Hi Sup Forums

Hi Sup Forums,

I'm 30, male, white, an engineer, Australian and tomorrow I'm dying like this:
lostallhope.com/suicide-methods/hanging/short-drop/simple-suspension

The SJW's and feminazi's should be delighted that a straight white male is dying as it's an effortless bonus for them.

Suicide has been constant thought for a long time and I've finally hit this extremely calm and quiet phase now where it's decided and I have a "it just needs to be done" mentality to it. Everything's scoped. I'll be filming a final suicide video for those that find me.

My family and friends will be devastated and shocked, but not 100% surprised. More about 80% surprised. I have nieces and nephews 3 years old and it really cuts me up thinking about how my disappearance will be explained to them, but as I see my suicide as inevitable, it's better that I die sooner rather than later as the older they get, the more they'll remember me and the worse the pain will be. At this stage, they could just forget and never be affected by it.

I've been loved by many for a long time but over the last 3 years I've lost everything, in particular, myself. I've kept thinking that I'll re-find myself, but it's never going to happen. The damage has been permanent, the losses irrecoverable and I'm not interested what the future has in store for me. It's going to be a wild century, that's for sure. I hope you guys enjoy the ride.

Not even sure why I'm posting here.

Anyway Sup Forums, it's been grand. You'll win the war against Feminism (there's not actually a way for it to win as it has no concluding objective), you'll likely need to construct a new Internet as this one is being ruined by governments and other forms of institutional power. You've given me countless laughs and life changing insights. Sup Forums is an entity like no other and Im honoured to have been involved with it as much as I have.

Lots of love.

- R

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Why would you kill yourself?

Travel, snort coke and fuck hookers.

Thanks for the suggestions. None of it does it for me unfortunately.

I also have completely lost my inner drive and have for a long time; I can hardly do productive things anymore. My entire life force has been hollowed out.

Don't do it

You write too well to die, R.

PLease consider prozac. It saved my life.

A.

Come to Texas. Come to Austin. Find yourself. Find yourself happy. Your letter has made a grown 57 year old man, me, cry. Circumstances do change. Please R.

hope you find peace R

You are a coward.

Killing yourself is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. You could fix your shit if you wanted to...but you dont want to fix it do you? You just want an easy out because you know that sorting your problems out is going to be really fucking hard, youve lost your drive? Then find a new one, giving up is just so fucking pathetic.

kill yourself...i mean if your going to do it then thats it isnt it? Nothing i can say will change your mind.

go somewhere else... don't kill yourself

cool can i have ur money

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Don't give up faggot. That just means you were another weak nu male.

Honestly, how often do SJW's even effect us. You can either look at something else or power walk to safety. If they defeated you then you are a cuck of cuck.

Please don't kill yourself OP, I wish I could say something to help with the pain but I can't. You have to figure this out yourself but suicide is the worst option.

Thanks Sup Forumsro Safe travels, let me know if there is anything cool on the other side. Here are some tits for your trip.

To the fags saying that he's a coward: shut the fuck up you pathetic pussies. He has the guts to do the very thing we're programmed against. He's going against nature and his own body telling him not to do it.

To OP: If you're not just an attention seeking faggot/misleading us then godspeed you magnificent bastard. Have a wild ride.

I'll give you advice that helps me: hate everyone and everything. Hate your family for dragging you to social events, hate your sisters for being normies and looking down on you, hate the celebrities that appeal to the masses of fangirls like Tom Hiddleston.

Hate everything and everyone, hate them enough to keep living to spite them. Loving is hard to do, but you'll always have something to hate.

Op. Death by hanging isn't at all pleasant. Consider an exit bag, or you know, don't be a selfish fuck and live? Your b/rothers all know that feel. Think about offing myself everyday but your life isn't for you alone. Take the other anons advice and so some coke and hookers.

They say that the best cure for pain is time, though it seems to me that over time what the pain losses in acuteness - it gains in deepness.

