Alright, I've lurked for awhile and I feel like telling my own fucked up story...

Alright, I've lurked for awhile and I feel like telling my own fucked up story. The last six years of my life have been hell for various reasons, and since I'm up at 4:30 anyways I should just tell my story.

>be me
>six years ago
>12 year old homeschool fag
>dad worked all day, so did mom.
>took online classes and occasional "special classes" by going to the local school for electives
This becomes relevant later.
>parents didn't give a fuck, too busy working
>decide in my head one day to start steal money from parents wallet/purse and buy random shit.
Cont?

Yes plz and damn I haven't played tf2 in a while

alright neat some interest.
>stealing goes off without a hitch
>start to get bold, taking more and more
>this goes on for a year, parents none the wiser.
My family is kind of fucked up in the sense that my mom and dad both married prior to meeting, and both had two kids each before marrying and having myself and my sister.
>rope sister into stealing
>IfIGoDownImTakingYouWithMe.jpeg
>around 7-8th grade (still homeschooled), parents get the crazy idea to travel across the world to ukraine and adopt a teenager.
>why tho
>he stays with us for the summer, as a "trial period"
>its a shithole over there so obviously ukraine1 acted on best behavior.
>I say ukraine1 because shit is about to hit the fan.

Continue, good Sir. This is hitting my curiosity

>at first, parents begin to suspect teenager we were hosting was the one behind the stealing
>until I did perhaps the most retarded thing of my life
>parents were out swimming in the backyard pool
>lockpick into their room and take credit card
>log into steam and buy $130 worth of games and dlc
>illnevergetcaught.png
>1 month passes, bill comes in
"user I need to see you in my office."
>"oh fuck I've been caught"
>go into office
>"What is this $130 bill on the credit card for?
freeze
>"I... I've been hijacked"
>she fucking believes me
>saved another day

Holy fuck, OP, you got lucky, there

Keep going

I should mention as well, my parents paid for club swimming for me ($800 per season) and all I did instead of going to practice was go to the library with my laptop and play TF2 and Binding of Isaac.

>guilt starts to set in, but compulsively steal more
>idiot 14 year old me should have thought to stop by now.
>come home one day
>parents NOT happy.
>theyknow.jpg
>"user. Sit down."
>"How much have you stolen from us, we know it was you."
>do I lie?
>no, I should come clean.
>"a..about $300 cash..."
>parents pissed beyond belief
>"And the steam thing? That wasn't "hackers" was it?"
>nope.avi
>"user, go to your room."
This was before I grew into my personality and I was heavily introverted so this was the biggest thing I'd pissed off my parents with yet.
To this date it was the angriest Ive seen them at me.

I would've just said "ye mother that was some hackerz being leet"
Or am I just edgy

I'll TL:DR this next part.

>Parents find out sister partook in it also.
>Part 1 of punishment:
>shaved my hair bald, cut my sisters hair incredibly short.
>took away all electronic privileges.
>mandatory grounding to room.
>etc

>become laughing stock of extended family for years.
>this was the point my depression started, and my cynicism began to grow, but it didn't come full effect until later.

(Btw ukraine1 was back in shithole land and my parents were raising money to go adopt him.)

rip my dude

continue pls

Fast forward to wintertime, eighth grade
>Grandpa watching us because dad working and mom in ukraine
>grandpa is a shithead who stole from us and basically said fuck you to everything.

Example:
>be me, off work
>bike home
>find cops at home
>it_begins.gif
>grandpa went missing.
>older sister and younger sister panicking.
>wondering what the fuck happened.

Apparently the fucker got lost somewhere while trying to find somewhere to smoke his pipe.

>mom comes home two weeks later with ukraine1
>grandpa fucks off owing us $700 but doesn't care
>ukraine1 turns out to be a tough guy asshole who smokes, drinks bootleg alchohol, and is an all around prick.
>keep in mind this kid is like 15 at the time.

Sorry about the slow replies, its painful to think about this shit in recollection.
>ukraine1 was just a prelude though.

So my parents got sick of homeschooling my sister and I, and felt like high school/middle school would be a good plan.

>be me
>14ish
>9th grade
>no friends freshman

>freshman year basically consisted of trying way too hard, hating swimming, and hating myself while sitting alone at lunch.

Mid-winter however we decided to host two more Ukraine fucks.

