Be me

>be me
>off to a great fucking start
>general autist all my life.
>be autistic pedofag to top off the cake
>molestested younger cousin for years while young.
> told my therapist because I wanted to stop.
>therapist fucks me over and reports me to police
>police don't charge me for reasons that delude me.
>family finds out
>tasteofjustice.png
>family that does know (uncle, aunt, parents) turn a blind eye
>never talk about it
>been clean for years,
>trying to make myself a better person
>still a fucking child molester
>unchanging, warranted, intense self hatred
>I fucked up badly
>cant change things
>nothing will make me a good person
>everyone who says they love me would leave in the blink of an eye if they found out
>no one would really love the real me
>there is no repair
>the only place I belong is six feet under
>i can't live with this shit
>i fucked up
>all the hate to words me is warranted
>i don't deserve any amount of happiness
>i don't belong here.
> six feet under it is.

Sup Forums, I fucked up. Very badly, and the consequences of my actions are taken their toll. There is no coming back from this, and I am going to hate myself for the rest of my life because of this. Do you guys think that I can change, or eventually become a 'good' person despite what happened? I think I already know the answer, but whatever. Fucked myself over hard, I struggle every day because of it. I tried going back into normal life, but it is impossible. Do I really deserve to die because of my mistakes, or is there room for redemption?

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I'd like to help.. but, hard pass.

youtu.be/AcNqqfRq-AQ
No one would ever love anyone if they knew who they truely were

The fact you feel guilt means there can be redemption. Really no way to help over text without miles of texting going on. Only thing I can say is that yeah, you can be good. The sick fucks are the ones who feel no remorse at all and are just looking for more ways to get over on people. Best thing you can do is come to grips with what happened, own it, move on. Throw yourself at the mercy of whoever you wronged. About all I can say.

Kys :')

Horseshit. We would be better off if everyone was honest about who they are. Then we could all fucking move on to where we need to go without all the hidden baggage holding us back.

So... if there's no comeback... Just be yourself. Be a child molester. You'll get killed eventually. At least enjoy it for a while.

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yes, you can improve yourself. I know your hate yourself, but be grateful - you didn't get drunk and kill a bunch of kids in an autoaccident. I know 20 year old who did that. I spent time in rehab and saw people whose lives were tryly truly fucked up.

Can I ask how old you were then when you molested cousin - and how old you are now?

I know you probably hate your therapist - but they are REQUIRED by law to report certain things. ongoing molestation is one of them. or if it occurred and you give them specific information on the victim.

You probably don't want to hear this - but the worst has happened in that people know. So now make good use of it - go see a therapist. talk about how you want to improve yourself.

be very clear about what they will and WILL NOT report. ask them directly. There are ways to still have therapy, you just basically can't say

>im going to go molest this person
>i did molest this person
>I am molesting this person

no one controlls their thoughts. we can control our actions.

What triggers me is that society is all "be yourself" and we have faggots and mentally ill men who think they are woman running around, but as soon as someone says they like kids everyones pissed.

con't. one of my cousins used to stick things in my baby sisters asshole when she was little. he confessed to her when they were both adults. It is weird knowing that about him. the more I talked to other members of my family, I found out more and more of the shit that went on between cousins.

you say you are a pedo - what aspects appeal to you?

I was sexually active as a 10 year old - literally giving other boys head and stuff. So it is weird for me - I mean if I think of the people I had sex with - it makes me a pedo? I don't WANT to have sex with kids - and I don't. But there is a part of me that is turned on by what I did. I mean, I remember it being enjoyable.

