Confession thread

Confession thread.
Im a male 23 year old, and ive been molested and raped when i was 5, not by a man, but by a woman. You may think its all good, and i enjoyed it. Maybe if i were 14 or 15 i wouldve, but i was 5. It fucked me up hard dude, it pretty much emotionally scarred me, because i wasnt sexually attracted to her at all. I was abused sometimes. Some of you see it as a fantasy but be glad some of you guys never experienced this shit at a young age.
The experiences didnt make me gay or anything, i just dint function normally over thoughts i frequently have

mekakushidan fans below

greentext or fuck off

I love Moon-Viewing recital
This is a Mekakucity actors thread

yess finally!

I finally found other ppl that like it!

All I got from this is that op is a huge faggot.

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pics or it didn't happen

Did she finger your ass? How did she know you?

>pic saved from tumblr
>fag
top kek

What's the main points you remember about it?
I was messed with as a kid too by my
female babysitter. (Landwhale now that I think of it)

Gay

>Says he didn't enjoy it

The pic you used, which you have saved says otherwise.

TFW OP had sex at age 5 and gen isn't proud of it

>"It fucked me up"
>Mfw OP doesn't know he's a faggot

actually the girl is a few years older so fuck off.. learn mekakshidan u stupid cunt.

fayk and gay! never happened...

Anybody can have sex with 1/10's. Seriously anybody. Why be proud of that? That literally the worst you could do, took your innocence away because she couldn't get dick from anyone else.

me kms because op is so autistic

gay af how you know she wasn't a 11/10

checked :)

hello

it happened to me too.
we were playing dr and i was wearing my moms stuff.

im not sure weather it happened often or not. i just started to remember it a little while ago.

You have no place to call anyone a stupid cunt while referencing anything anime related normie faggot.

>doesnt know mekakushidan
>please fuck off

Because she's touching kids.
I can almost guarentee she wasn't even really a pedo, just pushed into taking advantage because she had no other options.

OP I'd wager you'd be having fucked up thoughts irregardless of having some woman diddle your little bits at age 5.

Most likely you're just another mentally defective person looking for a reason or a scapegoat.

There is an entire industry to make you feel better by assigning blame but frankly it's more likely you're just mentally ill and you've latched onto this because it's a bit more nasty than the usual.

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Why not both?
This is Sup Forums

I felt up one of my friends I used to have a thing with while she was passed out drunk. She had a boyfriend at the time but never told anyone.

aww, cute marry

That's pretty weird.

>gay

not necessairly, if you make the best out of what you have you can actually have a successful career. if you have the right values you can and will succeed

Anime is the fucking flag that bandwagon faggots fly.

Fuck off, normie scum.

I had sex with my best friends girlfriend the night they broke up, we were both drunk. Now they're back together, I think she told him cause we haven't talked in a while. And she's telling other people it was really bad sex.

>kys
>top lel

That's a dick move dude

wtf... probbaly have a small chode too. lul.

OP you need to find that deranged slut bitch cunt and slit her fucking throat, rape her with a rusty metal pole and see how she likes it, for messing with little kids

>greentexts kys in a non ironic way
>uses lel

So you're not just a normie facebook faggot, your new here as well?

and recommend the anime mekakushidan to her.. stupid bitch.

I have stolen upwards of 500 pounds of turkey to donate to dispensaries to get free weed.

All i gotta say is Ikanaide

i came to gay porn the other day for the very first time. My cousin and i used to experiment back in the day

other user here what is so bad about lel
>lel

>?

That's gay

threads over stop posting dumb bitch.

cool fish I bought

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I have some memories about being touched in the preschool restrooms, but the memories are so clouded and been a long time ago, I hope it's just a dream I had at the time, but I think deep down some shit happened, I try not to think about it, I remembered only like less than a year ago, could it have been real?

