3 years ago I decided to run an experiment on myself, the idea was to see if I could turn myself gay

3 years ago I decided to run an experiment on myself, the idea was to see if I could turn myself gay.

I looked up gay porn for the first time ever and was disgusted by what I saw, I couldn't even look cuz it made me wanna throw up.

So I started by fapping to trannies that looked exactly like girls except dicks
And I basically let myself fall down the rabbit hole, soon I was fapping to femboys then twinks then muscular men.

This was a long process and somewhere I started to convince myself that this is how I was born or it's natural and shit but I didn't actually believe this and started hating myself, few days ago, due to a chain of events I remembered the exact moment when I decided to do this expriment.

Now that I have confirmed to myself that people can be turned gay, what now

How do I fix this shit, I remember wanting to work on my body and be a better man and follow my dreams and shit, now I'm just sad all the time and wanting to be held by a guy, i look like a faggot femboy and often take pictures in "cute" clothes, what do I do to fix myself before I degenerate any lower.

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ets.org/Media/Research/pdf/conf_achgapwomen_allspach.pdf
esa.doc.gov/sites/default/files/womeninstemagaptoinnovation8311.pdf
ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC3786159/
ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmedhealth/behindtheheadlines/news/2016-06-07-women-are-more-likely-to-suffer-from-anxiety-than-men/
ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/books/NBK56506/
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u cereal dawg?

What

You can't, you're too far gone.
>ITT OP is literal fag

Two words: Jeffrey Dahmer.

Nothing is impossible, I still kinda like girls

done somewhat of the same thing, talk to me op

try fapping to straight shit
basically reverse of what you did

what country are you in?

Tell me your story brother

Ireland

>i look like a faggot femboy and often take pictures in "cute" clothes

Post pics is what you do, faggot.

this

Your serve as a stark warning to us all.

There's a really big difference between fapping to something and fucking something.

I'm only posting one cuz I fucking hate this shit, only thime I can think straight is after I fap, and it's fucking horrible

well its a bit different, always sorta liked trannies. I'd like to think its related to my first memories of looking up porn. Bout 10yo, it happened to be all anal, kek

Accept I've had a boyfriend recently

Do literally the exact opposite of what you did to get yourself in this shithole

you're very cute, shame to see you go,
but read this:

Why the fuck would you run this "experiment" in the first place? Wanna be held by a guy? Fucking hell, that's gay as fuck. Go get fucked or completely cut this shit off. Inject massive amounts of testosterone to speed up the process, it seems your BS raised your estrogen too...

has nothing to do with hormones, high test doods can be the gayest mofos on earth

I'm just saying, getting some sweet test in your system might help with the reversal from this gay ass shit.

Probably bait but all you have described is yourself sitting in your room masturbating and daydreaming. You know there's a real world beyond your computer screen, right? Get out there and suck some cock, you shut-in faggot.

cont: after that moved on the femboys and finally imagined myself as one, at last got into the idea of getting fucked by a muscular dude

sorta seconded actually, but youre being a bit crass... you fucking faggot ass nigger

Can someone screen's the thread mines not working

There's a difference. You're not naturally gay, you dove into something you didn't like, yet attributed it with sexual pleasure. Long story short, you conditioned your brain to gain sexual excitement from homoerotic stuff. Homosexuality is different though, even if it might sound like nothing more than a nuance. Gay people didn't condition themselves. They never did homosexual stuff while despising it; usually it's the other way around. They don't make any conscious decisions regarding their sexuality, they don't try to make themselves into something.
I wonder what happened if you were in a long term relationship with a guy. I don't think you would be overly happy beyond some point.

Try to not watch any porn for exactly 1 - (one) - year.

nature vs nurture man, we still dont know. But its leaning towards nurture in this particular case

Can we revert the processes?

I did it for science, and semesters along the line I started eating high estrogen foods and became a vegetarian, I miss my mums summer barbecues

A part of the reason why I made this thread, I don't know but red something about slowly turning people gay using propaganda. I don't want this happening to anyone else

Lol, the fact is I don't just associate it with sexual pleasure, I know I wasn't born this way and throw what I've heard first hand, it often has to do with childhood trauma and daddy issues, my dad was incredibly abusive and not present for most of my life


I have and I'm not proud of it, im having a realisation after remembering why I did this.

You were always gay. Straight guys dont "experiment" with gay shit, retard.

Stop watching porn

Wrong, I did this for science and along the line forgot and started believing that I was born this way untill I realised what had happened

Just get fucked by a tranny dom. It'll solve all your problems

why would you want to, as i found out being bi. It's social armour. Every sjw is easily muffled

I will try my best, believe me

posted the wrong one

No stay like you are, post moar.

