Its ya sadboi basement OP

Its ya sadboi basement OP
Back again for another night of upbeat existential dread and oddly happy depression.

Whats up Sup Forums anyone wanna kidnap me maybe? i could use a spark of something in my life.

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Hey man, it's been a few nights, how ya been?

Also, i have $3 in my steam account, and seeing as how that cant buy me weed, cigarettes or love.
Ill buy something for one of you dilweeds whom i care about.

Yo basement OP it's Obi here

well, i got told the electric bill was too high today, so ive been in blackout mode pretty much. Just sleeping on my phuton in the dark.

Its been oddly comforting.

Proof of my steam currency.

I see, quiet where you are?

its middle of nowhere farmland Pennsylvania
Place called Martinsburg.
KInda lame.

If you have a computer, save up $2 and buy "The Binding of Issac".
It will keep you entertained for hours.
Its really neat.

i torrented it once, its not my jazz. WHile i enjoyed supermeat boy, i cant do dual stick shooters, they arent that fun to me.
But thats a good idea for the game ill buy someone.

You could also get four copies of the game "Murder Miners"
store.steampowered.com/app/274900/Murder_Miners
I played it on the Xbox360, and it's better than it looks.
-Obi

store.steampowered.com/app/48000/LIMBO/?snr=1_7_7_204_150_12

Limbo is on sale for $2 right now on Steam. If you haven't played it. Go get it

is right. It's a pretty challenging platformer, but not that much reply value.

ay guys, i got games for days... i just wanna give something away so i feel better about myself.

Leeching my trade cards from steam to do so..

dubs and a steam name gets BoI i guess

As people seem to be recommending games for you that you can play with your limited funds, might I suggest Card Hunter? It's free-to-play for a start, and surprisingly entertaining. Oh and no it's not a collectible card game cancer, it's actual a pretty decent card-based strategy game. Give it a try you have nothing to lose.

Hobbies?

What's up depressed basement dude? I'm an anxiety-ridden girl from the Midwest.

A four pack of Murder Miners pls
steamcommunity.com/id/ObiConKnowme

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refer to I have many a game i havent played yet.

I dont have good internet so i dont download shit.

Just wanna give back to Sup Forums because this is my therapy alot of the time.

i play guitar, gonna give it to my friend though, kinda down on my ability with it.
I make youtube videos sometimes.

I can solve a rubix cube in less than 2 minutes.
Ehh, not too many of them.

SUUUURREE you are. No but anxiety sucks my dooderina. I know its so cliche to say, but try not to overthink things.. Life goes on regardless, a small blip does not a disaster make.

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Dude fuck, Fine give me a second.

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Nah Op, I want to get dubs.
I forget to enable them.
This should be the time.

OP

>Implying

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Im getting you a one pack so the Binding of isaac is still on the table.

Brute force isnt good methods..

Oh no, my fifi's Ill be sure to write this down in my journal

two shoes are better than one.

To make up for the spam, I'll post some memes my dude.
-Obi

-brObi

Hey user you seem alright. I'm (technically) in a basement right now, I'm 34 years old, and I've been depressed my entire adult life. Also have anxiety problems though I'm getting better at coping with those, along with a few other more minor issues

I've been through the system for a long time, and I've learned a lot to try and cope with it all. I really want to be able to help, but I know practically nothing about you. Please ask questions and I'll help you as best I can.

-Obi

i dont really have much on the side of questions to help cope, my methods are pretty decent at the moment.. no longer WANTING to actively off myself.

Im just stuck in a position of thinking life is pointless without some decent people around you, and i cant make friends for shit (not by lack of trying) and my history with ladies is pretty garbage.

I just wanna feel like there is more.. Reasons i guess? I dont wanna be complacent in a 9-5 and hate my life like alot of people i meet do.

Well you're out of suicidal tendancies, so that's good. Also you have a 9-5 job it seems, which is better than a lot of people (including myself). The fact you're even able to work implies that the depression you're suffering from isn't crippling. I guess I'll ask a few questions instead to get a better grasp of your situation:
how old?
job?
living with parents?
finances?

20
No job currently though ive been through like 4
>actually quit my last job because of my depression
But i had a mental breakdown and felt alot better afterwards

living with my estranged father (hadnt spoken to him in years before moving here out of a last ditch effort to do good)

Im dirt poor. my only money right now is on my steam account from selling trading cards, Thats why im trying to give away a game or something

being philanthropic makes me feel better

Ok... time for more specific questions...

