Feels thread my Sup Forumsros

Feels thread my Sup Forumsros.

Post your stories, post your songs.

So tell me, what makes you hurt user...

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>OP here
Im willing to share my story and my songs if anyone is inerested, Help a Sup Forumsro, and ill help a Sup Forumsro...

hows your day user?

bump.

Sad to say, dependant upon some deep songs, what about you user...?

Sounding
The practice of inserting plastic or metal 'sounds' (long thin and very smooth objects) into yours or someone elses uretha. Ultimately leads to streching of the uretha so that larger objects (such as a finger) can be inserted in the penis.
Bob had sounded himself so much his girlfriend could shove a tampax IN his cock.

urbandictionary.com/define.php?term=Sounding

songs like this?
youtube.com/watch?v=1OW9K84EbU4

and im feeling regular today, wake up and hop on the computer, nothing really interesting.

of course lil peep, hes helped alot more than id like to say. Star shopping, your favorite dress, etc etc. all sad but comfort music.

this right here

yeah i always fall back in this album,
youtu.be/4OMda91q20c?t=199
or that song specifically
ive listened to it for the past couple years its been out, got any suggestions? also hope life brightens up soon my friend.

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youtube.com/watch?v=_lMlsPQJs6U

youtube.com/watch?v=0pdfn4KmPk4

One of my favorite thinking songs and one of my favorite guitar heavy songs that always seems to lighten the mood.

Everything in my life is spiraling apart and I can see myself swinging towards Nazism by the whims of arrogant pullbacks.
My mind is not my own and life appears calculated to extents that are completely beyond my control, even now with me saying this I am stretched back forward into spineless anxiety.
I'm going to die tonight, I need to get to a gas station now before it closed.
I know people can hear me, and I know they will try to prepare and call the police to have me send to prison
I know Hell exists, and because I know it materializes more until I'm completely trapped
Instead, I'm going to rely on blind faith that I will be cast into nonexistence rather than constantly raped in a fiery pit of death
Nobody is trying to help me, they are trying to control me, and now that I see more I can do nothing to stop this fluttery cuck shit

emo fag

damn, listening to the first song, really nice,
the second one is pretty good too

Hey OP, love ya bro. Whatever is going on, I hope you'll see the rainbow in the gloomy skies.

We're here for you. Always have been. Always will Sup Forums.
>ba dum tss
>ps have this calming wallpaper

Up yours man, can't see the good in the world without everything complicated and everyone's giddy to watch me squeal because I'm a sad, weak fucking human being
They even knew to leave the gun compartment unlocked just to taunt me
There's no end to this shit

Thank you user, i hope the waters clear up soon. Appreciate the wallpaper too.

anyone got any storys its really nice reading them and imagining myself in the posters position and what i would do.

>OP here
SO mine is kind of lengthy and somber if that makes it better, should i post???

>be me
>be 15
>mom has day of of work
>wake up to a delicious breakfast
>go to school
>surprisingly have a good time
>come home
>forgot key this morning
>knock on door
>no answer
>call mom's phone
>no answer
>try to look through windows
>no luck
>time to ninja my way in
>climb through window
>find mom not responding laying in bed
>call 911
>they take there sweat ass time
>try everything to save her
>paramedics arrive on foot
>wtf.png
>ambulance broke down a block away from my house
>second ambulance arrives a few minutes later
>they need to air lift her
>helicopter "broke down"
>fucking bullshit.gif
>she was confirmed dead on the way to the hospital
She was my best friend, my mom.

Hey Sup Forums, how is everybody? I personally am doing shitty as usual, but I want to hear, what is plaguing the rest of you?

i dont mind ill read it anyways

unlucky

yup, it sucks.

fug

Most of this stems from my father and the issues he caused my family. So, im not greentexting because im lazy as fuck and it takes away from the story....

My dad, when we were growing up, abused heroin and stole my moms prescription pills, oxy, things like that. She has fibromialgia, diabetes and all sorts of shit wrong with her. When i grew up, she would sell her pills for cash, 24 bucks a pop. She got money for bills and some extra if we wanted. My dad stole money and ended up beating all three of us, me, my mom, and my brother. I ended up trying to kill myself and was diagonesed with clinical depression. This was about age 14, maybe 13, its fuzzy, sorry user. Things were bad, very very bad. I cried nightly, was teary eyes and depressed 90 percent of the time. Some deeper shit went along with it...

