Ask a former "shota" anything

ask a former "shota" anything.

i will answer any serious questions about such things.

no porn bullshit. just the truth.

picture semi kind of related.

holy fuck you used to be a little boy?
i used to be a little boy too!
how old did you used to be?
i used to be 9 but then i got older

Would you say it was a good experiance or bad?

good question. and i dont know.

what would you call a relationship where you're not gay but keep going back for sexual release because you like the blowjobs and the gifts and money?

i dont know if thats good or bad. so, it was good, but it was bad too.

What was the âge difference?

is "shota" some kind of new gay slang for being an older man's fuck buddy? because to me shota means this

15 years.

>is "shota" some kind of new gay slang for being an older man's fuck buddy?

i used the word because i see it posted here all the time. but i dont know. maybe it just means the cartoons.

did you ever expect to not be underage?
how did you handle that sudden transition from shota to adult?
how many doujins did you star in?
are you still 2D?

do you think pineapple should be used as a pizza topping?

sorry, i now realize i used to word in the wrong context. my bad young user.

i apologize. you may now ignore the thread if you'd like. thats what i would do.

yes. i love pineapple as a pizza topping. i think it should. but not with every other topping. some toppings dont mesh well with pineapple. pepperoni for example.

so what were you exactly?
are you indicating you were molested as a child or what?
I NEED CLARITY
I NEED CLOSURE

what did you expect m8? i mean, what exactly is unusual about once being a little boy?

i grew up in a single mother home all my life. so my mother wasnt always around. she used to take me to church and i met a guy there who was our church group leader . we used to be taken out on trips and such. eventually my mother started letting me sleep over at his house and sex happened. but that took a long time.

well, i think you are just being facetious. but i already explained myself. sorry for my wrong use of the word... mate.

how did that turn out for you

i have mixed feelings about the topic of pedophilia.

nah m8, if youve got actual stories to tell, id like to hear em

how so?
how do you feel about it?

well, every time you read "stories" here related to this topic they always read like "Letters to Penthouse" fiction. and that becomes increasingly transparent over time.

I'd rather talk about the subject seriously. You could get smutty porn anywhere on the internet. But talking to someone who actually lived something like this... probably not.

like i said, I have mixed feelings.

>how so?

well, for starters, the word "abuse". it has a very blunt and negative connotation. but I think in some cases (like mine), the situation shouldnt be called abuse, but something else.

if you called it "manipulation", then it would be closer to what people are trying to describe. but then you'd have to call normal dating "manipulation" too. because the process is actually very very similar.

WHAT ARE YOUR MIXED FEELINGS?

WHY ARE THEY MIXED?

so you don't really feel you were abused
but you were manipulated into doing something, which was not necessarily harmful to you

but how do you feel about being manipulated?

>how do you feel about it?

dont really feel anything. . i have moved on with my life for the very very vast part. so now its just a long distant memory.

so tell us them then, because right now youve said nothing besides "i got molested" and "i have mixed feelings on pedophillia".

tell us your story, in all its detail, or tell us about specific events and how you feel about them, either way post something of substance.

>but how do you feel about being manipulated?

i said the word was closer to what I was trying to describe, but not exactly it. there is some maneuvering there though, with an implied goal at all times, and as an adult now I see it.

but then I look at my relationships with girls and women over the years, and realize the mechanisms are exactly the same. we see something we like and proceed in a calculated manner to achieve a desired result.

this is why i have mixed feelings. because i was "courted" in a way, and the attention and gifts were the defining factor in me "giving in". then the pleasure of sexual contact at that age made it appealing. given that at that age, sex is all an adolescent can think of.

>then the pleasure of sexual contact at that age made it appealing. given that at that age, sex is all an adolescent can think of.
this right here, can you elaborate on that?

>either way post something of substance.

i think i am posting substance. maybe not graphic sexual substance, but substance nonetheless.

if you want to know about any one particular sexual act, you can just ask.

