Been feeling down recently, feels thread?

Been feeling down recently, feels thread?

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The feels thread is the only one I always bump.

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man, fuck ,hit right in the feels

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Moz is life

bump

please, anyone?

I don't have the energy to greentext my story.

I don't want to relive it all... but the exciting facts are these.

>Meet girl. 8/10 in general 10/10 to me
>meet over facebook, I was a dick and flirted obnoxiously with her.
>She messages me saying there must be some misunderstanding
>talk for hours that night.
>It was christmas eve.
>She's bipolar, borderline and DID diagnosed, not special snowflake.
>In for one hell of a ride.
>2 years later
>Get her a job, she's doing great. So proud of her. She's the love of my life and I feel so good being able to help.
>within 3 weeks things go to shit. After 2 years of wonderful times, great memories, love, affection, movie nights, inside jokes. it all goes fucking wrong.
>She cheats on me with a coworker at the job I got her.
>She leaves me on Christmas eve. Like fucking poetry.

I miss her like crazy. I'll never love another woman the way I loved her.
There have been girls before her, and a few after the break up.
I gave her part of my soul that I don't think I'll ever get back. I put my everything into the relationship. Told her things no one knew about me. NO ONE. Not my family, not my friends. No one.

No matter who I meet, no matter where I go.. someone should post that picture about "A certain scar a man bears"

So fucking appropriate.

This should cheer you up OP

Bruh, I'd be more pissed than sad. Females in my opinion are literally nigger-tier and have maybe 2 redeemable qualities. Those being reproduction and some of them cook for you (or so I've heard). I feel for you though, man. I haven't personally had to experience what you're going through, but my best friend has and he still isn't over it (hopeful words, i know). However i cant exactly approach him anonymously and tell him to straighten out his shithole of a life, but I can for you. Buck up and find better, good guys win in the end. Or just be a bad guy and fuck hoes until you get HIV and die. Whichever. Just dont stay stuck up on some worthless cuntflap.

Believe me, I was pissed at first. Angrier than I'd ever been in my life.
I called her drunk out of my mind with my best friend in the room with me on New Years Eve.

I can't recall the details but I do know that I scared my friend to the point where we didn't talk for almost a month and I threatened to wipe my ex's "Entire fucking defective bloodline off the map"
I was livid. You have no idea. But anger has never lasted forever with me.
It's like an inferno that can strike up in an instant and it consumes everything so quickly that it just burns up and all I'm left with is bitter ash and lonely sadness.

I was going to hang myself in September, I went down to the local icecream shop, bought the best kind, and went to the nearby forest and hung up some rope. Me being a fucking idiot didn't put it up high enough so I could just stand if I put all my effort there. Cause humans don't wanna die, I lived. Every day when something good or bad happens, I think 'why the fuck am I not dead? I need to be dead'. The worst of it is I met a girl, shes fucking brilliant, but I know I am in a state where she disserves a guy who doesn't want to be dead, she is to good for me, physically and emotionally. I should be dead, but I am not, and it eats away at me every day.
Sorry for sharing, never have before, was hoping this would make me feel better but it just feels worse.

A good suggestion to fill the hole in your heart I've heard is to become a gym bro. Apparently there's some real companionship, or at the very least you can let out some emotions by moving heavy things around. Tends to take the stress out. I did it for a while before I got back into Overwatch and porn, now I just take out my emotions by calling people niggers on the internet. Which is a less productive, but a worthwhile and entertaining alternative.

Gotta get alot worse before it gets better. Stay tough. Theres greener grass somewhere, and you cant find it if youre dead.

