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Hi Sup Forums
What are you doing tonight?
Why are you here?
What's your story?
Feel free to tell me anything, I just wanna talk.

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Father died recently, gonna go to his funeral in a couple of days

Man, that's hard. Were you close?

Fuck all
it's what I do
not worth telling
why do you subconsciously want to eat a bag of your moms vagina?

It's what I do.
Are you a NEET?

It's 00:41 here

It's 01:42 here, so what?
Tell me why you're so mad.

because it's mating season and I don't have anybody to rape

Today I was observing a psychologist deal with a patient with depression. She was the only survivor of a high speed crash, 3 more people in her car, a couple with one kid in the other. She was a nurse so she was very graphic when she described what she saw. She said her friend was right next to her, it was really disturbing how she described the scene. Her friends brains on the seat, her jaw on the cars floor. She said she wanted to help her friend but she just couldn't bring herself to look, she looked the other way but that didn't stop her from hearing her friend groan. It fucked me up, had to get it off my chest.

It has been a difficult mating season for bird person as well.

Cool (as in cool that you answered, not cool that your friend's friends died ofc). Look up "survivor guilt" if you don't already know about it.
It's really horrible that people get depressed because they got off easy from a dangerous event. Sometimes I feel like empathy can make you have an unhappy life, which sometimes makes me wish I were a psychopath, you know?

life is difficult

>sometimes makes me wish I were a psychopath
It just takes practice and perseverance. I believe in you, you'll get there someday buddy.

Thanks man. Genuinely.

I get exactly what you said about psychopathy, it's so tempting to stop caring. Yeah, it's really unfortunate that people feel that way in those situations. She's a very clear case of survivor guilt, she was not driving but she felt like she was responsible, she couldn't explain why. Are you familiar with psychology/psychiatry? Your pic suggests you are

psychopathy can be both a blessing and a curse. lots of people think that it means you just don't care but its more like an on/off switch rather than always stuck at off if that makes sense?

Eh, I wouldn't say I'm familiar with psychology. Freud is pretty much common knowledge.
I've been in therapy a bit, but I don't know anything about being a therapist.

I understand what you say but if it can be switched on or off it's not really psychopathy, it means you know how to detach yourself emotionally. That's an important skill, definitely.

That's how I've heard it being described.
It lets you turn off your empathy for personal gain.
I'm sure it's more complicated than that, but that's what I know.

Gonna look for cool drugs that can be shipped to me via online vendors.

yeah you're probably right there.

Don't trip alone.
Learn about set and setting.
Don't repeat my mistakes, Sup Forumsro.

I'm here to post my feet in this thread

Yeah, Freud is too famous. First and most important thing about therapy is that it is better is it has nothing to do with Freud, lol. Why did you go to therapy? Do you think it worked?

It is pretty complicated and I even have trouble understanding alot of it but I do it quite regularly, I have empathy for people when I need to and sometimes I find myself asking, "shouldn't I feel bad for this person?" I like hurting people, I try to be a good person despite it, beating the shit out of bullies, I justified hurting them because they were bullies and who tf doesnt hate bullies? but the reality of it is I loved doing it, it's a rush and it feels incredible, I enjoy fucking with people who really deserve it, I could ruin so many lives so easily, i haven't had to because i haven't had cause to but its easy really.

sexy af

Yeah, Freud might have invented it, but he didn't do it right.

I was depressed, so I went to a doctor, who told me to stop drinking, and referred me to a therapist.
It didn't really help much in the end, because I skipped appointments, and wasn't ready to quit drinking. Now I'm down from drinking 4-7 days a week to 0-1, but it's mostly because of circumstances, and not because I'm better. I'm still an alcoholic by heart, but at least I'm progressing in college now.

Alcohol is a much bigger deal than what most people think, nice to know you are doing better, whatever the causes. You keep up the good work, every day it passes the next one is going to get easier. And good luck through college!

