Hey b, I need the help of some of the most fucked up among you. I need to figure out a suicide method that fits into all the criteria i'm about to list.
If anyone wants/needs to know the why before commenting, y'all aren't doctors so i won't go into great detail. But basically, i have a disease that makes every muscle group in my body twitch/fasciculate constantly, incessantly, to no end. This has been going on for years, and it's driving me insane. Can't sleep, can't eat, can't sit still without my muscles going berzerk and making me feel like i'm having a seizure.
The only problem is, the disease is benign. It can't kill me by itself. So i guess it's up to me. So i need your help in figuring out a method. below are my criteria, in order of importance.
1. I don't want it to look like a suicide. Either way, my family and friends will be bummed about my death, but if they all know i suicided, they'll all be sad and hate me. I don't want to them to hate me after i die.
2. quick and painless. my current idea is to jump. that'd be instant death upon landing, but an obvious suicide, so if there's another option out there, i'd take it.
3. No innocent bystander will be responsible. No jumping in front of a vehicle, no decap by train, etc. They are just strangers though, and that's why this is point #3. Point #1 overrules this one.
4. I don't have access to guns. If i did, i'd have done this a long time ago, so death by gunshot is out.
I'll reply with anything else i think of. Oh, and i'd like to do this by july 2nd or 3rd of this year, so not much time left.
have at it.