Jesus fucking christ Sup Forums i fucked up bad and now i want to kill myself

jesus fucking christ Sup Forums i fucked up bad and now i want to kill myself


>wife and I have been married for 8 years

>been watching cuck porn for past several months and find it incredibly arousing to me

>finally work up the courage to ask wife to do it before anniversary

>reluctant at first but agrees

>we end up finding a 6’ foot black guy (i have a black bull fantasy)

>comes over and i introduce my wife then we go to the bedroom

>he pushed her on the bed, takes off her panties and starts eating her out

>both enjoying it and so am i

>he then pins her hands over her head and begins kissing her on the neck

>he then begins to penetrate her

>she moaned deeply with lust and satisfaction and at this moment my stomach dropped

>quickly realized that when i was watching cuck porn i wasn’t getting off on being the cuck but rather i was getting off on being the bull

>felt sick but they were already fucking so i sat there and said nothing

>he creams the inside of her pussy and i rushed him out as he was done

>tell my wife to take a shower and didn’t mentioned a word about since

For the past couple of days i keep thinking about the way incident. The way she moaned, the way she grabbed him and looked into his eyes

I can’t stop crying that i let this happen and now i feel like killing myself is the only way out of this

yea you should prob kill yourself

you fucking pussy. you asked for this. end yourself.

>i feel like killing myself is the only way out of this

unfortunately, you're probably right.

Calling bullshit.
Niggers don't eat pussy.

Hahahahahahahahahahaha dumbfuck

>can't be that i'm wrong and maybe niggers eat pussy

Cuck

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HAHAHAHAH op you literally let a random dude fuck your wife while you watched HAHAHAHHAHAHAA

Write a letter to Donald Trump

as a fellow cuck, he'll know how you feel

holy cuck

if this is really real then just kys

Real test OP is if she wants to do it again. If she does you lost her.

Threesomes of any flavor are destabilizing. You have to talk to her about it and hopefully it won't all come unwound.

Bumping for justice

This is why you never do a 2 guy, 1 girl. Speaking from experience, two girls is a hell of a lot more fun lmao.

>>quickly realized that when i was watching cuck porn i wasn’t getting off on being the cuck but rather i was getting off on being the bull
You didn't realize what you were fapping to when you were fapping?

Yeaaaaaa kill yourself bud

Not op


Too true, I had one and it ruined my relationship. My friend and I went and did a bang down of my girlfriend and she was all about him. She barely put my dick in her mouth and when I was on her missionary she gave a shit about keeping it tight she was all over my friend's dick.

It ruined it all around. My friend though her pussy was loose and was getting mad that she tried several times to kiss him and she kept asking and ended up trying to cheat on me directly with him. He showed me the texts trying to get with him while I was working.

agree you gotta try again
>for justice

can i fuck your wife?

i feel bad and all but honestly i lately have the same porn experience and literally had the
>wait fuck does this make me a cuck
but then after literal seconds of self analysis
>kek nah i just wanna fuck somebody bitch

user how do you autist THIS bad man??

as always just gonna throw this one out there
>murder suicide

OP basic instinct is for a beta mammal to offer their mate to the alpha of the group. In animals thats how to tell who the betas to the alphas are. There is an instinct in females humans as well. They want to either have two things.

1. Looks/physical attractiveness: This is various in ranges but it tends to have a more primal connection. In a case of cucking only way for this attraction to lessen is by increasing the amount of contact for the female to receive diminished returns (ex. Eating your favorite food for all meals a day for a whole month). This does have a downside effect if the male has key features that the cuck is lacking this could cause a standard, in a case of that the beta would need to make up in other areas such as personality, humor, interests and in the next point MONEY.

2. Money/Security: Women want this overall for a mate. They want a provider for their children and someone to be a blanket for them to protect them. In a case of that you mention of cucking, the cuck could develop a bond by making the woman dependant on financial benefits provided for the man. A stronger bond will be with a long term relationship with children. This is the long run relationship but with the introduction of cucking there could be an upside of her feeling comfort in knowing that you care for not only her financial security for her and any children but her sexual primal needs. She could love you even more with this arrangement but overall it taints the marriage and could damage a man's psyche causing him to question his pack alpha instincts.

Either way TL;DR: Youre fucked.

Hey op think about this one...

