Are you actually Happy?

>Are you actually Happy?
>Or just distracted?
Fucking feels thread.

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I quit weed a week ago and since then I've been feeling more happy. Overall, I still feel disgusted that I have no job and leech off my mom. Having a hard time dealing with this social anxiety

Thanks user

I know that feeling user, 23 here working a little over min wage bumming off my folks. I feel like a fucking loser, and I feel even worse when my folks tell me I'm worth something...

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Bumping with a story to tell.
>Be me
>Be 17
>Really low sex drive
>New girl comes to our tuition centre
>Sexy af, probably the most beautiful in our area
>Me being a dumb nut at this relationship shit, didn't do anything.
>We talk about stuff casually
>She is an introvert
>7 months pass by and I didn't take any step.
>Every day, my attraction for her became strong
>Last day of tuition, I decided to fuck it.
>Going to her house
>In the way I see her,
>With another boy
>They started kissing
>Brain_stopped_working.exe

Shall I continue?

>>Or just distracted?
I'm defiantly just distracted.

Continue user, the feels hit me already

Dogs are too clingy.

Fuck both of you. I'd rather feel like shit cuz I leech of my parents (can't, they are poorer than I am) than feel like shit because I work full time and all I can afford in rent is one room in a house because a real apartment would put me at zero money every month.

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Contd.
>I turn around.
>Walk away, in tears, can't think of anything.. anything.
>She notices me with the bouquet of flowers I bought for her. She always knew that I liked her. She shouted "Wait user! This is not how it seems!"
>I'm too shocked even to say anything. So I walk away without even hearing what she has to say.
>I block her phone number, those days, we didn't have smartphones, and internet? It's impossible to connect with someone with dialup connection. So she had no other way to contact me.

>FF To a year later.
>Was walking down the streets, still wasn't over her.
>Notice her going back to home after shopping.
>She notices me to
> My Face: why.jpg
>She doesn't say anything.
>I notice something, a sense of guilty up her face.
>A soft murmur barely heard "I'm sorry"
>Can't think of anything again. She cheated on me on purpose.
>Go home and cry for the whole day
>We never talked or met again
>FF to this day. Still missing her. Don't have a gf becoz I don't want to. I feel like cheating on her.
>Can never get over her.
>Feelsbadman.

>>Are you actually Happy?
>>Or just distracted?
I'm neither: instead I'm painfully aware of just how unhappy I am, and am likely to remain.

"It's all in your head! Just think your way out of it!!" hasn't helped, I can "choose to be happy" or at least indifferent all I want, doesn't make it so.
Meds haven't helped, either. I think this is just the way my life is going to be.

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>She cheated on me on purpose.

m8. You weren't together. You did what many of us do, and don't say your feelings. Even if "she always knew [you] liked her", that doesn't matter. You never told here, and you two were not a couple. She did not cheat on you.

Not to say you feeling like shit is unjustified, because it's not. I'm just saying that she did not cheat on you, and certainly not "...on purpose". Based on her reaction to the situation, she certainly was not trying to hurt you, if that's what you're implying.

Right now, no.
Last night my apartment got broken into. I had a lot of my paper money collection taken as well as silver dollars that belonged to my grandparents. I'm a mixture of angry, sad, anxious.
Really just needed to vent that.

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Depressed for 2 years. Contemplating suicide or murder-suicide.

ALso this about 10 years ago I fell in love with a girl, it was my first time so I didn't know what to do about it so like an idiot, I did nothing. She's now with a mutual friend, and probably will remain so for this lifetime.

I've tried, even forcibly, to "get over her", but I don't seem able to. Every day I think about her - not "what could've been" or anything, no such romantic visions, just her.
She's the one that got away. I don't even believe in "the one true love", but she's the only one who's made me feel like this.

Exactly the same as me. Didn't know someone had the exact same problem

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Go for just yourself don't need to drag others into it

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This one always gets me. cheers user. also, chekd

Might as well have a little fun

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All I can say to you is that it *should* get better over time. Not always, not in every case. We all have that one that we pine for. The fire will dwindle, but the pang of regret will never go away entirely.

