User

user,
what's your motivation in life ?

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>implying you need motivation to live

i don't need any motivation as such, I generally like my life

having friends and family is nice

having sex occasionally is nice

having some money to buy shit is nice

living in an awesome city in the greatest country is nice

Plowing OP's mom

I don't have any. I just continue to exist.

plowing this user's and op's mum

>one day I'll move abroad and leave my abuse/abusive family behind
>the thought that I can have a DECENT life even if that implies working hard
>the thought that an heroing didn't work and doesn't work
>the thought that I make a cute little loyal gamer trap and I'll probably meet a cute bear bf
>the thought that normies will one day get out

nice motivation satan

Music

Black metal ist krieg!

None

Mental health

Nice satanic trips

\m/

>the thought that normies will one day get out

you really need to stop this retarded shit

This is probably coming from a normie.

your life will be hard. how old r you ?
i was in a similar situation.

trying to be the best I can be wether it be knowledge, work or athletic stuff

life is a competition to me and I aim for the best possible result for myself. just trying to see how far I can get

To crush thine enemies
To see them driven before thee
And to hear the lamentation of their WOMEN!!

normies have been here longer than you, user. they've been around longer than they haven't. Sup Forums only had about 3 normie-free years, it's been 9 years since then

>saying this
>posting on Sup Forums

good luck m8.

Why will my life be hard?
20
>dubs of truth
>mfw

Same

Pure spite.
Hope is gone, past life is a useless and rotten empty shell, almost everything I knew about life and myself turned out to be untrue.
I don`t know how I`m gonna get out of this - but I will.
Spite. Cold hatred, iron will.

work on your mental health and you will feel better

why is he wearing a mic headset? is this a tim and eric porn?

oh i can answer that.
>being abused
>thinking you can easily leave it behind
>thinking about an heroing
>is a tranny
>is mentally unstable
>wants to live alone in a new environment
>wants to work hard

kinda my situation, except the tranny part. and yeah, i had a hard time. maybe you wont, because you seem more extrovert and less perfectionist than me, but then, who knows ?

I think I can easily leave my family behind because I want to move out and/or abroad.

>Thinking about an heroing
I dropped off that thought long time ago

>Is a tranny
I haven't transitioned yet but I wish I could, I'm very afraid of the consequences and the fact that it will make my life a nightmare, so I am reluctant about it.

I'm introverted as fuck but I can fake not being anxious/introverted.

I'm learning Python with hope of finding better job than min wage shit. Working as cashier is slowly killing me.

alright so what will leaning python change ?

To live long enough to see humanity reach it's full potential

To fuck more boys in the ass

First of all I will stop taking myself as brainless retard and give myself a chance. I was high school drop out. If I will be able to it will make me feel better, that's for sure. I will try to get better job, maybe finally move out of my dad's basement... Who knows?

To end up in a porno

>consequences

which consequences ?

and, hell, why are you a tranny

is it edgy for you ?

>which consequences ?
Not passing, getting rejected by family, friends, work, social withdrawal, ending up looking like a 90's halloween mask, increased stds rate, more mental instability.

>why are you a tranny
I am not, it is called transgender, being a tranny implies I have made a step into transitioning, which i have not.

>is it edgy for you?
what even

ok here is what you do :

-download anaconda navigator
-read think python 2 (free e-book)
-use codeacademy
-learn high school maths

in 2 months, you should be fine if youre dedicated and train regularly.

do you have any experience with programming in other languages?
github.com/rougier/numpy-100/blob/master/100 Numpy exercises no solution.md

My Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ

you are living in Russia ?

dude i dont want to spoil it to you, but....
i think transgender is a mental illness.

inverted leet & 777 quints checked

>I am not, it is called transgender, being a tranny implies I have made a step into transitioning, which i have not.

Hon you're fucking kidding yourself.
We both know you're either mentally a girl and hate yourself as you are right now, or you don't and you're just sexually confused.
If you're even thinking about transitioning it means shit ain't working for you like you are right now.
People do go trough medicated, operated, mutilated, social hell for years because they think it's cool to have a pair of tits and perhaps a fake vagina, they go trough it because they absolutely despise being male because their brain is straight up female.

So you gotta choose.
Are you a tranny in the closet, or are you just confused?
You know the consequences of your life decisions so lying to yourself out of convenience makes it even worse.

What the fuck really are you?

are these exercises worthwile ?

