Does anyone have experience with 'mail order brides'? What are they really? How does a relationship with someone like that pan out? Does it even happen anymore? How long does a relationship with one tend to last? Is it anything like arranged marriages? Does those even exist? Where do you meet these people? Is it permanent?
I know that is a lot of questions, but, lately I've been struggling to come to terms with how short life is.
I'm 26; I've never had a real relationship, I have no children, I don't have any money in the bank, I have no valuable physical possessions, I work a dead end minimum wage job, I don't have a place of my own, I'm in medical debt, I'm unattractive.
There isn't anything about me that makes me marketable.
I haven't been with another human being in a while. And it's sad to say, that the only few people who have expressed interest in me I've rejected because I didn't find them attractive. I wish I did. That way I could fill the emptiness.
I don't want to die alone. I want to have someone by my side who will help me give my life meaning.
Sorry for the rant, I guess. But, I'm scared and I don't know where else to go, or who else to tell.
I haven't been here in a while, so maybe this place has changed, and this isn't the right place anymore.
But, maybe you guys'll have some answer that'll help me. Besides, it's not like I have any other options. Maybe reaching out to you guys isn't such a terrible idea.