MOTHER FUCKING HIGH FIVE MAN YOUR ALPHA AS FUCK OWN IT DONT LET IT OWN YOU TEARING UP SOME MADE PUSS AT 5 OWN THAT SHIT BE PROUD GO OUT AND RAPE WOMAN AND SAY HOWS IT FEEL BITCH!!!!! SCREAM IT REALLY REALLY LOUD
then wisper in their ears im the king of belair

I was drunk as fuck, that's the only reason why. Even then I tried to fight it. And my dicks just over 6"

Alex ?

No, I'm Alex.

I have ocd. or at least I heavily suspect it.

Mainly because ive felt obsessed and compelled to beat and kill kittens that I didnt want to hurt. I've beaten my own pets against my will and killed every single one of them in the end.

So far I've killed 1 kitten that wasnt mine, 1 rat that wasnt mine, and 5 pet rats that were mine.


Do you know what its like to snap the spine of a pet youve had for a year and loved deeply? Do you know what its like to constantly be pulled back and forth between sanity? So many times i would manage to stop myself... only to resume a few minutes later.

I've tried to resist but it hard. and once you start hurting them, it only gets harder. Not to mention that one beating session will traumatize the animal for life.

Hello Alex, That doesn't mean he's not Alex too.

Alex with cousin Trevor? It's justin bro

That's not ocd. that said, you sound like an edge lord. get your shit together

yea... hey...

You're definitely not other Alex, you're only pretending.

How about you snap your own spine you worthless shitkid...

Iv been homeless most of my life not street homeless but my mom and my brother we had to keep moving from family house to friends houses, by the age of 12 iv gone to about 5 different schools, we get ouur own place when I became 15 but she was with this cunt bf shes still with and he hit her and started to hit me. The day I hit him backed I stabbed him with a pocket knife and got kicked out, was homeless on the streets for about a year before I met this girl, her mother had let me stay there occasionaly then would kick me out. this went on for a few months, me and the girl started dating and before I knew it she started abusing me be littiling me, calling me names threatening to kill herself if I left, thats not the worst part she overpowered me a lot since I had no muscle mass, fucking shoved a plunger up my ass did this for a good hour, I left that day, after all of that I started smoking ciggys and pot and drinking on the streets, all of this well I was 17. Im in a better place now But im knowhere near better

I can still vivedly see the last time I killed.

Normally what triggers the urges are three things. First is if they seem scared of me, like they dont want to be around me. That makes me want to squeeze them hard until it hurts them.

Second is if they pee on me, like rats do when they get frightened. It makes my blood boil and my thinking much much much less clear, as if im suffering shellshock in a AAA movie.

Third is if they misbehave very badly. Like if they chew up a favorite shirt or if they steal one of the other pet's treats.


They last kill was a week after since I killed my favorite rat. I was down to one. I tried my hardest to be especially nice to her, but it only last a week. My jacket was pulled into her cage, and i figured she took and ate my last joint(spoiler, she didnt and it wasnt even in my coat.). I tried to calm down but I couldnt control myself and i shifted through her cage.
She must of been so confused. I remember grabbing and squeezing her. I remember wanting her to suffer. I had smacked her, punched her face, hit her in the gut, and slammed her into the ground.

I can still see her little stomach moving up and down as she hyper ventilated. A look of fear and confusion on her face as I held her in the air, moving my arm extremely fast just to scare her. I ended up crushing her ribs. She couldnt stand but would use her front arms to drag herself around.
I was able to snap out of it before she died. I put her in the cage and she flopped over to a corner. She was quickly losing strength and could really only move one arm. I gave her a a blanket for her to die in comfortably.
Then I cried at realizing I killed the last thing in my life that loved me.

I'm still alone but afraid to let anyone in my life.

Wow. Spineless faggots like you shouldn't be allowed to live. You're damaged goods.

Tfw got molested by my dad then a fuck ton of years later some other kid snitches because Dad is a pos. Dad gets marked not guilty and I still live with him. Image unrelated

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Shit you're right gonna go kill myself right now

It is ocd. I work in a mental asylum. I hit every checkbox, and my behavior is textbook ocd.
Ocd isnt just only limited to being obsessed with cleanliness.