Ever had a moment where you're just broken, totally fucked with no idea what to do? today I realized the love of my life had been lying to me for months.

Thanks, bro.
What happened is this:
>never was a drinker but I enjoyed drinking
>drank maybe once a month, maximum in high school
>am "smart", so never learned how to study
>got accepted to a good college because I absorb knowledge like a sponge
>got in with the drinking crowd
>was too lazy to go to most of the lectures (colleges generally don't require attendance in my country)
>also didn't go to lectures because I was hungover quite often
>got into a student group that had a pub every other week, but mostly drank a lot
>hardly studied that year
>had to get a job at burger king because I didn't complete enough shit to continue getting government student loans
>tried to study while working, but just didn't bother, because work, sleep, drinking, and being hungover took up almost all my week
>got kicked out of student housing because I hadn't completed anything for 3/4 of a year
>end up moving back in with my parents, because I don't want ot be homeless
>parents live far away from the city
>can't go out and drink at night, because I can't get home at night
>never got a drivers license before I move out because I couldn't be bothered (also, you need to be 18 to get a license here)
>have to ride with my mom to college every day (thankfully she works close-by)
>forced to study because I can't travel to college after 8 am, and can't leave before 5 pm
>start meds for ADHD again
>start enjoying learning again
>start getting good grades

If my life was a rage comic it would end with "Everything went better than expected", and I actually got my first A today, so I'm pretty hopeful for the future.
Currently celebrating that A with a bottle of Famous Grouse Smoky Black, and some crushed up methylphenidate pills.

Glad things are working out for you user :)

Well, it looks like you were going on a bad direction but you are back on track, that's an amazing success in my book. I wouldn't get too excited about that bottle and pills, I hope you are sure you have that under control

Thanks a lot.

Thank you too. Pretty sure I've got my shit under control (it's not like you can discern, but whatever). I know I can't be fucked up all day, because I live with my parents, and I won't let them know that I am or have ever been addict.

Theme of my life: youtube.com/watch?v=Ow1dznt-RrU

Just can't stop thinking of this chick and watch her photos, movies and streaming...
I desire her so much.

Who is this? Some camwhore or a youtube vlogger chick?

I plan on doing nothing tonight. Maybe a movie and a pizza.

work is killing me - started Lexapro 2 weeks ago and making me tired AF all the time
need a no-drinking weekend
Got to get some exercise in to beat down the drugs

"Drugs" as in Lexapro, or something else? Whatever, working out is good no matter what.

Anyway, antidepressants typically take at least a month, (and usually longer) to start working, so try to be patient, but remember that you can ask your doctor to switch you to a different antidepressant if Lexapro isn't working for you. I personally hated the increased appetite from mirtazapine. I went up at least 15 lbs. because of that shit. But try to find the right drug for you. Antidepressants are highly personal, and require A LOT of trial and error to find one that suits you.
I personally managed by changing my whole life situation, but that's likely not an option for you.

I've been kinda lucky (see ), but the best way for me to stop drinking was to limit contact with my drinking buddies.

Good luck bro, and I hope you find a way to persist.

boutta smoke a bowl, kick back, and relax and enjoy the shitstorm of faggotry which is Sup Forums

You in a legal state?
If not how much do you hate the police 1-10?

listening to music. drinking coke, havent had any in months, p good stuff. wondering when im gonna finally get off my ass and kill myself

it's nearly the rainy season. warm showers and mosquitoes gently tuck in as i sit under a palm-thatched hut with a jar of rye on the rocks. it looks like there's a fog rolling in but i know it's the steam from the factory. latchkey children are rolling steel hoops in the streets like some bygone era. a woman is singing softly in the window across the street. my hands are dirty and bruised. but i'll have to do it all over again tomorrow. that evil job. soon i'll wash the blood off the sink so it doesn't get caked in. and then the night.

