Starting an addiction or recovering addict thread. What's your story?

Starting an addiction or recovering addict thread. What's your story?

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I've been doing any drug I can since I was 17 (I'm 27 now). Coke, pills, meth, whatever I can get.
My liver is pretty fucked up but I the times I tried to quiet life got so gray and boring that is not worth it.

is getting drunk every weekend a problem?

amphetamines and masturbation, i love getting fucked on speed and wanking for 10 hours straight, and when i finally cum i wait like 20 mins and go again

I do the same man, jerking of until your cock is red as a tomato and hurts for 2 days.
The only way to jerk off.

>be 16
>never considered trying drugs
>all of a sudden considered
>start smoking pot
>love it
>start dropping acid
>love it
>ff 5 years
>well pot and acid are fine I guess all this War on Drugs crap is bullshit - what can I do now?
>start doing coke
>drinking heavily
>get into xanax
>get into opiates
>become full-blown cokehead
>ff 5 years
>shit I'm kinda fucked up
>go to rehab
>stay clean for 10 years
>start smoking pot again
>start drinking lean
>start taking RC benzos
>lose job
>whoops
>quit everything except pot
>much better
SHOULD HAVE LEFT WELL ENOUGH ALONE.

Im at a treatment center right now, my DOC is opiates. Always thought i'd be able to kick it on my own but when your life gradually crumbles down its difficult to become clean and then have to deal with normal life stuff as well.

8 months sober now.

Congrats bro! 8 months is a long time to be clean.

I'm a recovering meme addict. I used to go around Sup Forums in search of the freshest memes. Then one day my mom said, "Stop going online 12 hours a day. You should socialize with REAL PEOPLE!" I then quit for 5 minutes. That was the most horrible 5 minutes in my life. Now, I'm searching for more memes to get that euphoric state.

blast the volume:
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Thanks! Feels good to be able to focus on hobbies and education again.

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This seems like one of those vice covers from the old time when vice wasn't shit.

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Your father must be proud.

hail Gavin & Uncle

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wrong thread newfag. fuck off

Gavin talking about Terry & Vincent Gallo youtu
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in that video Gavin is referring to this:
unz.org/Pub/AmConservative-2003aug11-00019
rob.irulethe.net/hip-to-be-square/

Suddenly it had become fashionable to link liberalism with weakness and conservatism with honesty. Underground film iconoclast Vincent Gallo (“Buffalo 66,” “Palookaville,” “Goodfellas”) is now quoting Nixon and Reagan as if they were Wordsworth and Yeats. Fashion photographer Terry Richardson (Gucci, Sisley, Levi’s) is showing up at conservative book launches and publicly trashing Clinton.

So are you using every day/physically addicted?

thread was dead Zed

>Slam meth every 3 days for 2 years
>Almost lose my whole life due to loans, pawns, and job
>Move to Seattle out of desperation
>Can't establish contacts due to paranoia and fear of niggers
>Clean for a month

I dream of that shit every night but I gotta keep moving forward. Seeing homeless people shoot up in the bus doesn't help.

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Addicted to porn, which tbh isn't that bad because it probably kept me from getting addicted to hard drugs, booze, cigs.

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no such thing as sex addiction
cumming is life

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Yeah, but I keep them rotating so physical addiction is mild. I usually do meth one week, coke another, take a brake a week with weed and adderall and so forth.

addicted to procrastination

I'm a addicted in bruises and burns. I try to many as I can

>be 15yo me
>hide the bike down the road at light speed
>start losing control over it
>THATBOISDED.XML
>fall like a sack of shit
>bruises the entire arm pretty badly
>heythatsprettygood
>look at it and think it's nice looking
>fast-forward 2y and a half
>bruises the body with sand paper sometimes
>start going creative and put some cigarettes on skin
>try beating himself at the wall and shit
>gets questioned about the appearance
>says got in a fight
>keep going till this day

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i know how you feel. I used to get such a rush just watching people bang speed. Guess i still will i just try to stay away from those situations.

Anyways it will make you stronger in the long run. Just keep pushing.

I got sober for 3 months in AA so they would give me a key to open the meeting. The meeting was held in its own separate building so I was able to drink in their with no consequences.

The bundle was ten tiny plastic bags of beige powder wrapped with wax paper and stamped with a skull and crossbones. Dealers like branding their product as much as any small business owner and want you to know exactly who it was that got you so high.
Suroosh told me that whenever he heard someone OD'd, he and his junkie friends would run over to the guy's house hoping to find out what brand the guy was doing, because it must be some really good shit.

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Started smoking pot at 16. By 17 was starting to fuck around with party designer drugs and was into the rave scene for a good 4 years. Hella e, coke, ketamine and psychedelics. Finally get around to trying opiates, smoking Oxys and whatnot (80's were still around). Eventually leads to shooting dope. Selling for years making money and supporting my habit. Decided to quit before anything of real consequence happened. Been clean for a couple months now.
Got out alive and without a record. Feels good man.