Lets call them Ukraine2 and irrelevant.

>not really relevant but we end up deciding to adopt Ukraine2 and he becomes one of the more tolerable of the bunch.

>summer comes
>fuck yes.
>parents drop bomb that my sister is going down to Tennessee to spend time with elder brother, wife and children because parents going to Ukraine for 3 fucking months.
>and they're adopting not one but three more ukraines.
>so I'm stuck with ukraine1 (which I will now further refer to as Parkour) for a summer.

Let me introduce the two remaining ukraines of the story: Demon and Minion.

Demon and Minion were sister and brother respectively, but Minion was 3 years older (and should have been kicked out of the orphanage but got to stick around cuz of demon)

>while parents went to get demon, minion, and ukraine2, I hid away in my room during the day.
>leaving only for work and food.

>days where I wake up at 6PM and play TF2 until 11AM were not uncommon.
>however Parkour pushed me to go out and do some crazy misadventures which I will outline.

I hope im not shouting to the air with this.

Story 1: trespassing and roof climbing.
>Parkour comes into my room one day and says "Hey lets go out."
>I didn't feel like staying in again so I oblige.
>we end up going to the fucking high school and grade school and trespassing on their roofs.
>not gonna lie, was my favorite part of the summer.
>go up there all the time now when I need some time to think.
>begin to grow incredibly lonely and depressed.

Audience bump

Story 2: The cross town heist of $10.34

>be me on computer
>Parkour comes into room again
>he says lets go to (neighboring town)
>sure but why
>we bike to neighboring town, stop at water fountain.

>we're gonna fish for coins now are we

>spend turns looking out for cops and pinching quarters from the wishing fountain at 12:30 at night.
>stop when we see two police officers roll up so we scrambled away.
>make it home in 20 minutes.

>I dry off the coins and find that we nabbed about $10 in coins.
>we ride to local speedway to get loot.
>in checkout, counting coins.
>impatient guy behind us gives us 5$ to buy our shit and leave instead of counting coins.
>go home, eat junk, sleep, work, repeat.

Did I mention that my parents made me pay back double I stole? Thats why I started working from a young age.

thanks

back to main tale.

>end of summer
>mother. father, and the three hellbeasts return from shithole ukraine.
>this was about the time of all the shit with crimea was going down and russia starting their aggression.
>at the time, I worried for my parents safety.
>sophmore year begins with an air of uncertainty. My sister had a room mate and I had two new ones.

deliver op

>problems started to arise rather quickly.
>"They don't act at all like they told us they acted."
>no shit wouldn't the first one have told you that?

>first problems were identified quickly.
>hygiene.
>minion and ukraine2 hated showering.
>as a result, just being near them resulted in brain cells dying.

>they also do this fucked thing where they throw toilet paper in the trash.
>as a result, the bathroom smelled like shit from toilet paper all the time.

Also, if you thought I was bad with stealing, this is worse.
>they stole from me.
>they stole from my sister.
>they stole from my parents.
>they stole from eachother.
>stole from walmart, stole from anywhere they could get what they wanted.

>always said their new stuff was from this Chinese guy that kept buying them shit, to this day I'm not sure if he exists or not because my dad claimed seeing him.

>minion and demon decided they didn't like being here because we asked them to help around the house plus all they did was sit on Ukrainian facebook all day.

>They started running away and trying to get the police to arrest my parents.
>i.e. making up tales of abuse, sexual assault, etc.
you can picture it.
>police at my house every weekend.
>sometimes at 4am.
>didnt feel safe in my own home.
>depression gets worse.

rough

>sophmore year was also the year I got my first girlfriend.
>ironically, she was adopted from russia as a baby.
But, to TL:DR that relationship, it turned unhealthy for me because she didn't want to deal with my depression so she used tactics to try and manipulate me.

It fucked me up for awhile.
>end of sophmore year.
>broke up with gf, was mutual.
>back to being lonely as fuck.
>tired of the literal hell raging in my own home.
>finally had a group of friends at least, mostly outcasts and LBTQ kids though.

>shit begins to get sour with them come junior year though.

Moar

you have a really shitty life, bro
Well, I'm not sure of your standing now... So maybe had.

i feel bad for ur parents and how they took the ukranians in and how they acted for that gratitude. what happened there bro?

I'm tying as fast as I can, sorry for the wait.