>In relationship with girl for 1 year
>Realize my best mate is getting feelings for her and they were planning to 'alope'
>cheat on her
>go on 3 months after pretending nothing happened
>best mate knew but I didn't know he knew
>they plotted to bang n shit or w/e
>she's living with me has nowhere to go
>waiting till she can get a place of her own
>last day of relationship
>fuck her tell her I love her
>immediately after I cum say "I know"
>had prepacked all her stuff
>called up her Dad to pick her and her shit up >he abuses her
>she's crying
>don't give a fuck
>she tells me she knows I cheated on her
>still don't give a fuck felt betrayed
>best mate now not-so best mate
>they're dating
>turns out best mate is also abusive
>she gets beat by her Dad and her boyfriend
>mfw

Expanding on this
IMO the prohibition on drugs creates more problems than it solves.
Here in Sweden (YES) alcohol is heavily taxed, and only sold through one (state-owned) business. This leads people to travel to Denmark or Germany to get cheap(er) booze, and solves none of the problems associated with alcohol consumption.
I truly believe that making (more or less) all drugs legal will, in the long term, make people less likely to try drugs (because the taboo-coolness is gone), reduce overdoses (through regulated drug strength an purity), and make people more likely to seek help (with increased therapy and substitution programs (eg. methadone) for addicts).

what is that from? also nice dub dubs

it's me

Today my pants ripped in half in front of a herd of people.

I want to die.

i like your prose, user.

How do your pants just spontaneously rip in half? Sorry, I just don't get it.

Got fatter, pants dont fit quite as well, bent down to pick something up, pants ripped in half.

humiliation.

thanks!

"Elope"
For the love of god, use the dictionary that is built into your phone, or accessible through google.

I'm just retarded fuck, gimme a break

Is that really yours? Sorry for being skeptical, but I wouldn't expect original prose that is *that good* to be posted on Sup Forums of all places.

If it is yours, please take it as a compliment.

i'm getting trolled but i'll pretend it's real. i wrote it in 3 minutes. thanks

I watched a video of a phychiatrist dealing with a deluded woman who claimed to be dead.
Round and round they went until he had her completely nailed down that she was alive.
And yet, she still insisted she was dead with her very next breath.

Sounds to me a lot like some Republicans I met. Give them absolute proof of something and they still insist it's wrong.

>welfare recipients use their welfare to buy drugs.
Every state that has has tested welfare recipients has found LESS drug use than among the general population.
>Welfare recipients still buy drugs with welfare money.

>We found thousands of WMDs in Iraq
I spend hours proving every single claim false. And when we're finally done....
>We still found thousands of WMDs in Iraq.

I still haven't heard any trump supporter explain exactly what world spanning organization had the prescience to know exactly what kenyan born baby would become POTUS 40 years later.
Without diving into some serious tin helmet bullshit, that is.

On the bus home about to eat chipotle and play some fallout 4
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I know. It's not you. It's just so many of those things. Everyone HAS a dictionary, or access to Google. It's just lazy.

Got really high off eddibles
Had this video pop up while on yt
Watch it
GREATESTTHING.wbmd
Strongly suggest watching while high

I'm not even trying to troll don't watch it before hand cause it'll spoil it it's really great if you don't belive me look at the comments and you'll know it's safe

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HAVE FUN DUDES

I really don't wanna derail this thread into politics, but I really wanna respond to this

>>welfare recipients use their welfare to buy drugs.
>Every state that has has tested welfare recipients has found LESS drug use than among the general population.
IIRC the end result of testing welfare recipients for drug use was that it cost so much to test everybody that there wasn't much money left to give to "drug free" people. That is, it's more economical to just give everyone welfare, because testing everyone means that more money is wasted to test people than what is "saved" by not giving addicts money.

That being said, I'm very "pro-addicts". ie. I'd rather try to actively help addicts become drug free, than to actively try to degrade and make life hard for them as a shitty "motivation" for them to stop using.