>Im continuing but let me post this pic from my phone, it adds to detail.

10/10 cute

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During the school year I texted a friend back home (I was living out of state at the time and had a crush on her all throughout high school) and she talked about how much she misses me and she would tell me that she loved me. We talked about dating when I get home. Fast forward to now, I have been home a few weeks and I have asked her on three dates. The first two she said no because she was busy but then she finally let the truth slip. "Dont be mad at me," she said, "but I can't go on a date with you because Im already talking to another guy right now and thats not fair to him."

I spent the last few moths talking to her. Only to have my heart crushed.

I don't really care what happens to me now. I dont sleep much anymore. I havent showered in 3 days. Its not that I dont know I will get zits if I dont wash my face, but I dont care anymore. Its not that I dont care if my hair is greasy, but I have no motivation to shower. Its not that I dont care about myself. Im just so tired of making an effort to accomplish anything. Im so tired user. I am so tired of living

Sonder is a made up word by a guy trying to sell a book of other made up words.

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So, around the age of 15 or 16, i met this girl, lets call her malerie.

>Pic related.

Shew beautiful, isnt she. She brightens my life up a bit, bit by bit....About the age of 15, she and i had been friends for a couple years, but i always had a lowkey crush...now its a passion. When she didnt know about my feels, she had dated my friend connor, to which she ended up being with for about 2 months. Yeah yeah, big deal i can deal with it. (Hardcore lied, i ended up carving my skin with hearts and shit...) So they break up, and she goes with my friend caleb, and he dates her for 3 months. (Growing my pile of suicide notes, i pussed out too much to die on my own terms...) They break up, and i decide ill tell her how i feel. Fuck it. What could go wrong...Shes dating adam. ANOTHER one of my friends. Yippee, kms. So, about a month into their relationship, i end up telling her how i feel, fuck it....im gonna die anyway so might as well. "Why didnt you say anything sooner user?" 'I didnt want to disturb you....'
A month passes, no talking. "I choose adam..."
Write myself a note, block her on insta, and plan to hang myself within the week.

Been in this situation before my friend.
You will get over it, Girls do this shit for attention.
Once you figure out the attention game you will be fine.
Fuck and forget

shit man i know you probably hear this a lot, but there are plenty of fish in the sea, im sure she was gorgeous. but there are plenty more woman in the world, one day one will come along when youre not even trying, untill then dont try, just be, live.

/b me....
18 graduated high school.
Beta.
Move out of small town to big city with sis.
Love making music but family doesn't support it
Told to get a real job and get out on my own
Sit in my room and watch YouTube all day and night.
Squander in the back of my mind how I've done nothing with my whole life so far but watch YouTube all day and shitpost.
Want something better.
Go back to watching YouTube and looking at Sup Forums...

anons, please don't kill yourself because of a woman. despite the fact that they're attention-hungry shameless and stupid, the guilt and remorse your friends and family will feel over your death will outmatch anything you could possibly imagine.

I guess I just got excited thinking that someone might finally want to be with me and love me and spend time with me and laugh with me and cry with me and go on dates with me and just be there with me. I guess not. I feel so misunderstood. I want someone to know me and love me for who I am.

>when i was 18 i wanted to go to local uni and live on campus
>still live at home because parent's wanted me to go to college here
>wouldn't fill out forms for me to go anywhere else (dad's insistence)
>I had moved out for a few months out of frustration, convinced me to move back home and they'd "pay for my college"
>they only partially do that
>fast forward to today
>they get drunk and argue every night
>many times it's violent and i have to step in
>when sober or drunk get told "when i was your age i had already moved out and had a full time job"
>my parents are thousands of dollars in debt because of this because my dad used student loans to pay for other things while taking classes
>was also supported financially by grandparents multiple times
>none of that matters, and he pretends like that isn't the truth
>makes min. payments so they can buy booze and weed instead
>have no money saved whatsoever for me or other siblings
>tell me how i'm wasting my time with my two jobs, and should cut back on college and get a full time job and move out
>neither make any interest to get to know me or siblings
>just make brazen assumptions, calling me a "millennial, libtard, useless, worthless, etc.
>dad tells me i'm essentially his free labor, doesnt care about me/what i think/feel
>try to talk about how i feel in the slightest
>get insulted and told to grow up and stop acting like a child

I don't know what I've done to be treated like this, and I gave up a REALLY great living situation to come back home because i thought things would get better, only to be treated like garbage.

