Alright Sup Forums tell me what you did that haunt you to this day
>Be me
>16 , bet fag
>Meet this girl from my HighSchool she was 15
>5/10 no ass nor tits but those thighs man
>Hook up
>I was her first anything , her first boyfriend , kiss , the first guy to finger her .
>Never felt anything for her but I was too beta to break up
>She told me her periods come once every two months .
>Weird but ok
>Fuck her after 6 months of relationship
>We keep doing it
>She loves me enough to die for me but I feel nothing for her
>First year together meet her folk on our anniversary
>Dad was this chill dude , the " I'm still acting like a teen although I'm in my fourties" type
>Mother was a bitch treating him like shit an using him with any occasion
>Cheated on him several types
>Fell bad for the dude
>3 months later gf gets diagnosed with ovarian cancer
>She always wanted childred so she's devastated
>Tel her everything is going to be ok , she doesn't need to worry
>She goes through chemo
>Always carries this cringe worthy poem I wrote her with her
>After th first month of chemo she decides that life is not worth living if she can't have kids
>Hangs herself
>Mfw she was holding my poem in her hand
>Mfw I never loved her
>Mfw I wanna kill myself for being such a piece of shit
I failed my exams and got to a shit Uni . The guilt and pain turned me into an alcoholic . I see her face everynight , I remember her voice ."The words "I love you " are forever stuck in my head .
Alright Sup Forums tell me what you did that haunt you to this day
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This was 6 years ago , god I'm an asshole
This could be made into a nice movie
I'm here OP.
How does the unrequited love portion specifically make you feel?
she hung herself because at the ripe age of 15 her life was ruined because she couldn't have kids? what fucking 15 YO wants to have kids? Most kids are avoiding getting pregnant at that age. fake story
We always talked about the future and how we're going to live this basic-ass middle class life . She wanted two boys and a daughter and a dog
You want to make up for it? Stop being retarded, realize that you loved her more than you thought you did, and move on and live your life for her memory.
For the love of god stop getting cucked by a dead girl
I feel like if I had loved her , not just lusted for her I would've been able to do something to change something . Maybe if I was in love with her she wouldn't have killed herself somehow . It all feels like is my fault and I can't do shit about it
Rip
That's dumb, a lot of kids get transfixed by idea of adult shit that they actually end up not caring to much for when they reach that point. Kids, marriage, living on their own, etc.
>Be me
>Be born
And that's how I ended up here.
Such is life user. People come and go. You obviously liked her more than you thought, you just told yourself you didn't so if she broke up with you, you wouldn't feel the heartache. But, now that she is gone, you feel guilty for having that mentality. Only thing you can do user is move on by accepting that none of this was your fault but that you were the victim of unfortunate circumstances.
I feel ya user
Hijacking your shitty attempted feels thread because, basically, it is shitty.
This doesn't really haunt me, but I might be fucked. Middle of last week, my wife completely flipped out on some stupid fast food worker, because they didn't put enough season-salt on her fries. I shit you not, she went full fucking mental, punching the register, screaming at this poor kid, flings her fries (and mine too, dammit!) all over the kid and behind the counter. I was too ashamed to even speak, just stood there stunned the whole time. Finally common sense kicked in and I whispered that we needed to get the fuck out of there or we were going to jail. Finally she realized it was true so we bugged out.
Cops haven't come a knocking yet, so I guess it's probably all good. But we'd have been locked up for sure if she had stayed up in there ranting for a few more minutes, you know what I'm saying? I still don't know why the fuck she was tripping, act like she smoked a wet or something.
Answer this to yourself.
Did you cause the cancer?
Obviously not, so blaming yourself is absurd. You were there for her. But people aren't perfect. Things happen.
If you want to better your situation:
1.) Lay off the booze for a bit. If you are deep enough to have withdraws, find doctor.
2.) Break your routine. Go somewhere new. Doesn't matter where. Just go for a little while. Get some neurons firing and change your perspective.
3.) Do what YOU want for a change.
Did he die?
Thanks m8 , I've heard this advice countless time , maybe someday I'll do something about it
Nah .
ITT : OP is a beta fag getting cucked by a dead bitch, kek.
To me it sounds like you cared for her but you just dont want to admit it. She must have felt some sort of love from you
You've heard it countless times because it works. But you've never worked up the gumption to get out there and try. Turn off the computer, put on a clean shirt and go.
If she loved you enough probably wouldnt had hanged herself dont you think ?
does she always act like this ? maybe some had some repressed shit and had mental breakdown, poor kid do you should had filmed that shit.
If you are incapable of love then you have nothing to feel sorry for...are you a sociopath maybe user?