That's the shit I hear but have a tough time believing. but thankyou

I'm probably going to fail my drug test tomorrow and lose the best job I've ever had. I've been chugging water all day but I can't help but feel like it's not going to do anything. It's 2:30 in the morning and I'm in full-panic mode.
I'll most probably kill myself if I lose this job, there's so much riding on me.
>Work for my uncle doing tower installation for oil refineries
>All his workers quit
>My business is riding on you user
>Fuck I'm only 20 what is this shit
>Smoke weed this past weekend because obviously I'm stressed
>Find out just yesterday we have a drug test

Should I kill myself tonight? Before I become a disappointment? Or Should I see if I can bamboozle the test?

Ya wont believe it until you find it. Watch some Bob Ross and smoke a bowl.

Try having an std faggots, yesterday I wanted to kill myself so fucking bad, at least you all have a chance to have normal sexual life. I don't

Similar situation. Got involved with bi polar suicidal bitch. The thing with those types is they can be really fun and exiting when they're up and they will certainly be that way when they're infatuated with you. When that fades they tend to just go chasing after the next high and so it goes. Hard to hold on to one of those and at the end of the day not worth it because not only can you not trust them but their ups and downs and baggage will drag you down as well. I get what you mean though because I tend to be attracted to those types too. It's annoying af and after my last experience (similar to yours...cheated on me and ran off as well) I'm just staying away from women as much as I can.

Please don't, I don't know your family situation but your mom will flip shit, she wont be able to sleep. Do it for her. Do it for yourself. I don't fucking know, just don't end it. Please.

Piss in a sealed baggie and dilute it until it is barely piss. Add some sugars and salts, nut a little bit and toss some in there. You'll be good to go.

if bleach is the murder weapon get a good brand such as flash or clorox

There's so much man, so fucking much. I'm so tired of trying. I'm still caught up on this chick I broke up with like two fucking years ago. It only adds to the work stress. The only thing keeping me around is the money I make from the job.

Are there more detailed steps for this?

Do the diluting thing, waiting for a thread tomorrow about this.

(1/2)

Here's to Silvia:

Silvia, do you remember then
That time of your life
When beauty glistened
In your laughing and darting eyes,
And you, joyful and pensive, climbed over
The threshold of your youth?

Ringing through the quiet chamber
Resounding all the way around
Was your perpetual song.
Then when intent at your womanly task
You sat – content enough
With those hazy thoughts of things to come.
It was that scented May, when you
Thus passed the day.

I at my trifling studies
At times left off my sweaty papers
Where the commencement of my first youth
And youthful brilliance of my better days I spent
On the balconies of my paternal home
Lending my ears to the sound of your voice
And to your swift-moving hand
Across the wearying threads.
I gazed at the sky serene
The golden byways, and the courtyard-gardens
And there the far-off sea and here the hills.
No mortal tongue could speak
The feelings in my breast.

What lovely dreams,
What hopes, what hearts O my Silvia.
How they appeared to us
This human life – and fate!
When I recall to myself how grand those hopes
A tenderness takes me
Bitter and disconsolate
And turns me to deplore my baneful fate.
O Nature, O nature,
Why do you not then give
That which you promised then? Why to such a degree
Do you beguile your children?

(2/2)

You, before the grass withered in winter
Were locked in the malady which assailed and overcame you,
You perished, O tender one, and never glimpsed
The very flower of your years.
Nor was your heart to soften
At the praise now of your raven hair
And of your glance, demure, enamoured,
Nor with your girlfriends on a festive day
Were you to speak of love.

It perished too with me,
My sweet hopes of younger years
And too, the Fates negated
My time of youth. Alas, how –
How have you passed away
Dear companion of my early days.
My tear-soaked hopes
Here in this world – and there
The joys of love, of work, and of events
About which we talked so much together?
Is such the destiny of us human beings?
For when the truth appeared
You, poor abject one, succumbed: and with the hand
Of frosty death, to a naked tomb
From afar pointed the way.

have to super abbreviate details cuz gf is next to me

>gf is anorexic/suicidal
>perfect personality fit for me but ^ really dragging me down
>try to help, takes months but finally start making progress last week
>still, other problems relating to her family history make regular life a fucking circus
>cant deal with this shit
>example: get into a fight a few days ago, break up and she drives away and starts cutting herself trying to hero
>sometimes i want out of this relationship, but she will hero if i do
>other times i'm totally in love
>shes going to eating disorder clinic soon so i'm hoping things will change, but idk
>white knuckling this shit until then

Yes, what can I do for you?