What do you feel passionate about?
OR
When was the last time you feel like you had a good conversation, where you felt strongly about your views, and what was it about?

Thats the fuck of it all,
I dont feel passionate about pretty much anything. I like helping people..

Thats an odd question that im not sure i can answer. I have strong feeling that a strong feeling in ones view is a downfall and to keep an open mind is how you get smarter

I understand. I have a similar though not identical thing, when people ask me what I enjoy or find fun I simply cannot find an answer, everything that should be entertaining or make me happy fails to do so. Sometimes though I'll find myself in a conversation and start to notice that I'm talking on a particular subject at some length, with passion and interest. This is how I've come to identify my passions. It may seem odd to others, but depression can often mask the simplest of self-truths. Try looking out for it in conversations you have, even if they're just online. It could even be as simple as another person's point of view that somehow makes you angry, and identifying if it was perhaps an unjustified anger. An example could be someone says a great film is shit, and you start getting passionate about defending it.

How often do you get out of the house, and for what purpose?
What do you spend most of your free time doing?

Most people I met in college in their early 20's had no clue what they wanted to do. If you feel empathetic, you need something to give you direction in your life.

>that gif was 25 years ago

>need something to give you direction in life
This, i lacked the parental push of trying to do new things and such and while i by no means blame my family for where i am today, i feel like ive had a shortcoming on direction.

i get out of the house almost everyday or every other day, usually to walk around for the sole reason OF getting out of the house

Most of my free time is spent watching things on youtube. Id rather be spending time with people/friends but i dont really have that option so i sit alone and try to make conversation with internet people/facebook.

Post your address ill be there with in a week. I wont hurt you or kill you. I am a man of my word.

hah, while i dont care about my own life/saftey i cant put my family at risk. As i said before, i live in Pennsylvania, in a town called martinsburg. So have a fun search around

I think it might help you to know that you're not alone. In fact, I would call it the silent epidemic of the 21st Century, a shocking escalation in isolation for young males.

My suggestion to make friends is to find a hobby that actively requires social participation, and then find a local group. You'll find that rather than having to 'make' friends, friends will kinda just happen more naturally. Depending on your choice you may also find that many of people are in similar (but perhaps not as dire) situations to yourself.

Several years ago, in a situation similar to yourself, I found a local gaming club and took an old box of magic the gathering cards I had gathering dust. I got back into the game just playing casually (some people are more competitive but I think it's just kinda sad tbh) and over time made friends with a similar mindset. Some were just awful people, and many were the kind of social outcasts that just make you feel uncomfortable, but sure enough there were relatively decent normal people there just like me, and naturally we grouped together. The old saying "birds of a feather" is very true and it kinda happens with very little effort. Now we meet up a few times a week and hang out.

The point is, I've never cared much for playing Magic the Gathering, but I still go to that club - playing the game is just an excuse to be able to go out and socialise. If I didn't, I feel like I would probably be in a situation very much like your own, friendless and alone.

I suggest you try the same thing. What do you have to lose?

that would be all good and shit, and id already be doing so if i had transportation. But i live in farmland nowhere and have no one around me willing to drive me places, thats why i walk 1-2 miles to get into a small town for ANY kind of outside social interaction.

I appreciate the kind words though. Thanks for putting in that effort.

Im trying to do exactly what you said. Should be easier in 6 days though, ill be 21 and able to go to bars.

What do you think of this man?

youtube.com/watch?v=W30YdmOvi0A

Hey OP, guy you were talking about therapy the other day with, glad to see your doing ok. Hows the mental battle going?

Id say that hes the worlds most dangerous mercenary.
I mean, Look at the guy.
>probably not the sharpest crayon in the shed

Ay, just drinking the last bottle of 1800, good to see a thread up.

well, im trying to give things away to people to make myself feel better, maybe itll help meet people or something.
Im fine, just hate the loneliness/black feeling i get at night after a day of no human interaction.
So i come to Sup Forums

Might try to leave home and just trek it to a city or something, maybe try to start over somewhere else, im tired of my life.

Bars are overrated, and honestly it'll make your life worse. You'll spend your money drinking, get nowhere and make yourself feel worse. Also unlikely you'll find anyone from a bar decent enough to bother coming 1-2 miles out to see you. Bar buddies are AT BEST fair-weather friends. I would advise instead investigating bus routes from the small town, and any relatively close social gatherings of a more sober disposition. Perhaps even get some kind of transportation from Altoona-Blair?