I'll be joining you friend. We all will, someday.

Don't do it, OP. As the other user said, you are a solid writer, and you seem able to express your feelings. Find a way out of this funk, which is, dare I say it, only temporary. Try meds, like the other user suggested. I have at times, they've helped me immensely. You'll be surprised by what a chemical imbalance does to your brain. Try talk therapy, at least for a bit. I think you'll be surprised how you might find yourself. That, and writing. Journal your experiences, OP. Don't let this pain go to waste. Use it, grow from it.

im also 30 yo. gonna off myself someday but for now im popping pills, drinking booze and gambling. life kinda ok but i have absolutely no perspective. dont want a wife, kids etc.

if youve truly decided to kill yourself then good luck, do it somewhere where your family wont find you first, and ignore the normies in the thread, just do what you feel is right, even if everyone is against you

Don't be a pussy and commit suicide, be a Sup Forumsro and take some SJWs out in a serial killing spree.
All you suicidal fucks should do this instead of just offing yourselves.

Are you in Adelaide? Lets go get a beer

This dude

OP stream it niggerfag

Ausfag here.

Young, but old enough to realize that things change. Not going to give you the "do some crazy shit" spiel, but do this:

>get some take away dinner, order it in
>watch one of your favourite movies
>quickly consider that the world hates modern feminists just as much as you, and we all know why leftist media gives the feminest agenda airtime; but the best thing is that everyone still hates them anyway
>write down a list of the first 15 words that come to your mind, whatever they may be
>buy a dog
>if you already have a doggo, take him / her for a walk and simply watch them do their thing as a dog, observe how they change from one action to another, and consider what initiates it
>draw, to the best of your recall, a simple sketch of the first house you can remember living in
>take an old mug or glass that you use the least, walk outside and smash it into the ground as hard as possible
>wait one week. If you've gone on this long, you can wait one more week.Trust me on this one.

If you've got nothing to lose, take my advice - you can always go through with it afterwards, anyway. If you felt uncomfortable reading "you've got nothing to lose", then you know deep down it's not true; and you do have something to lose. No matter how you feel, remember this: if you have a heartbeat, you have a purpose. Much love OP, I can tell you're a good person. The world needs a healthy balance of good and bad people, it would be a complete waste to ruin even the possibility of potential positive influences, however small, you could have on the people and outcomes in this world. I sincerely hope, and feel deep down, that you will continue living for as long as your nautral life lets you.

First of all, you're a faggot
>now we can proceed
Imma be one of those..
Don't kill yourselg idiot, I almost did it myself and fucking Sup Forums saved me, cause of underground culture and knowledge.. many to mention but one that helped me a lot was a mix of mgtow and mra + gynocentrism knowledge, studying and finding some 2 or 3 good friends to stick around + never leaving Sup Forums.

Good idea. OP if you're in Brisbane, let's grab a beer mate

Do mdma. Thank me later

you are a fucking enginee and shit.
billions of people cannot even read, yet you fuck can do magic trick comparing to those illiterate faggots

you are just selfish and need the attention

Have you ever done acid?
Do it

>30 years old
>thinks he knows everything
Better luck next time around if you're that stupid for realz.

Call (844) 359-6685. At least try calling it before you do anything. You have no idea what the future holds. Aren't you even a little bit interested in seeing how the Trump presidency turns out? Who Rei's parents are? People you may meet in the future who could change your life. One more perfect shit that comes out in one log and leaves nothing to be wiped by to? Making your niece and nephew smile? Just because you've lost the will to live now doesn't mean you wont have it in the future. You'll be glad you didn't end it

But if you kill yourself, you won't be able to see the cross-over film of Split and Unbreakable. Or, y'know, what ever movie you're into. Or whatever album you're into. Or whatever novel from whatever author. Or the poem that will make everything better. Or whatever celebrity you've been waiting to appear nude. Or whatever painting or sculpture that will finally put everything into perspective. Or that first warm, soft, real spring breeze. Or the first time you see your first child look at you and you know they love you as much as you love them. Or maybe you'll just walk thru Wal Mart and see something that you don't need, that costs too much money, but you buy it anyway because it's fun and stupid. Or maybe it'll be a girl/guy you were checking out, and they'll turn and see you, and to your surprise, you'll see they're just as interested in you. Or maybe you'll bite into a perfectly sweet and crunchy apple.