Oh man, that's an oldie. I remember seeing this years ago. I might've seen a version with a different audio track, but it's still really cool that you posted this!
It takes me back.

State of Tenessee passed legislation that specified anyone testing positive would automatically lose their welfare.
The state promised their voters that their program would kick enough people off welfare to pay for the tests.
>the state tested thousands and only found 10 positives.
The state taxpayer was on the hook for millions of dollars that was never budgeted.

You dick I pissed my pants that ending

I'm really glad you liked it user I've been meaning to make a thread of it probably will soon

Australian visiting my father in the country side, on /b with my phone. Live off Australia's cush welfare, life's pretty good.

II wanna add on to this

That whole view stems from thinking that either, addicts are themselves wholly responsible for getting addicted, and/or that addicts are worthy of less support than """normal""" people.
In my opinion addiction is a psychological disease that has both genetic and environmental risk factors, with the environmental risk factors being MUCH more important than the genetic ones.
Sure some kid can grow up in a crack ghetto and end up becoming a doctor, but the likelihood of doing something worthwhile with your life is massively lower if you grow up with addict parents in an area where basically everyone is an addict and help for addicts is shitty.
What the fuck are you gonna do if ma and da smoke crack all day and you and your friends biggest dream is becoming a high-level crack dealer? You're either going to become a dealer, increasing the supply, or becoming an addict increasing the demand.

Here, have some classic must-listen stoner metal!
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Tn was the most extreme case.
Idaho legislature got smart. After seeing themselves proven wrong in Florida, Tn, and Mo, Idaho writes it into their law that releasing positive rates to the public would be a felony.
To this day, I still have no idea what their rate is. Only that it's costing them more to test than they're saving by kicking people off welfare.

Is good. I'm chubby fat but been hiking constantly for the past 2 months, losing weight getting stronger. Lost my friends because they think I'm being vain...Which yeah I want to look good and be healthy. Recently there is this really hot af girl who I see jogging there all the time, now she stops to chat, we chat longer and longer as the days go by.

Might be something there.

The "problem" is that (IIRC) most hard drugs don't stay in your system for long, which makes sense because rapid input, ie. a strong rush, makes a drug addictive, enjoyable, and "hard", and also usually coincides with rapid output.
The only drug I can think of off the top of my head that doesn't conform to this is weed, but weed generall isn't considered a hard drugp

idk if you're the good guy in this story

Woke up tired. Went through day until depression kicks in. Skips Gym and stay at home. Cousin wants to play videogames but i say to her i want to be alone for now.
She understands, it's not the first time i block everyone to remain alone for a whole day. After hearing some chill music and already tired of thinking about shit, i decide to look what new porn i can find.
Went through FunnyJunk, because of habit. Then came here to here. It's been pretty chill actually. Just rolled on a "You woke up as a girl, roll to see if you're lucky" and got a pretty nice result.
So i got that going for me...

Dude, if your friends are ignoring you because you're working out, they've gone full crab mentality, and you shouldn't care about them.
Good on you for working out!

I started reading rules of the game again. I think I gave up on it like on day 5 last time I read it.

Mission one is to strike small talk with five strangers, which is really hard when you know pretty much everyone at your job, and I can't find a reason to get out of my house.

Currently feeling like shit because my closest bro takes forever to get back to me, and for some reason I feel like I need more time in advance to talk to the girls I usually text.

Waiting to go to my friends house in the hood. May fuck his sister. May buy some herb. Homeless waiting to join a lease here in half a month and do finding any excuse to not sleep in my car. Hitting up the college town near me and the main city err day while i do temp work. Reading Ben Shapiro's "The People v. Obama". Das me.

she's not the love your life. The love of your life wouldn't lie to you for months. The love of your life is somewhere out there.

it's really important to keep that in mind. There's no such thing as "the one"

same here. when will i fucking do it, it's already so late

Are you talking about the book by Neil Strauss? If so, I'm gonna be blunt.
It looks like redpill trash marketed to insecure teenagers who haven't found their way yet, and I'm guessing that you're roughly about 16-20 years old.