Mmmmm im stroking my dick thinking about how nice it would be to have you straddling me. Your sexy ass grinding on me rubbing my dick through the boxers making sure I can feel everything you are doing to me. Topless and in just a pair of panties you continue grinding making my cock good and hard then you pull my cock out stroking me your seductive eyes watching the ways I react when you play witg and tease my cock. Your tongue licking your lips as you lean forward pressing my cock against you smooth tummy kissing my lips before you slide down my chest till my pulsing dick is between your tits. Mmm you squeeze those tits together with a finger and thumb on your nipples then you lower some more watching the tip peak out for your tongue to twirl around. God it feels so good baby. After a good bit of titty fucking you lower even more taking even more of me in your mouth. Your tongue massages the base before I grab your hair and push you onto my cock till you start to gag. Then pull you back up letting you get a breath. Mmm the lust in your eyes grow more savage as I continue to throat fuck you. Pushing a bit more in each stroke. Then finally I pull you up getting you to straddle me again this time guiding my cock to your pussy. Mmm we both let out a moan as you grind with my dick deep inside then up and down as you lean back your hands braced on my legs as you slide that tight wet pussy up and down god it looks so sexy watching my dick stretch your pussy as you take more and more. My thumb rolls your clit back making quick little circe that send your pussy to an intense orgasmic spasm. Mmm you begging moving up and down faster throwing yourself down taking all of me. Mmm my dick is throbbing for you now baby. :]

yeah. that's kind of how it is.
when i see a cute girl i dont want to use force on her or anything. i want to lavish her with gifts and make her like me. it isn't something one consciously thinks about it when you're doing it. it's just instinctual. people throw the world "grooming" around but when you say "courting", that's a very accurate word to describe what's actually happening. but a person doesn't necessarily realize they're courting someone when they're doing it either. although maybe your church guy knew exactly what he was doing while he was doing it.

well, this was a good start, along with this id like to hear what happened to you, and your thoughts on it, things like this

>this right here, can you elaborate on that?

i got hooked on blowjobs. blowjobs were way better than just masturbating on my own, so I would seek him out (call his house) every time I felt the urge to have sexual release. of course, at that age you dont know whats going on with your hormones or why you want to have sex all the time. all you have is the desire to have sexual contact with pretty much anything or anyone. in this case, a 27 year old male.

>although maybe your church guy knew exactly what he was doing while he was doing it.

no, he knew. I am older than him now and he had to have known. but the point about "courtship" mechanisms remain. its the same process. it really is.

correct. it's the same.

so do you have a predilection towards underage boys now? or any strange kinks that you think can be attributed to your experiences?

smut.

and how do you feel about that? what do you think about that? could you describe the details of what he would do to you, and how it felt?

>so do you have a predilection towards underage boys now?

i dont. i am married. but i hold no grudge or resentment towards my experiences or people who have that "condition" or preference or whatever people subjectively want to call it. it would have been better to experiment with a hot 27 year old playboy model, but thats not how life turns out for most of us.

> any strange kinks that you think can be attributed to your experiences?

when a girl is sucking my dick, I know exactly what the process is like for her. so there is some "residual" memory there. how to do it, etc.

well thanks for not being a judgemental dickhead, although i don't have a lot of sympathy for people who pursue sex with children.

wait how old were you anyway when this started?

Jonathon Brandis. Another tragic Accutane death.

>could you describe the details of what he would do to you, and how it felt?

one of the very first times anything more "serious" happened, we were giving each oral but he always went first. meaning, that I do it first and then he'd do it to me after (this is in the very beginning).

so i would do it to him first and he would cum, and then i he would do it to me, and then i would cum. but this one time I asked him to do it first because i was very horny and after I came and it was my turn to give him a blowjob, it didnt really appeal to me the same ( at all), because I wasnt horny anymore. and because I had already cummed.

so after that, every time anything happened, i would always make sure i came last.

11 when I started going to church. well, not go, I was taken to church. 12 when things happened. 14 when it stopped.

were there any particular ways he enjoyed teasing you or playing with you?
what did your first blowjob feel like?
the first time he sucked your dick, could you cum yet, or was it a dry orgasm?

well im personally out of questions
im glad it seemed like an okay experience for you and not something you loathe yourself for
im gonna pray again to kami sama to send me a dragon loli to play with tonight and will keep lurking.

>were there any particular ways he enjoyed teasing you or playing with you?

no. if you mean sexually, no. that didnt happen. if you mean friendly teasing, yes. that happened sometimes.

>what did your first blowjob feel like?

i came almost right away but no cum came out. that would happen after. almost like an accident.