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I killed my emotional attachment to anything in order to survive depression.
>ran laps every night talking out my problems to myself. General "fuck the world , I don't need anyone to survive this shit."
>10 years
I'm over the depression part. Generally in a great spot in life. In college , have 4K in the bank. Just moved to a new city.
Now I'm not lonely but I am alone as I have a serious demeanor now and it's hard tout on my fun face because this is all I know.
>I'm a great guy ,handsome, love the world , hopeless romantic , funny.
I just want someone so I can bring that out of myself and enjoy with them but that's not happening.
>II looked at my face drunk last night and I seen it. Seen what everyone sees. Even at my most fun I look serious as fuck.
People call me bossman, big dog, sir, and people on the street don't lock on to my eyes.
Fuck Sup Forums I'm alive inside but dead outside.

I fucking hate myself. I am never good enough for myself or anyone. I'm useless to everyone around me. no matter how hard I try I always fail and fail and fail. I'm just sick of having to be me

THIS!
My Best friend last year broke up with his Girlfriend, he pretended to be okay and tried to patch things up with her. After a heavy argument one night she told him to "kill himself".
I received a phone call later that night from his mother that he had hanged himself.
Me, his family and friends have never been the same ever since.

kill him
make him suffer

You will get this one day man, just try to be the best person you can be. Woman come and go.
Yes it hurts now but it will change. In a few weeks time you will laugh about it

I try hanging myself, fail, and go back to school. Yay. She dates adam for about 5 months, now we 16. litt. i wanted to die all summer, then band season comes up (yes, OP is a marching fag), so i see her daily. I speak with caleb here and there, and find out she worries about me, i smile a bit...she cares. Now i move along with my life here and there. She breaks up with adam and now we begin talking again, her knowing how i feel. Great. Keep in mind, OP is fucking depressed as shit all this time, due to pappa issues. So, me and malerie begin to talk again more and more. Intimacy begins to grow.... "user im dating caleb.." This fucker got my hopes up for nothing and now im going to fuck him up....yay.

Months pass and they break up, and now i find out she likes my new found bestfriend camron, a saxophonist, like OP, and its all fucked. Now i dont talk to caleb and shit and its ugh.
She and i still talk here and there. Months pass, now 17, find out caleb and malerie are dating under wraps, and he ends up giving her a hickie, fuck my life. He tells me himself, and now i go out to try an fuck myself up at night. They break up AGAIN, and now shes over here, telling me she wants to date me. Im hurt, scared, bruised, and worried. I dont know what to do, becuase the family does now approve about me being a non mormon, and she is really into the religion. Now what can i do, turned 18 about a month ago, and now im stuck on about 3 years on this girl. fucking myself over and ruining my body.

Im a mess now, my snapchat stories are depressing, my insta is full of depressing shit, and now all i think about is her....im destroying myself but i wont give up on her...

shes jumping around to guy to guy so much, shes not really stable i dont think she knows what she wants, i dont know what love means but thats definitely not it and i doubt malerie knows that.
im not going to say shes not pretty but like i told
there are plenty of woman, im sure there are more with a better personality then her, looks, etc. and killing yourself over it means you wont be able to realize that

Fuck Nigger I'd you're going to write a book at least fucking write it well.
Fucking summer fags.

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thanks for that asshole, needed that after diving headfirst into my fucking feels.

I feel like a failure. I haven't done anything that I'm truly proud of. My dad tells me he is proud of me, but I feel like he is just saying that to make me feel better. I have shit grades in school, no job, only have 1 friend, spend most of my time in my room because I'm a depressed piece of shit. I feel like I let everyone down. I was once a smart boy, but after I lost my mom, I just gave up, and I feel like I can't get my life together. I've accepted the idea of death and stuff. I just feel like noone gives a fuck about anything I do. I want people to be proud of me, I want to be proud of me, but I can't do it

Same.