That superlative rush just on the cusp of each day ,chase the dragon,
Chase it, I'm riding on her back!
Look no hands.
Heroin is my heroin.
then on day i woke up, and the dragon was chasing me.
*sigh*

youtube.com/watch?v=kxcWJWZLuzE

Absolutely salivate over zolpidem!

He said New York was a perfect skating setting and he met a lot of people in New York through skateboarding. “A lot of the artists we started to show came out of that world. But I didn’t really know any artists.” Among those to come out of that early skate scene – centered in Tompkins Square Park – were Harmony Korine and Chloe Sevigny. “The art thing was always secondary, it was always more like, you skate, I skate, let’s hang out.”

But he points out that the Alleged Gallery was never set up as a money-making business. “It was just where we lived – me and my friends lived there, in the gallery.” The area was known for its pervasive drug use and Rose said his group actually started designing the heroin bags, the art for the stamps on the bags, in exchange for being left alone in the neighborhood.

Rose also talks about Larry Clark, director of the film Kids, and how the movie impacted the scene. ”A lot of that whole scene of people who were hanging out together, that was the cast of Kids, essentially,” he recalled, adding that Clark brought in a few well-seasoned actors, but for the most part, it was the same group of skater kids they all knew.

what is that ?

Always wanted to know, what are designer drugs exactly? What did you take?

So its not an economical problem for you yet? Its difficult to quit before you have been pushed into debt/poverty or health problems.

Have you tried any natural stimulants? Like coca leafs and stuff like that? Cant compare it to real drugs but some people manage to cope with it. Depends wether you are willing to settle for something less exciting though.

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>what is that ?

lord GAVIN having a few bumps of H

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Nope, stimulants actually help with my job so no money problems so far.
I've tried coca leaves once but the taste and smell killed it for me.
I'm moving to another city soon so I probably lay it off for a bit while I'm dealerless.

this is the story of a girl, who cried a river and drowned the whole world

Gavin McInnes speaks for a second about the time Harmony was going to cut Terry Richardson
youtu
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BTW, Gavin totally got that part about Harm not knowing T-Bone was a junkie at the time, 100% wrong.
there are many photographs for proof that T-Bone was hanging with Harm around the time they both started smoking heroin and snorting blow.
my guess is that Harm was going to cut T-Bone over some bad drug deal or because he was going to leak his nudes:
i.imgur.com/89zTTuQ.jpg
he is basically referring to Harm there +there were a few models/actresses that were pissed at T-Bone for "leaking" shots they didn't approve of.
also, earlier that week on Gavin's show, he was talking about his memory of those days not being so good, so that is why he totally fucked up about Harm not knowing T-Bone was going to nod out all day

!!!!!!!!!!please let everyone know that Uncle forced Kirsten Dunst to spread her legs for McInnes:
terrysdiary.com/post/745619699/mekirstengavin-and-justin
100% proof!

terrysdiary.com/post/133798752502/miley-at-my-studio-9

Ah, i see. Have you tried Ypadu? Its grinded up coca leaves mixed with some stuff to make it more potent. Comes in a powder and works reallly well. You can put it in your cheeks and suck on it like coca leafs, eat it or snort it (very unpleasant). But its a Godsent for stimulant addicts.

If taste is a problem its possible to put it in capsules. It tastes a bit like liqorice.

Anyways, good luck with moving and starting a new life!

BRUCE: Don't you have a Robert Downey Jr. story?
TERRY: We were like nine or ten and we smoked weed and played "Cream the Carrier."

BRUCE: What's that?
TERRY: You know, you run around and tackle each other and get the person into a position until they say "Uncle." I didn't see him again until years later, I was 22 and running these underground clubs in LA - Viva La Revolution and Dr. T's - and he came into one of them.

BRUCE: Where were those clubs?
TERRY: Downtown. MacArthur Park and below was where all the cool underground clubs were. The '80s in L.A. were really amazing and decadent.

BRUCE: So-Cal punk is legendary.
TERRY: Yeah, I saw The Germs and Black Flag when I was a little kid.

not sure if this is the place for a question like this but is it possible to be immune to addiction?

Been an addictionologist for 17 years, shooting H for the last ten. I've been in and out of rehab/detox at least ten times. I'm actually getting everything sorted out to go back to a place in Mexico on Monday for Ibogaine treatment then sober living after that. I started doing H when I was 18 or 19 n I had no idea what a true physical addiction looked like otherwise I think I probably wouldn't have started, it only took a week or 2 for the physical symptoms to start to manifest, being violently Ill throwing up every muscle in my body hurting and aching feeling like my bones are trying to force their way out of my body back feels like it's being crushed in a vice wHile burning up but somehow feeling like there's a layer of frost on me all within a couple hours of waking up n not getting high. Then there's not being able to eat or sleep without it either. I wanthink some control and some freedom back in my life not being tethered to my area cuz this is where the dope man lives,be able to spend my money on whatever I want instead of every dollar going into my veins.