>the first time he sucked your dick, could you cum yet, or was it a dry orgasm?

see above.

no problem man. thank you. have a good day.

I only glanced through the thread. Did you enjoy it?

>Did you enjoy it?

sexual release was always good. being anally penetrated: I got used to it. but I wouldnt say I "enjoyed it".

there was a point at which i felt no pain.

he never had ways he liked to play with your privates to make you squirm or to elicit some kind of response from you? like maybe suddenly switching to a more gentle blowjob technique to get you to beg for more, or maybe teasing your glans until the stimulation became unbearable, or anything?
do you remember what it felt like to actually recieve a blowjob at that age though?
how physically developed were you at the time?

>he never had ways he liked to play with your privates to make you squirm or to elicit some kind of response from you?

anything like that i could even remotely remember was maybe licking my anus, and I only remember that merely because of how ticklish it was for me. you know, at that age you dont really pay attention to sexual techniques or ways of achieving pleasure. it all just a blowjob to you.


>do you remember what it felt like to actually recieve a blowjob at that age though?

i do. first time you ever feel you dick sucked the wetness of the other people's mouth is what sticks to you. or at least to me. also, his facial hair. it would poke my genital area and make it painful sometimes.

>how physically developed were you at the time?

well, i was really skinny. "bony" you could say in a way. and I didnt get pubes until i was almost 13. didnt really cum until then too.

you werent too keen on the rimming?

did he have any favorite ways of making you orgasm in particular?

how developed were you down there at the time, besides pubes?

>you werent too keen on the rimming?

no. it doesnt work that way when you're that young. that stuff is more funny than anything else.

>did he have any favorite ways of making you orgasm in particular?

not that i know. i liked getting blowjobs though. so thats how i almost always came.

>how developed were you down there at the time, besides pubes?

small penis. non-circumsized. and it was definitely not as big as it is now, so it was even smaller then. I am not a big man.

youve no idea precisely how big you were at the time?

did he ever decide to carry on sucking on your cock after you came?

>youve no idea precisely how big you were at the time?

small. like 2 or 3 inches. i never measured my penis until i was in my teens, and that was out of curiosity.

>did he ever decide to carry on sucking on your cock after you came?

oh yeah, that would happen. but i push him to get away and he'd stop. it doesnt feel good you know.

i imagine you must have been adorably cute to see naked

did he ever try exclusively or primarily rubbing your tip?

>at that age
what age was that?

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>did he ever try exclusively or primarily rubbing your tip?

no, just blowjobs and trying to lick my anus. suck the head at most. but not exclusively.

12

did you ever experiment with any other sexual acts?

were you shy about your development at the time?

if you were back in that situation, with your current understanding, would you do it again, and how would you feel about it?

Does your mom know?

Ya ya

>did you ever experiment with any other sexual acts?

it was very much a gay relationship. so any gay sex you can think of happened. but i would always make sure i came after him so that i would still be horny as it happened.

>were you shy about your development at the time?

no. the church group used to take us to a local pool all the time. it was not uncommon to strip down to your shorts sometimes. i was not shy on that regard.

>if you were back in that situation, with your current understanding, would you do it again, and how would you feel about it?

if I could go back in time knowing everything i know now, I would tell my mother to get her shit together and stop being a dumb broad. i would also use this adult knowledge to get girls and not settle for dick because dick was the only thing available to me.

hindsight is everything in life.

no, she doesnt know.

assuming you were open to guys though, would you?

were there footjobs, frotting, or anything else you enjoyed besides blowjobs?

>it was very much a gay relationship. so any gay sex you can think of happened
So you fucked him in the ass? How was that? Did you stroke his cock during, or did he do that himself?

my mind immediately wondered if that meant they tried docking

>assuming you were open to guys though, would you?

i think of my experience as merely coincidental. meaning, it happened only because a bunch of circumstances perfectly aligned for me to sexually experience with a man, instead of say, someone my age, or a girl.

i dont consider myself gay, even though every single first experience i ever had was with a male. i am not open to guys now. knewing what I know now, I wouldnt be open to guys if I traveled back in time. I could get girls with this knowledge.

>were there footjobs, frotting, or anything else you enjoyed besides blowjobs?


pretty straightforward sex. blowjobs. handjobs. anal penetration. no foot or kink stuff.