This does NOT mean I am a danger to kids, or to myself. It does NOT mean that I want to fuck kids. It is just accepting of the thoughts in my head.

yeah I mean obviously sexually assaulting kids is fucked up, and wrong. but there is a disproportionate amount of hate in that direction. Can you think of anything else where photos of something are illegal? murder? scat ? beating someone to death? nope. perfectly fine. kid with an erection? 3 years in prison. your life ruined. Cost the taxpayers millions.

you ever want to invade people's privacy, or quash rights? just go after pedos. That is what MS did when they first started their big data monitoring.. it was all about "stopping child pornography".

it's astonishing how there is always some retard who manages to shoehorn their irrational hate on lgbt into every thread. this time that fucker is even defending child molesters...

true story - back in the film days. family is taking photos of their baby - in one of them the baby has an erection. it happens - isn't a big deal. if you have kids you know this.

they go to walmart to develop their photos. no idea. next thing they know, cops are arresting them. CPS takes their kids. They have to spend $10k + on a lawyer, their reputation is fucked. Dad loses his job. They finally drop the case - but not before all this shit has happened.

And what is the family gonna do about it? They just want their lives back - they aren't gonna go start some movement or complain how their lives were fucked up OVER A FUCKING PHOTO.

source: dad worked in a law office - told me about that case they had when case when I was a kid.

anyone know when - in history or bible or whatever -

1) monogamy happened
2) when they stopped marrying off kids?

genuinely curious

people fucked and married kids for ages until the age of enlightenment when they began to find out that kids are not little adults and you can damage body and soul of a growing person when abusing them (sexually or by making them work in mines etc)

which was up to around 115 years ago, which is also the time where downs syndrome and autism started getting full blown extreme. your telling me that what we did for literally thousands, if not hundreds of thousands of years is a problem, but what we are doing in a scant 100 odd years is good for us when its bringing us more issues?

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Not the same user but it's because lgbt and the people who support it are a fucking joke. There is no precedent for homosexual behavior in nature, aside from the fact that some frogs can change gender at will when they can't find a mate of the opposite sex. LGBT is just self-serving cancer, if people didn't have such a predetermined hate for pedos, it would likely thrive just as well as homosexuality. Shoehorn? You're a fuckin tard.

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Give me some details as what you did to your sister so I can fap and go to bed.

t. guy whose knowledge of nature is from a text book from the mid 70`s

>There is no precedent for homosexual behavior in nature
and this idiot uses the word tard on someone else...

I went to the bathroom at this part.

What was the secret?

Your therapist isn't allowed to talk to anyone about your situation without your explicit permission. You can sue his/her ass

Yes, you have a chance to improve, to change if you give that chance to yourself. Don't dwell on the past, it will not help. What can help is action - delete your porn folder or try to think about a kid non-sexually, or do something similar that seems kinda hard to do for you. People would only hate/leave you, because this is not the norm. The same people could invite you to some really screwed up things if you were in the Roman Empire or whatever. Meaning that "good" is what society makes it to be, although if you're causing pain to others, then you will suffer too. So it's not about being good or bad, but being mindful of others and yourself too. You can always change, you can always become "better", well, less flawed or so to say. It is the very thought of not being able to do it that restricts your movement (your actions and such). Just try not to cause suffering to other or to yourself. I think that's a good way to come on terms with the world and yourself.

Why I couldn't be friends with you when I was ten.
Or..
Why couldn't I be friends with you and you still be ten?
Curiously, who was the oldest fuck you fucked around with when you were that young?

Star lord being in love with the green chick

Not if the person admits to a crime.

Even better, I watched Jurassic Park 100's of times as a kid. Regardless, I decided to do a follow up later in life with many different sources and was disappointed in what I found.

Cite one credible sliver of evidence then because from what I've gathered, it's just people bending the truth one way or another for political posturing lol

*unless they think it could and would endanger other peoples lives and/or well being

better, uh, look that up again

>police and family give you second chance, something most pedos don't get
>still be an emo bitch
Pedos are so fucking annoying

wtf autism and such is from a combination of pollutants that come from multiple sources(air, food, water). Nothing to do with age. Only reason older people have higher autism birth rates is that the older you get the more pollutants you have build up in body from years of it. A girl can get pregnant at 13 but most of the time the body isn't quite ready. 15 is though.

oh so youd know that homosexuality is, uh, exhibited in
swans
ibises
pigeons
bison
apes
gulls
monkeys
lions
bed bugs
dragonflies
sheep
elephants
lizards

wanna talk about unnatural? whats the list of things that exhibit homophobia. i mean, if its only one thing, its kinda weird, rite

That Star Lord loves Gamora

oh right, the years that lead and pollutants of such kind are excluded from literal paint around the house are the years we see the most of it. okay. the decades we spent with 50% of people smoking and lower autism/down rates are pure coincidence. yep.

there doesn't need to be any precedent in nature for it to be legitimate, you fucking tard. for your information animals aren't actually able of talking so if there are precedents of animals feeling gender dysphoria we couldn't ever know anyways. shocking, i know. we know it exists for humans and that it is a legitimate medical condition for which we luckily found a safe and successful treatment so you're opinion is completely disregarded as it should be.

