Hey Sup Forumsros. Confession time

Hey Sup Forumsros. Confession time.
TLDR:I had sex as a kid and now I can't cum unless I think about it.
>I'm now a male, 21 yo white

So I had a babysitter in like 2nd or 3rd grade and I would go to her house (on a farm) before and after school since my songle mom worked alot. Well the babysitters daughter and i used to sneak off into some trees and touch each other. I just remember thinking it tickles at the time and the wierd feeling was somehow making the tickling feel better. Now i found when i masturbate i really cant get a good finish unless i think of those times. I have "normal" sex life I guess. I'm attractivish and never had a problem getting with girls before. But I can't masturbate with thinking of those times.

Does that make me a pedo?
Should I seek out pro help?
Or am I bitch who's not really that special?

Pic is house I was living I at the time

OP here, i forgot to say the daughter was about my age

Omg are u still thinking about that? Get over it, i have a sweet and caretaking boyfriend now!

Hmm like i said, I have a normal sex life with other people

Ok but why do you still think about me? Its quite horny anyway.

I dont think its pedo. You had a nice experience. Doesnt matter how old you were.

besides, is it pedophilia if both parts are underage? No.

why a 3g connection?

I basically got "raped" (i didnt want to do it but consented anyway) and now I have a deep fetish for the shit that happened (she gagged me and tied me up so I couldnt stop it)

>i didnt want to do it but consented anyway
Aw you should've left that out. It's too forced. Sure, some idiot is going to be like "YOU CAN'T CONSENT IF YOU'RE A KID". I mean someone will fall for it. But you had a great start and potential to really rope people in.

I banged a 14yr old when I was 17, she was hot as fuck. I'm 42 now, thinking how hot she was. I don't think I'm a pedo. If you focus on those times and the girl that's 1 thing, if you check out other girls now that age then your a sick fuck who needs castrated. Try to reunite with that chick, might be interesting.

>be 8
>live on an isolated cul-de-sac
>parents won't let me leave the block so not many play-options available
>see three girls I know (around my age) playing across the street and join them
>let's play dolls user
>eh....fuck it, sure
>go to one girl's house because she has a sweet rec room full of toys
>her mom's off to run errands and makes girl's older sister watch/babysit us
>older sister must've been around 12 or 13 (I only remember thinking of her as an "adult")
>she also must've been cute; a remember hearing my brother and his friends say she was hot
>all of us + older sister are playing house with Barbie dolls
>dolls are living a glamorous life sharing a condo on the beach
>I'm playing the Ken doll: he's an ex-ninja and reknowned doctor
>girls's dolls decide to go out dancing, so there's a lot of trying on outfits
>we make jokes about how the dolls only have bumps for private parts
>jokes turn into role-playing weird sexual situations with the dolls
>like "I just showered and have to make it to the bedroom without the rest of you seeing me naked"
>or "we don't have pajamas for the dolls so everyone has to sleep without any clothes on"
>older sister's doll decides she feels sick and gets in bed (naked of course)
>but we were going to go out dancing!
>what do we do? WHAT DO WE DO?

>user you're a doctor, can you do something for her?
>of course I can, bitches, outta my way
>girls' dolls take the private helicopter over to the "dance club" on the other side of the room
>my doll gives older sister's doll a physical exam
>super awkward for me and I'm trying to avoid my doll touching her doll's naughty bits
>her doll touches its tit-bumps and says it hurts there, specifically
>wait a fucking minute...
>the older sister has engineered this whole situation and WANTS me to touch her doll
>shit_just_got_real.avi
>she asks me if I "know what to do."
>uh....
>user, just kiss me here
>she indicates she wants my doll to kiss her dolls' boobs
>sounds a little weird but why not
>we're both completely silent while we manipulate our dolls to grope each other
>she lays her doll on top of mine and we sorta of watch them lie there
>like 20 minutes of hot doll-on-doll action
>girls' mom comes home
>time for dinner
>we all part ways

>next weekend I'm bored again and meet up with the girls
>hey user let's play school
>sure
>we set up the "classroom" in the girl's garage (same girl's house from part 1)
>one girl is the teacher, rest of us are students
>the older sister shows up out of nowhere and wants to play too
>the more the merrier!
>older sister declares that she is the principal
>she sets up her office in a small shed in the backyard (through the garage's back door)
>happily playing school for a while when the principal shows up and hands a note to the teacher
>user you've been called to the prinicpal's office
>ooooohhhh you're in trooooubllllle
>this blows, I didn't even do anything
>go out back to the shed/principal's office
>older sister has me close the shed door
>user you remember how you made me feel better last week?
>I made your doll feel better, but yes, I remember
>she takes my hands and puts them on her chest
>this is some kind of trick to get me in trouble!
>I try to run, but she holds my hands to her chest
>user go ahead, I won't tell
>wait....seriously?