>So you fucked him in the ass?
I would try but my dick was too small. he did most of that.

>How was that?
i could get some of my dick in, but when Id thrust to push it in it would come out. so I'd give up and just switch with him.

>Did you stroke his cock during, or did he do that himself?

i would be asked to that on occasion while doing something else. even in his car sometimes.

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how do you feel about the idea of adults giving little boys blowjobs in general?

it doesnt bother me as long as they're not being held down and being pointed a gun at or threatened with violence to do it.

I dont condone it. but I dont really care either.

Do you realize the anons asking you such detailed questions are just getting off to them?

op gave us the green light to suck some cock

Child abuse is one of my biggest fantasies. Nothing was more sexually satisfying then feeling my tough father decimate my tight, 9 year old pussy. The only thing that can satisfy me now is re-enacting that "abuse" with my current daddy. So yea, all of you judgemental shitheads can fuck off.

>Do you realize the anons asking you such detailed questions are just getting off to them?

that might be an inevitability given the topic. i dont worry about it.

>op gave us the green light to suck some cock

what you do with your time is none of my business. proceed as you see fit.

bump

if you saw someone getting a boy off, would you turn a blind eye to it?

how do you feel about female pedophiles?

>if you saw someone getting a boy off, would you turn a blind eye to it?

depends on the circumstances.

>how do you feel about female pedophiles?

i didnt know there was any. what about them? same thing I guess, except they are females. if you rape someone you should get punished.

don't believe in his lies
female pedophiles simply don't exist

Not true at all. They definitely exist, there just aren't nearly as many of them as male ones.

if hes clearly enjoying the attention down there?

eh, its a thing some people have strange views on i guess. i personally cant fathom a good reason to be for one but not the other, but there you go.

they don't exist. please stop teasing my emotions, user.
i mean, lets face it, the only way i could ever be willing to stick my dick in a woman is if she and i agreed on certain fundamental things, such as the supremacy of little girl pussy.

>if hes clearly enjoying the attention down there?

in such a case id probably look away. i have a big tendency to mind my own business provided no one is suffering considerable pain.

>eh, its a thing some people have strange views on i guess. i personally cant fathom a good reason to be for one but not the other, but there you go.

the mind is a strange place. i have learned that through my years on this planet.

if you had a kid, and said kid was being molested like that, would you feel differently?

Yes they do, they just aren't all into little girls. Haven't you ever heard of female teachers molesting their students?

that never happens in elementary user. those teachers are no pedophiles. they just like teenage cock.

it would bother me if it was a girl. boy probably not.

i realize this is a double standard, but just how i feel.

what are your limits on toleration on that kind of thing?

if your daughter seemed to be really happy with the guy would it change your feelings?

Do you hate him? Have you forgiven him? Mine was my brother and two other boys. I have forgiven the others, but my brother, he still knew what he did

rape. torture. intimidation. violence. threats. thats all shit and should be punished accordingly.

probably not. i feel like women are not as sexually aggressive as boys and as such more prone to actually being abused. but that just may be some sort of moral preference on my part. i could be entirely wrong about this of course, so I only say that based on my own behavior at that age.

i'll treat her right i promise

what if your boy was perhaps more submissive in the relationship?

nothing to forgive. i used to have an old penhouse magazine hidden in my room that I used to masturbate with when i my mother wasnt home. and after things started happening i would call him instead of simply masturbating. i admit "my part" in it, and therefore, my mixed feelings on the subject.

i dont have a daughter. sorry.

id have no way of knowing that short of asking. which would be awkward and i'd probably be lied to anyway. I used to lie. so I know.

Ahh so by shota you mena an underage boy who willingly engaged in sexual activity with an older man

its not too late to start a family user
call me up when it happens tho

i only used the word "shota" because I often see it posted here. So I assumed the word meant exactly what you described, but some people have pointed it out that Im wrong.

say you got a peek through the door when nobody thinks youre there, and his hands are being held away from his privates, while the adult teases and strokes them, but the boy is visibly into it.

Did you ever cum while taking it up the bum?

i need more context than that. im a male and older now, Im not easily swayed by feelings. i like to think. 2 seconds of "whats going on" dont tell you anything.


no. some men claim to be able to do this. i never did.

say the boy displays affection post orgasm?