I feel that man, i read to little kids every friday to help other people. A change of location maybe could shake up your life and make things feel fresh. Always important to plan some if you can.

I think maybe you should try getting to the city, but don't just up and leave. Ever wonder where all those homeless come from? Think about it.
Perhaps try applying for jobs in your nearest city, looking at accommodation, maybe even some kind of apprenticeship. Working is a great way to meet people and make friends (depending on the type of job) and getting to the city PROPERLY would be a great way to improve your lot.

o daddy iknow them feels.im broke and its taboo to say it but ill have a motherfuckin good day

Have you considered a hobby were you create things. Art, sculpting, woodworking, miniatures or models. It gives you something to do that you can be proud of and a finished product you can display show and make your house seem more like a home?

>planning
Planning implies i have something to plan around
>am poor
>no friends
>Just trying to give my shit away

I know how stupid it sounds but i need to find something to do with the next 60 years of my life that doesnt make me feel like its all pointless.

finding a bus station might be a good start, but i dunno, id for sure get into some fighting game tourneys but im so fed-up with life in general that im ready to drink myself into the hospital on my 21st birthday (the 16th)

Im hoping it might be a rock-bottom wakeup call if i end up in some kinda trouble be-it legally or physically.

I guess im trying to engage the fight or flight notion of my life.

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living in a basement would be super comfy if it was hermetically sealed and no bugs and vermin could get in.

I was thinking more about logistics, where are you going, how will you get there, what jobs do they have there, where will i sleep. I find thinking about logistics and planning exercises my brain and can distract. Its important to create short and long term goals to give your life meaning.

my artistic prowess is garbage, even on my guitar. my rhythm and shit Suuuuuckkk. Im too hard on myself to do anything like that.

I know what your saying, and again i realize how stupid it sounds. Maybe ill craigslist some stuff, and try to figure something out. at this point im kinda forcing myself into a nose-dive. Thats when the real motivation comes out and i feel like i need to do it or die.

Im not super depressed or anything.. just really uncarring about life because i feel as if its pretty pointless. I crave companionship be-it in the form of friends/relationship or anything of the sort. Ive tried to make friends around where i am, but i dotn vibe well with people i guess, and that hurts my self esteem. Who knows.. I know im pretty much a bitch about it.

I know you're frustrated, but try to have patience. Realise that nothing is going to suddenly fix your life all in one go, it'll come one step at a time. Choose a first step, perhaps from what is bothering you the most, and focus on that. If you can get the first step down you'll find the next one easier, and so on and so on.

If you decide your focus is on getting friends into your life, and if you can find a way to get to Atloona, then I suggest this as a real good start:
gatehouse-games.com/

might sounds dumb but, what about friends online like from an MMO, not us random fags on the /b. I have made a few great long terms friends from WoW and FF14

Its not, not really at all.

I understand. especially the whole "where to sleep/jobs" thing. the point im getting at i guess is, i dont feel like theres a point to any of it, if im just gonna feel this way my whole life, so i dont care if it ends up me dead in a ditch somewhere.

To put some more neunce to this, i have put in a bunch of job applications but have got hired nowhere yet, im on like week 5 of putting in apps EVERYWHERE and getting no calls for some reason.

I know nothing happens in a second. But im tired of being hopefull for a situation that seemingly is a falsehood made to make people feel better about their lives.

Fighting game tourneys eh? Take whatever tiny spark made you say that and try to turn it into something. Fighting games have big online communities and there are loads of tourneys that are held just online, no need to travel. If you start doing those regular (they can often be limited to your state) you may find some friends that way.

my internet currently is using an ipad as a hotspot.

If i had internet id probably be doing alot better due to the distractions i could be doing, like overwatch and such. Hell id even live stream CONSTANTLY, because that seems like itd be fun. But alass i have no oppurtunity to do those things.

Refer to This is wht i post on Sup Forums alot.
>takes almost no internet
>lots of people
>People who have open/fucked up minds.

Therapy cost money and most mental health does, so does interent and those luxturies. BUT reading can be your gateway into other worlds and other mindsets, you can read to entertain and distract. Also you can read philosophy and books on depression and behavioral modification meditation. Library cards is free id highly recommend it.