To be the very best

>brain is female

what the fuck are you talking about ? a brain doesnt have a gender itself, the biological composition is determined by genetics and they are male so youre misunderstanding something.....

So was homosexuality before 1970-ish.
And yes, I agree.
>it means shit ain't working for you like you are right now.
Yes, I thought this was obvious, that I cannot come out to anyone around me.

If I don't want to risk getting socially isolated or worse beaten up and pointed when walking down the street doesn't make me less of a mentally ill tranny than a mentally ill tranny.

I usually look at the version with solution and go like "Oh, that looks smart..."
If you ever have to do something with data analysis and numbers, you will come across numpy...

Brain itself doesn't, nut the brains of makes and the brains of females have differences.

I've got no motivation.
Where is my motivation?
No time for motivation

user you'll kill yourself.
I know it, you know it.

You keep going like this, you'll be miserable and then kill yourself.
It's almost a 100% possibility.
This post isn't meant to be mean, i'm just reminding you of the reality of your future.
If you're ok with it, keep going down this road, but always remember what's waiting for you.

Knowing that somewhere out there, there is probably a vid of this chick fucking herself with that thing that I am yet to see

>less perfectionist than me
Man, I know that feel. The cluster of symptoms that I have are honestly probably going to result in me never fucking supporting myself for my whole life.

ah so thats why youre a transgender person, its a manifestation of your wish to leave the abusive surroundings.

being transgender will not help you to mentally work throught the abuse, but the more safe you will feel after leaving home, the more "tranny" you will be. thus, it is a perk you got from the abuse if you decide to live with it.

you should seek a psychiatrist and talk with him about that and tell him of my hypothesis.

>that thing
It's called a caret. You put it in a ginger's hole, and it absorbs the redness and become a carrot.

Smoking my inspiration.

Oh, I see.
Yes, the choices are :
>Live hating myself living as a man the more I grow up
>Choose to transition, getting socially rejected and the list goes on, look like a man-ish mutant
I've already gone through a suicide attempt and I'm bipolar with anxiety and ocd.
Your post seemed mean, but I can't see myself as a man and I hate the thought that I'll grow up (20 now) and still look like a man, it kills me more than anything.
I've been to therapy for gender dysphoria, in fact to 3 different therapists and nothing has helped, they all suggested transition.I've been on medication to stop the feelings but they returned once I stopped the meds.
I'm screaming inside every time I look in the mirror and see a boy.

This.

...

>ah so thats why youre a transgender person, its a manifestation of your wish to leave the abusive surroundings.

Please explain more, I am interested, not being sarcastic.

> but the more safe you will feel after leaving home, the more "tranny" you will be.
I thought it's the other way around since I feel tranny more after I'm abused.

>it is a perk you got from the abuse if you decide to live with it.
And grow up hating the boy/man I see in the mirror wishing more and more to change myself?

>you should seek a psychiatrist
visited 2, they agreed to put me on medication to stop the feelings, nothing more.

damn boy

i know numpy. the thing is, this guy lives in a basement and works at min wage job. do you think python and numpy/data analysisis the best choice for him ? i, personally dont.

>having money to buy shit
>great city
>greatest country
>russia
Try again.

IT'S FREAKS LIKE THIS THAT THEY USE TO CONFUSE YOUNG MEN

ATTN 10 YEAR OLDS: THIS IS A HOMOSEXUAL MALE. DO NOT GET AN ERECTION.

to make men happy.

LOST.
What if they get an erection ? Are their cocks withering?

RUSSIA IS A SHIT HOLE. WORKED 2 YEARS AT LADA AND WAS WELL PAID.

EVEN HOT RUSSIAN WOMEN ARE COMPLETE POS ONCE YOU FCK 3 OR 4 OF THEM. THE ONLY GOOD THING ABOUT RUSSIA IS THE POLICE. THEY DON'T GIVE A FUCK ABOUT ANYTHING AS LONG AS YOU PAY THE FINE...IN CASH

PSSSST....THAT'S A DUDE

Of course it is, Mr.Caps-Lock.
Now, answer me, what if they get an erection? What is the worst that can happen?

Okay, I get your point, although some things like reversing a vector are also useful for beginners. Let's create a useful task with which one can learn python (or programming) on the fly. I propose a blackjack simulation.

PSSSTT....THAT'S A DUDE.

HINT VIRGIN: HE STILL WOULD TAKE THE HANDSOME FIT GAY FAG OVER YOUR FAT ASS.