There are so many things to look forward to, both petty and tremendous... but they're all worth it. Some of them will take a long time, and a lot of heart ache to get to, but do it anyway R.

The shitty parts of life: pain, loneliness, longing, hate, anger, sadness, boredom...
they're what make the good parts good.

Hi R
30, male, single, straight, Australian and tomorrow I'm getting up at 5 to go to uni just because I've committed to getting a second degree.
I also happen to agree with A. and think that you write well. I would advise against anything pharmaceutical but would seriously ask you to ask for Jesus in your life. I'm not kidding, and I don't think you are either, so before you get to a stage where you will not be free to do anything else, I do hope you think of the eternal flames of hell and reconsider your perspective on life.

Nice picture, by the way. Although I doubt she would appreciate being used in this manner, I understand you are not really that fussed right now.

Good night Sup Forumsro, and hopefully by this time tomorrow you'll be back on Sup Forums with your story of some miraculous intervention. If not, then I really do hope your nephews and nieces get told that there's one more angel in heaven...

Do a flip

can i have some money before you go?

OP here. I'm responding for no reasons except politeness.

Regarding going out in a murder/suicide fashion; I do actually fantasise about this. Clementine Forde would be my target.

I'm not going to stream it. It's not about the theatre for me. Just the outcome. I just want to not have to wake up again.

To the calls of coward/selfish/faggot, etc, I understand. I'll take it. How much pain this will cause, in particular, my Mum isn't something I treat lightly. However, ultimately after considering it for a long time, I've slowly but surely overcome it as I know it just needs to be done. I'll explain all of this in the suicide video and hopefully it'll eliminate/minimise any feelings of guilt/hatred, etc. that anyone might be holding on to. I just want to leave. It's almost like I wish there was a war I could go to and throw my life away gallantly at.

I'm not giving you my money, my best friend and family will get everything I have.

To the suggestions of modifying my orientation to having it hate-based; that's happened to me a bit now and all it does is ultimately intensify my own self-loathing as I realise how much further down the path of being a horrible person I've gone. It's the complete opposite of the impact I want to have on the world, so instead I'm just ending it now before it gets any worse.

To the suggestions of exit-bag, etc; I would prefer that but unfortunately they're hard to obtain and there's a hardware store up the road from me where there's great rope for $2.60/m. I just want the outcome now. Preferences for comfort have gone out the window.

Have I captured all the comments?

>over the last 3 years I've lost everything

Mate, you sound depressed, I know it sucks and I know a lot can happen in 3 years, but things can turn around just as easily in that time. Depression can be treated, if you're willing to accept help. I hope you don't do it, you'd hurt a lot of people, more than you probably realize.

see

OMG what a fucking pussy

Don't even question it, see your suicide as a selfish act, a present for your self actually. Yes they will be in pain they will suffer but if you think that you will be better and they will get stronger do it.

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Are you from Victoria?

R, sorry to hear you are suffering. What stands out to me is you say your losses are unrecoverable. That is a word of extremes. Why is what you have lost unrecoverable? Can you reinvent yourself rather than trying to recover the past?

Safe travels to where you're going, sorry life wasn't kind enough to you Sup Forumsro so you had to do this. I hope you truly have a reason for this and your family aren't the ones to find you. Sup Forums loves you and we'll miss you, you and I have probably argued at some point but I love you R, Sup Forums brings me joy and when one of us commit suicide it's sad and we'll never hurt but I never forget these threads and I hope no one actually goes through with this shit, but be safe Sup Forumsro hope it's painless.

