realised something was wrong and lead me to go to a doctor.

>chronical

Don't worry, I'm not planning to kms. I just dont know why I feel this way and I don't know what to do to make it stop

Haha feels the same way, drunk out of my mind atm my crush actually also is interested in me but im to fuked in the head to do anything about it, things get better with alcohol =DD

Clinical depression. If you feel fleeting moments of happiness, but nothing lasts, I'd say you're low on one of your neurotransmitters.

The pills won't make you happy, they'll just make it so you don't feel sad. Totally makes life worth living at that point because you're not anchored down.

If you're really drunk, text her now and ask if she wants to smash. Seriously, do it.

Alcohol might work for the moment but you can't keep drinking forever

Alcohol is going to fuck you up

Learn to control your thoughts. Work on it. Its a skill. You have negative repeative thought patterns, its easy to always fall back on them. So easy its become the background noise of your life. Nows the hard part of changing thought patterns. GL or don't and just exist/kys with the way u are. idc

Fukin try me dude I vcan keep doing til im dpone with this existance haha dont worry tho im doing ok ooutside never having felt true love ever 22 btw haha actually gonna be an officer in the navy of my country in the future but I feel like everything I do is a fucking lie cuz I've never felt loved by anyone haha

You are the first guy over here i feel compassioned about. I feel sorry for you. You tried and it seems you tried pretty hard. I bet you seen a psychiatrist which did not help. You tried having a gf? (Preferably a sweet less pretty over a crazy pretty one). Do you have any desires ot goals at all? Maybe living like this is how you life is going to be..

OP here.
I tried having a girlfriend but it never worked out because I don't feel (or am) emotionally stable enough to be able to maintain a relationship. I feel like too much of a burden because if I can't properly take care of myself, how can I take care of somebody else?

The only thing I really find joy in is weightlifting, I keep doing it because it makes me feel like I'm progressing in my life in some way by being able to lift more than before even though I'm still a sad cunt.

I don't know what my goals are. I have a lot of friends, close ones too and enough money to get me by. I don't think having more money could make me any happier. I just kinda wait for the time to go by and hopefully eventually bring me something that helps me find happiness or a purpose for my life I guess.