>friend group becan to adopt the tumblr sjw mindset of women and the gays have ultimate athority because privilage and men are just punching bags.
>I end up falling for one of the "higher ups" of the group and she was a senior that also liked me.
>which started another fucked relationship where I gave attention and she just kept asking for more.
>me and a senior bro decide to break away from the group though, because we're tired of the emotional abuse.
>rage.png ensures.
>gf is on my side with this at least, but this one girl on other side basically hated me because of that I was dating the Higher Up and I wasn't conforming to the SJW mindset.
>started to hate each other with a passion.
>junior year school was a living hell, and home wasnt a safe zone.
>began to develop suicidal thoughts.

I'm watching

BAMP
more more more

back to ukraines because I can finish them off here.
>Parkour said fuck you to my parents one day and walked out, he now came back a month ago because hes 2000$ in dept to court fees and has no job/place to live.
>ukraine2 acts like a 5 year old and currently works at qdoba.
>demon ran away a year ago and we havent heard from her since, my dad literally had a count down timer on his phone until her 18th birthday so we dont have to take her in anymore, because law.
>minion was a dumbass and bought a plane ticket back to ukraine with some money he stole and is now stuck there.

Why are your parents so obsessed with fucking Ukraine?

Lol @minion hope he gets rekt by russian soldiers.

Back to my shit.

Specifically on gf.

to summarize:
>I should have listened to the warnings.
>my depression got worse as I desperately tried anything to feel some glimmer of hope left.
>parents werent supportive of mental health issues, brushed it off.
>come may of last year.
>gf decides she doesnt love me anymore.
>Icanttakethisshitanymore.jpg
>become a hermit
>dont leave my room for any reasons unless its night or work.
>I get a text a week later.
>"I know you hate me, but could we talk?"
>I go to her workplace after I'm off.
>"I fucked up, please forgive me..."

>my stupid depressed ass allows it.

>She leaves for college in august.
>breaks it off with me then too.
>wants to try distance a month later.
>agree like an idiot again.

senior year bitches

>a month later she breaks up with me because she likes a new guy.
>but no, she still loves me, but this guy is closer.
>look up his facebook.
>WHENYOUREXDOWNGRADESKEK
>shes dating a fucking neckbeard.
>two months later she gets synthetic dreads and they look like a shit ton of pigtails in her hair.
>whitetrash

Goddamn OP this is good shit.
I mean it's terrible and I feel for you but a very interesting read. Please continue.

I have no idea, they're super religious and thought helping unfortunate = good person points.

anyways I gotta finish up because school in a hour.

>getting lower and lower point.
>getting tired of religious rhetoric.
>no more threat of being unsafe in home, but the damage has been done.
>begin to grow thoughts of suicide again.
>hate myself for falling for the same shit three times.
>hate myself for a lot of reasons.

Remember the higher up I mentioned from before?

>the sjw mindset fell away after all the seniors left.
>and the higher up I mentioned was in a lesbian relationship with a senior at the time, and when that ended they chilled the fuck out.
>(we watch our backs now because we're "suffering buddies")
>tbh trust her with my life now, she's saved it
>but depression has been getting worse with no sign of stopping.
>only thing that kept me going was my hope.

Why you apologising for not typing fast enough? No one fucking complained about your typing speed.

Also type faster

I feel you dude, dont have half as bad of a situation as you, but parents decided to take in a kid 6 years old about 6 years back, turns out he is a complete dumbass, borderline autistic. As a bonus home becomes a raging hell because of him. Moved out 2 years ago and feel better.

I hope someone screencaps this tbh.

Junior year I read homestuck and the nerd I was grew obsessed with my personal classpect, the Heir of Hope which hope specifically became my ideology for some time.

>hope
>as long as I keep moving
>keep fighting
>keep my light inside as a beacon of hope
>everything will be okay in the end.

>hope has severed me well.
>helped get through cold lonely nights
>getting antagonized more by family
>tired of shitty hyperchristian rhetoric.

>hope keeps me going.
>feel like im waking up from a bad dream.
>nope.

with that hope bs this thread just got shit

lmaooo who cares about your oh so shitty life lmao

>hope
>that you
>will kys

>be me last week
>wake up after getting high.
>"Life is pointless. There is no life after death, therefore why bother living. Living only brings suffering."