Well you are feeling bad because you were seeing the day come, when you have to stand up to your lie! Now that opportunity has been taken from you.
You knew that you could have done something, and you wanted to do something, but you never did. Shame and Depression.
And the reason this still haunts you is, that you still dont face the Core of the issue. The flaw that is in you.
Heres a video about C.G. Jung. It could help if you write about the thing that you did in a manner of.
1. What did I do wrong and how does it affect me
2. What could I have done different for a better outcome
3. What general personal Flaw does this represent and how could I adress it.
but that will be hard on you. So Good luck.
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(Its a lecture so, maybe you'll have to search around a bit to find something usefull for yourselfe.)
i guess what you can do is give that Failure meaning. What did you learn from it user?
I hope you'll recover.
be 16, horny as fuuck, sexually repressed because akward beta.
13 year old sister sleeps in other room. Use to sneak in at night just to peek at her ass, no touching. She never found out, or atleast i dont think so.
extremly religious family.
one day mom comes to my room at night, and tells me she knows that im sneaking into my sisters room at night, she tells me my father saw me one night.
i confess, and she tells me never do it again, because my father told her he would kill me if i did.
Cringe about it to this day.
>be me
>6 month into a relationship
>gf has an annoying little dog
>barks at everything
>love gf but hate the dog
>breaking bad is big
>ricin.mp4
>buy seeds and ship it to my dad
>intercept the package before he does
>some days go by and I'm haven doubts
>she really love that dog
>decide that if doggo pisses me off again I'll do it
>a week later
>prepare the seeds and put them in a sandwich with some meat
>chop that shit up and put it in a plastic bag
>later that night
>take the dog for a walk
>walking through a dark park and decide now is the time
>he eats it
>noturningback.swf
>I knew she should visit her mom for a couple of days and had decided that I didn't want to go
>24 hours after ingesting it I get a call from gf
>"doggo is very sick and doesn't eat or drink"
>"we're going to the vet with him tomorrow"
>36 hours
>Get a call that the vet took some samples and think it could be organ failure
>after the result comes back the vet tells that there isn't much they can do
>they suspected poisoning but nothing came up
>doggo die
>gf heartbroken
>mfv
What was the poem OP?
OP....fuck
thats sad
but it wasnt your fault
its part of life,and you were strong enough
Well,the only thing that haunts me is
a)The cringeworthy things ive done
b)The following story.
>Be me
>7 yo
>live in a building with 2 "sections"
>play with this black girl and this white girl
>white girl's parents are always out,so they buy everything to that girl
>she is so fucking weird
>one day
>be with mentally-disabled aunt,strokes and 5yo mind
>white girl says she wants to play a game
>me and the black girl agree
>sit in the most hidden part of the building's "garden"
>white girl takes out paper box full of square paper cutouts
>they have drawings and shit
>"Maybe its like a memory game or puzzle game"
>take out first card
>"kiss right"
>i thought it was weird,but anyways,kiss black girl on my right
>fast forward to my next turn
>pick out card
>"french kiss left"
>weird again,but "french kiss" white girl
>next turn
>take out card
>its a crude drawing of a penis
>excusemewhat.aiff
>white girl says "you have to show us your weewee"
>i was little,so show it off
>next turn
>a drawing of a penis and some parenthesis
>"what is that?"
>"oh! you have to touch parts with anyone yu want!"
