need your help /b
I feel like life's breaking apart
here's the reasons why
1) I feel like I'm a total misfit. While most of my friends are always talking about fucking, partying, football etc., I feel disconnected from this stuff. I've never really been one for parties (and since I wasn't very popular in school, I was never invited to a house party). I'm a 25 year old virgin, yet I don't feel like I'm missing out on sex, I still wish for a gf though, but not one that's only interested in sex, but in just being together (if you get what I mean)
2) I feel like my friends and I aren't really compatible. While they have the interests mentioned above, I'm interested in long discussions (e.g. about politics(, music, movies, culture, history etc. I have one friend from further away who shares my interest and last time we met, we talked and discussed for 9 hours and it felt like one of the best times I've had in the last few years. If I met a girl who was like him, I'd marry her
3) I lack a drive to do anything. I'm currently working on my master's degree as well as working besides college. The only drive to go to work is that they pay me very good money and for the first time in years (We are quite poor) I can afford most of the shit I want thanks tio it
College isn't going so well since I lack the spirit atm and every time I fuck something up (failing a class, not being able to do an exercise), it gets worse and it feels like I failed in life. Right now, I can't even solve some simple thermodynamics exercises (since I switched college, I got thermodynamics as an requirement for the masters) and every time I try, I get easily distracted and/or can't even find a proper way to start
4) It's the weekend and I don't feel like going out or seeing someone, even though I know that way I'll never find a gf
5) Whenever I fail really hard (fuck something up, fail a class), I get thoughts about just quitting, if you get what I mean
WTF is wrong? Am I just an asshole?
>inb4 fag