>start squeezing her boobs over her shirt while she just watches me
>feel the satiny bra underneath
>I remember distinctly thinking this opportunity will never present it self again
>suddenly, kind of aggressively, I put my hand under her shirt and run them under her bra
>she gasps and her face turns bright red
>she half-heartedly tries to pull my hands out
>her boobs are bigger than my hands and SO SOFT
>something's weird...like little erasers or something on her boobs
>again kind of aggressively, I pull her shirt off and slip her bra straps off her shoulder
>her boobs in all their glory
>the "little erasers" were her hard nipples
>I play with her tits for a few minutes
>she tells me to kiss them
>I do, kissing and sucking on her tits
>she leans her head back and pushes out her chest
>hey this if fucking GREAT! I could do this all day
>I felt like finally I knew what this "sex" thing was all the adults were keeping from me
>then we hear the "teacher" calling for us
>she puts on her t-shirt
>I must've had a giant stupid grin on my face because she looks at me and laughs
>she walks me back to "class"
>user were you....okay with that?
>yup
>so you won't tell anyone?
>nope
>spend the rest of the day distracted

>another weekend comes around
>that morning I'm like a stalker at my bedroom window
>the girls finally come out and I run out like my house was on fire
>hey user do you wanna--
>WE'RE PLAYING SCHOOL AGAIN!
>we set up the classroom
>the older sister passes by and sees me staring at her, like come on come on
>she laughs and, same as before, declares herself the principal
>I'm antsy in the "classroom"
>the older sister comes in with a note...and it's for one of the girls
>oh WTFUCK?
>the girl goes and comes back a few minutes later with some dumb errand to do for the principal
>"class" continues for like another half hour
>it's my personal hell
>the older sister finally comes in with another note
>it's for me this time
>ooooohhhh you're in--
>SHUT UP BITCHES THIS IS SERIOUS
>outloud: oh shucks I hope I'm not in trouble
>I head out to the shed
>in the shed now and I close the door
>is there something you want user?
>c-can....we do that thing like last time?

>she says okay
>the older sister pulls off her shirt and unhooks her bra this time
>she beckons me closer
>I go to town on her tits
>there is nothing better than her tits. not even candy
>I'm actually IN LOVE with her tits I think
>she puts one of my hands on her crotch and I instinctively start moving my hand around
>she seems to like that
>my hand slips into her shorts at her waist
>she gasps and tries a little to stop me
>I reach her pussy
>headexplodes.exe
>hair? folds of skin?
>then everything got very wet
>what the fuh-- did she just pee on my hand?! (she didn't, I'm an idiot)
>user hold on
>she drops her shorts and panties
>I drop my jaw
>she DID have hair down there (a little bit anyway)
>then I start to pull down my shorts
>no user, you have to keep your clothes on
>she sits on a lawn chair and tells me to do what I like to do, but between her legs
>yyyyeah....okay
>she pushes me down to her pussy
>no technique whatsoever
>I start licking all over the place, pussy lips, her pubes, thighs, underside of her butt cheeks
>she grabs my head and holds me over the top of her pussy lips
>go crazy with my tongue
>she gets all tense and grips my head like a basketball
>I gotta be honest...at the time I did not like going down on her
>it was complicated down there and a hint, A HINT, of pee smell
>she finished and let me move back to her tits
>then those god damn girls started knocking on the shed door
>DON'T OPEN THE DOOR!
>if you and user aren't going to play just say so
>I had to stall for time
>"I don't want to play anymore then"
>the girls were like "FINE!"
>I watched the older sister get dressed and said thank you
>she touched my chin and smiled and we went our separate ways
>the girls were so insulted they never let me play with them again and I only saw the older sister in passing

Oml bump for this wonderful story

moar
this can't be over

Well I have one more interaction with her or a reverse of this where I babysat a neighbor girl. Which should I greentext up?

both obviously

Cool. Hang tight.

boy oh boy.

Pics of her? Or her currently?

I was 8yo. I didn't have a camera. And I have no idea where she is now. This was like 20 years ago.

