I'm getting severely bullied by my 11 year old brother who's still in elementary school, should I kill myself?
This is my brother choking the shit out of me in the photo. He says that he choked me in a way in which I won't get knocked out straight away and the pain would last longer. My little sister was recording as per his demands, then he sent her out of the room half way through and told her to lock the door.
When she was gone, he started thrusting hard with his legs up and down so my face keeps smashing against his crotch. I can't control this, his legs feel like steel and he can control my movements and breathing. I don't want to get into details but this turned into oral sexual assault afterwards. He said he'd snap my neck with his legs if I didn't do as he said.
Contemplating to whether tell my parents or kill myself, honestly don't know. My brother is 4'8, like 75lbs. I'm 6'1 and 125lbs, nobody will believe my brother is capable of doing this even with all his martial arts experience. I feel like such a loser, I'm 18 years old and have to deal with this. I can't get into College, can't move out. I'm a fucking joke. I'm actually in a motel room hiding from my brother, he texted me "I'm gonna fuck you up".