Hate my job

>hate my job
>every other job sounds like shit too so what's the point of looking
>not sure if working or free days at home are worse
>can't stand family and never get a moment of peace
>everything I usually enjoy doing has become pure shit and only depresses me even more
>basically spend days thinking about how everything sucks and feel strong urge to hurt myself
>have always been a shit human being in the first place, some days it's more noticeable than others
>have no friends
>haven't had a relationship in 10 years
>haven't had sex in 5 years because of trust issues and disgust


Should I just kill myself, Sup Forums? It's obvious my life is wasted on me.

If you are dead, you cant enjoy Games or food anymore, or glorious orgasms during fapping or sex.

Those 3 things are preventing me from suicide.
Maybe they help you too!

I don't enjoy any of those things at the moment or really don't care much about them.

just dont fall for alcohol

Then kys.

You dont want help or advise, you want attention but you would never do it bcs youre a coward.

So deliver or fuck off

>No trip to the Slave Camp on Mars for you then...

Who the fuck would look for advice or help on Sup Forums. Of course I'm a coward or I'd have done it ages ago. What I need is a bit of convincing and a painless method I guess.

>hate my job
>every other job sounds like shit too so what's the point of looking

Is it the job or the people that you hate? Probably the people. What line of work are you in? Could you find something that might be more altruistic for less pay?

>can't stand family and never get a moment of peace

Any hopes of moving out user? Or is it financially not possible?

>have always been a shit human being

The jury in your head got out of bed an hour before you did and started making a list on what a shit you are. I know how that is.

>haven't had a relationship in 10 years
>haven't had sex in 5 years

Could you investigate using an escort, to at least work through some of the longing for human interaction/connection? Not like a straight up streetwalker. Some escorts can actually be very chill and help with some of that.

Kys nig nog

Just think of the 72 waifus awaiting you in Allah's heaven, user.

I'm in a similar situation OP and I'm trying my hardest to get out.

Only thing I can reccomend is try to fit in some excersise every day. I'm not telling you to punch protein and bulk or anything, just stretches and a good walk. It really helps clear your mind.

Try and find a course in anything that will get you out of the house and focused.

Cooking is my way of breaking the vicious thought cycle and focusing on preparing something you're proud of. Practice knife skills and techniques, like instead of grating a carrot chop it into a fine dice, or instead of using a garlic crusher mince it and scrape it repeatedly against the chopping board with some salt to make garlic paste. It makes you focus and the final product is its own reward. This was the only way I was able to feel a sense of accomplishment and made me feel good that I had worked to make something enjoyable.

Just keep busy and focus on whatever ways you can improve your self going forward, Hopefully you'll get there in the end.

Listen.

Get into modern board games. Find a group nearby on meetup or something. It might seem like a childish hobby, but it will change your life and make you happier.

Board game people are really nice and accepting, and there are so many games, you'll find something you enjoy. The social interaction is a huge plus too.

Just try it before you kill yourself. It might change your mind.

Good advice user.
>a good walk. It really helps clear your mind

It really does. The person who developed EMDR based it on what they found when hiking through the woods.

Just find one thing, user. Don't try to do too much at once. Pick one thing and stick with it.

>Is it the job or the people that you hate? Probably the people. What line of work are you in? Could you find something that might be more altruistic for less pay?

I am actually doing a masters degree in psychology (yes, ironic, I know) and working part time in a store. Every psychology related job offer I've seen doesn't interest me at all and the job I'm doing now is bad mostly because I hate the customers.

>Any hopes of moving out user? Or is it financially not possible?

Sadly, it's not possible because despite working past time, it's not nearly enough to live on my own.

>Could you investigate using an escort, to at least work through some of the longing for human interaction/connection? Not like a straight up streetwalker. Some escorts can actually be very chill and help with some of that.

I have thought about this before, but I think I wouldn't have the courage to actually do it.

Thank you for your friendly reply and taking time to write to me, user.

I also dont have the courage to see an escort (evel though its legal in my country)

Ever thought of an entry level happy ending massage?

Find a job somewhere somehow where you work with your hands. I've found that people who are able to do this are the happiest idiots around. Mechanics, artists, musicians, or any grunt that allows you to use mind and body, not just one or the other.

Play star wars knights of the old republic or any Bethesda game if that does not work for a last resort play vanilla world of Warcraft

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Thank you for the actually decent advice, user. I remember years ago when I was falling deeper and deeper into depression, the thing that helped me get out of it, was getting into literature. I read a lot of books, mostly horror/thriller or true crime. It really did help at the time, but doesn't anymore now. I might think about the taking a walk daily though. I hope you will feel better soon.

>masters degree in psychology
My spouse works at a large american university on the east coast, has a BS in Psych. Works under the education umbrella and does accounting in grants for a living. It is what it is. Not sure how strictly tied you have to be to your degree, it matters as much just to have it here in the states.

Maybe you could rent a room? There are arrangements (after some vetting) that are just that-rooms in a house, where a person cannot afford it on their own and look for a trustworthy renter. You don't have to be a person's friend, and actually it is preferential in that circumstance as friends can tend to take advantage of each other.

I've seen a few escorts when my first marriage was going in the toilet. It helped me from going crazy and doing something far more stupid (like getting tied into some sort of affair with emotions in it and being less logical in my divorce).

>Thank you for your friendly reply and taking time to write to me, user.

You are welcome, user. I'm here hanging out at work if you want to keep chatting.

Thanks

If you're into reading I'd reccomend getting Audible or something and listen to books while walking

start an evil hobby, like killing neighborhood animals or spying on people or something. it'll make shit more interesting at least

You're dealing with severe depression, homie.

You need to talk to someone about getting some medication to get balanced out again.

Podcasts, too.

>don't like the things I like? kill yourself

Sure, but give me all your money and stuff first.

I too have great difficulty to appreciate everyday life. I think it's important to remember that the evaluation of your personal experience of reality is, one, deepIy subjective and, two, mouldable. If you lack a natural ability to feel happiness, being effective and happy comes down to developing a solid toolkit to retrain or steer your mind.

Everything where I have to go out and interact with other people on a regular basis is bound to fail when it comes to me, sadly. Thanks for the advice though, it might be interesting to look into it once.

I wouldn't know where to look for something like this where I live, but simply the thought of anything sexual with other people makes me anxious.

I just wanted to say thanks to everybody who wrote to me, giving me actual advice or simply being nice to me. I made this thread on Sup Forums today with the expectation of people insulting me and telling me to kill myself, so I'd actually get even more motivated to do it, but the fact that many people actually took their time to give me such nice replies and advice kinda wrecked me even more (in a good way). Thanks again and I hope you all have a very nice weekend and to the ones of you, who also feel bad: I hope things will start looking up for you.