Ah that's really shitty man. It's really noble to be willing to sacrifice some of your own happiness just to help somebody you love. At the same time it's shitty because it feels like you're trapped. Trust me, I've been there.

You're a good guy. Thank you for sticking with her through the bullshit brother. Things will improve. The light at the end of the tunnel isn't always visible, but it's there.

If she an heros, tell her you want to watch her do it if shes so desperate to. Stream it. She'll pussy out and put things in perspective. If she doesnt then we have a new Toaster Steve to worship for a while.

Most modern drug tests are temp sensitive. Do you know if it's a piss test for sure? Or is it a swab?

I just lost my job the same way. Like, literally today. I've been out if work for nearly two months because some fucker at a concert fell on my knee and busted it up. It's winter, I couldn't work or walk, the weather sucks and I live alone and in my own. I got depressed and started smoking to help. Well, two days ago I went to take my return to work physical and found out the hard way they piss test you when that happens. So now I just got fired, I've got medical bills coming in I can't afford. I've got rent due 3 days ago u can't afford. I'm probably going to have to sell most of my few valuables for another months rent. I'm crushed right now and I've never felt worse.

My point being that there are worse things that can happen then struggling for money and work on your own. Keep your head up and look around for other work. You'll get through it. And you'll be happy you did.

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A girl i'm talking to has some type of ED so I feel you but i'm glad i'm not held down shit break up with her

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I have no idea. We have to go to some clinic or some bullshit. I'm not looking forward to it man. I'm sick of disappointing everyone

You aren't sick of disappointing them man. You care about them? You care about what they think of you? They just want you to have something they know you'll want: success and peace of mind. You are sick of letting them down, you're sick of letting yourself down. Because if you stand up for what you believe in, the idea of what they think won't matter because you'll already be honest with yourself. But until you stop bullshitting yourself by letting yourself get high when you know it can fuck you over, you're going to keep letting yourself down. And by that fact, and that fact only, you're letting them down too. Take control of your life man. Control requires sacrifice and acceptance and self discipline. Don't give up on yourself. Love yourself and you'll never let anyone down man. Keep your head up.

If it was just this past weekend and you've been downing water, and you're still nervous this late, go jogging and keep sweating and drinking. There shouldn't be much of a trace left in you if any at all unless you've been smoking regularly. Good luck. Your should be fine.

>You are sick of letting them down, you're sick of letting yourself down.

Should say you >aren't< sick of letting them down

I have my first date with a girl I've liked for years. I'm afraid that I might do some dumb shit and fuck it up. I haven't had a women in years. I wanna believe.

>Two weeks ago
>Get invited out to super violent show with friends
>Friend of a friend 'J' pays for alcoholic friend and I's tickets
>Get on topic of mutual 'S' with J
>Turns out they were best friends but J couldn't deal with S getting hooked on crack so they fell out
>Tell him about how S completely turned his shit around, is going straight edge, got a really stable decent job and in general is way more optimistic about things now
>Five hours ago at work
>Alcoholic friend calls me
>"Hey you're friends with S right? Have you heard what happened?"
>"Yeah what went down?"
>"He's dead."
>Tuesday
>J goes to S's place to patch things up and reconnect after he's heard about him getting on his feet
>There's an ambulance and a cop car outside
>Doesn't want to fuck with it and heads home
>Wednesday goes over to check up
>S's grandpa opens the door
>"S went to heaven yesterday."
>He relapsed and OD'd

He was fucking turning his shit around, and great dude. Apparently J is just trashed right now and is refusing to talk to anyone. The funeral is on Sunday and everyone I know is just in total disbelief, and I just can't wrap my head around the idea of him being gone. No one saw it coming at all, it just came totally out of left field.