You forgot ducks. Ducks are nature's little rapists of all duck genders

wtf homosexuality is all throughout nature. pedo garbage isn't. Animals only mate with sexually mature animals. pedo is a glitch in our evolution.

>Animals only mate with sexually mature animals
oh man, thats a citation id love to fucking see

Actually, lots of people had autism and it just sent undiagnosed. It's not like gay people suddenly appeared when they had gay parades. Gay people were always here you just weren't aware of them.
Similarly, autistic people always existed but they are just now getting diagnosed (and sometimes over diagnosed) with autism

Dude only dolphins and humans have sex for reasons other than procreation and dolphins are sexually abusive as fuck.

You forgot the obvious being domestic canines but I was trying to get a bite. Homophobia in lesser-evolved creatures isn't exhibited as a phobia either, the creature in question is usually killed off by others of it's kind because they aren't constrained by morals. I like how mankind can force itself down to a beast's mentality just to justify an urge, I thought we were supposed to be the enlightened species lol.

Those are the least of the amount of pollutants going through peoples bodies.

Talking out of your ass with your foot in your mouth is a cool trick
en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Homosexual_behavior_in_animals
en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Third_gender

Also homosexuality has abounded in human history, the spartans openly practiced gay pederasty, and I'm sure there are many more examples.

You understand nothing, simpleton.

Both of you just need to go

it's likely that i've been longer here than you. being on Sup Forums doesn't mean that you have to be an edgy little kid that actually believes in Sup Forums shit.

Where are those ancient practitioners now? Right... So I guess we'll just wait for this society to fall like theirs did.

If you have been here back in the days of sandwich meme and tacgnol you'll remember the days we were mostly liberal

Try to do meditation buddy constantly. Pretty sure it will help you to control your thoughts. Do it for 10min everyday :) It helped me hope it helps you too

Reality sucks. I don't give much of a fuck though

I don't care how long you've been here kiddo. You're still a newCANDYASS.

meditate the pedo gay away. sounds like a bulletproof plan. mmmm bullets

they also died, for being weak and unable to survive. its our current culture that allows bad genes to survive and thrive, harming the entire human race

citation needed

>lead is less harmful then sugar and the modern medical system
huh, weird how we live longer then the past generations. dunno how we do that if we are less healthy

Umm, the ancient Greeks became the ancient Romans. The founders of Rome spoke Greek and the language of the patricians was greek. Then they influenced all of Europe and European culture that to this day the pope has the Roman title of pontif Maximus and all of Western culture is based on Greek and Roman culture.

>CANDYASS
s-stop, user, you make me blush. my butt isn't that good...

>.>

>our current culture that allows bad genes to survive and thrive, harming the entire human race
This 1000x over though. We could be reaching the pinnacle of human evolution and bleeding hearts hold back the whole species. It's the whole reason we have viruses mutating at alarming rates to kill us for fucks sake.

We don't live longer than tribal peoples who lived on nothing but wild things. There were regularly native americans who lived over 100 yrs eating nothing but buffalo, leaves, and water. Mfer's were 100 yrs old and still functioning people.

>molestested younger cousin for years while young.
Not cool, dude.

...however, it was a long time ago and what's done is done. Forget about it, your cousin probably already did. Don't be a dick next time.

...and thus we arrive in the modern day, with all the problems those societies refused to address properly. Thanks, at least we know who to blame user.