Also remember that things are rarely as good as they are in our heads. You were young, and the world is a very different place in each of the decades of your life.

You may look at her someday and think 'was this the same person I put so many hours into?'

Good luck, user. May you find someone who'll make that past hurt recede.

Heavy smoker since age 16, now i'm 33, have a good job, gf and hobbies.
Quite happy i think.

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youtu.be/NSjUb-aRloY

Whatever anyone thinks of Slipknot, this song will empathise with anyone feeling down.

Yeah that's what I was trying to say. Sorry for my bad composition of English.

lurking

All good. Just didn't want you feeling bitter because you felt she did you wrong just to do you wrong.

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Thank you.

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I'm sorry for you bro. I hope you have someone to comfort you, getting your shit stolen fucking sucks, especially when it's sentimental stuff.

If not, you always have us, right?

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you guys are all i have, i left a party early because i cant be around people, at least here i can be a little fish and converse at my own pace

Does one of ur hobbies consist of jacking off to gay porn on Sup Forums?

Money is shit. When I don't have it (which is most of the time), I don't do much because I can't. Instead, I work to earn it but work tires me out, which adds to the lack of doing anything. And once I finally have the money to spend on w/e it is I want to spend it on, it's back to earning more. What a waste of time, it seems.

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Then fucking kill yourself already or do something in ur life that will make u happy

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And we love you for it. We are mostly all the same, this place is somehow easier for us.

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You'll just put someone else through what you're going through. It's not worth it, just rob a bank or something.

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Anyone remember when baww threads were more common and had some serious substance to them every handful of threads? The ratio of shit on this board is at an all time high. It's never been without shit threads and will never get there. But at least there was a time when not all of the threads were a waste of time. I remember leading threads of deep folks with profound thoughts and words one after another. Starting them, helping carry them into the next one, replying to whoever needed it, and so on. It was good. But people started becoming less responsive to the threads, so I stopped. And now hardly anyone starts them, and they don't get to the point they ever reached before. Not sure what to make of it.

Thanks bro. Love when i see a (You) on a refresh :)

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AAAASPERGERS

That's what I've had on my mind lately. I need to find a source of happiness that isn't entirely grounded in finances. I know finance-driven things will not go away, and that's fine. I don't have great need for money, so it's fine as long as there are other things in life that I can enjoy without having to spend to get it. But it's been a long while since I've really, truly enjoyed much. Adulthood is tiresome, saddening, angering, and crushes you. I know I am ultimately at the helm, but it's hard to guide me where I need to go when it's pitch black and I have no compass and map.

fuck off and die, everyone has their own burdens

move somewhere cheaper to live

I'm with you bud.

Thanks for the pic, I've not seen that one before.

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Ha. How's being a cunt working out for you? I'm not saying they don't have burdens. I am saying that what they're hoping for (not relying on parents) is not really all that much better than relying on them. At least when you're relying on them, you can save money and amass something of use for later on. I can't do that. It took me 12 months of no vehicle, walking 6 miles to and from work even in negative temperatures and snow so I can afford to buy myself a vehicle that isn't a total POS.

The fact they they CAN leech off their parents still is a blessing bigger than they know.

Also, it's not so easy to move somewhere cheaper to live. Not saying I can't do it, but cheaper places often pay less. And since I have very little money set aside, I will ultimately put myself right back where I am now by moving.

I smoke weed almost everyday and have done so for about a year now. Smoking have become a too much of a habit.
I don't know what i want anymore, right now i feel like shit and really lonely. While being high has become alot of more dull now, and not as fun as before.. I should also take a break..

I think it ebbs and flows at certain times. Even the time of day can make a difference. But I think Sup Forums being more in the public eye has made a difference. And a lot of people just move on. It can't last forever. Unfortunately I haven't found anyplace else where I fit in so much or feel quite so comfortable.