A.

OP, join the kurds in fighting isis. You get to die in battle, and youll be remembered as a hero. That will minimise your familys pain as they will view it as a heroic death rather than a suicide, plus youll be doing something good for the world before you go.

At least consider it.

OP do this, eat with Ragnar in the great halls of Valhalla, go my Aryan brother, to victory after death

checked and read and all good posts

Mine
And ignore You know you didn't write that and I know I did.
By the way, which uni did you go to?

I agree, you write to well to want to die, R.
I myself have started considering suicide, it's been a year and a half since i've felt like i've lost everything. Yesterday I was suicidal, today i'm better. But what I want to say is, although sometimes I think of suicide, I don't think you should do it. I understand all the hopelessness and how you feel, or at least I think I do. I know we each experience it differently, some much more than others and some much less.
But, think about it this way. You're on the ride man, life is a ride. Just keep being in the roller coaster as it takes its course. You never know, you never know what could enter your life. Something that if you had died and could later see from above let's say as a ghost, you'd tell yourself. "Fuck man, if only I had stayed a couple more years."
I love you, R. And my love doesn't come from me knowing you but it comes from me believing that I share the same experience you've been going through and are still going through.
Don't die man, don't die on us.
You seem like a great writer and that's only one thing I could see of you from what you've wrote.
Just try, R.
Just try to keep breathing.

Stop smoking weed motherfucker

oh come on man
you wouldnt have posted on here if you didnt want us to convince you not to do it

more likely you were never going to do it and this is just bait
but if its real youd better read every fucking post on here and reconsider your bullshit

Valhalla awaits only those who have been slain in battle. OP shall not join the Feast of Feasts

30, male, ausfag.

Life is shithouse but I'm not going. To end it. I might have a breakdown, I might just ghost my friends, family, and job and try to start new somewhere else. I might default on the homeloan. My girlfriend will probably kill herself, but odds are she'll do that no matter what I do.

I've considered becoming an hero but I don't think it works for me. I'll just write everything off and start again. It's going to be top. two worst experiences of my life but it'll still be part of my life.

@op - doing something like that wont ruin your life only - no. Think about every person who loves you - even though they're actually do not show their love atm. As soon AS you suicide you will kill everybody who is kinda connected to you from deep inside.
You can fix your life. Dont give it up yet - you dont deserve to finish your life that early. Neither your Family and friends desrve the resulting pain.
All you need are people who stay with you. Who stand behind you with every decision you do - except suicide. You have to stay string - 365 a year. Not for yourself only, for everybody who is connected to you and who probably might suffer if u suicide.
Suiciding would be extremly egoistic - dont give a fck in ppl who love you.
You can fix your life. You probably wont be able to fix it on your own but u will be able to fix it with help.
Hereby i would like to offer you my help.
You totally sound like a good guy. Dont Give up yet. I want to help you.

wut?

what a fuck-nut. I'm loving it

The world will be a better place without your pussy ass. If there's a hell, I hope you see it faggot.

Behold the Trips of Truth!

Go ahead and jump

Go blow up some ISIS fucksticks if you want to die a glorious death. The Kurds will hook you up with a rifle and everything.

If you haven't already, visit Disneyland first.

Sorry. Haven't posted in years so I forgot how things were displayed these days. Rookie mistake. Thanks for pointing it out.
And thanks also for helping OP sort out his priorities.

checkd

Don't kill yourself, help us making new internet.l!

If you haven't smoked a big fucking bowl of DMT before you go out, I suggest you get your hands on it. Fuck this cocaine shit. Take a real ride before you get it over with, if you even want to afterwards.

Getthelube.com

Godspeed you glorious faggot

Hey bro

Fellow Aussie here.

Just posting to let you know life gets worse :)


Im coming up on 30, I had a promising childhood and teenage life. Could have done anything.

Now my life is fucked..