BBC: Maan sum dumb bitch let me fuk his bitch lol
BBC Friend: Foo real?!? LOL Stupid nigga. Wat wuz dat nigga thinkin? Shit can I fuck his bitch too?
BBC: Nigga man this dude for real got a boner n shit while I wuz kissing her lol she got my # wanna smash?
BBC:Sheit nigga if dat dumb pussi ass nigga givin free pussy might as well holla at a nigga, give me the numba!

OP think of what you did!

Yeah bro, you should probably end it. She's likely to leave you anyway for a giant negro.

Post pics of wife.

Leave the wife, it's over, you've ruined it.
No need to kill yourself though. Move on.

cont

BBC: Nigga I beat dat pussy up, i bet dat nigga mad af bro, he wuz all mad n sheit bet she rubbed dat pussy in the shower :D ;D
BBC FRIEND: Nigga u bust in it?
BBC: Lol nigga watched me, he str8 up watch ur boi beat that pussy up. She was all like "UUUHHHH!" XD :D
BBC FRIEND: Dam nigga, u rlly put beat the doors off dat bitch. LOL! Dat nigga stoopid! :D
BBC: Foo real, shiet Imma text her tomorrow to c if she want more of dat pipe. Bitch nigga prob drop her off and drive off to Burger King. LOL

friend is a real nigger for telling the truth. i probably would have fucked her on the side

I think OP off'd himself.

As someone who enjoys cuck porn I know how dirty that can get. I will NEVER allow my girl to get fucked by another man. I have trust in my abilities but all those dates, talks, and hobbies to lead up to fucking told me time and effort. If I gave up MY woman, that easily he just cut in line and stole YOUR piece of the pie.

Think about the day you got married or times you talked about the future. Or the times you held her going to sleep, watching a movie, or just hanging out. Now imagine her taking some black dude's load and moaning in joy about an experience she hasn't had in a while. A high that she LOVED! Did she even look at you during sex? Did she say anything? Or was she swept up by the excitement of a man who couldn't give two shits about her personality?

OP you grand level fucked yourself. Know now that you kiss a woman who fucked another man and let you watch. She will sleep at night knowing she has an alpha on call next to your ass. Next time you go down on her think of some filthy blackie bustin a nut in her and laughing about how lame of a man you are.

Lmao fuck that noise. I like my men weak and dependent. But since you're speaking in animalistic terms:

human females are generally similar to one of two animals. The wolves or the octopi.

The wolves are the females you've described and tend to be more favorable to males wishing to be alphas or actually /are/ alphas. (Aka the ones only looking for security and attractiveness)

While the female octopi have a tendency to strangle and eat their mate after their use has been fulfilled. I personally like to do the eating before the dead is done however. (counter point being: The ones who don't give a shit and look at men for sex instead of security like a spineless wench)

The point being. You're wrong.

You invited an animal to defile your wife. Steps:

1. Divorce.
2. Passport office
3. Emigrate to a completely different country
4. Learn the language
5. Never have contact with anyone from your old life who knew your wife, change your name, start anew
6. ???
7. Profit

Lol I threw it out to him. Dude was a decent guy but he wasn't packing. He had 5 but it was thick. I had him beat by an inch easy. He was hard up on sex and my ex had a crush on him. He was a loyal friend so I offered a 3 some he jumped on it. I fucked her probably 40 times before that so the pussy was getting a bit old. Still I had a good relationship with her, low maintenance but after that she became cold with me and starting texting my friend. He really didn't enjoy it that much. Hell I even was near done with that relationship so I offered him the pussy without me there. He declined, thought she wasn't good. What got me was when I offered her up, she lied to me and said that was an one time deal and wont dare fuck him again. Welp her texts proved otherwise. I gave much of a shit about them fucking but her lying and the type of texts is what killed it.

you gotta fuck him like that and have your wife watch

idiot, kill them, and then dont stop killing, kill the neighbors, kill your doctors, and then KILL the WHOLE FUCKING town

Just gotta move past it. You were the one who wanted it. She was just trying to satisfy your kinks and desires. And of course she enjoyed it. Would you have just wanted her to lay there like a dead fish? I suggest if this ever pops back in your head to try again, is to be apart of it. Don't just sit back. Shove your cock down her throat while she gets nailed from behind. Good luck man.

fake and gay

hahaha. your wife is probably still thinking of that cock. She will never be satisfied by your dick. YOU HAVE TO KILL HER OR YOURSELF. but kill a black guy first.

This is your fault mate

Jesus fucking christ it's like you're a middle aged man and just now discovered that fire is hot, but just to make sure, you stuck your hand in the flame.

Enjoy your new scars cuckboy, hero or keep it to yourself