Anyone here use Buddhism or Stoicism to work through some of the feelings of loss, suffering, inadequacy or impermanence?

Another good one.

I think being unhappy became a psychological issue for me more than anything...

Some days I wake up, look in the mirror and see a reasonable decent looking person, and then there's days where I can't even stand to look at myself in the mirror. Like I gained 20kg over night and my hair decided to look like I've aged 20 years. I can't even stand myself right now and it affects everything about me.

If I feel like shit then I can't talk properly, like I don't want to put too much effort into living because I don't care enough. I can't walk normally, I keep bumping into shit, like I'm distracted and don't know where I'm going.
I keep telling myself that next week everything will be back to normal but its a week away, and when it does go back to normal then its only for some time until I get all depressed and disappointed in myself again...I hate my life and myself for being what I am

For me, it's because no one can guilt me. In real life, everyone I know knows that I won't say no to the things they ask of me, because if I do, they make me feel like shit till I give them the answer they want. Here, no one does that.

thanks.

I haven't been in a Sup Forumsaww thread in... fuck. Almost ten years now.

I'm posting some of the old stuff I found in old threads.

Time changes, so does boards, sites, communities and so on.

I never knew Sup Forums in its golden age. However i'm enjoying the trash as long as i can for i know the same will happen.

The conceptis a bit stupid, but the overall theme is sweet.

very relatable picture..
i like these

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This must be referring to things you've done. Because things you didn't do are often NOT the things you wanted to do, and the reasons for not doing them are usually stupid. Regretting things you didn't do makes sense.

But I do agree with the message when referring to things you chose to do. Even if it turned out shit, you didn't know it was going to then and you should be glad you took action.

Fuck, man, hit and sunk.
I used to be a top performer in my class, did well in my finals, got a university position in the field I chose. Then I graduated, was employed for a while but now haven't found a job since I got laid off due to company restructuring. I've been NEET for 8 years, and it's like, I used to think I'd be useful, help out in problems related to my field of study. Instead I've been made to realize how insignificant I am, both on a utilitarian and a personal level. Worse yet, sometimes I feel like a burden instead of just a nothing; like I'm a strain on my friends, that everyone would be better off without me. I'd have killed myself long ago if I didn't think it'd still cause my friends and family some vague kind of anguish - then again, I don't want to cause them stress, so I mostly just retreat from all human contact. I've been homeless since last spring, now I have an apartment lined up on government benefits. I don't really care, though, all I want is a hole to crawl in, and my tent served that purpose just fine. In fact, I think that due to needing to push paper around to get these benefits, it'd be more peaceful to just live in my tent, not bothering anybody.

I wonder what my former classmates would think if they knew. I got prizes in several categories after the finals at my school, and did well in university. Now I'm just a nuisance. I want to go somewhere far away, and quietly stop existing.

Me too. It means someone cared enough to read what I wrote and even replied to it.

It's because no one here wants you to do anything for them. Everyone here comes here for their own reasons and they respect each others reasons.

I don't know you. I haven't seen you. I don't want anything from you, except know that I love you.

Meditation with harvesting chi energy is really fruitful in times when under stress, it takes months to learn to play with chi energy. But it is definitely worth it.
Also trips CONFIRMED

And I love you, unknown internet person

I'm not happy, but I'm not depressed either.
I'm just very indifferent to the world around me.
I don't have any motivation to work/get an education, meet people/get married have children, etc. because I have no interest in it.
I want to let my insignifficant life slide by as fast as possible, while I get high and drunk nightly in my basement while browsing Sup Forums.

That's interesting, I've never looked into it. My wife's martial arts instructor does this, and he is one of the most even people I know.

Looks like a lot of the practices are incorporated into mindfulness meditation (square breathing, body scans, keeping the mind refocused on the present (empty)).

Which reminds me I should be more dutiful in meditation. Haven't done it in months. Been working with my therapist on EMDR, it seems to help.

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