Lost the only real love I'll ever have.
Alienated all of my old friends.
Can't find a job outside of pretty hardcore labour hire work, I'll never progress or find a better job.
Mainly because I have my criminal history plastered all over fucking google by the news.
Oh yeah semi-extensive criminal history.
Two degrees in Music, as useful as it sounds..
Alcoholic
Pot-head

Constantly back in with parent because no matter how hard I try shit pulls me back down.
Constantly sick from anxiety and some other stomach issues.
Oh yeah, recently found out I got herpes.

My teeth and body is now entirely fucked because I can't afford the most basic elective care for myself.
I wish I was you OP.

Your life is good.

Exercise, eat good food.
Force yourself to socialise.
Created a varied and stimulating environement.
Get passionate about your job of you have nothing else.
It's a rewarding field. You just need to occupy yourself again.
You are a husk. You've let yourself go.
Fix it OP.

18 year old Aussie here just to give my thoughts on the matter as someone who has grown up in the generation where every cunt and their dog has depression (yes I probably have depression too but I choose to ignore it) my best advice is shit advice but it's to change yourself. If you are a nice guy, start acting like a cunt to people whenever possible without going and like decking people in the supermarket. If you are a genuine cunt start...donating to charities or...being nice to ugly girls. I'm not really sure what nice people do anymore. But as someone who has had 3 family members (mum, aunt and sort of step brother type deal but we were close as kids) die before being able to have their first drink I can still say that the world isn't as bad as most people think just as long as you can tell it to fuck off before it does the same to you. I say all this because only a year ago I was fantasising about massacring the half of my family that claims I'm not their own (my dad ran off before I was born and claimed I wasn't his despite the fact that we apparently look very similar) and then ending myself in insane ways whereas now it's only maybe once I week I feel like if someone ran on me with a gun I wouldn't be scared for my life. TL;DR tell the world to eat a dick while you go make yourself a sandwich.

user, if you are real, then this is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. I once considered suicide, because my life fell apart. Years later, I landed a dream job, was married, and I happily became a father to 3 beautiful children. In short, I built a life that gave me personal meaning. You can do the same, but you have to be patient, and pull yourself out of bed each day for a while.

Also, if you aren't real, then GR8 B8 M8!

You sound too normal to be someone hanging around Sup Forums this time of the night. Great prose by the way.

u dont believe things posted here do u?

lmao..

Here is a truth for you.. Don't care if you live or die.. Cos billions more seek a chance to crawl out of poverty.. One less noob to struggle against..

and

you do realize that every single eye (pairs of eyes) reading this are the product of 100% WINNERS don't you? For you to be here.. You are the last in a long line of WINNERS leading all the way back to an original ancestor?

*meh..

OP you really changed my life this moment. I see how life is the most important thing. OP please dont do it! The world need humans like you

OP here.

I'm starting to think that posting here was a really bad idea.

I'm from WA/Perth.

I really appreciate all the kind words, sentiments (even the absurd "go fuck/kill yourself" ones) and even the offers of help (wasn't expecting that).

And yeah, this is real. I've been in tears reading some of the responses and they're causing me inner conflict.

I wish I could grab a beer with the various people in this thread who have offered.

You've got to keep going, in spite of all the assholes that shoot you down every chance they get. just to see them get mad and you'll have the chance to laugh in their face and see them get even madder. To hold on to tiny dot of hope, one goal, to get past the point you are at now and help someone else go even further than you.

If you've done well enough at your job, and it sounds like you have, Get out of your comfort zone. buy a plane ticket to somewhere you've always wanted to see. Go to a donkey show in Tijuana, a ping pong show in Thailand, a group orgy with 3 cheap hookers in Poland. Hell it doesn't have to be some sex thing (I don't see the point of that though). Maybe stay up all night and see the sunrise in Manhattan, spend a year living abroad in NYC, learn French in Paris, be miserable with the whinging poms in London. Drink wine, eat olives, and smoke cigarettes in a restaurant storeroom with the cooks in Sicily.