Sounds like the kind of girl you don't want to be going after. I'm sorry this has happened to you, user. Very similar experience happened to me, but her name was Sydney. God damn, Sydney. She was the first girl I ever fell in love with, but I'm not here to tell any of my stories, haha. I'm here to tell you that everything is gonna be okay if you just keep your head high and push through the pain. You have to put yourself in front of her, prioritize yourself in your life. Find out what you can do to make yourself happy, and do it. No one can stop you or judge you for doing whatever you need to do to make yourself happy. Best of luck, user.

The names Justin, hope you get over here soon.

Lighten the fucking mood here

Dang

Tell her you don't mind if she hangs around but that you're not sure you feel that way about her.

Its been a year since you left me.
And nothing has really gotten better.
And I have fucking tried my damnedest to just move on and make life better for myself.
>Moved(i had to because we were living together and I didn't want to stay there after breaking up because that would be too depressing even if she left because that place was "our home" that we picked together
>dated other women
>bought a "new car"
>found a better job
>make more money then I ever had
And after all that the only thing that has changed is that I feel even more hollow and empty then ever.
Something just broke inside of me that day, and I think it was a lot more then just my heart(I can handle heartbreak no problem yea it sucks but it goes away with time).
I just feel different, not myself. and I've never felt like this before.
I'm cynical, full of sadness, full of hatred, doubt, and disbelief.
I don't want to feel like this anymore. I'm trying not to anymore I really am, but Im just so used to everything being shit.

oh fuck...

All these sad stories...
>Fap to porn ad with feels

>be me
>playing vidya and stuff
>gotta get dem achievements
>some friend of mine invites a friend of his to our lobby
>lol k
>turns out she's a girl
>turns out she's pretty damn good on LFD2
>interest.jpg
>add her on steam and play some more campaigns
>pretty much doing it to play with her
>just some weeks ago i asked my friend where;s she from
>she goes to the same university as me
>ohshit.avi
>turns out she is from the same class as me
>she is that girl who sits in the back of the class reading fanfic
>7/10, no tits whatsoever
>tfw im known in my classroom for doing really stupid things
>tfw im pretty sure i like her
>tfw too beta to ask her out

Have to wonder just how many people out there have reached this point.

Does anyone wanna post the Allie and dad-user story or the Elisa story for dem feels?

from my experience it hurts 10x more to never ask the girl out and just be friends for a while, then she slowly fades away.
If you ask her out and you get denied then it hurts and is awkward for a bit, but you'll at least know that she wasn't into you. If you don't ask her out, the "what if" will haunt you forever.

My light is broken, and I'm close to not working. I want to give up, but I don't have the balls to kill myself

youtube.com/watch?v=tIdIqbv7SPo

Faggot did you even read my post. Fuck you.

First time I read this, I thought it implied footballbro's friends attacked pretty boy as a ruse so football could be the hero. It's only now that I realized that it was a different set of goons beating up pretty boy and footballbro's friends *helped* him rescue pretty boy.

What makes me hurt?

Knowing that I signed myself up to basically live this song. Married a girl with a disease that will take her from my arms by the age 60 AT MOST, likely sooner. Wake up to give her the sweetest kiss every morning knowing that one day, she won't be there. It'll be a pillow with her imprint.

But, such is life.

youtu.be/0UMYPS1JqWk

>listen too this man.
Get your balls up and ask her out.
Advice I can give is just be non chalant about it.
Don't throw yourself at her don't wanna seem what you kids call "thirsty".

omocat is trash tho

Pretty much the same. Only thing keeping me around is the fact that suicide would put me in a bunch of statistics used to push shit I detest.

Unbunch the panties buttercup.

Will do man, its just all those fucking stupid things i did giving me the cringe everytime i think about asking her out

Of course i didn't plan on going to her and just throw myself head-first onto a tupid thing, even if that is the answer to this, im too beta to pull that off

You people think you know pain?