>our current culture that allows bad genes to survive and thrive, harming the entire human race
Or we are adapting as a species to a more civilized existence where mental capabilities are more important and physical capabilities are less

That's not how evolution works. Survival of the fittest applied to varied and unvaried Gene pools. If you have a species constantly under attack then a species will constantly seek Constant refinement to their genetic pool to assist in the collection of food and water. However, having such a closed Gene pool has its problems because you become more vulnerable to diseases. So when you have an abundance of food and water then it makes more sense to all sorts of mutations to thrive because that will result in different types of the species that might survive any unpredictable circumstances.
For example, Africans built up an immunity to malaria. Which is something you want because it's a defense against a disease, but the gene that was responsible for the note extinct form of malaria is also suspectable to aids. Something you don't want. But you don't want to kill off the Africans with the aids suspectable gene because there could be a malaria epidemic again and that Gene might be able to prevent it.

You funnin me son?

yes, daddy!

>If you have a species constantly under attack then a species will constantly seek Constant refinement to their genetic pool to assist in the collection of food and water.
no. the ones who have the ability, survive, the ones who dont, die. they dont crowd around a table and go "bro, what do we need to do". the ones who are not the fittest, die

All society's fall, new one's rise, some combine, new one's always take something from the old, either something to admire or condemn, boundaries are blurred and civilization never really ends or begins, just has ups and downs. Seemingly backwards traditions last for thousands of years. Do you really think our morals are the pinnacle in human history and every ancient civilizations fell because they didn't have our values? That's downright naive. Do some research before you try to have debates like this, because you think you know far more than you actually do. Seriously, think for a second that everything you're entirely convinced is true could be wrong, objectively consider alternate points of view (and never outright condemn them because no one actually knows the truth), read those articles I linked to, then come back. It's no fun arguing with someone who justs plugs their ears.

To clarify the existence of disease fighting genes in some individuals does not support the continued existence of all individuals but the species.

>Implying mental capacities will save you from the super flu
Nigga plz

>while young
How young are you talking
That's pretty fucked up of you
I'd instantly forgive you if you did turn yourself over to the police
I'm sure if you turn yourself in you'll get protection in prison

>the ones who are not the fittest, die
the fittest ones die too. they can actually die earlier than the ones who are less fit. look up the definition of the word. it literally only means who has the most offspring that reaches sexual maturity. it also doesn't mean much to be fittest because those who are less fit still contribute to the gene pool.

It certainly doesn't help that you have shitty grammar skills

Sup Forums pls show me that pepe is not dead
send your rare pepes

>So when you have an abundance of food and water then it makes more sense to all sorts of mutations to thrive because that will result in different types of the species that might survive any unpredictable circumstances.
no, no that's not how it works. i don't have much time so here's the short version. mutations always happen randomly and without reason. they are not sorted out in a time period of abundance because it makes it more likely that they still reach sexual maturity and reproduce even if they aren't perfectly adapted to whatever. that that mutation one day might result in a higher grade of survivability is nothing but coincidence.

are you encouraging him to molest children

The problem is I know more than I should and I put those ideas into practice before society has caught up. There are fundamental ideals that keep a culture alive and if you can't already see the demise ahead for ours because of it's misplaced compassion for these people, I don't know what to tell you other than to wait an see, user.

You will find that species that do not have access to an abundance of food and water are very genetically similar. Like cheedas and they are constantly refining to get to state 2 where species that have a constant supply of water and food are not genetically similar like rats. Being very genetically similar can bad because it makes it easy to wipe your species out like banana blight. They don't need to have a discussion. It's natural. There is no reason to kill "weaker" species off if there is no competition over food and water and the species that don't kill their species off when there is an abundance of food and water survive better

so is homosexuality ...most child molesters are gay or lesbian. Just look at all the catholic priests who were homosexual child predators

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As you said, 'when I was younger'. When you say younger, were you also under the age of consent? If this is the case then that's almost certainly why the Police didn't prosecute you. It's common for kids to fiddle around with each other if they're left unsupervised. This is why it's so fucking important to make sure kids are almost never left to their own devices, especially when kids of opposite sex are playing together. Stop blaming yourself for what you did. You know that if you could go back in time you'd probably just jerk off instead and not molest your cousin.