If you don't want to travel do something local go to a DnD night with someone you haven't talked to since high school. Take an art class and have the teacher 20 years your senior flirt with you all session because you look just like her Ex-Husband. It doesn't matter what it is just do something you don't feel like doing, and you'll be an infinitesimally bit happier. But happier then you were before that risk.

There's a lot of this world to see and a lot of things to do, if you get out of your comfort zone you might find someone who can give you a leg-up. who'll show you that there is a light at the end of the tunnel. After you've tried all of these things and still feel the same way then I'll give you all of my Valium. Chase it with a bottle of liquor of your choice and you'll pass-out and stop breathing. simple. painless

-V

P.S some of these things I have done, some of these things I want to do, But all of these ideas have happened after I left the mental hospital for a Psychotic/Schizophrenic breakdown

Yeah, preferably with a mate, but regardless, just do MDMA

I never expected an overwhelming majority of Sup Forums to be this nice.

these threads really give perspective given i've never had anything bad happen and i still feel suicidal

Lol

This thread might as well be feels/bait thread for how many anons can relate to this exact feeling


ITT anons are OP

fucking normies, trying to help and shit

Mate, then go do it?
If you are gonna off yourself then you have nothing to loose and if you have nothing to loose you might aswell take that trip to Nepal or Mexico or wherever the fuck you wanna go.
You should see this as an opportunity to completely revamp your life/perspective and do stuff you've always wanted to - unless ofcourse it is multilating your family or some other sick shit.
CHIN UP, MATE!

Don’t do it.

Aus bro here, you are rich enough to get out of Australia right? Sometimes all you need is to get that memory ticking on why you DO enjoy life. But OP, if this thread does make you decide against offing yourself, I would really recommend getting yourself a dog to look after.

My doggo is the only reason I'm alive and happy today because I couldn't leave him by himself

Doubt means that deep down you dont want to die.
Regardless, join the kurds. You might get a kick out of war, who knows. You have nothing to lose, you might as well.

Oh and OP there is a love-based path that works for people like us, you just need to find someone to show it to you. Travel and find a friend

That's ok friend.

From a dude with heaps of fucked up stories and plagued with the same thoughts.

Tell someone. Get help. They can't do anything harmful to you unless you're dangerous.
Get help.

Antidepressants and therapy may be what help you.
But look at a holistic pattern of treatment to prevent relapsing to this state.


These thoughts are only thoughts. They're only in your head. This is a cognitive pattern/habit you've created.

You can beat this if you want to.

Stop feeding the depression, it's a bottemless pit.
Your only weapon is your inner positive expression and hope in the goals you set yourself.

Probs going to an hero myself now though

This could be you

Melbourne? SOmewhere around Clayton South... or am I completely off?

Man you're a special kind of stupid.

"Too normal" is the best compliment I've gotten in damn near a year which tells me I need to talk to more people. The only reason I'm on Sup Forums right now is because my dickhead friend decided to wake me up bragging about all the nudes of random sluts he has and the storms coupled with every dog on the street barking like they're in a war film doesn't really equate to a nice calming quietness. But also I come to Sup Forums whenever I'm bored and or can't sleep.

DO IT FAGGOT!

If you leave this body unfulfilled, your spirit will carry on to the next body just as hollow. You might be a 30 y/o depressed turtle next time. OR WORSE: a 30 y/o scornful, manipulative lesbian woman!

The first one is free but then it starts costing.

Don't do it man, you're more valuable than you know right now.

europe

In hindsight, you can mutilate your family as long as you upload

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Pro tip, OP. Go for nice long jog. Do it as often as you are able for a week or two. You will feel different. Sore, but better. Trust me, there's something about a good hard run that fixes depression. If you aren't getting regular exercise outside, then go do it now! You'll feel great!

op said he was a perthfag