I married a pretty woman. Things were good. Then she went to college and got into parties. Turned into a narcissistic bitch and a druggy slut. After she cheated on me for the third time, I divorced her...

She kept the house I paid for, kept the car I bought, and she got full custody of my son and daughter.

She regularly drank while caring for my daughter, did drugs in front of my kids, but they refused to give me custody.

My ex brings home a fucking ex army faggot who rapes my daughter and beats my son for 5 FUCKING YEARS, ruining the lives of the only people I still love and feel anything for, and not only does he get only 18 months in jail, I still don't get custody, and I still can't see my daughter.

I'll never see her again. My son is 11 now so he has snapchat, he got caught sending me messages so he got his phone taken away.

Fuck everything about this gay earth. I'll probably never be able to talk to my son again.

Do it faggot.

So.

You already have an in. If you don't know, that's HUGE.

After class SOON. Like, this week soon. Ask what she's got going on this weekend

Answer 1 "Oh nothing, I'm going to study for a bit and might see a friend but nothing solid."

You say "Wanna change that? :)" We could get some food and see this cool museum/park/whatever her geeky ass may enjoy.

She will likely say sure user-kun. And then you exchange numbers.

Answer 2: "Yeah, I've got a lot going on! Chad is having a bash and all my friends are going. We are baking weed brownies and making jello shots. I'm getting trashed blah blah blah.

You say "sounds fucking rad. Hit me up if anything changes, I'd like to take you out if you are interested." Then you exchange numbers.

Real easy. You put the ball in her court and you leave it there. Don't hound her with stupid texts and emojis. Don't be needy. Be smooth.

I'm 28 now, was needy as fuck and scared away some of the best possible partners when I was young and fucking stupid.

And if she says no. Oh well. Delete her from steam and let her weeb ass read fanfics in the back of class and flunk out of college. Lol dumb hoe.

The piano man.A song that perfectly fits feels threads

>no homo

Anyone else still regret letting her get away?

I still haven't found the girl

You're the real MVP user
I hope you find that one partner, if you haven't already
Im 19 right now, im not the emoji spammer guy, but i do have the habit of fucking things up with some cringy responses, gotta change that

Soemtimes a bestfriend is better then a GF

>It's not about the weight loss
>it's not just about seeing *her* at the grocery store
>it's not just about moving back to Korea for good
>it's not just about being back in college stateside
>and it's not just about having 'friends and family' at least pretend they care if I'm still alive or not
>I just...want to be happy again.

So...
Feels thread, alwayd thought on saying something on one of those, so here we go
I have lots of friends, and I do believe those are some real friendship, but still, deep inside me I always feel that feelig of emptyness... Is it normal? I try to think it is, but I think I never felt true happiness in my whole life...

Hey man this faggot replying
I feel ya, i got good friends, and just recently started to trust them to help me on this and teeling them my stuff
But a lot of time during school i was pretty much lurking here and not really talking with anyone
Y'know, the your tipycal kid who want nothing to do with girls and doesn't have friends to go out or into parties
Even know i don't go to parties
But, just try talking stuff with your friends, stupid shit first, serious later, and you put them on a test
That worked for me

>be me
>have gf
>fell in love with other girl
>girl fell in love with me 2
>no courage to dump gf
>me wants to be with other girl
>don't know what to do
>such a pussy
>feel like the worst human being

Thanks for the reply... Seriouslly
But you know, I am a lier, I lie to myself, my family and my friends include, and here is where I think is the only place I can say the truth
I mean... I cant talk openly with my friends, I just cant and I can with random anons? That's... Bizarre to say the least...

