Could, should,would
I kill my colleague
tomorrow, when he arrives
to work
not knowing
what is about to happen...
Not sure if greentext...
I'll go with no..
I work somewhere..
I have a "colleague" now and then
He is a hard, long gone, alcoholic..
Pretty much forced, by supervisor, to part with him.
He's been a part of our business for 2 years.
When he came in, I, myself, started feeling worse and worse, starting to drink more and more, and just being on a rollercoaster downwards, basically because of his presence..
His washed up, booze-oozing being has just fucked me up..
But muh baws keeps asking me to have patience, when I tell them I can't stand him..
He has been at our other enterprise for the past 8-9 months, where he recently fucked up hard, being totally wasted... And he was sent back to my place just last week..
Already about a year ago I got to work with my mind set to just strike him out with a hammer.
But, of course he didn't show up that day because he was feeling ill (and being shitfaced or hungover), just like 2 out of 5 work days a week..
(Instead I found an axe in our outside garden locker that I attacked a huge oak tree with.. I had him as the answer when my supervisor asked me why the fuck I stood there swinging the axe)
Tomorrow I see that I have a new gap at work where I could end "our" misery.. He will never get sober, and I will never enjoy my job if he doesn't go away.. I know that I will probably spend the rest of my life behind bars if I do this.. But I won't have another fucking smile on my face again, as long as he is tormenting me..
He is a Good Bye.
I almost get bumps, thinking about that I tomorrow could be a murderer.. It also gives me some sort of comfort..
To add to it:
I've been drilling myself, for the past two weeks, to kill a random one just to get away from it all... This easy window has opened up now.. Grace upon..
Hard thinking here on my side..