She had amazing tits. Dirty blonde hair, at the time it was shoulder length and wavy. Pubes were wispy and soft, but much darker than her other hair. I remember her being slim like a swimmer, but not muscular really. Soft all over. Blue eyes.

that's fucking hot and you're only describing her.

also still waiting for the rest

Do you remember name? You could find current pics online I'm sure

Oh her name is burned into my brain, yeah.

Josie.

Is that short for something? I actually don't know.

...

we'd probably need a last name too.

Yeah and a street address, too right?

I know how to google. Don't worry.

>I was ostracized from the girls' little group
>and I never had a good reason to be around the older sister
>so that really bummed me out
>I'd ride my bike in endless circles outside hoping she'd see me
>stare at her house from my bedroom window
>this went on for months
>until FINALLY one summer night she noticed
>I was staring at her house and saw a light flick on in one of the bedroom windows
>the blinds peel up and it's her
>she opens the window for some fresh air and leans out
>I'm like wait can she see me from there
>she looks right at me, surprised
>I drop down like an idiot
>peek out after a few seconds to see her laughing and shaking her head as she turns back into her room
>she stretches her arms like she's sore or something
>and then lifts off her shirt in that crossed-arms-at-the-waist-first way that girls take their tops off
>no bra, but her back is to me
>a little more stretching
>then she turns around and gives me the full view
>god damn i love her boobs
>even several houses away her boobs are spectacular to me
>she closes her blinds and that was that

Part 2
>a few days later it's the weekend and the street is buzzing with activity
>neighborhood is throwing a block party
>food and games and shit
>it's a lot of fun
>the three girls are still ignoring me
>but fuck them, I NEED to be with the sister again
>maybe just talk to her
>tell her how much I love her boobs (chicks did that, right?)
>can't find her
>maybe she's out doing something else
>someone declares the sack race is on and it's adults vs adults
>I'm watching them flop around
>feel a tap on my shoulder
>turn and...nobody's there
>the fuck?
>look the other way and see the sister walking away from me
>without looking back at me, I see her walk through the side yard and into the backyard (towards the shed)
>HOLY FUCK IT'S HABBENING
>it's all I can do to stop from running over
>I stroll casually towards the shed
>stop to check the drink table out. yup drinks are icy cold.
>stop to check some of the balloons tide up. yup, still floating
>check my six. nobody's looking at me.
>boom, turn the corner into the backyard
>should I knock or just go in?
>I'll just go in
>oh god she IS in here
>stand, mought open, while she lays a yoga mat on the ground
>she smiles and tells me to close the door

Bump

Bump

>"user is it all right if we fool around again?"
>before she's done asking she's already undoing the rope knot of her shorts and pulling them down
>I just give a shakey exhale
>she laughs and is like are you still nervous?
>she pulls down her underwear, but I can't really see anything because her hoody is longer
>then she unzips her hoody and lets it open
>no bra or shirt on underneath
>somehow being half-dressed makes it SO much hotter to see
>she steps over to me and reaches to me
>I think she's going to hug me so I hug her too
>she laughs and reaches past me to lock the shed door
>oh
>"no user, it's okay. you can do whatever you want."
>I huge her for a minute or so, putting my head into her boobs
>then disengages from me and lies down on the yoga mat
>"user, can you...?"
>she open her legs
>I'll do it, but only as a favor
>I get down between her legs and lick all over
>she holds my head and I like that she's taking charge
>at some point I dip lower and actually tongure her butthole
>she gasps
>"wow user you're okay with that?"
>she likes it so I like it
>I remember I pushed my tongue in a little bit too
>anyway she finishes
>then I climb up higher and go apeshit on her tits
>I'm sucking hard now
>nibbling on her nipples
>she finishes again I think (breathing heavy, heavier, then holding her breath and tightening her whole body up)
>while this is happening I remember hearing laughing and talking outside
>the whole fucking neighborhood was like 30 feet away
>it was magical
>we finished and I watched her get dressed, which made her laugh again
>she said we could be secret gf/bf

>I should mention that she was much cleaner than the last time I went down on her
>she must've just come from a shower or something
>which is why I apparently was okay tongue-ing her butthole

>so yeah that was the last time
>the opportunity to be with her just never happened again
>plus I wasn't smart enough to engineer a good reason
>I have an older brother and sister, so either of them would babysit me if necessary
>I thought she could maybe tutor me in something (as an excuse) but again my older bro/sis would be forced to do that if I was serious

THERE MUST BE MORE

I wish. The more time that passed the more weird it felt to try to pick up where we left off. If I had 3 wishes I blow two on being able to go back in time and really make some good shit happen for 8yo me.

Third wish is still kill Hitler.