Attended cousins funeral today

>Attended cousins funeral today
>Wasn't significantly close to him but it still was sad af fuck
>His mother crying over his casket, telling him to wake up ect
>His hot fiance deliriously in between laughing and bursting into tears
>Seeing everyone I care about break down and sob despite their best efforts to stay composed
>Comparing this funeral to my hypothetical funeral where I kill myself
>Deciding I'm not as popular and not so many people will show up
>Decide suicide is never an option, ring gf and tell her I love her
>Get back to work after the mass and cry
>Workmates tease me after
>Not a good day

Just venting a bit dudes, dubs gets cause of death

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Watch a movie. always lifts my spirits

Seeing my mom in tears after I told her I was suicidal woke me up. After that I told myself I never wanted to her to cry like that again. So I decided, no matter how powerful the darkness is, I would never do it for as long as she lived. As I matured, episodes became less frequent and bonded more with my family. Now I've decided I wouldn't give up for as long as my sisters were alive.

You must have shitty coworkers man. If I told my dudes this they'd be so positive. Except for one ginger faggot I always fight with bc he's a piece of shit.

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>mfw when

damn

I believe your cousin has it a lot better off than us right now. Maybe take some comfort in that? Or if an afterlife bullshit in your mind?

What kind of shit hole do you work at

there we go

>hot fiance
Stopped reading there

How did he die?

felt suicidal after getting dumped

I'd never do it though, my mom dad and older bro are too kind to suffer like that

Shit. I'm sorry to hear that OP, my cousin was killed in a car accident mid January. You should let his parents know you're there to help with anything if they need it, as much as I fucking miss him it's the worst for a parent to lose their child.

Fuck the hot fiancé.

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Is this a get thread?

Winrar

>He was hot into steroids
>He was a muscly type guy who was v masculine
>He also liked coke
>Took them together like a retard
>Tore his whole house apart during a crazy freak out
>Tore holes in the wall, pulled cabinets down ect
>Had a severe seizure, then died of cardiac arrest
>His seizure was so severe h bit off his fucking tongue
>It was found not far from his body
>Fiance found him after he didnt return her calls, police thought it was a crime scene bc she kicked in the door
>Im sad, this is sad.

>steroids
>coke
>fuck it do em at the same time

sorry OP, but that's natural selection at it's finest.

kek

He's in a better place, OP
The best thing you can do is always remember all the good memories you have of him

He was a nice guy, really friendly and social and very fucking funny but I cant disagree with you

he looks like he was bro tier. sorry m9

Hey, here. He sounded like a pretty likable guy. Wanna share some memories you have with him?

>Workmates tease me after

You should probably kill them all. If they're not going to cry at your funeral, you'll get their tears another way.

Nice guy with drug induced psychotic breakdowns

fuck this pussy ass ni66a

dude lived life to the fullest

I'm probably gonna do the same

do shitloads of tren and coke

steroids had nothing to do with it OP, the stimulants did it

how does that preclude him from being nice. Fuck off mate, trying to assassinate (lol) his character when he's already dead

you morons don't know shit. Roids are safe, stimulants on the other hand....

I'd assassinate that chick's pussy

>workmates tease me after
Did they know you just went to a funeral?

If they're just assholes, get a different job.

He was bro as hell, besides his fiance and grandmother, the only people who spoke at the eulogy were bro-type guys and they all cried openly about his passing. They all loved him, he was the backbone of their friendship, like he was the supportive normie fag holding a group of guys together

They didn't tease me for being upset per say, just for crying
I work in retail and some chastised me for crying in front of customers and joked i couldnt keep it together and some tried to relate, it wasn't entirely malicious.
I cried, my supervisor gave me a hug and she sent me upstairs to calm down lol

>Knowing what a cocaine high is like
>Knowing what steroids can do to your psychology
>Knowing its a harmful mix
>Knowing its a dangerous mix that createsa aggression and violence
Okay

Roids =/= a coke / meth induced rage. Roid rage is a thing but is very different and not common with modern stuff. Second using an AI is very common for any habitual user (no gyno) so you don't get the mood swings common with older forms.

So yeah, roids are safe.

When cutting people will use stimulants, those aren't roids but they are dangerous. So it is almost like I know exactly what the fuck I am talking about

But what is your strat for banging his fiance?

>be 15
>suicidal for a long time before that (I place it at 12, but that's just 100% when I can say it existed, likely before)
>consumes my thoughts all day, everyday
>finally decide to attempt
>didn't have a gun, most other ways were likely to just have me end up in hospital, etc. so I settle on hanging
>attempt, but didn't know tree I chose was dying... strong looking branch couldn't take my scrawny frame
>successfully hide evidence, parents know nothing
>confide in friend
>she's a psycho, never suicidal but claimed to be while doing nothing but cutting her wrists for attention
>gets called out by school counselor
>rolls over on me to protect her ass
>parents get a call
>confronted, just bullshit and say it was spur of the moment and I'm past it
>they do nothing about it and just move on
>likely my siblings still don't know 10 years later

I would say they literally did nothing, but they did. They had me STOP going to a psychologist I had to start seeing once a month back then when I had run away for a few hours (after my mother repeatedly berated me, asking me to run away).

Wish I could related to OP

Sounds like excited delirium. I just learned about it in my EMT course. A very similar thing happened to the cousin of a guy I know at a gym. He was completely immune to non lethal force from what I heard. For years I thought he was gunned down until some first responders brought it up in class. He had a seizure and died, just like your cousin.
Apparently (but not always) death may be avoided if the patient is not restrained. If he was restrained, your family could make some good money from a lawsuit, not that you would be moral in doing so.

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what if the ginger faggot wasn't a faggot at all, he was just in pain?

Oh, and they usually strip down naked due to overheating. Was he found naked?

you have to take out their knees, most cops aren't trained for that type of thing. My instructor was the force's specialist with PCP cases

you literally feel like if you stop moving you will die..cause you will.

sorry to hear this user. He is watching over you now.

What do you mean by "take out their knees"? Knees are some of the most important, complicated and difficult joints in the body to repair.