Always considered myself straight, had a few crashes on girls, never loved guys etc. I saw pics with futa night elves and draenei back when i was 14, thought it was weird. Then had my first fap on slim furry boys when i was 15, seeing pure joy on their faces. After i saw a pic with a muscular worgen who i found attractive, that was a point of no return, which made me question "why are women so amazed by that? what's so great about male body?" That's when i started peeking at real men.

Merely in 3 years of watching all kinds of gay porn, i became a complete fag who lost all desire to date with women. I am almost 22 now, would gladly marry a guy. Anyone who says that you can't become gay is a filthy liar.

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You've probably been bisexual your whole life and this whole thing of forcing yourself to be gay as an experiment was brought up after the fact of your sexuality in order to justify yourself, because obviously you think there's something deeply wrong with your sexuality.

Get over it.
Sexuality exists on a spectrum. You're not completely gay or straight (you personally.) And few are based on my experience.

And okay, if you did this for science. Reverse it then.

wtf, thats quite interesting. im in the same position and i never lost interest in girls.

>> tfw my self loathing ass is cuter then this fucker

Yeah, you probably never were straight in the first place. Pretty sure sign is "i needed to throw up from looking at gay porn". Sounds much more like denial than actual disgust, since gay porn isn't throw-up-worthy.

Idiot that was posted on a thread earlier but nice try get a life lmao

Nothing wrong with being bi

Prove it

You jewed yourself

then flaunt that shit, you better have better cheekbones

Bi= code word for faggot beta

you sacrificed the greatest gift someone these days can obtain, being a heterosexual white man out of your boredom.

i hope you learned your lesson and appreciate it if you'll ever get it back (which i hope you will)

and now start like you started a few years ago by fapping to beautiful white young women

> and i never lost interest in girls

Oh you will, sweety, you will. No bitch can replace that firm grip and a hot cock in your mouth

What you don't seem to understand is that I thought men were disgusting, I had to go from femanine to masculine things over a long period, the whole time I remember my fantasies, interests and behaviour slightly changing, I always got along with guys great but I didn't always wanted to get in bed or have a relationship with them, that's what changed

My dick twiched. Am i a faggot now?

It was an exaggeration, my exact reaction was "what the fuck is this" close tab

Well this sounds like part of your development. I'd guess you were nearing the end of hs when this started

It's me, want me to prove it?

i've taken cock, given cock. Been with big dudes, been with petite girls. Veni vidi faggot... veni

Ever thought that maybe you didnt turn yourself gay, but instead you subconsciously used this experiment to allow yourself to express your true desires?

Maybe (;

You have never been straight. It's funny that people consider themselves "turned gay" just because they have had a crush on a girl for some time.

You are aware that almost all gays come out the closet no sooner than maybe 18-20 and live in denial of their sexuality before that, might even date the other gender because that's the social norm?

There is no turning into gays. Either you're gay/bi or you're not. I'm 100% sure if i would fap to dickgirls for the next 3 years i would still prefer women over men every occasion. It would also be super hard to fap to dickgirls cause they're not hot...

Yes, what do you mean by development

run an experiment to see if you can replace your faggotry with a different fetish, one involving women

You could be bisexual. just choose 1 to fap to one day, and the other on another day

Well guess im gay now. Moar of him?

Nuh-uh.

Unless you can read my mind, you can't truly know how I felt about girls, I appreciated them, wanted to make the ones around me happy and fulfilled, I was genuinely attracted to girls

She literally has a perfect body. Her legs and feet and tits are perfect.

How about this faggots?

Do literally the exact same thing, but in reverse. Also, you aren't really gay, that's why you feel shitty. You just internalized that you are, which isn't the same thing.

I've seen maybe two or three scenes out of a gay porn movie and while it barely gets my dick hard, it's neither hot to me nor would i find it disgusting.

Women just have all the magic attributes and the way hotter body than men. Just take the curve between waist, breasts and hip, looking at that alone turns me so on.

Your sexual development into your teenage years. This is a hormonal time. You learn things about yourself and test yourself, less ability to reason due to emotional factors.

I'm not sure what your case is, but dude, be gay if you are. You were talking about how you can't be the idealized straight man you wanted to be. Oh well. That shit doesn't exist anyway if you know what I mean. Forget it and move forward.

Nope, That's just roidfags who use gear that aromatizes causing a huge spike in estrogen. They look cut up but they have an equal or larger amount of estrogen in their blood.

this is the only other one I have of him

I'm feeling some incredibly strong Deja Vu here. I guess it's newfag's first time recognizing something unoriginal that's obscure.

too hairy, nice cock though. Uncircumcised?

Do what you did the other way around. Like fap to girls who look like guys and then just work your way back up

Post a pic of your hand. Seriously, not kidding

Alright, to elaborate: I'm pretty sure you're not that special of a snowflake that you would be that different to other people.