These books don't teach you how to be successful with women, they teach you how to be a manipulative asshole.

I can't teach you how to get laid (I can't get fucking laid myself), but I can tell you that the whole redpill philosophy is toxic, and will, at best, get you an insecure girl who will initially bow to your demands, but will end up hating you as time goes en.

My advice to you is to try to not see society as some kind of battle between men and women. You'll wan't to cast away your preconception of what an ideal woman is, and just try to find a best friend who happens to be a woman that you can fuck.

Try to see women as equals. I honestly have problems with this myself. I still see women as "others" that require special treatment and consideratian. But I can tell you this: Women are 99% the same as men, and you form friendships with them the same ways as you do with men. If you're like me, you internally freeze up when talking to women, and rethink everything everything you say lots of times. This isn't needed. I promise you that you can find a girl that's just like you without overthinking everything.

Sorry if I seem judgmental or too direct, but do you have any friends or family?
I realize this doesn't work for everybody, but the reason I'm not killing myself right now is because I love my friends and family too much. I mentioned this earlier (I think), but i had a pretty crappy 4-ACO-DMT (shroom analogue) trip that left me crying, and made me realize that my buddies actually like me and don't deserve seeing me die.
I don't recommend tripping if you're depressed, FYI. See a therapist if you wanna kill yourself.
A trip could easily end up with you *really* wanting to kill yourself.

yes, I'm talking about that book. The reason I began reading it is because an old college friend of mine recommended it to me. He's not really an asshole, so I took his word for it.

Sadly I'm 26. Well not sadly, but not quite what you'd have guessed from my post.

I actually don't have that big of a problem talking to girls, I was in a relationship for like 2 years. I've been out of one for 2 as well.

my problem is that I don't really come across people. So I can't really meet new people. I lack the drive to message girls from dating apps.

What I thought as well. I have not a single friend now, but fuck it, I'll make more.

My belly fucking hurts, I think I should've ate something before people went to sleep instead of just drinking a glass of milk and coffee, now I don't want to walk up to the kitchen and wake them up. Fuck me.

Also, need to record some shit for a school assingment due to Tuesday, I'm nervous as fuck and I will have to wake up at 9:00 AM tomorrow, but I cant bring myself to sleep yet. Its 12:08 PM now. Its gonna require me to do some funny shit and such, I'm scared it will look too rushed. And I'm also gonna have to edit it on Sunday. Its gon be so hard and so tiring. Luckily Monday is gonna be a holiday.

I'm so unsettled and my head is starting to hurt. I think I should just embrace my bead and try to pass out on it, use it as a way to dodge the pain.

I just hope everything goes alright and no one gets a bad grade because we left this recording deal for too late. I mean, doing things on the last minute and not getting rekt is so weirdly good. I always feel like I got off better than those who worked hard for days on end because I did like way less work. Thats probably why I keep getting myself into these situations.

Please God let this be a decent assignment people are counting on me.

gf of 3 years and i recently split, trying to figure stuff out. she needs time to think. im an emotional wreck. this girl and i have been through everything from miscarriage to her watching my mother die with me. i love the fuck out of her /b, and im scared it wont work out. i dont eat, i dont care about work anymore. im attending therapy because im so fucked up over this and other shit thats happened in my life that i just never dealt with. everyday i wake up alone in what used to be an apartment filled with love. every night i lay down i realize im alone. i havent been on 4 chan in nearly 3 years.... im super fucked up and dont know how to carry on if this doesnt work out. this shit is the fucking worst, and i keep making it worse because im so fucking freaked out we wont be back together.

(im the guy drinking the coke) no i have no irl friends and have completely cut off all internet friends about 8 months ago. my family is nothing valuable and their help is nonexistent. im not some faggy nihilist who thinks they wont be distraught or care, they obviously will be really inconvenienced, it's just that living solely for people is hard, and living solely for people who seem to barely care about you is even harder.