I got cheap internet installed (comcast) but nothing with me to use it for whatever.

cool basement tho

its REALLY not.
It looks cool to someone who doesnt live in it.

OK real talk time - being hopeful will get you nowhere. You seem to realise that action is needed, but you've decided that the action you're going to take is a nose-dive. Why? Whether you realise it or not, it's because it's the easiest option and the depression is telling you you're not worth any better.

FUCK
THAT

If you're going to take action, then try to make that action positive. Put your attention into improving your life ANY WAY THAT YOU CAN, not making it worse and hoping something comes out of it, that WILL NOT WORK. Depression is a cunt that sits in your subconscious and gives you terrible ideas fueled by your self-loathing and existential despair.

FUCK
THAT
GUY

Don't let him make excuses for why you didn't try something positive, and don't let him beat you up if it doesn't work. You ARE stronger than he is, and the more that truth is realised the stronger you'll be.

Get a bike - travel into your small town just got a lot easier. That's the obvious step one and identify that voice in your head right now that's saying "ehhhhhh" or "fuck that" or "I can't be bothered" because that voice is the enemy. Really think hard about why you wouldn't get a bike, and instead of viewing it as a reason to not try, view it as an obstacle to overcome.

Right now life seems meaningless because deep down you're afraid your life will always be the same as it is now, and frankly yes that would be a meaningless life. Nobody is going to come along and fill your life with meaning, you have to do that for yourself, and there is PLENTY of meaning out there for your life to have, but you have to get out there.

However that seems too big right now, I know that, just know that's the end goal, and take the little steps one at a time. Step one, get a bike, it'll help with the steps to come next.

You can do this, and the part of you telling you that you can't, making you feel weak and lazy and worthless, telling you it'll never work, he's the enemy.

I have a bike, i guess i shoulda clarified that with the whole walking thing. I just choose walking alot of the time because hills are niggers.

You pretty much described the song
Ungrateful- toh kay

I know where your coming from and i AM trying to engge in making ym life better, its just not working out great, and i have alot of pressure around me to make it work out faster or ill just get kicked out of the small basement i DO have.

Like i said also, i know im being kinda bitch about it. I have job apps out, im trying to do things to avoid the sad bullshit, but sometimes at night it just gets to be too much. I can usually push it down during the day unless something sets it off, but ive just had this whole 'stagnant' feeling lately that i want to change.

Wish i could help more OP, ill be your friend!

Use bike
Go here -> gatehouse-games.com/
Make friends

Shame you're not closer to Philly. I'd hang with you, user.

op can you move at all? i used to live in a small ap, a real shithole of a place, and it fucked me up. at the beginning (first 2 years) i was cool with it and all, kinda alone but i never really minded. after 3 years tho.. that place would mess with me. i used to stay out til late, doing nothing, just to avoid looking at those fucking wall. i stood there for 5 years... shit got real for some time, used to take pills to sleep and sometimes drink till i pass out.

idk, its just a thought, but i think the place you live can really influence your humor and whatnot. now that i moved it feels like the time i spent there was just a (kinda boring) nightmare.

No no i agree completely, thats why im thinking about just up and leaving one day. This small ass room starts to feel like a prison, like a feverdream of someone whos gone insane.

WALK TO PHILLY IT IS
Nah but it does suck. I turn 21 on the 16th and dont really have anyone to celebrate with.

Oh anyone still here want Binding of isaac?

Take a bus to center city Philadelphia and we'll grab something to eat.

>Like i said also, i know im being kinda bitch about it. I have job apps out, im trying to do things to avoid the sad bullshit, but sometimes at night it just gets to be too much. I can usually push it down during the day unless something sets it off, but ive just had this whole 'stagnant' feeling lately that i want to change.

its like im reading my 5 years ago self. youre depressed fam. "stagnant feeling" and all that jazz.

just move. if you cant, find someone to talk to (not the internet fags here) and do some shit with. go travel for a while. do whatever, but staying in this place and making a strong face wont help you bro, trust me.

Keys if anyone wants em.

Big Pharma:
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Dude hell yeah.
OP here not gonna take any but you are a good person.

Why bump.. it seems like this is dead regardless of how much i want it NOT to be. Usually these threads get a decent amount of hitback.

>not to say i dont appreciate everyone who DID post, even the douches.

Nobody wants to kidnap you.
But we do want to kidnap your little sister.

Oh you're so edgy, its actually kind of cute.