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Hey Sup Forums, how do you deal with the fact that you're a garbage """""""""musician""""""""" and will never amount to anything in your life?
I lied to myself everyday, telling myself it'll get better eventually, that I just have to try harder, that I'll get it someday, yet here I am on a Japanese image board forum shit talking a random anonymous user just to make myself feel better knowing he'll probably have a better future than me. I honestly don't know what to do anymore. Unironically speaking, music was literally all I've ever head and I can't deal with the fact that I'm too much of a fucking retard to ever be able to contribute a decent piece to show my gratitude, everything I've endured has gone to literal shit.
I've been dabbling in drugs just to try to forget, but lately I feel like picking up a gun is the only way to end the mess.
Anyone else on here feel the same?
Unironically speaking though, I've never felt this suicidal in my life, I feel like absolute shit, I'm on the verge of tears, even though I realize I might be overreacting and am just a fucking pussy. My parents hate me and I have no friends, all my friends laughed at me and are in college getting good grades pursuing their dreams meanwhile I'm in a dirty ass basement sitting in a corner with only drugs to keep me cozy.

Anyway, any music for this feel?
Any good music to kill yourself to?

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you can listen to my music & hopefully you'll feel better, im probably worse than you, so have a laugh

I love you op

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I guess we really are on the same boat, Hip-Hop is my passion (or was) as much of a meme of a genre it is it really is the only genre that I really felt in my soul and the only that I really understood.
Good luck user, you're not even that bad of a rapper, you just need better equipment.

I saw an interview with Josh Homme one time where he was asked to give what he thought was his most important piece of advice regarding being a musician. He said, "If you get into music expecting anything out of it, you're expecting too much." It sounds cheesy, but you just have to do it because it makes you happy. I used to feel like you, but eventually I got to a point where I could suck and enjoy it. It helps if I don't try to write anything too often and just jam aimlessly every now and then.

About the suicide thing: if you're feeling this terrible, it's about more than the music thing. I know "get help" sounds cliche and cheesy, but talking to a good psychologist can really help you sort out your life when it's a fucking mess. You have more to offer the world than just music. You just have to find some other way to give back. I understand feeling stagnant, like everybody else is moving on to bigger and better things while my life goes nowhere. It sucks, but if you can break the inertia and get moving again, I can promise you that things won't be this shitty forever.

Please don't kill yourself. At least one person on this shitty Chinese cartoon porn forum
cares about you.

It's caused he wants to be a rapper.
If you really wanna be a musician and be successful without having to either be a prophetic lyricist or lucky enough to become a corporate pawn figurehead rapper than learn to play an instrument.

You probably only listen to rap too huh?
All the best rappers listen to lots of rock progressive, hard and metal

thanks user I hope you can find solace and make music that makes you happy.

this

if nothing else man you came to a place where most if not all of us are rejects. once again I love you OP and your gonna make it. pic related. me shitposting

make music about this feel

no i actually listen to other genres but as i said hip hop is the only one that i can actually feel in my soul if that makes sense, I've just had a certain connection to it since i was a child

makes a lot of sense actually, and regarding the therapist suggestion, I actually see one but it's not really helpful once you realize they're getting paid to make you feel better, i feel like it's all a facade

i'm a decent lyricist i just don't really have what it takes to make it, i have literally no one, all my beats i make are shitty

i cant

by bettering myself so I'm no longer garbage. Learn about music, practice every day, go to university, practice for 10 years, bingo, no longer gabage.

you can get good at anything if you put in the timed and effort.

cbf reading the rest of your blog

cherish the calm man
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Musicianship doesn't matter to me because it's not a vital part of communicating ideas.

So what kind of music do you make op?

By spending my time on things that will make me more money than any amateur musician on Sup Forums

musicianship is just options. being a better musician does nothing but give you more options, which help you better communicate ideas because you have more tools to do so. you don't have to be yngwie malmsteen to do so (and you probably shouldnt be desu he sucks) but it's nothing but an advantage to be a skilled musician.

100 bucks on you saying you want to get better but not actually putting in any serious effort. Because really, shitposting is just that much easier. Nut up, get a job washing dishes or picking up stuff and devote the rest to music. You should be able to do at least that much.

figure out how to get money.
keep writing music.
you'll be better off than 99% of musicians who pursued it and have complete freedom to do everything from marketing, recording to hiring session musicians etc.

playing music is more of a hobby than a lifestyle to me so idc

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Also, 50 bucks on him being an aspiring Soundcloud producer.

Because I'm an excellent musician despite you not liking me

Getting good at something isn't worth the sacrifices, not joking. If you're naturally talented at something then by all means, capitalize upon it because you'll see good returns on your sacrifice. But if you're a regular person you're basically wasting your time trying to git gud because you'll never be as good as the talented people.

Just do it for fun as much as you enjoy doing it, which usually means a modest level of proficiency.

>music was literally all I've ever head
idk what you meant by that but THAT is your problem. making anything your """everything""" is fucking stupid.

Life is hard man but we should never give up. Im in a similar boat but we should not fell bad for our pass. Find a solution to fix them and go at it. Its only you stopping you. You should be afraid to move forward.

played at scala in london 2 weeks ago OP
was pretty sick.

I just gave up and now I'm trying to make generic pop music because in want money but even that's hard

I was right apparently.