Im not in the worst situation, there are other anons here in deeper shit. I just came for some questions.

A few months back I stsrted speaking with a girl, asked for rides, I declined at first. But as time came around, I guess I kind of liked her. No feelings what so ever, but I like her, its a weird position Im in.

Anyways, I asked her if she wanted to hang out, and she would decline or reply saying she was in a different city. Eventually, I stopped. Just this Sunday, I asked if she wanted to hike. She said no of course, so I rolled the dice and asked if she wanted to be my workout buddy or whatever since I wouldn't mind motivation. She agreed, and asked when my Marine Corp shipdate was. Told her my date, she replied, I didn't.

Now, idk why she would decline everything I ask but when I say workout she is like "cool! Lets do it!" I mean, we are goung to meet up to workout, so idk.

Any anons have any advice to approach this? And when to ask her to work out?

Why wasn't I good enough for her Sup Forums

Dude just tank through it, things are gonna be fine. If she's worth it she'll be fine with the anxiety.

Bitch wasn't good enough for you. Prove that to yourself by bettering yourself. Even if it's something small like finishing a novel. Or even better, read a work out magazine front to back and try out some of the shit in it.

Yo that movie was that the shit.

me right now user

heard the song
youtube.com/watch?v=uCi8x4HQDEg
it was alrite, i liked the remixes, mostly edm/dubstep
youtube.com/watch?v=-0oZNWif_jk


then a bunch of niggers and eminem decided to out of tune rap over it and i realized europe is being raped by migrants and that sucks, but america has been raped by niggers and faggots for so long it's beyond the level of fucks i could comprehend.
then i realized i felt bad at first, but figured one of you fags would be like "feminist says rape everywhere" so then i realized.../seig heil
i can win with anti nigger.
then i realized i actually hate niggers on all fronts, musically, in person, and politically.
the song really doesn't mean jack shit, it just happened to coincide with my thought on how music is getting fucked, and who to fucking blame.

but i feel good now. i know how to spend my life faggots. im going to do a plus one for the good guys. SO I FEEL GOOD Sup Forums i know how to spend this one life.

>feeling crazy and excited, can't wait!

I always thought this. Turns out I found that person. She loves me like I never thought anybody could. She smiles and her eyes sparks everytime she sees me. SHe alwyas beg me to dhare my feeling with her and she's making me understand that I can talk without being worried of scare or get her bored. She wants to spend her whole life by my side, she says everything she has is mine too.

It happens. I've loved like that and been rejected a hundred times before, but I found her. And life is still pretty fucked, but I have her with me.

There is somebody like that for you, somewhere. And it's never too late.

Good luck

I love the original, hate the remix and never heard the rap versions. Your views on Europe are spot on but care to elaborate on how you are spending this
>one life

Any advice here lads?

I just hope when I'm not old I don't remember those 3 girls that I loved and I talked to as friends then ended up getting rejected.

simple really
going to go to war
for the side that is right

i think this place is finally getting under my skin. i've been browsing since moot posted on SA and i can't even go on any other sites now because

1. If you post something stupid or wrong here you get torn to shreds but it's brutally honest
2. It's ridiculously easy to tell when it's the same person posting or they're being compensated somehow
3. I've seen and felt so many terrible things that im genuinely grateful for my life and am generally nice to people online
4. i'm stuck here forever

Red pilled through music, that's a new front. Congrats.

damn i guess the question is did you vote for trump? hillary? or stein?

Drop a chromosome

Fuck my dick is so small
And my life is out of control
This pisses me off

Ok, but you asked for it.

>"I'm ready to die, but I'm going to wait for the movie"

you need to work on your haikus

Fuck my dick is small
My life is out of control
This pisses me off

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