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Thanks a lot man for the wishes! I've never heard of Ypadu, I'll try to get my hands on some.

count the dopes who slide down the slimy drain,,,oh no not me,,unh unh,,NEVERNEVERNEVER

I really feel like that's true. With time comes motivation and hope. I have the best job I've had in my entire life and my son was just born. Fuck, even just smelling grass is pretty decent.

Weed helps as well and I've even cutting way back on that.

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I was adickted to dudes, greatest thing that ever happened to me.

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>be me
> deeply closeted homo
> drugs because Fuck normies
> do heroin & methadone and everything for 8 years
> dream of becoming scarface
> actually start being scarface, ppl all over town want to kill me
> have nervous breakdown
> drugs stop working, don't numb any emotional pain anymore
> quit drugs completely by religious conversion.
> still have herpes from loving unclean women
> still have hepatitis C
> still have needle scars everywhere
> blank job resume

yeah.. that was totally worth it

> regret life

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H withdrawals are very interesting because it really shows the temperamental nature of the human condition. Things like feeling your own spinal compression and the friction wear on your own joints, these are things that happen no matter what. So why is it that we are numb to those pains normally but when experiencing withdrawal from a painkiller? Shouldn't the pain just be more pronounced than normal rather than seemingly coming from nowhere?

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>blank job resume
So build it.
>Hep C/Herpes
You think you're the only one?
>Still not using a condom
You might be retarded.

Do you have the balls to stay clean? Religious conversion is such a weird path I've seen people take. You really do have to hit the bottom of the bottom to do that moronic shit.

But good job.

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My story is shared by many, and is painfully dull compared to people on hard drugs
>be freshman in college
>only drank a few times at parties
>roomie introduces me to pot
>get nervous about doing something so illegal
>friend lies to me by saying it's synthetic, which was legal at the time.
>smoke,don't get too high, but fast food is tasting amazing
>proceed to smoke throughout my college career
>the highs are potent and my imagination and mood soars
>buy my own piece and weed and start doing it alone
>after months of heavy usage, the lustre is lost
>be today, two years graduated
>weed is daily, but the high is always weak
>gets me anxious and self deprecating but feel so bored when sober
>no tolerance break is longer than a week
>feel profoundly bored with weed as it is normalized in my life
>accept it, and know that at least I will never move onto harder drugs such as meth or coke
>take shrooms every few months to obliterate depression and apathy
>live life like a normie

Weed is alright, but I always feel like I'm chasing those early days of highness, when everything was vibrant, funny, and special.

Mario, is that you?

Man, I can't jerk off or have sex with anyone without a line of good old crystal. I take full accountability for that. But every time I start going through a porn site my mind associates a 20 right up the nostril. Then 8 hours of unbelievably nasty wanking/sex.

What's a good alternative?

yep, how did you find out?

Designer drugs are kinda like 'socially acceptable' party type drugs. So like ecstasy/molly, cocaine, lsd even. Maybe these days 'lean' could be included on that list.

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Yeah, after a while weed just makes you feel burnt out and hazy all the time.

Get more exercise, it will cause the THC in your fat to enter your blood stream and in turn trick your brain into thinking exercise is the thing causing this awesome feeling. Once that stops working rotate in a bowl.

Try green tea. Lots of mental health boosts from that as well.

I think it is not completely impossible but it is a much deeper question than it seems on the surface. The way that addiction is viewed currently has major flaws that don't line up with the reality of how an addicted brain operates. It is possible to be immune from addiction but I do not believe that it is possible at our current point of understanding the neural drive for addiction. Once advancements are made and we can better understand these things I think addiction will be a whole different situation than it is today.

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Well since I was 13 I've been smoking and drinking. Started doing harder shit like Molly and acid when I was 15. Now I just can't stand being sober for too long. If I have nothing available to me I will do pills, cough syrup, etc. I started doing all this to numb depression and I've got to say, I don't have many regrets.

Used to eat 3 of these things every few days. Switched to meth once a dude on Craigslist let me try it. Quit both eventually. Almost 45 days sober.

I don't think I have any psychological problems, I think I'm an asshole who buys drugs with literally 100% of my income (living at home).I'm only 18 and already a fucking wreck of a man

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I feel you user. Most of my money that's not for food and bills goes to alcohol and cigarettes. The additional tax on tobacco here in California has made my financial troubles worse. Fucking faggots.

>count the dopes who slide down the slimy drain,,,oh no not me,,unh unh,,NEVERNEVERNEVER

bullshit! anyone can become like Uncle \m/