I feel ya
>Meet this girl
>Not really nice body but 8/10 face
>1 Year younger than me
>Start dating
>after 2 months dont really feel it anymore
>Break up with her, tell her some bullshit i don't have time for a relationship
>Backtovideogames.avi
>fast forward 3 months later
>she talks with me, tells me we should start dating again
>ohshityoustilllikeme?.jpg
>k dont have anything better to do
>literally 2 weeks later start liking other girl
>Break up with her again, tell her some bulsshit i dont have my feelings correctly
>realize what a human-shit i am
>don't even want to pursue the other girl
feels bad man

Hey np, i always got help here, why not give it?
Now, about lies, i lie all the time, i dont think i have any trauma or something, just im a piece of shit, i lie to my friends or exagerate things to make myself look good
All
The
Fucking
Time

But what seems to help is sometimes telling the truth and seeing 1 nobody gives a shit, or 2 they actually give feedback
And that feels good, and helps
an example of my fuck ups its this Yup, thats me again

This song is about a UK police officer who was shot on duty, resulting in his permanent complete blindness. He was hailed as a hero for surviving, but the sheer change in lifestyle due to losing his sight made him commit suicide two years after the incident. The song itself sounds beautiful (the rest of their music is great; check them out: Everything Everything), but the lyrics get really sad and always gets me into a feels mood. Hope you like the song.

youtube.com/watch?v=bzuORiOUQ7U

I have a GF and I love her, but I've lost so many things over the last few years I really hate myself right now. I hate everything I am, my horrible body, my awful self.
I spend the nights on Omegle, trying to get someone to show me something so I can show my dick back, as it is one of the only ways I can feel a little better about myself. It's not working and I'm feeling like shit again and again. It only stops when I'm with her, but once she's gone, I'm back to the self hatred. I have Omegle opened in other window, and came here only to look for a place to take this out of my heart. I only want to crash my face against something.

(Not that guy) Thank you user. That was some genuinely good advice. You put it so clearly my autistic ass could understand it. I will definitely try to make use of this in the future and I will thank you if it does!

Oi man
You have a GF?
why dont you message her right now and you both watch a series?
She can watch it on her house and you on your place, takes some time, and then boom, you got something to talk with her about
Its better than being in omegle

Yeah... It helps.
I need to find the less painful way to break up with my gf.

Because even if I don't go with the other girl, the fact that I want to be with her (the other) makes me realize that maybe I'm not in love with my gf.

Thanks.

yeah, she's not really in town rn

>19 meet a girl that makes me feel
>immediately in relationship, never a minute apart
>fuck like rabbits, probably both nymphomaniacs
>two years together, she constantly tells me I'm the love of her life, can't live without me
>break for 6 months
>get back together, she's got new job and her own place
>move in with her, act like nothing happened
>new neighbours want to fuck her both forever alone virgins always there to tell her what an ass hole I am
>new job has dudes flirting with her, she loves it, loves telling me bout it
>doesn't feel the same, I still love her but the connection we had seems to be gone
>insomnia, paranoia, arguments
>when I could sleep, always wake covered in sweat
>often come home from work just to sit in a hot bath and think about slitting my wrists just for the peaceful nap
>she's still treating me sweat when we're not fighting, telling me she loves me but I feel like she's fucking around
>grandma dies
>arguments intensify
>start feeling emotions?
>never felt so sad, constantly depressed, feel vulnerable
>buy a bed for my place delusionally thinking if I buy an expensive as fuck mattress it will fix my insomnia
>she comes round, we fight she bitches about the bed?? tell her to leave if she is unhappy
>she's gone
>opiates, weed, alcohol for months
>realise I'm fucked, abandoned my friends for the relationship and now I'm alone
>kick drugs - worst month (months?) of my life, delusions and feeling suicidal
>get through it but still not sleeping (always had trouble sleeping but now I'm getting a few hours a week)
>sleep deprivation got me feeling like I'm tripping 24/7
>go to docs, he tells me I need antidepressants, tell him not a chance
>convinces me to take sleeping pills, go through several types before he finds ones that can knock me out
>finally sleeping properly and agree to see psychologist if won't take pills
>find out I've been dissociated most my life thanks to all the beatings witnessed and received from drunk dad

What i did this might be an example on what not to do
Be sure to keep in mind my advice, or play vidya, watch anime or something like that, keep yourself occupied
Learn to play guitar or drawing

I hurt over the fact that I don't feel accepted by anyone. I know it might sound stupid to you, but I have never felt unconditional love, my parents left me when I was 6 and since then I have only known people who are interested into what can I do for them/how can they take advantage of me.

I am 22 now, have a job and earn ok enough to spend it on whores, food and booze. I have learned to enjoy my loneliness, but I still feel as if something is missing from time to time.