Stop labelling yourself as a pedo too, it isn't a healthy thing to do. You most likely are not. Being attracted to pubescent girls is called being normal, but nobody tries anything with a 14 year old because it's just not the decent thing to do, and they're also fucking irritating - but yes some can be very attractive. If you find that you're attracted to pre-pubescent girls then yes that is a problem, but it could just be something you grow out of. You need to stop looking or reading about cp in all it's forms. Start watching normal porn, with women who have tits and big asses. Try fat women, really old women, moms, ugly girls, disabled girls - anything just find yourself a new 'thing' that doesn't involve kids. The big problem is that cp is the only taboo anyone has left, and something being taboo will always be a magnet. Now you can fuck any hole you want, or not, punch your woman in the face whilst having sex, whip her almost to death. Just look at 2017 S&M videos, women are punched, kicked, cut with razors, knives, are left bruised and beaten so badly they often need medical treatment afterwards. However, they were 'willing' to do this, it's their thing. It's how far people have to push the boundary now just to get turned on.

Just give yourself a break. Everyone is feeling a bit fucked up nowadays.

There is always a second chance. Go to church, go repent, or do something religious to forgive yourself and move on. Do good things like doing charity, go to rehab club or something. Don't kill yourself. Please.

Rape, murder, cannibalism... All natural. Let's get back to nature, maaan...

I wonder if pedos ever go so far down the rabbithole that they loop back around and older women become the new exotic wonder.

>still a fucking child molester
>unchanging, warranted, intense self hatred
>I fucked up badly
>nothing will make me a good person
>everyone who says they love me would leave in the blink of an eye if they found out
>no one would really love the real me
>there is no repair
>the only place I belong is six feet under
>i can't live with this shit
>i fucked up
>all the hate to words me is warranted
>i don't deserve any amount of happiness
>i don't belong here.

You are absolutely, entirely correct.

Your therapist did the right thing and the police should have thrown your ass in jail to get some of what you dished out. Die slowly.

The world truly, really will be a little better without you.

Haters gon hate. You just mad cuz you ain't gettin any.

>nature. pedo

Bonobos, which also happen to be our closest animal relatives. All species that have sex for social bonding have all kinds of sex. In humans as in bonobos the reproductive aspect of sex took a secondary role to the social-bonding role.

>Being attracted to pubescent girls is called being normal, but nobody tries anything with a 14 year old because it's just not the decent thing to do, and they're also fucking irritating

This. Teenage girls are fucking annoying. I fucked an 18-year-old who was high on cocaine, and she was just a pain-in-the-arse. Drama-free 30-year-olds are far better. I like to think I'd enjoy doing a 14-year-old, but in reality I know it would suck.

how young were you at the time?

also, the fact that youre being so hard on yourself and actually feel bad about it are good signs that youre not an absolute monster.

find a new therapist. there are therapists out there that are geared specifically towards people like you.

im assuming you were underage when you did this, so thats why you werent arrested. you were ajudicated.

you were a kid. kids get mixed up sometimes, do bad things without realizing just how bad they are. you probably knew what you were doing was wrong, but had no idea of just how wrong.

are you still attracted to and tempted by kids?

"Drama-free 30-year-olds are far better."
Yeah, like communism.
A pitty both are imaginary.

Single 30 y/old woman are suspicious. The majority are single moms, or psycotics who had enought cocks in them to make a fried chiken franchise...

chimps do it too

>Thinking age has anything to do with the fact all women are bat shit crazy.
Hopefully OP will lead by example and you both KYS.

There are serial killers who changed
I believe that everyone can change

I stoppen Reading when this Guy came in. He is just Some Dude who went to college and eat everything they Saïd cause he got no Brain for himselfs. He is the real evil by judging you or Anyone else.

>There are serial killers who changed
I don't think they meant "victim"...

You need to get your head out of your ass. People have done way worse shit in their lives and go on living meaningfully. It is not a big a deal as you think it is. It is wrong to do but you can change, in fact, you will change but not for the better unless YOU GET OVER YOURSELF

STFU!