Im literally have compulsions which im obsessed over. Against my will. I obessively feel compelled to do something that I try my hardest to not do. Something I take 0 pleasure in and something I wish i could prevent.
Can you please explain what it would be if not ocd?

I would kill myself but itd make my mother miserable. I owe my parents too much to make them suffer anymore. Please understand I never wanted to hurt any animal. I love animals. I've always been known as an animal "whisperer".

An average beating session involves me constantly trying to force myself out of a room and to force myself to let go of the animal. I suffer before, during, and after. I know what im doing and i hate it.

I want you to kill yourself but honestly you should get some help and not get any more pets. Seriously dude you're making me cringe just thinking of the terrible abuse you've doled out to animals.

Unless this is bait in which case well done sir but FUCK YOU

I was molested by my brother on and off from ages 5-13/14. as well as by some neighbor kids, and my step-sister (but I enjoyed that, probably because I was 11 or 12 and was extremely homophobic) no I only masturbate to shota and twink porn, however I only feel a strong attraction to some females. I'm afraid of becoming a danger to my brothers' children.

I just want to keep talking about this, I cant vent in real life to anyone. Its hard going through this alone. Especially since its the reason im alone.

Its like im another person when im obsessing over hurting them. My body feels feverishly hot and my blood feels like its boiling. My pupils also were dilated much larger than ive ever seen them normal, on the same levels as someone who is on mdma.

I want to get help but im afraid my mother will find out and become heartbroken. I'm also terrified of being locked up. Not to mention im paranoid about nothing actually helping me and that going to find help will just ruin my life.

tell the truth. the truth always prevails. that way you can move the fuck on. they were responsable towards you. let them know

its horrible abuse.
Its not bait. I've been suffering from this for almost 2 years now.
The first time i killed my rats, i had 3. I killed 2 already and all was left was the smallest one. She was really pretty and really shy.
I was crying as i exerted every bit of will power to pick her up and let her go free outside so I wouldn't break her.

I've tried so many times to stop and control it. I've told myself so many times it wouldn't happen again. But the slightest lapse in concentration, and then someone gets hurt.


I am praying that maybe ill return to normal. I'm keeping my exposure to triggers at a minimum and plan on slowly weeming myself back into society. I dont know if ill ever be normal again.

I dont think i can ever turn myself in though.

I can not really imagine that.
I often feel compulsions that are anathema.

But I believe we are all subject to external forces that Christians call half of; the "Holy Spirit" and I call the other half the "unholy spirit".

The pain we feel when we resist the compulsions works two ways. It hurts us AND it hurts the spirit that compels us.

We can be stronger than that spirit.

We can defeat it.

I molested a guy once when i was seven/eight, i was a shitty perverted kid, don't know how i came to be that way but i remember the stuff i did. I started little by little, touching his leg, butt, squeezing his butt, keeping my hand on his dick when we were alone watching tv and generally whenever i was alone with that guy i played with him, he was really angry at first but the fucker was freeloading at my place and i was the golden child so he couldn't go to my parents. it went on for long and he finally gave in and i was amazed with it for a while, different and big compared to mine, i'd tell him to show his butt and lick it, balls, learned how to give a blowjob, it was fun while it lasted and nah he never fucked me or forced me to do anything, i still talk to the guy like normal, family friend etc, i'm married, no kids and fairly normal sexually now though thinking about those day still turn me on.

Op you're full of shit.

How old was he if you were 7?

20 something, he had a job but i don't know what he did then, now he owns a fishing boat that specializes in catching yellowfin tuna, he has kids, two daughters now, met his wife, he's pretty normal too, he did get a hard on doing stuff with me tho so he was enjoying it too and i expected both of us to be broken and shitty people but we turned out fine, atleast i think i'm fine, who knows

You won't ever return to normal if you don't seek help. That problem is bigger than someone can take on alone. You've got to pick your poison, either man the fuck up and tell someone what you're going through and get professional help.. Or continue to kill animals until you hate yourself so much you jump off a bridge.
Really, the choice is yours.

That faggot sat there in his mid twenties and let a 7 year grab his dick and ass? What a massive gayfag