>HopeShattered.gif

>Begin to get incredibly suicidal
>cant sleep, cant eat.
>break down last thursday at 1:30AM, texting sufferingbuddy.

>next morning they go to my school counselor to say "hey this kid needs help something isnt right" because my nihilistic ass isn't gonna do jack shit.

>literally was contemplating hanging myself that friday afternoon before work.

>end up having a complete breakdown, realize that shit isnt ending yet.

...

Fuck off limpdick.

I just hit my right testicle with a ball that i bounced against the roof

It doesn't sound like you actually know how to beat depression, exercise and decent nutrition will do wonders. Helps to fix chemical imbalances in the brain

not quite yet, maybe tomorrow.

>leaving for air force in 6 months, but feels like parents are trying to kick me out in 2.
>realize ill have no where to go, have to listen to their shit worsen because my mom and dad were scarred from the adoption crisis

>like legit my mom starts screaming for no reason because stress.

>dad to this day still doesnt trust me because stealing thing 6 years ago.

>as a result of that stealing thing I developed probably the most fucked moral compass ever.
>I idolize the heroic mindset, but continue to do delinquent shit therefore causing intense guilt.

>shit like making explosives, smoking weed, making napalm. all normal stuff.

I can't stop reading

I am aware those things work but they dont work for me for whatever reason. Mom is a nutritionist so she avoids anything that was junk food related in the slightest. (due to a health problem of hers).

>making explosives
for a specific reason or just as a hobby?

Nutrition isn't just about not eating junk food. Look up the servings of each type of food is recommended per day. And try doinng some good excercise

How much longer op im at work clock out in an hour and wanna see where this goes.

Unfortunately, im out of content of my shitty life for now, and im also out of time.
I can add more later, but for now I'll just leave you with my napalm tale.

>be me
>be pyrotechnic from a line of pyros
>learn the secret to making napalm from coworker at burger restaurant whos an arsonist.
>go home one night while parents on business trip.
>drink 4 shots of hard liquor.
>decide the best idea would be to make napalm.
>spend 3 hours making a batch, have a mason jar full.
>needtotest
>bike to local park.
>light on pavement.

>oh shit thats bright
>oh shit thats not going out
>oh shit thats sirens.

>I fucking bolt the fuck out.
>Go back after sirens go away, false alarm.
>examine where napalm sample was lit.
>3 inch black crystalline char mark was burned into the pavement.

>fuck thats obvious
>blitz home
>grab silver spray paint
>empty can on spot, thought it was good idea.
>run home, bury rest of napalm in backyard

>was a good night.

Feels bad OP. I feel for u

Thank you Sup Forums for listening to my shitty telling of my less fortunate life, if I think of more later, illl message it.

if any of you fucks decide to screencap this make sure you dont have a shitty crop.

Op is a faggot....

Sounds like you are too...

Was nice reading this. Thx op.

Yo, shit sucks sometimes brah. Things will ALWAYS get better. It's all about the balance.

Good tale OP. I capped the whole thing and will shoop it together later today. Do you have a name you want to go by?

Anyways thanks for sharing and I hope you find something to fight for and a way to be happy. Please take care of yourself, friend.

Lol, mr fbi.....

Idk, could just call me Gray, not really a nickname of mine but thats who I am.

I'm already thinking of more shit that is more detailed, so what ill do is write it down then just make a new thread later tonight, which will have far more detail (less delays) and more consistency. So keep an eye out for that later tonight.

Fuck school, OP. Stay with us nigga.

Kind of weak tbh fam. Thats a cop out

goddamn how rich is your family to adopt 3 kids and constantly travel?

Nice read, OP. Made my smoke break a helluva lot better. Hope it gets better for you though.

we were actually in a lot of debt for awhile, all because my parents wanted "to do the right thing"

Gotcha. Looking forward to it if I'm able.

That's some serious shit, nigga

Good luck with your life

All for the 6-4

I know that intense guilt thing, man. Not to take away from your story, but anxiety out the ass has me doing the same thing

That is a rather fked up story op

Well OP... thanks for giving me something to read while I took a huge shit.

We need to call him Ukraine0

Kek
>Things can always get worse by no fault of your own
≥Things can always get worse if you try
>Things can always get better if you care

alot of 15 year olds drink and smoke

Good luck user

shit out, shit in
the circle of life

fuck op that was a shit story