Wow that's great

>i had a pretty crappy 4-ACO-DMT (shroom analogue) trip that left me crying, and made me realize that my buddies actually like me and don't deserve seeing me die.
>I don't recommend tripping if you're depressed, FYI. See a therapist if you wanna kill yourself.
>A trip could easily end up with you *really* wanting to kill yourself.
I appreciate the fuck out of you for this. The number of fucking times I've heard "just try shrooms" or "weed lmao" drives me up the fucking wall. People who act like drugs of any type are the fucking third coming just bug the shit out of me.
And I swear to Christ, hearing "But weed isn't addictive!" just... You... You DO realize that addiction is largely mental, right? That's why relapses happen.

Humans make me wish I was a fucking Vulcan, sometimes. You, you're one of the decent ones.

I care about you user

where do you live?

shit sucks. my first serious relationship lasted about 3 years. It's been two years since then, and I'm still single. She was single for like a month. we are all friends.

I've been single because I'm an autistic fuck, though, I'm pretty sure that won't happen to you. Things will get better man. I'm single, but things are better.

Yeah, I don't know how to meet people either, so I can't help you on that front

Are you in college or are your working?

thanks, brah. maybe if the afterlife is a real thing we can share a root beer float if we both make it there
>tfw ill get there first and have to wait for you

Do you like hentai op?

Yeah, I know that feel. I can't for the life of me bring myself to go to bed on time. I'm genuinely suspecting I have circadian rhythm sleep disorder.
It's like my body is made to sleep from 4 am to 13 pm, and I don't know how to fix this shit.
The last four months I've slept 5 hours on average on weekdays, and slept 12-15 hours on weekends.

I talk to quite a few people and all you really have to do is go to a bar or store you like and start with some small talk. Bring up something you like about them or something along those lines. If half way through it's working out ask if she would like to hang out if she says no insist in a sincer voice that she is a really cool and down to earth person and you feel like it would be fun to get to know someone. Now if there still saying no just say that it was nice talking to them and that you hope to bumb into them someday. Never act forceful or push the boundary, this is hard cause everyone's different but I guarantee witg practice you will get it

Illinois. it's fucking awful man. i was going to propose next month.... shit came out of left field blind sided me. she was there for some of the hardest shit ive ever been through in my life (27). i legitimately can not picture a life without her. its all i can do to stomach waking up and eating enough to not die (docs have me on remeron? (spelling?) to try and help for right now. i hope she figures herself out. at the end of the day i want her to be happy, but for me she's "the one".

Thanks for that! I wrote that reply you're replying to, and you took the words right out of my mouth.

Wouldn't it be awesome to be able to turn off your feelings? FUCK.

Stay awake for the whole night stress your body out all day and when you get back home go to bed on time and you'll (hopefully) go to bed on time. I do it every time i go to Australia and the Jetlag hits me. Hope I could oh helped dude

damn, this reminds me of "was it something I said?" by the brandon flowers. It sounds like a sad sucky songs, but at the end of the day when it comes to marriage it's better to end it before it starts. From one user to another, I hope she figures herself too. I know we don't know each other, but I want you to be happy.

Shit happens. The worst is my circadian rhythm thingie is long gone. It used to be like that 2 years ago but now If I touch my bed after 11 pm I fucking die on it. Dont know why I'm having such a hard time falling asleep today. Maybe its my god damn belly grumbling. Gonna try to ninja my way into the kitchen and eat then sleep, otherwise I'm gonna be so tired tomorrow the recording is gonna be made with me all lazy and fucked up, which will make it way shittier than it has to be.

Wish me luck.

I'm going to a bar tonight. first time going out in a while. I go out with no expectations. Just testing the water.

All the chicks i get into are always in a relationship.

That makes you susceptible to 'microsleeps', user. Real bad while driving or operating any other equipment, like a lawnmower.