>wtf.wtf
>do it,didn't stick it in,just barely touch
i remember that to this day,i cringe so hard
i asked my aunt if she knew anything
She didn't even remember
De cand te cunosc a mea iubire,
De cand te stiu tu mi-ai placut
Vreau sa-ti aduc doar fericire
Si-n schimb iti cer doar un sarut
Cand luna plina e pe cer
Si vantul bate rece
Un sarut eu am sa-ti cer
Sa uit timpul ca trece
SI de-o fi amar sau greu
Si de-om trece prin de toate
Cu tine-n gand voi fi mereu
Chiar daca sunt departe
Vreau sa te pot iubi cu patos
Cand doar luna lumineaza
Sa simti solul pamantos
Si iubirea ce radiaza
Pe campul verde inflorit
Pieptanat de adieri nocturne
O sa -ti fiu al tau iubit
Sub nori ce vor sa tune
O sa ne iubim ca doi nebuni
La lumina lunii
Ne vom iubi intre salcami
De-or sa se mire prunii
Si poa' sa vina ger , furtuna
Poa' sa cada ploaie grea
Eu cu tine , impreuna
Vom scapa cumva de ea
Had it in a doc to remember me how shit I am
poor doggo
>She didn't even remember
>>>
> Anonymous 03/19/17(Sun)14:51:27 No.726119005 ▶
>
>De cand te cunosc a mea iubire,
>De cand te stiu tu mi-ai placut
>Vreau sa-ti aduc doar fericire
>Si-n schimb iti cer doar un sarut
>Cand luna plina e pe cer
>Si vantul bate rece
>Un sarut eu am sa-ti cer
>Sa uit timpul ca trece
>SI de-o fi amar sau greu
>Si de-om trece prin de toate
>Cu tine-n gand voi fi mereu
>Chiar daca sunt departe
>Vreau sa te pot iubi cu patos
>Cand doar luna lumineaza
>Sa simti solul pamantos
>Si iubirea ce radiaza
>Pe campul verde inflorit
>Pieptanat de adieri nocturne
>O sa -ti fiu al tau iubit
>Sub nori ce vor sa tune
>O sa ne iubim ca doi nebuni
>La lumina lunii
>Ne vom iubi intre salcami
>De-or sa se mire prunii
>Si poa' sa vina ger , furtuna
>Poa' sa cada ploaie grea
>Eu cu tine , impreuna
>Vom scapa cumva de ea
>Had it in a doc to remember me how shit I am
oh fuck....thats sad.
Since I know my love,
Since you know you have loved me
I want you to bring only happiness
And in return I ask only a kiss
When the full moon is in the sky
Windy and cold
A kiss I have to ask you
Forget time passing
And the one being bitter or hard
And, man passes through all
With you, I thought I will always
Even if they are away
I can love you passionately
When only the moon shines
Feeling the Earth's soil
And love radiating
On green field flourished
Combed night breeze
You loved your son Ti
Under clouds will thunder
We'll love like two fools
By moonlight
We love between Acacia
It will be surprised by plum
And poa 'coming frost, storm
Poa 'to fall heavy rain
Me and you together
We somehow get rid of it
poa' means may as in "may the frost come
Thank you dude for translating this
Nice trips , I love you 4 chan
Stop torturing yourself OP.
You men do this shit because you are born with this guilt that what you do and what you feel are somehow connected.
That's why we take advantage of you constantly, we don't feel guilt like that.
Why not look at it this way:
You gave her a life and something to get up to in the morning that she probably would never have had if you hadn't been with her. She felt something before she took the consequence of never having kids. That has NOTHING to do with you - even if you never planned on having kids with her.
Quit beating yourself about this, when you actually made someone feel special and loved!
Your guilt have no place if it never hurt anyone, OP.
Please OP - you are not the shithead you think you are.
mars dracu eminescu de aici
Didn't realise OP was romanian.That's some Eminescu shit right there.
You shouldn't feel bad.You didn't cause the cancer.It was her fault for commiting suicide.Lay off the alcohol,meet new people,discover new places.
Da' ce am facut safule ?
ai omorat-o pe una fir-ai tu al dracului sa fii
You loved her you stupid fuck its just that back then you were too young to know it and now youre alcoholic which makes you emotionally detached
Just kill yourself and go join her
There is no god , only nothingness .
>15 y/o
>no tits no ass
Dude shes probably a 8/10 now fucking niggers in paradise you are forever cucked
Also protip : you loved her you just werent attracted to her because you are gay
Oh yeah? Well what about fucking PIC RELATED THEN??
CHECKMATE ATHESIST
>left school
>might not get a job
>have to teach myself because dad is gone
>mom left me when I was 8
>my dad got cucked
>mfw I see no future
Listen to e , m8 , no matter how hard it gets , yo go out there and you show the world what you're made of
I like to imagine but I'm starting to become a fat nigga and giving up hope. if I can't get a job what's the use in living . I don't want a shitty apartment that looks like a fire too place where I'm staying. Sorry if I'm putting this together poorly I'm trying to get it off my chest
What's your work experience/ what are you good at?
I'm good at history and science rest I suck at
Could you write a book about your misery or start a company ?
Probs book TBH
Also , holly shit two dubs in a row , kek is with you my dude you can do anything
but u are in college wtf!!, is going to a shitty college such a big deal in the US?, like, fuck dude.
Do it then , kek is with you , what other sign do you need?
Holy shit kek will guide me to success
For real now , give your best and a tad bit more , you reached rock bottom nothing can go wrong . Push forward as hard as you can . If you become a rich fag , don't forget Sup Forums
Man, you cared enough to be keep the charade through the big C instead of bolting.
Besides whether you loved her or not is not important, I mean, had you been alpha enough to dump her earlier, her short life would have been even more miserable and painful.
From a rational point of view there's nothing to feel bad.