How do I gain the determination required to kill myself?

How do I gain the determination required to kill myself?

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Don't feel anything op

I actually do
I feel dead in the inside and I don't care about anything.

Im never sad,lonely, can't cry, depressed, stressed,
But I love being happy when its worth it. Makes my life worth living

I used to feel nothing, now I just feel pain. I've stopped caring about what happens to me, went from a clever and well behaved person to depressed with worse grades and verging on drug addicted.

you dont. Find something you are good at, or like. and commit your life to it. you will find success

I love computers but even that hasn't made me happy recently. I'm under the supervision of 3 health care professionals which is set to go up, and I'm still not getting better. I'm not sure if there's much hope for me.

Keep on going. Takes more balls to keep going.

Weed man

I couldn't care less whether or not people think I had "balls" adter I die

I use weed, feel kinda guilty about it though after meeting this really cute girl whose Mum is a heroin addict and suggested I stay away from that stuff.

Don't be a pussy. Pleb.

But I wanna be a pussy

This for problems with depression
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This for problems with living
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My mother killed herself, really selfish, leaving me alone (father was also not there for me), and giving me a lifetime trauma. Don't do it, think for the others, too. The easiest way is to kill yourself...

Thank you user

My Mother and a few close friends is the only thing holding me back at this point, I'm not sure if I could actually do it with knowledge of the impacts it will have on them but fuck it is tempting

just climb into a woodchipper

It is not easy

Eventually the pain of life will outweigh the fear of death. It won't seem hard then.

Wow, that image was painfully accurate. I spend most of my life just wishing I was someone else. Largely, this thread was inspired by the extreme jealousy I felt of someone. I so badly want to be them.

Don't do that. Be yourself. You are wasting yourself by wishing or trying to be someone else.

This might sound dumb but it's not much of a choice, I have a disorder that makes me really, really despise the way I was born. It's not very fun, I want to kill myself every day because of how much I hate my body and the way people naturally perceive me.

Ohh I see. Shity case. You should learn to not give a fuck. And maybe some philosophy or something, there are a lot of people who can even move but found reasons to live, science, other, religion etc. So maybe you will too.

Explain?

I hope so because I'm rapidly running out of reasons to live at the moment.

Was kinda hoping no one would make a note of the fact that I was quite vague. It's called gender identity disorder, and it basically means I really don't like being a male. A few days ago I spent a bit too much time with a girl who ia basically a perfect representation of everything I wish I was and it made me very, very jealous.

>inb4 OP is a faggot sage!1!

That's not true and you know it.

Ohh that's hard. Fuck. You have to go to doctor. So they can diagnose if you have gender dysphoria or other disorder. Then they will try to help you.

Op is a faggot, now seriously you need to try and find professional help.
>Inb4 is hard and I'm afraid
I know is hard bc I have depression and anxiety too and I never went to the doctor bc I get too anxious, but you have to try my man

embrace me my sweet body

I'm currently under the supervision of 3 health care professionals, I plan to see a specialist in the field of gender to get blood tests and draw out the possibility of a misdiagnosis.

ALOT of drugs. Hell you get lucky the drugsll do it for you

I was pretty much forced to get help after the police came into my house to find me nearly dead from alcohol poisoning, my Mum was not vey pleased to say the least. It's not enough though, I still feel awful and now I've started hallucinating as well.

I'm sorry, I think you know it, but only doctors can help you. They will try to help you with your psych or if there's no other way you will need to get through gender transition. I hope you won't have to do it, it will be very hard but you will feel right at the end. Like you should from the beginning.

Yeah, it's really, really shit. I can very easily spot a transsexual person in a crowd, I don't think I will ever be happy with the way I look. Sometimes it feels like the only good choice is death. Whether you transition or not, people tend to still feel similar feelings, the suicide rate is still ridiculously high, I'm scared, and I don't know what to do.

It's high because your brain is in wrong body, and society doesn't help. And if we are talking about look then it depends. I don't follow a lot of trans people, but check Blaire White on YouTube. She was a man and she still hasn't finished her transition.

It's because transitioning is a dangerous fad for a mental illness. Get help and support for it instead of being convinced that it's fine by "progressive" hacks

I dunno man, I know this shit probably sounds kind of pathetic but it's honestly extremely hard to live with. Blaire was lucky, she started young enough that she was never very strongly affected by testosterone, I'm not as lucky. I want to cut my Adam's Apple out every day, even things like the way people sit and walk are decided by your biological sex and can never really be changed. It hurts.

I am getting help, I'm also doing quite a lot of research, in my country there are quite a few barriers in the way of transitioning so it's actually somewhat difficult to fuck it up too badly

I don't think it's pathetic. Sadly you are right and time is a huge factor here. If you know you are a woman, manners should be so hard to fix when you will get better. Try to find other people like you. It's hard because LGBT community is fucking cancer mostly now. But seek for individuals, when you will know how they got through that maybe it will help you.

*shouldnt be

It's 6:30AM, so I'm going to go to sleep for the night, thank you to every one who participated in this thread, special thanks to I know a few people who have gone through similar things and survived, I'll probably try to get in contact with them in the next few days. Thank you.

I hope you will get better. Have a good rest.