THEY STILL HATE UGLY. ALL HUMANS DO.

AND PS: THAT'S A DUDE HENCE THE SOFT LIGHTENING

might win the lottery

coolest get in a while
>inverted leet & 777 quints checked

It is a dude, now answer my question, what is the worst that happens if one gets an erection to that?

Also, stop the caps lock , you look like a schizophrenic borderline psycho

right now is to get back to what i was before mother's day 2013 but i kind of think that won't happen.

>Please explain more, I am interested, not being sarcastic.

ok i got it like this: you want to leave your abusive home and the people. This means, automatically, you will hate many things that they do and try to escape them/act against them because you want to be yourself, an individual. The brain needs to work with emotional distress somehow, so it you get a mental illness, because you have no way to get the feelings out or dont know how to or with whom to talk. anybody who would understand you would be good enough. that is, why you have these bad feelings, hidden deep under you aware thought, sometimes breaking throught. This means, that you develop a mental illness or weird behaviors or whatever because youre not able to balance yourself out. because the people around you are not tolerant against transgender people and other things and you feel that you dont belong to them, deep inside, then you automatically seek this thing. they push you into this mindset where you want to do the thing they hate because they are wrong with what they say and how they act, and you know they are wrong but you cant say anything because you are afraid and immature and cant support youself. this is why you feel as if you were in a corner, and the trans gender thing is part of that corner


now, i could be entirely wrong. thats just what my brain imagined from your posts. sorry for bad writing btw.

or, he can just read thinkpython 2 and do codeacademy

PSSSTT...IT'S A DUDE AND HETEROSEXUAL MEN WON'T GET AN ERECTION.IT'S ALL FAGS PRETENDING TOBE STRAIGHT. YOU KNOW, FAGS LIKE YOU WHO ARE ONLINE 24/7 AND BELIEVE THIS SHIT.

PS.IT'S A DUDE.

I know it is a dude you fucking imbecile.

PSST...IT'S DUDE AND YOU ARE A MENTALLY ILL MISTAKE ON THIS PLANET

you better be fucking german cunt

Says the troll who caps-locking rage repeating itself.
Go take your medication, psycho.

I'm 99% sure it's the same dude pulling this shit, maximum troll. He hyper focuses on one detail and just repeats himself, I've seen it on multiple threads, all cap locked posts. Dude's autistic as fuck.

and i think you have bad psychiatrists. maybe theyre all bad, but you know, theyre just people like you and me and i think their work is very hard to do properly.

My last psychiatrist told me she doesn't care that I tried to commit suicide under her medication and offered me more.

ignore him, he wants the attention.

Survive for as long as possible

as of 1-2 years ago, codecademy was actually worse off than when it first started. They started mixing content with paid content, and best case scenario with codecademy, you learn the basics. That's only if you try too, because you can copy paste almost every answer.

then she is just money oriented whore who gets ruled by pharmaceutical companies.

Thanks, user, this explains a lot.
Another mental illness can be masked as gender dysphoria

SO LET ME GET THIS STRAIGHT:

YOU ARE A FAT,LONELY USELESS DUDE TOO SCARED TO COMMIT SUICIDE AND FANTASIZE ABOUT GETTING A HOMO LOVER WHO LIKES TO PLAY DRESS UP (AND YOU WON'T BECAUSE LIKE I SAID BEFORE: EVEN THEY HATE FAT FUCK LOSERS LIKE YOU) AND I NEED MEDICATION?

OK NORMAN.

Can you NOT use the capslock for once?
You seem like an autistic kid whose mommy forgot to sedate him

Nice

DUDE ,IT ONLY GETS WORSE.NO ONE HERE CAN MAKE IT BETTER.

ITT: FAT FUCK DEGENERATES TOO SCARED OF COMMITTING SUICIDE CONVINCING FAT FUCK LOSER TO "GET BETTER"

Wow...that level of projection is amazing...So much projection, you are freuds wet dream.

Here's what we know about you now.

Fat, suicidal but scared, you're gay (or at least you fantasize about being gay - seemingly with a trap sort of scenario based off the 'dress up comment'.

PSSST....IT'S A DUDE

PSSST... ...IT'S A DUDE QUEER.

how good is this

no problem, im happy to help. its always good to be aware of your own mindset. i suggest you research some books to help you out if you want to work on yourself. they have to be scientifically supported, though.