Being attracted to girls and guys both is called bi. Appreciating girls, finding them cute and funny, wanting to make them happy and all that while wanting to fuck men is called gay. Unless men don't turn you on and women do, you're gay or bi. It's that simple.

Also this is not supposed to be negative about being bi. I'd love to be, it means double the amount of people to fuck. Also would mean you could have the occasional sex with a guy (pretty easy to get) and have a long-term-relationship with a woman when ready for it.

Everyone is born bisexual, and picks if he wants to be straight, gay or stay bi. Anyone who claims otherwise is mentally sick and should be put into insane asylum for spewing nonsense which wasn't, and cannot be proved by science. Only religious freaks spew those "you are born bla-bla-bla" bullshit, because they think it's god who gives people purpose. Plot twist: there is no purpose, and no "norm from nature's point of view" because nature isn't a sentient organism, but a random number generator. Your wee-wee stands up on anything you find attractive. Girls, guys, dogs, floor tiles. ANYTHING. Just stop being afraid of thinking about it, and go have a wank on a stone wall. In a few years you will become stonewallsexual.

we'll just have to wait for the payoff

God damn, didn't know guy ass could be so plump and hot. What have i been missing out on?

I'll help you feel like the sissy you were meant to be.

3 years ago I was shifting and getting turned on by girls, now it's dudes and I look like a mega faggot, I'm not happy with any of this and I personally(due to what I know) feel that it was brought on by both external influences excel stated by my little experiment

humans are attracted to human features, men like wide hips, narrow cheekbones, hourglass figures. The penis is not the distraction, the female traits are.

People pick by what they're aroused? Are you high? Do people also choose if they're happy or sad and anyone who tells you otherwise is a religious freak?

If i happen to mostly find girls attractive, what sexuality would that make me? Oh, i forgot, that would make me still bi from birth, because i consciously chose to find girls hot.

Man i'm not sure if you think you're really smart or if you're just retarded...

I can't get turned on by biological women anymore.
Vaginas disgust me, big biological cow tits disgust me.
But I can't fap to guys. I tried.
Just shemales.
What the fuck oh well.
Dicks are better on chicks.

ye hes an idiot, some straight, some gay. A lot of them fucking retarded, go figure.

Only thing to do is to go out in a crowded place and scream "NIIIIIIIGGGGEEEEEERRRRRRR" and blow yourself up with a metric shit ton of explosives.

>Everyone is born bisexual
Get that stupid pseudoscience PC bullshit put of here

I had the same experiment thing going on man but i stopped after the ladyboy shit and am reversing the process i just cant think about fucking another dude man not a real nice thought and when im chillin out with girls it feels better again

maybe it's a cultural thing where womanhood has lost it's natural appeal to you

This is me

Imagine that. You can feel better by simply smiling, even if you don't feel like it. Because that's what associated with happiness in your mind. Everything is in your head, and you can tweak it to your will, unless you are an imbecile with a willpower of a sack of potatoes. People consider themselves straight because of propaganda, nothing else.

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Whoa whoa whoa, why do you want to go back. Be logical here op, do what's best for you.

=== Men are biologically superior ===
>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>Here’s why

In general, men have approximately 6.5 times the amount of gray matter related to general intelligence than women, and women have nearly 10 times the amount of white matter related to intelligence than men. Gray matter represents information processing centers in the brain, and white matter represents the networking of – or connections between – these processing centers.
>ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmed/15734366

Men’s brains are 8-13% bigger in absolute volume, they overall contain 9% more grey matter and 13% more white matter on average.
>ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC3969295/

Men have 5 more IQ points in general
>uam.es/personal_pdi/psicologia/pei/download/Lynn2004.pdf

Men generally score the highest in the SATs
>ets.org/Media/Research/pdf/conf_achgapwomen_allspach.pdf

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Men excel in Science, Technology, Engineering and Mathematics.
>esa.doc.gov/sites/default/files/womeninstemagaptoinnovation8311.pdf

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Women are twice as likely to get depressed, due to brooding.
>ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC3786159/

Women are twice as likely to develop an anxiety disorder.
>ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmedhealth/behindtheheadlines/news/2016-06-07-women-are-more-likely-to-suffer-from-anxiety-than-men/

Women are twice as likely to develop PTSD after a traumatic event.
>ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/books/NBK56506/

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Mothers are more than twice as likely to abuse their children as fathers.
>acf.hhs.gov/sites/default/files/cb/cm2012.pdf#page=16
>Stats for all years -> acf.hhs.gov/cb/resource-library/search#?topic[3493]=3493&ajax=1&sort=recent

I FAP to shemales and female looking traps since kazak. All this year I still get disgust by gay porn orbear and muscular man. Phew, dodge the bullet there, I guess